Grieve false loss?

Supposed to
Grieve
Loss of
Mother
But what
Mother
Did I
Loose

I had
Two children
With no one
But my husband
By my side

I've dealt
With all of it
On my own
Poverty doubled
Housing bubble &
Medically Induced

I've handled
Bills
Heart
Kidneys
Schooling
Transportation
Depression of
Postpartum
And life
Major
Life
Decisions
All on my own

What family did
I loose?

There was
None
When I
Needed it
Still
Isn't

What did
I loose?

Random
Phonecalls
I made
When hubby
Stirred
Guilt

Sad stories
Repeated
When
Offered
Alternatives
Went ignored

I lost
Invented
Guilt

I lost
Energetic
Burdens

I lost
Shame
Of being
Different

None of
Those
Feel
Like
Grief

The only
Wish I
Had
Was
That I
Lost the
Inherited
Dis-ease
As well

I'm better
Than all
Of That
Deserving
Rewards
Immense

I take
My loss
And Move on
Just like
Every
Other
Hurdle
I faced
Overcome

I am
Strong
And some
Days
I wish
I weren't
But I am

So now
What?
What do
I move
Into?


       ~Treasa Cailleach

May you see better days ahead. May you receive what you needed all along. May you have everything you need and desire. May you enjoy life more, toil less, and see this beautiful world we live in. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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