Frontin

I thought I knew
Had a narrowed
Educated guess
Now
After a 2 hour
Soirée of anger
I know for certain

One person
Lied
Cheated
Stole
Still does

Mostly in
Energy

Attacks
From afar
Bullshit
I never asked
For

I never deserved
That treatment

Now I examine
My options
Again

My middle road
Where does it
Lie
Or
Flow

I could
Take myself out
With a letter
Specifically
Stating to ask
That person
Why
Not that they
Would ever
Admit
Anything
I'm certain
It's impossible
And I know
It already killed
Their soul

I could
Win
My own war
And watch them
Be eaten alive
By their guilt and shame
Over misdeeds done
They know they slowed
Me down
And their buried
Shame
Will eventually
Kill them anyway

I could
Disappear
Become
Anew
Independent
Alone
Walk away from
Everything
And everyone
Especially
That person

Or I
Could
Do
Nothing
This moment
More than enough
I know they read
Every word
I write
I'll never understand
Why so addicted
To my words
Or why they never
Meant anything
Except something
To destroy
Or pretend to
Be better than
Or Take credit for

I am
Confident
Enough in
My own
Knowledge
Skills
And endurance
To survive
Anything
The list of those
Unnoticed
Accolades
Already pages
Long

I am
Aware enough
To avoid
Being
A beached
Whale
Begging
Other
Humans
Creatures
To help
Out
To safety
Because I
Know how
To stay
Away

It doesn't matter
What this
One
Or anyone
Does
Or doesn't
Do
What anyone
Thinks
Perceives
About me
They will never
Know me
The way
I know
ME

And I don't
Need anyone
Or any
Institution
Taking the credit

I deserve
ME
For
Me
Because I
Know
ME
Is greater
Than
Anything
From
Anywhere
Else

ME
Solves
Everything
For Me
In due
Time

~Treasa Cailleach

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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