Catching up: 3

I Never Wanted a PhD

I had a thought in the midst of all of this that I should take the MCAT and go to med school, essentially I’m over the bullshit and stupidity, especially contradictions with covid, and bonus it would grant me access to the tools I desire at cost. But I had to stop and acknowledge that isn’t a good idea.

It’s not because of my intelligence. I know I am smart enough and not just to pass, no I’d be in the top quater of my class, or better, just like all the rest of my education.

It’s also not because of desires for knowledge, or to be of assistance. I am well aware of how much I have learned and educated myself on, just by my own accord. I’m already really helpful to lots of people in the midst of their own health journies. No being a doctor would not further either of those goals that much, some is guaranteed because I don’t know everything, just what I’ve already had to deal with.

And though access to the tools and financials of being a doctor would be really nice and helpful, I’m not sure that is enough justification.

See I’m well aware of how much outside of most boxes I fall. I would cause too many waves and stir up too much trouble. I would be the Patch Adams pointing out the brokenness of the system at every turn. I would question everything presented to me. I would constantly point out the failings of that approach, just by being me and who I am.

See, I have better bedside manners and palpation skills to start with, than most of them end up with after all their training. I am always looking for the permanent, long-term solutions, not just temporary band-aids. I look for root causes, not the symptom treatments. It’s just because of what I have done for the last 14 years. I have already learned the value of those skill-sets. I would be too much trouble for another doctor just trying to teach how to implement and maintain the “accepted” system. The problem is that it’s not really accepted by everyone, just those that see change as too difficult or too threatening to their pocketbooks.

I also would have major difficulty with the fact that medicine has mastered the pills and procedures, but has ignored and forgotten the rest of us, our mental health, our intuition, our spiritual self. It’s not just that they have ignored it, it’s that they will tell people they are wrong, or suggest something is nothing, and trudge on as they see fit, regardless of the consequences of ignoring the helpful input from the other side. If a doctor had taken my mother seriously the third time she brought me in for the same symptoms, I’d be telling a whole different story these days. Her intuition was telling her there was something wrong and that likely there was a solution, but labwork overrode her pleas.

And I’m on the medical tangent because of having to deal with it far too much this year and especially this week, but I don’t want other PhDs for the same reasons. The whole idea of a PhD is to learn as much as you can on one particular aspect of life/work. It leaves no room for flexibility and working outside the box. It limits innovation and is always about perpetuating the subject at hand, as it currently stands.

I had at one point contemplated a PhD of philosophy or divinity. Despite the low wages for those fields, I was also struck by how few of those people actually knew how to connect with their own inner spirit. Philosophy degrees these days are about history, timelines, religious beliefs as built through institutions, and the mechanics, but rarely teach how to connect with the higher self. And doctors of divinity are essentially indoctrinated by all the details of the religious institution that provided their education. They may get instruction on other religions’ institutions and dogma, but they are taught from the slant of their teachers, not by those other institutions. It screams of being laden with unintentional bias at every turn.

I had even considered music and art. Those degrees are only slightly better in that they encourage creativity and expanding concepts, hopefully leading to some innovation. But it’s still mostly a degree aimed at the end goal of eventually you’ll teach someone else the same things you learned and maybe also what you innovated on.

Beyond that most doctoral degrees are cumbersome with many hoops merely intended to ensure that you can demonstrate the knowledge that you have gained from the coursework. It’s just an added layer of discomfort bogging down my desire to pursue any such degree.

So my doctorit has been gleaned from life.

I have studied all the religions to certain degrees, and usually seek out materials written by their clergy.

I have studied western medicine enough to navigate work and my own and my husband’s health. In turn, it has enabled me to help others along the way, giving them specific questions to ask their providers and things to request in testing and treatments. It has contributed to many people finding the resources they need.

I have studied Traditional Chinese Medicine enough to know a few elements to help myself and my clients. It also helps me to ask the right questions for my own treatments, and enables a knowing of when TCM might help one of my clients more if they tried another approach under that umbrella of care.

I have studied art and music and still regularly produce my own works as much as time allows. Those skills have helped in work environments in non-traditional ways on many occasions and I’m utterly grateful I had the interest to pursue those topics.

I have trained myself on fitness, yoga practices, meditation, and EFT and practice them as often as I’m able. Those too have helped me to help others on a very regular basis.

And in all of this, I hold a bachelor’s degree in studio art with honors, and a massage therapy certification. That is all the more official education that I have consumed. Life will provide you with more than enough education if you allow it. One only needs how to learn from reliable sources. That ability to delineate good from not so good, and consume the information in a way that your brain retains it. That’s it.

So yes, I better not go get any PhD, let alone one in allopathic medicine. I’d be too much trouble for them, and it’s benefits for me would be too slim for the headache I would cause myself.

May you know that you are intelligent and well educated and informed. May you easily see whether or not something is beneficial or resistant in nature. May you understand your place in this world and find easy ways around everything. Above all else, may you know you are loved and supported in all that you do.

Om Shanti

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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