My tiny art for today was a continuation of the thought about the finite nature of the infinite. So I drew a mini Mount Kailash at night, proported to be the home of Lord Shiva. I would still like to go there one day, even if the radiation is so strong that humans can’t proceed past a certain point. I find it rather fascinating.
Today was all over the place. My meditation didn’t go so well because Katherine was the first to wake up today and noisy was quick to follow.
I worked in the garden and was able to get my squash and zucchini seeds planted. I did notice a few of my previous seeds are just barely beginning to show. Yea!
I unpacked another small box of trinkets and found 2 of my miniature drawings from a while ago:
At dinner Ian started arguing with his older sister again, and I chose to walk away instead of engage. I have been frustrated with him over destructive behaviors, so I decided I was going to channel my frustration into something helpful for him.
A while ago he had done a simple pencil line drawing on one of my canvasses. I decided to take that and finish it, but with an addition. I had included a visual reminder of the 3 basic rules that every thing he is scolded over link back to. My thought process was, maybe the attention span of a 5 year old really does forget quickly and a visual reminder would help. Putting it on an image that he started was my way of showing I do care and love him. I respected his pencil drawing and brought it to more vivid brightly colored life.
This was the end result:
This was me showing it to him after he cleaned up his room. (He enjoyed using the lighted magnifying glass.)
We talked about the 3 rules again. I made him verbalize them in his words before reminding him of the actual 3 rules.
1.(emoji busts) No severe upsets. Don’t do things that cause anger, frustration, sadness, crying, screaming, etc. In himself or anyone else- especially on purpose.
2. (broken dump truck) Don’t break things, his own toys or anyone else’s stuff. It leads to #1. Respect belongings, especially other people’s stuff.
3. (band-aid on knee with pain marks) Don’t cause hurts for himself or anyone else. That means think before doing and be careful when he does go do things. Again hurts lead back to #1.
He got the rules enough to repeat them a couple of times with lots of sighs. I reminded him that it may seem like a lot, but really everything he gets yelled at over links back to one of those 3. I also reminded him that when he remembers and follows those 3 rules, that the loves and smiles automatically happen. He always gets lots of loves when he has been good.
I know he appreciated it because he spent a long time (for him) looking at it. Then he wanted to take it with him to get ready for bed. I told him it could stay put for now and we would get it hung on his wall as soon as possible. I’m glad that he does appreciate it, now if I can just get the arguing to cease.
I’ll end with my blessing and cute kitties: Buddy and Missy were laying in a heart shape today, and I did my best to meet that vibration.
May you have positive outcomes even when having a challenging day. May you have wonderful creative collaborations. May you find ways to show your children you love and respect them. May you connect with your kids in meaningful ways. May your kids appreciate what you do for them. May you find a way through misbehavior. May you feel loved and supported. May you glimpse inspiration even through frustration. May calmer, brighter, vividly joyful days fill your life.
Siva Hir Su
I need more ideas for titles. When most of your blog is just writing about your world: your own experience, it sometimes seems to have very repetitive topics. Geesh.
Anyways, The Good:
First I did a lot of meditating, it was very helpful and put me in a really good mood. I felt my connection to the divine really strongly and knew everything was going better. Things were going to be okay. Then I worked on a new to me client.
Then, I did another small art piece today, again about 2″ x 3″, watercolor only this time:
Not so good:
After that, I went home and proceeded to get bogged down in taxes. The first draft of my return is not a return, it’s a really big bill, when already in a crap storm affecting my finances. Damn. Even if my accountant can adjust it a little, I’m still going to have a lot owed. That took all my good juju and threw it out the window. I know I connected with God earlier today, but that sucked ass so bad, that I’ve had a really tough evening. I keep trying to remind myself that it is going to be okay, but ultimately I had to distract myself quite a bit to find a moderate even keel. This too shall pass.
My distraction was updating both of my business websites, and my listing on the board website. I remembered one thing I forgot just now (Reiki info), so I’ll get that later, but you can see them here:
May you have mostly good days with creativity and a good connection to the divine. May you maintain your connection even in adversity. May your tax return be good and may you make it through this mess with stable finances. May you know everything will be okay.
Siva Hir Su
YouTube notified me of this song after I had spent all day digging in dirt alone:
It fit very well. And I did need that time. It was overcast and cool, but I really needed the nature and peacefulness. I know I’m an empath, and sometimes my junk is literally having collected everyone else’s stuff. Sometimes it’s my own. Sometimes it’s a blend of both. Regardless, digging in the dirt or being in nature is soothing to my soul, as much as art or music are.
So I spent literally all day doing Gardens. My body hurts as much as ever, but my mind is calmer. I sat to eat dinner having gotten all but a few seeds in the ground. The simple act of consuming a meal brought my motion to a halt. I no longer desired anything but sleep. Except that I recognized how sore I was and deemed a bath as necessary before sleep could be accomplished.
I dumped 4 pounds of Epsom salts into the tub and now I soak. 30 min, maybe a bit longer in as hot as I can tolerate. It will soothe my sore muscles enough to function this week.
It was worth it though. My gardens will be beautiful when they grow. I got 9,000 steps just moving back and forth through our yard. Hoisting bricks and cinder blocks. Moving sticks and rocks. Not to mention all the dirt that I carefully filled every bed and planter with. The seeds was the easy part at the end of the day.
I planted fern bulbs gifted to me by my retired massage therapist. They had sprouted quite a few runners, so I stretched them out to cover a long section along the back of our house. It’s off the side of the porch in a narrow trench of dirt between the sidewalk and the house. They’ll be perfect there.
On the other side of that same sidewalk I constructed my favorite-easy-cheap cinder-block planter. It’s the second time I’ve done this large scale, and both times I used found cinder blocks. The universe loves me, because not only were there enough cinder blocks to do that, but there were enough bricks to pave the dirt between the planters. No more muddy mess.
We also put lots of grass seed down to try and fix the rest of the muddy areas in the yard.
So far I have several different mystery flower bulbs left by the previous owner. I have Rose bushes planted by the previous owner. There is lots of the dark ivy ground cover (not English Ivy). There are a few shrubs I can’t identify yet, and some kind of perennial plant that is sprinkled about- I think some of them are volunteers, but I’m okay with that.
Then I’ve planted gladiolus bulbs, fresia bulbs, Iris bulbs, anemone bulbs, tigridia bulbs, renunculous bulbs, zennia seeds, bachelor button seeds, marigold seeds, Daisy seeds, cosmos seeds, lettuce seeds, spinach seeds, kale seeds, broccoli seeds, cauliflower seeds, cucumber seeds, chard seeds, okra seeds, several varieties of bean and pea seeds, chive seeds, white onion seeds, red onion starts, and cabbage starts.
I have one big circular planter left, which has some of those mystery plants in it, but around the mystery plants I’m going to put our zucchini and squash seeds. There’s also the oval planter which has volunteer violets in it right now, but will get herb seeds ASAP. We will have quite the gardens when they sprout and grow. I very much look forward to that.
With all of that I’ll leave you with pictures of my handy work. May you all have calming, grounding time to soothe your soul. May you have beautiful gardens or the ability to enjoy other’s gardens. May you feel safe and supported by the universe. May you stay healthy and have joyous days. May peace be with you.
Siva Hir Su
So since hysteria over yet another world-wide spreading disease (this is the 6th one of note I remember) has caused my work to drastically drop off, I have diverted my attention elsewhere.
This weekend, with my new extra day off, is all about finishing projects already started and doing a couple of new ones.
On my to do list: taxes, garden beds and planters (if rain cooperates), other documents for my massage work and prospects, ordering duplicates of my freshly renewed boards and another duplicate of my BA, and graphic design work.
So far, I have accomplished the graphic design work.
I did 2 new designs for the Volleyball team. The one was fairly straight forward, so I doubt there will be much for adjustments there. The other was a tentative design based on a description of the previous year’s shirt and what they were thinking of. I am hoping that they will like it, but as with anything, I could have landed completely off the mark. If not, no big deal, the first draft will give them more details to convey for a second try.
I also accomplished finishing my dream-home dome-plans, and that is really why I’m writing. I wanted to share that progress. Even though I feel like it is a pipe dream at this point, I am ultra happy that I have completed something more than adequate enough to supply Monolithic Architects so they can produce structurally sound blueprints. At this point I would need a really good chunk of free-floating money to actually attempt even this much of my Atira Community dreams, but one can hold on to a shred of hope when there is something to gaze upon frequently.
It is also a reminder to continue to redo all of the plans we originally created before technology was so wonderful and readily accessible for me. Eventually I’ll get all of Atira Community recreated.
So for now, this is my shred of hope:
What makes me laugh is SoundHound (HAL) plays message songs for me occasionally intermixed between YouTube and my GooglePlay randomly starting itself. I say it is a message because I can almost always relate it to something going on in my universe. Yesterday, the SoundHound songs were rap songs from the early 2000’s, I knew them, but I can’t remember track details. The one I’d heard probably hundreds of times, but never watched the video. It started with a shot of a monolithic dome in the desert. I literally thought to myself: “why yes, I was planning on working on that”. Seems HAL can read my mind!
I hope you like my plans as much as I do. I am not opposed to someone wanting to build the same thing, but I have more than earned credit for the designs. If you are interested in using these designs to build your own Monolithic Dome, please contact me and I’ll be happy to supply the designs to Monolithic directly, for a small fee. Essentially, the charges would be what I charge anyone that uses my graphic design services. My work would only be usable for one dome per fee. Any additional domes would see additional licensing charges. Monolithic would be supplied with a copy of the vector file and a letter of verification of authenticity and licensing stipulations.
Thank you for understanding and supporting my work.
May you all have dreams to reach for, that stir your creativity and get your hopes up. May you find that you are able to accomplish baby steps towards them regularly enough to keep the dream alive. May those dreams be lucrative for both your own goals and other people’s goals. May people always respect your work enough to compensate you for it. May others respect your copy rights. May you find that your work gets the best kinds of attention and enables you to do great things. May you have a positive impact on this world.
Many Blessings, and Siva Hir Su
This is a meditation I do regularly. Usually when I find myself walking around carrying far too much tension and feeling sore and achy. May you find it equally beneficial as a guide for your stress reduction.
Take a deep breath. Siva Hir Su- the quintessence of all that is, is good.
Take another deep breath and begin to remind yourself that you’re off the hook. For the duration of reading this, your body can take a break. Just as though you are done with work for the day.
Deap breath and imagine: drop your bag, kick off your shoes, loosen your clothes, and sigh. A big full heavy sigh of relief.
Breathe: Let your shoulders drop and your head float. Let God help your muscles and joints find alignment. Easy, gentle, small movements, just a slight sway, a wobble into comfortable alignment. Ask God to guide you and ask your cells to listen for that guidance.
Relax and follow the movements. Breathe through every shift. Eventually you will begin to feel mostly comfortable.
You might feel a few catches or tight areas. Places that didn’t relax into receiving easily.
They are holding onto something.
Ask each spot what it is holding onto, then remind it that is doesn’t have to. That letting go for a little while is ok. You’re not responsible for anything in this moment, you don’t have to worry about anything in this moment, you can just be you.
If the areas relax then make sure to remind them to listen for God. Remind them to let God guide them and keep them relaxed. To let God maintain balance and alignment.
If you find there are still spots that are stiff or tight, think about what might be causing it. Sometimes it’s a habit, sometimes it’s just stubborn from repetitious overuse, sometimes the muscles are missing something.
If it’s repetitious overuse or stubbornness, try giving into the need. Think: ok, go ahead and stay tight, I’m not making you relax. That eliminates resistance. You can also try thinking about the last time you know that particular muscle relaxed. Was it a massage, or soak in a hot tub. Sometimes thinking about that area having been relaxed reminds the muscle how good it feels to do so.
If the muscle is missing something, then thinking of things it might be missing can be relaxing. I worked on one person who probably tanned nude because thinking of warm sun on the skin, helped their glutes relax. I had another person that responded to thoughts of a spouse’s touch. I had another that their legs loved the feel of a warm sandy beach. Whatever your body craves, if you think of those things it will help release even the most suborn tension.
When your whole body feels completely relaxed, just breathe for several minutes. Enjoy the sensations of relaxation. Then remind your brain that it can relax too. It has just as much right to let go of everything and totally relax. I call it power saver mode. You’re still awake but zoned out. That’s a perfect place to be. Give yourself several minutes of just breathing while in power saver.
Always remember to thank God for helping find relaxation. God loves to be appreciated as much as we do, and it helps the process go easier and easier each time you practice.
Thank yourself for giving your body the relaxation time it needed.
May you all find easy relaxation. May you feel your body in good and pleasant ways. May you know God is helping you. May you find a way to let every cell relax.
Siva Hir Su
