I’m so used to solving everything on my own, that this is always hard for me to ask. I am asking for anyone that reads this to send prayers.
It may be obvious to my regular readers that I have been contemplating my mortality for reasons other than the virus in the news. That is because I am.
I’ve been in denial about symptoms related to my thyroid concerns, and I feel I have hit a point which I must reach out for assistance.
I suspect I may have a thyroid tumor. I’m going to law of attraction assume that it is benign and that my delay from finances and do it yourself educated guessing and labs is a mere inconvenience to the solution.
My hives keep coming back over and over again , and they are triggered by things that used to be non-issues. This morning I woke with swollen eyelids from extra fluid having built up in my sleep. Plus, I have had to acknowledge continued hair loss, more than my normal amount. I’ve had other skin manifestations, and what used to be a mild occasional pressure in my throat, is now more noticeable and persistent.
I have also been having trouble with depression even though my T3/T4 levels are in a good range, only my TSH is at a bothersome level. It is affecting my desire to do anything as I have a nagging sensation that anything is futility. I also am plagued by thoughts that I know my vortex has all the solutions I seek, but a knowing that I pretty well suck at letting them manifest in my physical reality.
Though I am not really afraid of death itself, I am petrified of pain and suffering, especially because I feel I’ve had more than enough of that as life in general and had hoped for continued improvement. Regardless of the outcome, I know God will look after my family.
What I need (if you would please include in your prayers):
1) A doctor that will genuinely listen to me, everything I’ve done and know, and get straight to the point, but that will also work with me financially. I feel that is the tallest hurdle in this mess.
2) Finances to work out in support of the solution. Or insurance, I’m still uncovered.
3) The solution to be found that has the least impact in all ways. Financially yes, but more so in easy, short, and least amount of pain. If I’m alive I do wish to return to work relatively quickly.
4) To find and maintain the health that I have been seeking for so long.
Since I have already been attempting to solve this on my own for almost 4 months, I need the solution to become evident fairly quickly. Benign or not, 4 months means it’s had that much more time to grow and potentially lead to greater problems. So please also pray for minimal impact on my system.
For those that get better results from informed prayerwork: my name is Treasa Cailleach and I live in Kansas City. This is what I look like:
I will continue to do everything that I know helps, because I would like to live. I do want to be there for my kids and even just a few months ago I still had very big goals that I was determined to accomplish on my own. A large part of me still wants to do them, but it seems the futility is winning more and more.
It is a beautiful day where I sit in Overland Park, KS, I’m going to take some time to enjoy it before I go in to work.
May you find the health you seek. May you know it is not your time. May you know that the universe and God support you. May you have an easy time letting things manifest from your vortex.
Siva Hir Su