Did you know…

As far as KC area and me….

  • Psychological therapists charge over twice what I make an hour and I haven’t found any willing to trade.
  • There’s a significant wait list for all of the reduced fee clinics and services. Even KC Care Clinic, where I’ve already been, I’d have at least a 30 day wait to see a student psychologist.
  • I’ve already tapped out my trades anyway. I traded for Anya to get help, traded for Nathan to get help, traded for a riding mower to help Nathan be able to actually finish our yard, and I traded for one massage a month for me. If I trade for anything else I won’t be able to pay bills.
  • Despite a very generous client commissioning artwork, and then my purchasing an E-Bike instead of a second vehicle, our debt keeps climbing instead of shrinking. The E-Bike hasn’t been around long enough to know if it will help level out the financial flow.
  • I’m drowning and no one knows or cares to know.
  • God obviously hates me because I have done all the things, been a good person, helped everyone I could with everything I could, and shit just got worse instead of better. But not just worse, no- worse indefinitely, as every day for the foreseeable future, possibly years even decades.
  • I feel alone in efforts to fix and make up for this mess.
  • Still waiting on GI scopes for his inability to eat and keep food down without medication, but everyone else has pretty well said Nathan is as good as it gets from a medical standpoint in regards to peritoneal dialysis. Yea.
  • This week has brought a mental breakdown because I have functioned one foot in front of the other for 7 months, and I can’t anymore.
  • I want to kill myself and I have told everyone around me, including my children. They get upset, and Nathan gets angry, but no one can fix it.

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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