Category Archives: When I’m not so crazy

Wowsers.

Two humorous but kinda astonishing tidbits from the last 24 hours.

1) Yesterday after work Nathan and I went to the grocery store and ordered Chinese while there. I went to pick up the order and meet him at the car after we both checked out. On the way back to the car, carrying a very large bag of takeout and still wearing scrubs, I was hit on. A 30 something black man dressed like Tupac said “Hey there doctor lady, how you doin’?”. I replied “Doing ok, but I’m not a doctor.” He said “Where’s your wedding band?” I replied “My tattoo is my wedding ring.” He said “That’s respectable.” I kept walking, never having broken stride.

I later laughed with Nathan in the car. I was flabbergasted, and said “Did he really think that was going to work?!” Nathan reminded me of the many people that treat passes like a game of darts or the lottery- at some point one should surely stick. I was sad for the woman that would fall for his line. Despite having complete freedom to act on such an offer, I was so annoyed and appalled at his attempted pick-up lines that I couldn’t have even remotely wanted to. I reminded the universe that I have always wanted quality over quantity. He was most definitely not quality, I’m much happier with the black man I do have, and would rather like some quality partners like Nathan, especially at least one woman. Despite enjoying the moment of being hit on, it was of more value as an amusing clarifying experience.

2) Amazement! My little Katherine is a bonified cat girl.

Nathan tried to put her in the crib 3 times this evening. She wouldn’t go down without a fight.

The struggle started with holding his shirt and reaching a foot to the crib rail.

Finally her got her in and I went to hug him and Ian before bedtime rituals began. As we were in our group hug she climbed out and we turned around just in time to see her like this on the rails.

We put her back in the crib, got the camera cued up and waited. She wouldn’t do it again until we turned around. So she again was perched atop rails before I got pictures.

We reset, we wanted to catch her in the act. Again she wouldn’t do it for us. I stowed the phone but didn’t turn around. She finally started climbing. She was wedging her feet and calves between the verticle rails and inching up enough to get one foot up on the top of the rail. She was so fast I didn’t get a shot of that moment and ended up with a third round of her standing on the side of the crib!

Jimminey Freaking Christmas! What are we going to do with a cat baby that refuses to talk! There isn’t anything she can’t do physically now. I really would like for her to start talking.

May you have amusing moments of clarification. May you be happy for your children’s milestones, even when they scare the crap out of you. May you know how to handle your super smart, born tech ready, children. May you always have quality over quantity. May you enjoy and appreciate the qualities in you that lead to the myriad of moments like these two. May you know you are loved and supported. May you appreciate the good aspects of all moments.

Siva Hir Su

Marketing Hate

My conclusion today is that there is nothing I can do to help those that fell for the marketing. The news outlets (those 6 big companies of the world) have not just created fear of a disease, they have made lots of money off of the marketing of hate.

If we were talking about any other subject, a person’s perseverance and accomplishment would be rewarded with accolades and congratulations. Yet today we stand with a society so divided in politics and everything that can even remotely be related, that it even affects our mental processing of disease. Because of that, most are punishing those that have suceeded in health, instead of congratulating them.

It wasn’t good enough to get everyone scared out of their minds over yet another disease to afflict humanity. We had to take things one step further and create an environment of hate over it. It makes me sad.

The acupuncturist was kind enough to let me try an alternate disposable, we’ll soon see if I react to it or not (the last disposable caused hives in a few hours).

I now wear masks more often, not out of fear of diease nor out of any sense of duty. No merely because those that fell for the fear and hate marketing want to make sure you know it. I am more concerned about fear haters trying to ruin businesses than any other aspect of this disease.

I’m not so petrified that I cower in a corner. I continue doing my best to bring the light and quietly wear my mask and send prayers that people come to their senses.

This country I live in, prepared for the bubonic plague in the most haphazard and careless way, yet we got a new version of the flu. What’s most rediculous is that the bubonic plague still exists and occasionally rears its ugly head, yet we never react to it in this way.

We will never solve disease as long as we have hate, fear, anger, frustration, or any one other the many other negative emotions and beliefs that cause dis-ease. Being that those emotions are inevitable in the human emotional cycle, and many of the beliefs seem to be nearly as inevitable, it would likely be impossible to eliminate disease. All of humanity would have to learn to be Jesus or Buddha or Quan Yin. We would all have to find our wholly ascended states to eliminate disease. That is highly unlikely.

Yet there are so many that fell for the marketing of this disease, that they have likely caused a collective attraction point for another more severe disease. I sincerely hope that those of us doing our best to bring the light have tipped the scales away from that.

Regardless, I know that I have been on a continual path of improving my health, and will continue as such. I am certain that I am healing my body of chronic mild internal diseases, and in turn making it even easier for me to overcome acute external diseases like the flu and covid. I am starting to see the signs myself and it makes me feel even better.

I have worked hard at improving and maintaining my health, and I simply can’t let those living in fear and hate bring my confidence down. I have worked so long and hard to see my results and I deserve every moment of sensing accomplishment.

So, I quietly know that I am doing well enough to not worry. I gently state through masked face that I’m not concerned about getting sick when someone says something about their mask and whether they should do this or that. I educate when someone is open to it, and have a good laugh when someone is in my ‘boat’ of knowing floating down our enjoyable stream.

I wish I could soothe fears and educate the misguided, but realize that it is not my place. I can not fix that which is too far outside of my vibration and caused by entities out of my control. I can merely do my best to relax them physically and hope that they find a moment of peace that might help their broader vibration rise a bit. Perhaps in turn that will be enough that they sense how misguided they are.

For now, I am grateful that I am overcoming limitations learned from my parents in early childhood. I am grateful I am really allowing healing for myself. I am grateful that my body is beginning to show the healing. I am grateful that I made it though everyone else’s crazy relatively unscathed. I am so very grateful that I understand dis-ease and disease on multiple levels and have the ability to avert both easily. I am ever so grateful for my connection to my higher self and God-force that keeps everything going and aiming for better and better vibrations and alignment.

May you know your ability to find health and healing. May you feel good in your accomplishments of it. May you be confident in your knowing. May you find peace and let your light shine to help balance humanity towards health and ease. May you sense your connection in the most helpful ways. May you see your ability to help others relax and find ease. May you know you are protected by the Divine. “May the force be with you.” May you know you are supported and loved. May you love yourself.

Siva Hir Su

Cute kids and garden growing

Not much else to say today. I worked at the one fill in job and there was AC units going out and some virus regulation based complaints. Otherwise it was a draggy day and not too eventful. I just wanted to share some pictures of not work. Kids being cute and my garden growing. We’ve been able to harvest lettuces a couple times already and that makes me really happy.