Happy holidays everyone. So we had a good Yule and Christmas.
I initially tried to beat up on myself because our tree was bought & set up Friday night- 2 days after Yule & the night before Christmas Eve; and also because presents were fewer & much smaller (cheap &/or used/thrift) than I’d hoped. However, Nathan reassured me that it was fine, & that everyone would be happy regardless.
The tree still only has lights on it, but I think Nathan was right. Ian seems ecstatic over his toys, being all small trucks, tractors, monster trucks, & construction equipment. He now has his own set of Blippi type toys, so he can play along as he watches his favorite YouTube educational videos.
Beyond that he spent over 2 hours playing in the box of packing peanuts that was leftover from the grandparents shipment of gifts. It was adorable & he was so happy. Sometimes the best gifts really are free.
Anya almost cried over 2 pair of really cute boots I found at Savers Thrift. She hadn’t thought I knew she liked boots so much & that she wanted more. She was also very pleased that I got her more books from the Warriors series than she asked for.
I’m a firm believer that if a child shows interest in reading anything, you get them access to as much of that as possible. It encourages literacy. So when Anya asked for 4 of the Warriors books, I maximized my dollars by going to Half Price Books and managed to come up with over a dozen, completing 3 of the mini series’ & adding a couple of supplemental books. She was really excited about that. What she doesn’t know is that there will be quizzes later! Ha!
Nathan and I got mostly utilitarian items- socks, undies, & shoes; but Anya got me bath fizzy & Ian grabbed me fuzzy pj bottoms with skulls all over them, which Nathan made sure were the right size. I was amazed & overjoyed that my children picked perfectly.
We mostly spent hours watching Ian playing, taking breaks for eating occasionally. There was some tv time, & lots of holiday music played. With all of my allergies, baked goods were minimal, but I got enough chocolate to make up for it!
All in all: a quiet, small, immediate family only, laid back holiday weekend. It was needed. I even called my mom for the first time in ages.
I heard very briefly from my beau online. He said he’s been having a rough go of it lately, so I then spent some time sending prayers and Reiki to him. I hope the new year brings him many blessings and much clarity. I still don’t know why, but I feel him when he’s thinking of me and my heart yearns to connect with him in person in an intensity I’ve not known since meeting Nathan. I believe this connection will be important in the future, and I’m feeling so strongly that I would say I’m in love. Nathan is totally supportive of me and listens to my worries and provides excellent feedback. Although, he’s really enjoying mocking my giddy teen- like prissy-ness. He thinks my fidgets and worries and mild vanity are adorable.
All I know is that I’m very impatient, but otherwise feeling spectacular about the possibilities that lie with him, and in general feeling much better about myself these days. Though the latter I have to give credit to the therapy regimen, as it’s definitely causing real time improvements.
Except for the fact that we’re still in a construction stall out, I feel like daily life has finally started on an upswing. For that I’m very grateful.
Happy holidays everyone!