Category Archives: When I’m not so crazy

Kids, cats and puppy dogs

Katherine decided to turn me into mount mommius tonight. I was tired, ready for bed, and already slouching before she climbed me, and it only brought more slouch. Yet it was too cute to not share my child perching on my shoulder like a baby bird.

It was similar in sensation for me to the other day when she tried to mount me while foam rollering. We realized afterwards she was trying to copy me, pose and all.

Another cute moment was big sister Anya made a dandelion crown for them and we got pictures of both of them enjoying the pretty garnishment.

I’ve even had moments of cuddling (and sleeping) surrounded by littles- human and four legged.

Even Zen has had some good times the last couple of weeks. He has taken to trying to hug me, standing up on his hind legs and wrapping paws around my torso. He isn’t good at balancing though so no one has caught it on camera. In fact the only moment that has been caught on camera is some of his back yard antics with wood pieces. He keeps dragging logs and sticks out of our ‘to be burned’ pile and knawing on them. We think he needs more toys!

Buddy really enjoyed some fresh catnip from the garden.

And Katherine and I took a bit to sit and enjoy some not so dreary weather a couple days ago.

All in all, I’m rather enjoying more and more good moments with my family. There are still tantrums, and bickering and all the nonsense that toddlers get into, but I love my kids and cherish all these good moments. That is what life is worth living for.

On a separate note, I finally got some of my little drawings framed and properly hung in my office. It’s nice to see them more properly displayed.

Finally, I’m really really enjoying the time I have been able to devote to artwork. After my 3 massage sessions today, I was able to sit and do another shirt design and then I spent awhile contemplating adjustments to my own business logo. It is a really good change of pace and the creativity is so good for my heart and soul.

May you have blessed moments of cute and adorable to brighten your days. May you have many good things to look forward to. May you see and feel the love around you. May you have ample outlets for uplifting creativity. May find beauty all around you. Finally, may you enjoy life more than not.

Siva Hir Su

Almost back to ‘normal’

I’m a little stiff right now, but otherwise feeling better. And the stiff is no surprise because I walked 8994 steps today at work, inside one building, and no treadmill was involved. Just lots of back and forth, over and over again.

My one house call client asked if I was up to returning to giving her massages. I asked her to let me answer in the morning so I can see how stiff pans out overnight. I just know that I have to kneel and bend over a lot to give her a massage. My knee is still bruised, but I can kneel on a foam pad or small pillow and be fine there, but I definitely want my back to be normal before doing any significant bending.

Anyway, I am glad I am generally feeling better and I’m also very glad things are inching towards normal. I’m still certain Kansas City was an area hit long before our government did anything, so I’m betting the numbers of illnesses will be much lower than projected. I’m just happy to see more things open and more people participating in society again.

I’m also glad that my efforts at Thyroid healing are working. I’ve lost a little weight, generally feeling better- energy and emotions wise, inflammation is starting to subside, and even the pressure on my throat and voicebox has backed off. Those are all really good signs. I am hopeful that if I stick to protocols religiously I will have good results at next round of testing and sonogram.

I attempted to start writing my courses today, but didn’t get far. I sat down on my lunch break, and it was cut short by pseudo emergencies with residents. So essentially I started the Word doc and then looked up the formal structure I needed to fulfill. My handwritten notes did not actually get turned into any typed text. It’s a start, some notes and the details on what needs written is still aimed in the right direction.

I did hit a moment of overwhelmed at the end of a crazy day of work and looked at Nathan when he’d arrived to pick me up. I asked seriously if I was insane. He replied “only in the membrane” jokingly referencing the song. When I scowled at him, he said “No, you’re very intelligent with good information to share with the world. It’s a big task but you’re up to it.” I appreciated his real answer much more than the joking one.

All in all, today was a very busy, but very good day, and regardless of my momentary overwhelmed, I got this shit and will kick some intellectual arse.

May you have good busy days. May you find your knowing of being on the right track. May you know what to do and when. May you know you’ve got this, no matter what this is. May you appreciate your own abilities and feel better and better. May you be loved.

Siva Hir Su

Hooray 500!

So apparently I have written 500 posts throughout the last 4.5 years. Everything from my short snippets like my last post to 3000+ word rants and fantastical tales.

Usually though my posts seem to come in around 1500 words. That is just a manageable size that only takes me an hour or so to write (2 or 3 if distracted).

Anyway, less about statistics and more about the happy dance. Again, like running, writing was once a hated requirement. Now I seem to love it, it is so helpful for my brain to process things in my world. Sometimes to release them and end rumination. Sometimes to intentionally focus for better thoughts and momentum towards desires. Sometimes it’s merely to feel like my little human self is important to others outside of my daily routine.

Whatever the reason, I’m oh so grateful that I made friends with writing. I still consider myself a better creative writer than informational writer, but I’m very glad I am able to do both. Especially, since it will help me in writing my classes.

May you all make friends with things that ultimately help you be a better person. May you find your voice and know there are people out there that care. May you have good writing days and wonderful topics to offer discourse on. May you enjoy your life more than not, and finally, may you celebrate your accomplishments even when you might be the only one that cares.

Siva Hir Su