Thank you Abraham, today’s email from them is as follows.
Start telling a better-feeling story about the things that are important to you. Do not write your story like a factual documentary, weighing all the pros and cons of your experience, but instead tell the uplifting, fanciful, magical story of the wonder of your own life and watch what happens. It will feel like magic as your life begins to transform right before your eyes, but it is not by magic. It is by the power of the Laws of the Universe and your deliberate alignment with those Laws.
Excerpted from Money and the Law of Attraction on 8/31/08
(and Abraham and Jerry)
The song is a favorite of mine. Their song is similar to how I process things except instead of a song for the world to hear, I write here. I still do the crying, the screaming and the singing, but as far as anyone else is concerned this blog is as public as I get.
So in lieu of an answer to the song’s question, I’ll take Abraham’s email prompt.
The destination is here….
My parents have what they have asked for. I was a good girl and did my best to provide what they asked of me, but it seems that what they verbalized, is not what they asked with their inner being. That, or they let doubt interfere, and show an escape route. Either way I did my best, and I have been removed from responsibility all together. I’m going to savour less responsibility.
So in this moment I can be me. I can be me, here, in this spot I sit. I am free to be me and let dogs lie.
My destination is here. The journey is now.
I’m sitting by my fireplace, once again enjoying it for it’s beauty and not needing it for it’s heat. It feels good to know that.
I may have explained this before, but it is worth repeating. The picture above my fireplace is a picture of a statue of Avalokitesvara on display at the Kansas City Museum of Art. It the androgenous transition of the figure known as Shiva, Quan Yin and about a thousand other names depending on the region and period of reference. At KCMA it is referenced as both Avalokitesvara and Buddha. This statue dates from the period just before Avalokitesvara transitioned to Quan Yin in an effort to convert Chinese women to Buddhism. I’m very familiar with this process from my education on women in Chinese history. It was a series of electives I chose in college, because of the overlay of art, religion, and history beyond America.
Beyond what I chose to learn about, is my awareness of the energetic concepts embodied by this figure. It is a guiding light for me. I aim to be that light of compassion and understanding in this world. I have no aspiration to become fully enlightened as that figure is said to have accomplished, and I have no desire to traverse time for centuries teaching others as this figure is claimed to have done. Yet, my flawed human perspective can still reach for that enlightenment enough to have a positive impact on this world.
In this moment by the fire, I can reach that compassion for myself and my loved ones. I can reach for the healing energy that flows through me and allow it to do what it does best. I can allow it to flow where it has been requested. A few simple words from another language, learned in my Reiki courses, it’s all it takes. Simple prayers which mean things like ‘let the light be here’ and my unique one: ‘open the door to man’s spirit’.
One of the most beautiful concepts I learned of Reiki, is to allow the flow with a knowing that I am not in control. The energy merely amplifies and encourages whatever is requested by the inner being of the person or people receiving. It is beautiful because it is true. I have seen it heal, and I have seen it enable release from this world. It just does what is genuinely acceptable to the inner being of the recipient.
So here now, in this place, by my fire, I allow the Reiki to do what it does best. I follow steps learned to turn it on, these days it’s smooth, seamless and easy. I feel the warmth activate my third eye and crown, spread to my heart and hands and feet. Then simply I think of all those that have indicated requests, plus those in my heart. It always feels good to activate and flow the reiki.
The fire smells nice. The flames crackle and dance. The dog is curled up next to me snoring. Missy was on my lap purring. Buddy is behind my head on the back of the sofa. This feels nice and peaceful.
These are the moments I genuinely feel relief. I love to just sit and savour the sensations, feel the feelings. It helps with knowing that I am as I was intended to be. I am a good person with a divine core. My human half may not be able to fix anything or have responsibility, but my divine half flows energy that can.
My life is still changing. My life is still evolving.
I’m looking forward to lucky days and flow beyond energy, but I’m enjoying my now. Comfy clothes that help me feel good about myself. Warm home that makes my human efforts worth it on snowy cold days such as these. Kids running laps and learning to spell. Music playing uplifting lyrics to sing to. Quiet is nice, calm and peaceful.
The hum of the humidifier is soothing and rhythmic. The Lights for plants have no warmth but my eyes welcome the lumins. The lights shine off of pets’ fur in silky flecks, somehow seeming to make their fur even softer. Whiskers tickle my nose as I kiss Buddy. I see green happy eyes and a soft pink nose. The purs and cuddles indicate furry love flowing. It all feels wonderful and I love and deserve much more wonderful.
One last fitting song, and my only addition to it: use Zinc Oxide sunscreen, it’s the safest-oldest-tried&true, the Zinc is great for your immune system, and it’s strong enough to repel heat during soldering so it’ll definitely keep the sun off.
May you enjoy moments of peace and disconnect fully when your help is not wanted. May you let go of anything out of your control, to be able to control yourself. May you enjoy your now and milk it for more. May you find a way to reach for your inner being in the midst of anything. May you feel the good feelings of knowing your higher self is present. May you see what worked and keep doing that. May we all start creating for ourselves and let go of others all together. May you know that you are loved and supported by the divine in all that you do.
When I pray (beyond mantras) it looks like this:
May___(person)____ get what they desire, their inner being manifest in their best and highest good. They have asked me for ____(this thing/event/help)___, and if that aligns with their best and highest good then may it manifest quickly. An it harm none, so mote it be.
Of course I’m different than most, and this is the same. I want them to have their deepest fulfillment, not what I think that is. Sometimes, I receive messages that imply validation, and sometimes I just seem to know, but I always ask for them to have what they really want regardless of my perceptions. So sometimes I am wrong, and sometimes I just get the details wrong, but they always get what their inner being dictates. Every time, of that I am certain.