I don’t feel safe. I don’t feel secure, and certain triggers like finances and vaccines make that worse. I want to run, but knowing I take myself with me causes me to continue to do my best trudging through this mess called life. I just hope I keep winning the silent battle.
So I picked the curve ball.
I picked a single solitary date as a distraction.
The one that no one else knew about. The one that no one else knows. If nothing else it will just be a different moment, something to take my mind off of everything else.
I have no hopes of anything significant, as I didn’t even see that one coming. I have no strong desires for any specific outcome. I have no attachment to that person for any reason.
It feels no different than the one blind date in college.
It’s just a date, and I don’t even know where or when yet, I still have to respond to them.
May you feel safe and secure. May you have enjoyable dates and look forward to getting to know others. May you feel supported and know that you matter to others. May you see solutions to your less than moments.