Ask ME; what?

What Does ME need?
Nothing
For once I'm certain
There's the usual replenishment
But nothing significant
It's relief
Stirring great gratitude

What does ME want?
Some things
People
Those few I care about,
I want them all.
In different ways,
And for different reasons.

She has a kind husband
Great kids
Wonderful home
She is supportive
Talented and amazing
In her own right
Approaching retirement
She has time freedom I envy
She feels like family already

She has a beautiful wife
Beautiful home
Sweet pets
She never did want kids with 2 legs
4 legged ones filled the role
She is supportive
Talented and amazing
In her own right
Loving and independent
She has flexibility in life I desire
She feels like family already

He has a girlfriend
A huge circle of friends
He has a cool collection
He has freedom and fun to spare
He's independent and jet setting
Talented and amazing
In his own right
He is successful and financially independent
He has all the freedoms to stir jealousy
He feels like family already

They already feel like family
I know I can screw it up
I already did with my biological family
I cherish them because they are them
If I leave everything just as it is
I can just be me
Having the family I dreamt of for decades
I hope they all know I love them
I hope they all know I'm just scared
Of doing something wrong
Of messing up or failing again

It's easier to just BE in each moment
Be me
Hear my inner ME
Respond to each moment as it comes
Play Switzerland with my Self
Cherish each moment
Honor each person as best as I'm able
Do my best to keep up
With life as it comes at me
Some days are easier than others
I respect myself
Even and especially with my limitations
I do my best
Each moment
Each day
One foot in front of the other
One moment followed by another
My path is now
And I love them
All

~ Treasa Cailleach





About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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