I know right. It makes no sense.
Neither did my logic today.
I wanted cute toes. Everyone around here has been getting summer pedicures. I thought “that would be nice”. Simple as that, I wanted cute toes like everyone else.
I never fall for what everyone else does. NEVER!
Yet this time I did and manifested myself a pedicure.
By manifested, I mean: I thought about getting one, told Nathan I’d thought about it. He said yes please, and after work we stopped at the nearest nail salon and I walked in. They said pick a color, I did, and then fumbled awkwardly through my half of getting a basic pedicure.
I knew I was out of place. I didn’t fit with everyone else there, it was obvious I had never done that before.
Sitting listening to conversations, all I found myself thinking is- wow people are so shallow. I didn’t like the smells and told myself not to even guess what all the ingredients in the half dozen liquids she used were. I had to distract myself and choose to do so by reading a blog with Andrew Carnegie quotes.
I apologized a dozen times to the tech for not knowing etiquette and proceedures, and left a huge tip for my silliness.
In the end this is what I received/learned:
I don’t mind having pretty toes, but I’m perfectly capable of accomplishing it on my own at home.
I definitely prefer not to use other human beings to accomplish such an insignificant task.
Whatever implied status comes with being financially stable enough to afford paid pedicures on a regular basis, in my opinion should come with enough sense not to. There are much higher uses of time, money, and manpower than making your toes pretty.
This was a logically illogical chain of events to solidify for myself my values and goals. I know that is not me, even if I can afford to do it occasionally. I’d much rather use my money for greater good and longer lasting effects.
I’m definitely not one to just do what others do, and my life has far greater meaning than displays of status.
I’m comfortable being me, hairy legs, no manicures, no pedicures, stocky, and strong. Knocking out tension for others, providing healing, supporting my family, and making this world a better place.
May you all have your moments of greater good clarity. Blessings to you and your loved ones.