Last night I had a dream that woke me about 1:30 with a racing heart and blood pressure spike, wanting Nathan to help or even just hold me.
In the dream the man was operating some kind of machine that was blasting some sort of energy or radiation. He literally was just responsible for keeping it on. It was sitting in a nondescript building and I had just entered from a doorway at the top of a slight ramp.
As I started down the ramp I realized there were dead bodies laying scattered about, as if they’d just dropped dead in the midst of their routine.
I realized I had a white Lab with me just like our deceased Lily dog, and told the dog “come on, let’s get out of here”.
The dog followed me and we skirted the room and excited through a small office where the man was sitting. He was just looking at me. I thought to myself why aren’t you turning it off, or leaving, or both, but I didn’t linger and went to exit the office.
I walked down the hall and tried to find an exit. When I found a door I went through and was right back where I started.
In the dream that sequence seemed to repeat a couple of times with sight variations.
Then finally I was like oh hell, we have to get outta here, let’s just run through it to get to the other side. I did and suddenly as I cleared the machine’s path the man was just standing there starting at me sternly.
I thought, how the hell did you do that, referencing his apparent teleportation, and then woke up.
I was physically shaken by the dream and it took a long time to bring my heart rate and blood pressure back down to normal. I talked to Nathan about the dream for about an hour. We discussed whether it could have been caused by something I ate or changes in my routine including supplements.
In the end we decided that it might be partially from that but there was definitely a message lieing in the dream.
Working theory: I work with God force energy, and perhaps this man does too. I know my abilities utilize the energy to help people already willing and able to cross (die) more gently. Perhaps he didn’t realize the strength of his ability or know how to control it and it started giving green lights to people dieing that maybe weren’t quite ready yet. That would explain why in the dream I was somewhat immune to the energy, but also knew that if I was exposed too much I’d meet the same fate as the dead people.
I don’t know for sure, I’m just guessing, but I do see that the energy in the dream was only bad for me if I got way too much, much more than the average person could take. I really was only freaked out by the fact that I seemed to be stuck in a closed loop, and that the man was able to just appear in front of me. It was also somewhat disconcerting that he didn’t speak, but he had the same stern expression from every dream of the last couple of years. It’s a cross between deeply concerned about something and putting the poker face on to attempt to conceal the concern. There was also an element of piercing stare like when you’re expecting that the person knows why you’re giving them “the look”.
I just don’t know for sure. What I do know is that it upset me about thoughts from my past and very much wanting to stay alive now. I do know that it made me hug everyone closer and I didn’t want to go back to sleep.
And this morning my message from Abraham:
“Just do your best to keep yourself in balance. One of the first things that causes Energy misalignment, is asking or demanding too much of yourself in terms of time and effort. In other words, you just cannot burn the candle at both ends, so that you are physically tired, and then expect yourself to have a cheerful attitude. So, the rule of thumb has to be: “I’m going to be very, very, very happy, and then do everything I have time to do after that.”
Excerpted from West Los Angeles, CA on 3/6/05
(and Abraham and Jerry)
I can definitely do better at that sentiment. Going to leave myself some me time today and follow it up with snuggling my kids this evening.