Looking

Waiting on a teen
Eyes so very sleepy
Sitting outside stores
Looking for the pretty
Keeping myself afloat
Best as I am can

Mans lights
Glow softly on
Tree branches waving
More a gentle rocking
The breeze is light, soft
Muggy with damp sprinkles
The air is warm
Enveloping

Low clouds
Catch errant glows
The many lamps
Lighting a
City night

My music
Graces my ears
Soothing mantras
Mellow beats to
Calm and center
Focusing on
Me better

I know some of
My symptoms belong
To others i should
Never have let in
I am a good girl
That didn't
Know how
To keep it out

I was too young
When violated
And didn't have
Anyone to help
Fix it

The darkness
Tonight is not
Comforting
So focus
On lights
I will

The light casts
Warm glows
Highlighting
Only the best
Beautiful greens
Fresh air blowing
A safe glow keeping
The bumps in the
Night away

The gentle rain
Turing windshield
Kaléidoscope
Reflecting
Lights
As tiny
Dancing dots
Glowing patterns
Washing the
Filth off
Cleansing
My soul

May these
Drops
My music
The lights
Keep me feeling
Safe cleansed
And healed
Whole as
Me


~Treasa Cailleach

May you always have help when repressed memories surface. May you have understanding for why or how something happened to you. May you forgive yourself for everything you couldn’t control and let go of the experience to heal. May you know it’s a distant bad memory and it never needs revisited because releasing the trauma leads to full healing. May you know you truly released all of it. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do, and they were there protecting you from worse. May you know that you are fully capable of choosing to overcome and being successful. May you know how to keep everything out now.

Om Shanti

It is something that happened to me, and I don’t need the details. It does not define me. I am still standing, and not just barely standing, no I’m standing tall and strong. I have supported myself from the beginning and will until the end. My awareness of abuse in this way mist mean something and will eventually turn to good as the scar fades to faint shadows. May releasing this memory, this blurry moment, bring deep lifetime healing.

About Treasa Cailleach

I'm a massage therapist working with chiropractic and the elderly; musician, artist, pagan, mom, B of LGBTQ, & polyamorous professional.

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