Category Archives: release negatives

Confounding

They never
Honored or
Respected her
While living
The father
Made certain

She was never
Rewarded or
Given awards
Or medals
Any such
Accolades

The only
Gold
Bestowed
Bands of vows
& Chains of
Implied
Meaning

Valued
Far less
Than than
Heartache
Incurred
Decades
Over

So why
Now
Why in
Death is
There a
Need
To honor
Respect
With
Displays
And show

She
Never
Wanted
Any of it
Always
Simply
Fighting
For freedom
Which now
Finally
She has

Ultimate
Freedoms of
All freedom
Release
From
Bonds
Banded
Chained
Symbols of
Necessity
Incurred
With
Vows

Her life
Brought
More
Required
Much more
Than she
Bargained
And now
She is
Finally free
Of all of it

Instead
Of honoring
Her service
When honor
No longer
Matters
Hasn't
For
Decades

Instead
Of respecting
Her sacrifices
When sacrifice
Is no more

Why isn't
Her
Memorial
A celebration
Of her victory
Her biggest
Success
Having
Gained
Her ultimate
Freedom

She would
Have wanted
A drunken
Soirée
With ashes
Dumped under
A great tree
Or in a big pond
Or in the ocean

Either way
I know
She is
Still here
In my mind
In my heart
My experience
And I've
No need
For me

Being there
Watching
Listening
Feeling
Everything
Unsaid
Covered
By words
Said

I've learned
I deserve
Better
Than
That

~Treasa Cailleach

Works

So many
Seen
Working
Striving
Stressed

Missing
Blessed
Tired
Sore
More

Rather
Not be
In their
Shoes
Ever

Their
Work
Just
Doesn't
Work

What
Does
Work
Mostly
For most:

Knowing
Get done
It will
Or not
Is okay

Knowing
It's good
Because I am
Always good
Focused

Knowing
There's
Plenty
More than
Enough

Knowing
I am
Healthy
Flexible
Capable

Knowing
I care
For
Myself
Always

Knowing
I love
Myself
My body
And all

Knowing
I am a
Unique
Creator
& Healer

Knowing
The food
Chosen
Imbibed
Matters

Knowing
The clothes
Protecting
Adorning
Matter

Knowing
The ability
To express
Creatively
Matters

To Be
Self
Highest
Importance
Always

That is
What
Works
Always
For most


That is
What
Enables
Relaxed
Flowing

Goodness
Present
Of self
In all
Works


~Treasa Cailleach

May you know your work is being yourself always. May you know that being yourself creatively is the best way to work. May you know that abundance is a given when you find yourself flowing the way you desire most. May you see your abundance all around and know it is safe to express yourself in whatever way you choose. May you know it is all okay, no matter if it gets done or not. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Own Self

Some
Choose
Ignorance
Pretending
It's not
There

Some
Choose
Denial
Pretending
It's something
Elsewhere or
Elsewise

Some
Choose
Isolating
Stuffed
Into
Boxes
Ignored
Indefinitely
Eventually
Causing
Disease
Death

Some
Choose
Desperate
Overwhelmed
Convoluted
Process
Of all
At once
Never to
Finish
Any
1


I
Choose
My own
Processing
1 at a time
As they
Come
Knowing
There are
Many waiting
To Be addressed
Processing as
Each is set
Displayed
In front
Of me
I Know
They're
All there
I also know
They each
Have
A Time
& Space
Their own
Allowing
A cycle
Flowing
Changing
Myself
For
Better
Brighter
1 Manageable
Step at a
Time in
Present
Space
Here
NOW

It is
My
Way
It is
ME
It is
My
Choice
It is
My
Change

I am
Responsible
I am
Owning
Myself
I am
1

~Treasa Cailleach

May you find your way through navigating tough times. May you understand how others choose doesn’t have to dictate your own choices. May you understand the most important choice of all is doing what you need to in any given moment, and always reaching for better in that moment. May you make it through dark days and hard times knowing that the other side brings light and love and eventually everything works out just fine one way or another. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Peace and chocolate

Rest in peace momma. I got the call this morning on my way to work that my mom had passed. 74 years old, nearly 75. Her choice, and as kind of a transition, as her beliefs, conversations, and habits allowed. I am grateful she had the support she needed and wanted, and I’m grateful I was able to visit a couple times recently. I hope she finds her stallion on the other side like she talked about in recent years.

The evening held a family zoom where we talked about a memorial service, I felt useless, as she never said anything to me beyond “scatter my ashes in nature”. I can list a couple dozen songs she loved, because I love them because of her. I know she really loved Amazing Grace done well on bagpipes, and I even know a piper here in KC that does it, but discussions were for northern Iowa. Not something I could pull off, so I offered a recent good picture printed large and reminded everyone she liked the music.

Now I am milking a bit of chocolate while I wait for my teenager to get off work. I’m really tired and know that the fullness of this transition has not quite registered in my brain yet. Time is the biggest factor in grief, it’s a process that unfolds much like an onion- full of tears and no one else can do it for you.

I had a poem in mind while I was working that was functioning as a decent distraction, but I’m not sure I have enough time or energy to flesh it out here. Another day or time will have to do.

May you find greif gentle on you. May you handle every transition with grace. May your eyes stay dry when necessary, but may you have all the time you need when they don’t. May you find your own peace in knowing another found the peace they sought. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Brain Relations

Anecdotal. Based on 1st and 2nd hand accounts in my experience. Take it with a grain of salt.

I’ve already talked about the cvid attacking whatever weak spot someone had. I’ve also already discussed my theory that it sped up manifestation of vibrational patterns.

An example of both; I’ll use Nathan, even though he’ll hate it (sorry honey). He has a pattern of “trying to” learned in youth, and hard to break (same as my patterns). Louise Hay stated in her book that the energy of trying can be a cause of kidney problems and she listed affirmations to solve it- when she wrote the book in the 80’s. The energetics of trying, eventually leads to kidney disease and Louise noted it decades ago, and figured out how to heal it. Nathan caught cvid and between the energetics he carried and meds he took, kidneys was his weakness. It was the first and most drastic hit of his cvid experience. What would have taken an entire lifetime to readily show dis-ease before, was shortened into less than a year.

I’ve seen the pattern repeatedly in everyone I come in contact with, and in their particular variation. But there’s more.

I’ve now had a couple clients mention “Covid Brain” as now being a noticed thing, awareness of it, but no full diagnosis or treatment. I suggested, at first mention, that it’s because doctors are happy to supply antidepressants, but if cvid actually caused damage to the brain it’s not going to be solved by prozac.

But it got me to thinking, especially with my battle and how it manifests. What if it is even more than that.

Because of cvid, I am now an open conduit to others energies, and have picked up on all my ailing relatives, pretty much every client leaves an energetic trail in my body, and even coworkers are impacting my awareness in big ways. I hold none of them responsible, it is just one way cvid affected me, and something I am actively managing. At the same time, I have a hell of a time kicking out negative thoughts. I’ve mentioned all this before. It has made my daily routine cumbersome in an attempt to keep myself up and afloat. I’ve also mentioned before that one of the ways I solve it, is to kick it out as if it was a person in me. Statements like “you are not me and I deserve better”. For the ailments, statements like “this nausea isn’t mine, get the eff out”. It has worked, so I keep doing it. It’s even worked on a bit of toe fungus that suddenly appeared about a month ago. I had a moment where I simply knew it wasn’t mine, and went with it. I mentally and verbally rejected it and now it’s cleared up on its own.

Then there’s this awareness that people are not-so-gradually losing their minds and behaving in atrocious ways, in public, online, everywhere. There are no filters anymore, and people are not-so-gradually getting more and more ludicrous and rediculous.

It has made me think. My brain does that; I respond by analyzing everything from every angle, especially when attempting to produce solutions.

The human brain is the closest thing to a computer that we have outside of electronics. I am not in IT, but have had more than one device killed by electronic viruses. I was in highschool when the Trojan was deleveloped and was crashing computers left and right. I understand the basics of how most computer viruses work.

And I see a parallel.

Computer viruses attack the weakest point and utilize the system to replicate to their own advantage, disabling the system to do anything else. They use whatever available to encourage not just the process, but replication to other devices.

I’m beginning to think that cvid has done just that, but with the human brain and body.

It infiltrated via whatever was our weak point. Nathan was kidneys; for me was thyroid, immune, and brain function itself.

Then once in, it started churning out negative thoughts to encourage other weaknesses to become noticable. I’m beginning to wonder if Nathan’s kidneys took a minor hit (why it took them so long to diagnose), and then the negative thought loop of the virus caused the ship to sink so to speak, and caused the sudden need for dialysis.

It would also explain, how even though I know I have worked my ass off to fix my health, I’m suddenly susceptible to other’s symptoms and had toenail fungus out of nowhere.

If your brain has really been hijacked and you don’t even know, then how can anything be healed. See the problem is many of our thoughts are nonverbal in nature and many of them control organ and body function.

You don’t think “kidneys please clean out my blood today and remove all the toxins”. Your brain just tells them to do so, and a particular chemical storm enables the process.

Now imagine instead, that the entire process is being controlled by a virus that intends to hoard everything it desires (toxins and nutrients alike), starve your body &/or organs of what is needed, and keep you alive just long enough to spread the virus further.

So now your kidneys are told go into standby function, and you don’t even know it, you weren’t aware anything changed, and it isn’t something you can see the results of immediately.

What then? How you do make a virus controlling your body in a negative manner, stop?

Do everything possible in opposition.

It’s been my plan all along and it is working. People have watched me and noticed my bad days in a variety of ways. They have seen the chaos and worried about me. They have noticed lots of things and not understood what I was attempting to convey. But I’m winning. I’m a winner, and always have been. I’m kicking this one in the ass, it’s just really slow going.

How?

By doing all the things that have always worked for me, regardless of what my brain tries to tell me, or how I feel at the moment.

I kick out every negative thought that I do notice. I take every opportunity to note and abolish anything that I know for certain isn’t mine. I tell my body things about how amazing it is and how it works so splendidly in certain ways (you may have noticed some of this in my poetry of late). I acknowledge that I am practicing all the good healthy habits as much as anyone in my shoes could. I am doing everything right, and I am certain of it because of my years of experience and previous history. I simply know that I am doing an amazing job kicking an insidious beast of a chronic infection in the ass. I label that beast with many different labels based on the context and factors involved, but in every situation I am acknowledging “this thing is toxic, it is lieing to me/my body, get it out, I deserve better”.

Simple and complex simultaneously.

I’ve even talked with Nathan about this quite a bit. He has been reading “Becoming Supernatural” by Dr. Joe Dispensa. It was recommended by one of my clients on a parallel journey, and it had helped her with some action steps, so he has been putting it to action in meditating on growing a new kidney. But I have encouraged him further. I suggested: What if the kidney failure was virus lies? Take self talk into the realm of opposition. AKA: My kidneys were lied to, they work just fine, and all the elements and descriptors that you do know to be true. Fill in the gaps where medicine can’t. I told him to tell himself he is healing and that his kidneys are improving and what that would look like. We discussed the visible signs to watch for, assuming it will work, including bringing up the memory of being over-dialized.

I told him to treat his brain like a computer fighting a virus. Quarantine every noticable instance. Delete contaminated files, and/or restore to prior version. Overwrite thought patterns that allow the virus to flourish.

There is no human antivirus (stupid vaccine did nothing truly helpful). So, we have to individually create our own mental antivirus software, we have to catch every bit of it ourselves. We have to eliminate every instance ourselves and create better every moment. We have to make it obvious to the virus that it isn’t welcome in our brain or body, and do everything it would rather we not do. Make it want to leave.

If you have to take up writing poetry to help yourself focus on that. Then do it. Make art with that goal. Take supplements that help even if your brain contrives nausea. Exercise even when your brain tries to convince you that you’re too tired. Stretch to fix stiffness. Salt baths to help stiff, sore, or bogged down with other’s energies. Eat stupid healthy, even if your brain tries to convince you otherwise. Eliminate stress every way possible. Turn your back on arguments or negatives you can’t control.

Anything and everything needed to nix negatives and replace with positives.

Like NIKE- Just do it.

And don’t expect a miracle… Hope for it if you want, pray for it too, but more just allow yourself the time and space to enable your body to do what it was designed to do. And it does take time.

We were first round- January 2020, and positive Omicron January 2022, with maybe 2 rounds during Delta timeframe (unconfirmed despite avid testing). I’ve watched clients, friends, family, all deal with the aftermath, some in denial but still very obviously in the midst of it. I’ve wrangled my own long-haulers, while navigating for my immediate family, because they all really on me. I’m still not 100% clear, but I’m far enough that I can see the trajectory enough to believe I’m over the hump. Regardless, I can tell by the way I feel and results I’m getting that I’m on the right track. I will win this, and my writing this post is in hope that it will help others. After this post I’ll likely go back to mostly poems.

FYI. One last note. I’m a bit stunned how much of what Abraham Hicks has been teaching for the prior 15 years applies directly to this sentiment. I’m really just rewording their message, but with emphasis on how it applies to fixing the damage and resetting your body to original standards. It’s almost like they knew this was inbound and we needed the mechanics I just described, to fix it. I know I have it down well enough to maintain stasis. Now I just need to move into solid improvement enough to be visible to others.

May you see the process and how to clear the hump. May you clear all the negatives and heal fully. May you understand the fullness of things in your experience and how they might help yourself and others around you. May you know that you can win against this or anything else. May you see the miracle of your body and know anything that isn’t yours doesn’t belong. May you have a clear and relatively easy path to the solution. May you know you can do it. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti