Category Archives: Crazy in Action

Where’s the magic?

Between watching She-Ra with my kids, and one too many news-feed induced conversations with people in my world, I’m left asking “Where is the magic?”

In the context of my now, the magic is the God force, mystical energies of everything. “All that is, all that was, and all that ever will be.” – Carl Sagan

Magic really always was for me, my mystical everything. As a teen I learned it wasn’t my secret. Allister Crowley defined magic as “The art of creating change in conformity with will.” I have known that definition for over 20 years now. Abraham Hicks, and many others in the thought revolution, discuss this with more straightforward terminology, and Hicks labeled this thought revolution “The Law of Attraction”. The concept is the same, focus and create change merely with thoughts. The law of Attraction may be science from Quantum Science’s perspective, but in the practical experience of reality, it really is magic.

Now watching She-Ra with my kids, my inspiration is renewed.

I see parallels between the Prime Horde and the Borg of Star Treck. They were both concerned with uniformity, conformity, sameness, enough to completely squelch the individual and connect them to hive mind. And I see the parallels in the now.

I don’t generally support conspiracy theories because they are just that: theories. Moreso, they tend to inflate fears that could be completely unfounded. However, I’ve noticed an overarching theme with media and people in general these days.

Two sides of a coin. You’re with us or against us mentality. You’re either conservative and tow that line, or you’re liberal. Both sides arguing the other is wrong, and neither allowing for individuals: unique, special, and allowing for more. Neither showing tolerance for individuality, neither showing appreciation of blended beliefs and preferences. Both sides are being the Horde, and the media today inflates and encourages this mentality.

It’s really very similar to the story line of She-Ra, in that the First Ones and the Horde were in a battle to claim the stake of being right and convincing everyone to follow their sameness. Unfortunately, in that story line, the Horde couldn’t control magic and it became their weakness (ultimately a good thing). The first ones however learned how to marry magic and technology and got greedy for the power gleaned, eventually causing their own demise.

I see the parallels between our division in the world today, and those two fictional factions.

We do have a greedy few that know and understand the Law of Attraction, and they are slowly working on their own demise, they may control their followers now and tell them what to believe, but like First Ones they will eventually fail and loose everything.

Yet there is this other side that just really pushes sameness, supposedly as being safer. They are very similar to the Horde, and our media today only encourages and inflates everything as related to that. I would argue that the medical industry is a large contributor to that side. Alas, just as the Horde could not control magic and ultimately lost, so too will sick-care and industry bent on everyone acting, doing, behaving, in a certain way, to be safe.

I personally want nothing from either side. I am that unique, middle ground, reaching for better.

I know about the magic. Sometimes I could definitely be better at using it, but at least I understand how. Yet, I really want to share it with everyone willing to learn how to use it responsibly. I do feel like She-Ra defending magic, and all uniqueness, as I’m still learning to wield it’s power myself.

She-Ra has inspired me to keep trying, and keep practicing, and keep reaching for better. It has revived my inspiration of Tessering from “Wrinkle in Time”. It has given me visuals to encourage my work as a healer, and the Reiki energy flows stronger and stronger every time I practice the new visuals. Between all of it, the inspiration is definitely launching me towards better.

I know I am getting better at using thought to create change. I’m just not certain that I will ever defeat the Horde(s) as She-Ra was able. I’d love to. I’d love to see a world full of uniqueness, so I’ll keep focusing to give it a fair shot. But either way, I know I will eventually create my Atira. My community at least, will be a safe haven for those of us willing to live in acceptance of the individual and mixed beliefs and preferences. My community will be open and loving and magical without greed. My community will help people to master magic responsibly. I look forward to that day.

For now I am enjoying a little magic using plastic eggs and toy cars. I built a little model as a focus tool. It takes a little imagination, but you can see the founder’s home (big yellow double dome), the temple and community services center (purple cluster), the business complex (blue green L shaped complex), and the community living area (small domes, yellow and purple). The blue blanket is to represent the pond/lake I hope to have at the center of my Atira, with hiking trails all around.

Now I’ll play with my kiddos to enact things that would happen at Atira. That’s the fun part!

May you have fun moments of magic in your life. May you know we are not alone, and that uniqueness is more precious than anything pushed as sameness or safety. May you know that the God force of magic is more healing than any medicine, vaccine, or sick-care treatment. May you know you are healthy and strong and capable of great things. May you know that God loves and supports you no matter what and in all things you do. May you know you are always whole, safe, and loved just as you are.

Om Shanti

Put up or shut up.

I still have energetic junk plaguing my family and my home in a quite cyclical fashion. I suspect I know which partie(s) are causing it, but I’m not 100% certain.

I have however, gotten really good at shutting it down and blocking it after the fact though. What I can’t seem to block, Nathan can and does repeatedly.

Yesterday I had scream fest over it, alone in the van, on the way to work. I was blasting the source with a message of “if you’re not going to help then leave me the eff alone, I’m already doing it on my own, and you’re just making it harder.”

On one hand, good for me, makes me even stronger every single time I win. On the other hand it’s keeping me from the easy route which at this point I have more than earned, a dozen times over.

It amazes me that a couple/few individuals so insecure in themselves, can be hung up on me, allowing jealousy or whatever-stupid-reason to be fodder for regular energetic fixation in the most negative of ways.

I am getting stronger. I am getting more confident. I am able to keep my vibration higher most of the time, and even these energetic attacks only distract me briefly at this point. I am healing and growing and learning.

She-Ra was excellent inspiration, and I’m glad I revisited the show of my youth. It has only helped me with the here and now. I can’t begin to explain the number of ways I have put that inspiration to good use, and I am energetically kicking ass these days. (Which in all honesty I wasn’t doing half bad before.)

Beyond that, I’m not really the vengeful sort, but I am very aware of all of the energetic ways to ensure this non-sense ends. If push comes to shove I will invoke any means necessary to end this stupid game of theirs. I know God would both understand, and accept my request for forgiveness, to ensure my family is safe and secure.

So let this be fair warning to them. If they continue to cause problems and distractions, they will be bound energetically. That would make their lives extra difficult and possibly even emotionally painful, and I would hate to see it come to that.

God supports me and knows that it is time for the negativity to end completely, by whatever means are necessary. I count myself blessed that I understand how to do that without ever laying a finger on anyone or anything, except maybe some clay and a candle.

Of course, there are easier ways. They could  simply tell the truth and come clean. Or… They could completely let go of me, whatever they think of me, what they think I should do or not, their desires centered around me, etc. It’s obvious that something about me is causing another person or people grief, anger, frustration, etc., and they are looping something fierce. They really should just address their brain needing to loop onto the topic of me. With the millions of things to think about, just let go of me.

Hell, my older brother used to turn water on to drip just to drive me nuts. I learned quick how to ignore it, but in this moment maybe dripping water could help them ignore me. Or clouds in the sky, or cars on the road, or music. There is literally an infinite array of options anyone can use to distract themselves. If all else fails, there’s even mantras you can say or think repeatedly. ‘Om Shanti’ means “All that is be peace” – use the sanskrit or English version, either one will get your brain off of me and onto peace.

Of course, I recommend everyone repeat that mantra as much as possible. Regardless of language used, it definitely does help bring world peace. The more people chanting with focused mental stillness, the higher our planetary vibration becomes and the better we all get to experience. I would love to see more of that.

Anyway, the source of the negativity either needs to make good in reality with full truth, honesty and disclosure, or leave me the eff alone and let me slowly chip at making my world better with one less obstacle. If neither of those happens willingly from their end, I will shut them up energetically. I sense a binding coming on.


May you be energetically sovereign and mostly dwell in high vibrations. May your days go smoothly and have a steady flow of positive interactions both physically and energetically. May you know God supports you in all that you do. May you know you are healing and getting stronger. May you know you are learning all that you need to know. May everything bring you a sense of divine timing and God force guiding you to all you desire. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Stream of consciousness- part 2

When I had the stream of consciousness experience (that produced the statements in bold italics below), I felt like I was having a conversation with my higher-self but masculine side. I had thought responses in the moment that did not initially get typed up. This is my attempt to put words to my immediate thought responses.

The matrix is being redesigned. What do you want it to look like?

I want both. Not necessarily simultaneously, but in conjunction. I want my Atira to grow, my family to grow, and real full life to resume in my universe.

Atira was supposed to be more, and bigger and include more chosen family. I want a closer version of my dreams of Atira. I know it’s already in my vortex, there’s an entire binder written on the details of that desire. I just want more of those pieces to manifest and become evident.

Even more I want society to regain balance. Just like in She-Ra, I want to help restore that balance and encourage positive changes. I want the whole truth about vaccines to be common knowledge, and I apologize in advance if that requires even more people to get hurt for the truth to come out in the open. I want the corruption and greed to be put back in it’s place and mitigated to minimize damages. I want Western medicine to return to “First Do No Harm” and helping people genuinely fully heal. I want symptom management to be replace by disease elimination, bodily healing, and to enable full health for all. I want to be able to see people’s faces, their expressions, and especially smiles again. I want for normal life function to resume acknowledging that we all are taking risks to do that, but that the risks are worth it. I want the relief to our economy to be evident immediately.

I want equality for all, and those against equality to simply fade into oblivion. They can have their opinions quietly in the background, as long as we all have the ability to live our lives as we choose. I also want the war machine to become obsolete and all of the ex warriors to have enough healing to treat everyone as equals. #BLM and #AllLivesMatter, because all lives do matter, but can’t happen when factions wish to keep attacking one another. Peacefulness and co-creative joy amongst all. That’s my desire.

I want to work, but less. I want to help others find healing, but also create beautiful things. I want to have time with my kids and my husband, but also with new friends and a new significant other or two.

I still want to honor my body and give it the exercise and nutrition it desires, but I also want to enjoy what I eat and have ease in choosing foods, and also the time to do other more fun things.

I want time management to be easy and have enough time for all of the elements to fit together correctly and seamlessly.

Above all I want for my own body to fully heal to even make any of those desires possible. To stay on the leading edge I need more energy, less weight, more stamina, and for life to fill every cell in my body. I want negativity, fears, viruses and all other worries to die, and be replaced with healthy fully functional cells, organs, and body parts. I want to feel spectacular so that keeping up with the leading edge is easy. I want to fully understand my gifts like Adora learning She-Ra’s weapon and energy. I want a fullness of experience, and joy and health. I want to ride the best parts of the leading edge for as long as humanly possible.


Are you someone who wants me to stay down with you?
Or are you someone who wants to try and keep up with the changes like I do?

I’m sorry if you want to stay down, I can’t stay with you.
If you want to keep up, we’ll do better if we work with each other.

I want to work together, show me how, tell me how.

I want to keep up with the changes and heal. I want to work together and help bring balance back to my own body and to society.

Help me heal first so that the negatives are easy to spot and solve. Help my brain to find positive healing, rewire and function more optimally on a continual basis.

Help guide me to the right actions and tasks. I feel like I’m already doing so much, and that I am enough, but that perhaps it’s just minor adjustments and your help figuring that out would be another huge blessing.

I am doing my best to allow the healing energy to flow as much as possible, and as strong as possible. If that flow could increase and stay on all the time, I think it would help in more ways than I can fathom. Please help me to accomplish that. I want the healing energy to flow to my own body, cells, organs and tissues because I love myself and I know I deserve the healing. I also want the healing energy to flow to anyone in my experience that is open to receiving it. I want it to powerfully help bring balance in all of my direct experiences and create a ripple that will enable positive healing for a much broader perspective. I want to help God bring light to the darkness we are entrenched in.

Om Shanti and Siva Hir Su

May you all have productive conversations with God. May you know for certain that your inner being fully supports you if you will let it. May you know exactly how to let it.

Om Shanti