First flight.

Not a famous one. Just my first time on a big airplane, and I’m 38 years old.

I’m super nervous, somewhat anxious. The first time for anything can stir that response. Yet, I know I’m hoping that virtigo or nausea stays away, and I’m hoping that being enclosed and seatbelted in helps keep my fear response at bay.

As a kid, one of the companies my dad worked for used their little plane to take employee families up over the town. It was a short flight of about 15 minutes, and at that point I had no reaction to heights. Yet the last time we went to Sears Tower (about 6 years ago) I was petrified of the plexi box and got stuck because my knees quit working.

I have window seats on my flight and half of it will be after dark, landing in CT around midnight. Family will pick me up from the airport to drive the last hour to my destination. I’m really looking forward to this trip.

With Nathan’s recent health stuff, what was supposed to be a family trip, became just me and they are staying home.

On one hand I’m going to really miss my chosen family. I haven’t been away from Nathan any significant time in our 16 years of relationship. I’ve had a night away here and there, but nothing more than 2 days total.

This trip will be 3 and a half days and I need every minute of it. I need the decompression and stress reduction, and I am looking forward to seeing most of my birth family.

I’m doing my best to stay focused on the happy moments of this experience and enjoy every minute of it. I’m also determined to spend at least a few hours at the ocean, even though it is still far too cold to swim. I just want to sit and enjoy the sound of waves and birds, and the view of a beach. Ahhhhhh….

Here’s to 3.5 days of de-stress.🎉

May you have wonderful firsts throughout your entire life. May there always be something new and different to stir your awareness and lift your spirits. May you have fun in all your endeavors, even when traveling alone. May you enjoy life mostly.

Om Shanti

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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