Category Archives: reality check

Life and Liberty

Ha I won
I am in the
New world
I survived
It only gets
Better from here
Moving forward

Make me cry
From burried
Memories
Make me scream
From social
Travesties
Make me doubt
From symptoms
Energetic
Make me hurt
From old
Manipulations

Yet with all
I'm still
Standing
Tall & strong
Pulling my own
Uplifting &
Providing
Caring
I'm still
Aware & open
Yet more
In control
Of myself
Than ever
More aware
Of what is
Mine and
What is
Not

My soul knows
Travesties
Unjust
Memories
Passed
Symptoms
External
Hurts
Fixable
Reactions
Reducing
Each moment
Of understanding
Bodies healing
Releasing
Relaxing

Seeing
Strong
Negatives
In feelings
Mean passion
For alternate
Solutions

Even if
Feminine
Attracted
Contributed
To negatives
In experienced
Masculine is
Also adding
Both are
Responsible
Equal in
Blame
And Owe
Each other
Corrections
And reparations
It takes at
Least TWO
To create

Feminine
Must Birth
Then Masculine
Must balance
Providing
When
Birthing
Exhausting
Overwhelmed
Regardless
Of nature
Be it
Child
Thoughts
Or ideas
Manifest

Should
Conception
Birth
Ever
Be forced
By masculine
Then triply
Responsible
He owes
Feminine
Reparations
For carrying
For birthing
For Traumas
& Damages
Encurred
& All
Aftermath
Endured

Should
Masculine
Fail or
Renig
Then also
Feminine is
Free to make
ANY choice
Including
Temination
Of that which
Was conceived

If feminine
Was forced
She owes
Herself
Everything
Forgiveness
For allowing
His unjust
Travesty
To lay
Ruin
To her
Genuine
Desires
For if he
Answered calls
In misalignment
It is his
Failure
His dense
Misinterpreted
Misconstruction
Misunderstanding
For not all
Creative
Moments
Require
Force
Will
OR
Sex

And sex
Is not love
Sex is a gift
Of intercourse
Shared between
Consenting
Adults
Only when
Love is
Already
Present
In equal
Exchange
It is so
Natural
It is
Untutored
And our
Bodies
Tell us
Immediately
When it has
Become
Wrong
Just
Feel

This is
One
Lesson
Necessary
For both sides
To see they
Are two
Halves
Of one
Non-binary
Universe
Divine

Evolution
Of humanity
May Require
We all become
Hermaphrodites
And see both
Fully equal
In everyone
If sides
Fail to
Learn

Love
Must
Come
First
But one
Must know
What love is
To know
Giving
Love at all
Know self truly
& Completely
To know
Love
It is a
Feeling
Emotional
Deepness
Of soul
Present
Within
You
It must
Be found
To be held
It must be
Held to
Give

Love
Yourself
And leave
Everyone else
Out of it
If it's
Impossible
You've already
Croakingly
Ended


~Treasa Cailleach

May you see your half more clearly. If you’re like me and resonate with both, then see all of yourself, your mistakes, your corrections, and your reparations, know how to make everything right with yourself again, and it will spill fourth to your manifested experience. May you see yourself as one non-binary divine whole in balance. May we all move forward with greater ease and speedy recoveries. May we enjoy our new more accepting world and help it find balance quickly, by finding our own balance quickly. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Looking

Waiting on a teen
Eyes so very sleepy
Sitting outside stores
Looking for the pretty
Keeping myself afloat
Best as I am can

Mans lights
Glow softly on
Tree branches waving
More a gentle rocking
The breeze is light, soft
Muggy with damp sprinkles
The air is warm
Enveloping

Low clouds
Catch errant glows
The many lamps
Lighting a
City night

My music
Graces my ears
Soothing mantras
Mellow beats to
Calm and center
Focusing on
Me better

I know some of
My symptoms belong
To others i should
Never have let in
I am a good girl
That didn't
Know how
To keep it out

I was too young
When violated
And didn't have
Anyone to help
Fix it

The darkness
Tonight is not
Comforting
So focus
On lights
I will

The light casts
Warm glows
Highlighting
Only the best
Beautiful greens
Fresh air blowing
A safe glow keeping
The bumps in the
Night away

The gentle rain
Turing windshield
Kaléidoscope
Reflecting
Lights
As tiny
Dancing dots
Glowing patterns
Washing the
Filth off
Cleansing
My soul

May these
Drops
My music
The lights
Keep me feeling
Safe cleansed
And healed
Whole as
Me


~Treasa Cailleach

May you always have help when repressed memories surface. May you have understanding for why or how something happened to you. May you forgive yourself for everything you couldn’t control and let go of the experience to heal. May you know it’s a distant bad memory and it never needs revisited because releasing the trauma leads to full healing. May you know you truly released all of it. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do, and they were there protecting you from worse. May you know that you are fully capable of choosing to overcome and being successful. May you know how to keep everything out now.

Om Shanti

It is something that happened to me, and I don’t need the details. It does not define me. I am still standing, and not just barely standing, no I’m standing tall and strong. I have supported myself from the beginning and will until the end. My awareness of abuse in this way mist mean something and will eventually turn to good as the scar fades to faint shadows. May releasing this memory, this blurry moment, bring deep lifetime healing.

Huh.

Look closely. There’s a nearly perfect hole in the bottom of my glass bottle. No significant cracks around it. The rubber sheath is untouched and the rest of the bottle is as normal.

I drank out of it yesterday. It sat on my desk at work. I put it in my bag, which rode home in Katherine’s car seat. At home I sat my bag on the fireplace the same as I do everyday.

This morning the bottle was pulled out of the bag to find the hole. No glass is in my bag. No holes are in my bag or the house.

And bonus it’s been a morning of household chaos, and feeling like I was drained of energy in my sleep.

WTF

Can anyone explain this one?

May you never have creepy unexplained mysteries that scare everyone. May you know you are on the right track. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Understanding

How can any
Man give
Love to
Another Human
Especially
Woman

How can
They know
Love
When their
Fathers
Did not

How can
Any man
Show respect
Give love
Cherish
Honor

When their
Fathers
Didn't
Couldn't
Would not
Too...?

When their
Mothers
Failed
To set
Straight
Educate

Generation
After another
Generation
Repeating
Repeatedly
Wrongness

Watching
Men
Disrespect
Mistreat
Lie to
Women

Watching
Women
Take
Abuses
Multiplied
Silently grieving

Vicious
Cycles of
Illbegotten
Dominance
Ruining
Wasting

Destroying
Trust
Faith
Caring
All Divine
Gifts Ignored

Boys
Learning
To molest
Mistreat, rape
By father's
Actions

Girls
Learning
Futility
Before words
Giving in
Instead of

Standing
Ground
Standing
For inner
Divinity
Strength

This goddess
Standing
Strong
Tall
An Amazon
Warrioress

Will
Turn
Tables
Wear the
Other shoe
And set right

One goal
Figure out
How to do it
Without violence
Without becoming
Just like them


~Treasa Cailleach

May you know you can right wrongs by stopping the momentum of wrongs repeated. Even Mack Truck sized wrongs may flatten us, but our will can still stop them in the process. May we never be flattened and still change wrongs to rights, break shackles for freedom, level dominance with equality. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

We Could Be Just Like Them

Should read: We Could Be Just Like Them (unable to italicize title).

If every woman picked up the nearest gun.

Then turned and pointed it at the nearest man and pulled the trigger.

Then the problem would be solved. No more men, or extremely few, all just women.

None of us would hold each other responsible, because they wanted to take our rights.

It’s just war right?! We’d never have to fight for anything again.

We’d never have to protect ourselves from rape.

We’d never have to protect ourselves from carrying an unwanted child , that we didn’t ask for, that we didn’t want, that was forced upon us.

We’d never have to give birth and care for children in poverty because Pro-lifers stop caring after birth.

We’d never have to watch children massacred in schools.

Problem solved. We could be just like them.

Or we could just let them make us have kids, let them take our abortion rights, and do absolutely nothing else. Let nature take us women and our children out, because medicine wants us to believe that every pregnancy is so risky that we’re all just going to die anyway, unless medicine intervenes violently and extremely. So let’s just all die in childbirth. That’s okay.

Or maybe men could get the effing point here. It is our right. If you choose to dominate us and restrict us, but fail to end rape, incest, molestation, and other atrocities, and fail to secure safe birth without violating women’s bodies, then we can fight war.

Men have no problem fighting war after war and hoarding guns, so us women have plenty of access without even needing to go buy any. Your wars are over money, oil, lands, and politics. Our wars are reserved for when it really counts, is not that we can’t kill, we’re just more judicial in when we choose to do it.

Or maybe we can all realize that COVID fucked our brains and that the progress made was for good reason and not undo anything.

Just saying that poeople seem more and more fucking crazy and trying to go back to before Roe v Wade seems ludicrous. Times were not good then either, that is unless you believe Barney Fife whole heartedly.

May we all have brains and respect each other’s rights even if we don’t personally see the benefit of something. May we realize that even though we might be safe and feel safe, others might not without this vital law. May we all do what is best and what is right and continue to aim for improvement. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in that you do.

Om Shanti