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Marketing Hate

My conclusion today is that there is nothing I can do to help those that fell for the marketing. The news outlets (those 6 big companies of the world) have not just created fear of a disease, they have made lots of money off of the marketing of hate.

If we were talking about any other subject, a person’s perseverance and accomplishment would be rewarded with accolades and congratulations. Yet today we stand with a society so divided in politics and everything that can even remotely be related, that it even affects our mental processing of disease. Because of that, most are punishing those that have suceeded in health, instead of congratulating them.

It wasn’t good enough to get everyone scared out of their minds over yet another disease to afflict humanity. We had to take things one step further and create an environment of hate over it. It makes me sad.

The acupuncturist was kind enough to let me try an alternate disposable, we’ll soon see if I react to it or not (the last disposable caused hives in a few hours).

I now wear masks more often, not out of fear of diease nor out of any sense of duty. No merely because those that fell for the fear and hate marketing want to make sure you know it. I am more concerned about fear haters trying to ruin businesses than any other aspect of this disease.

I’m not so petrified that I cower in a corner. I continue doing my best to bring the light and quietly wear my mask and send prayers that people come to their senses.

This country I live in, prepared for the bubonic plague in the most haphazard and careless way, yet we got a new version of the flu. What’s most rediculous is that the bubonic plague still exists and occasionally rears its ugly head, yet we never react to it in this way.

We will never solve disease as long as we have hate, fear, anger, frustration, or any one other the many other negative emotions and beliefs that cause dis-ease. Being that those emotions are inevitable in the human emotional cycle, and many of the beliefs seem to be nearly as inevitable, it would likely be impossible to eliminate disease. All of humanity would have to learn to be Jesus or Buddha or Quan Yin. We would all have to find our wholly ascended states to eliminate disease. That is highly unlikely.

Yet there are so many that fell for the marketing of this disease, that they have likely caused a collective attraction point for another more severe disease. I sincerely hope that those of us doing our best to bring the light have tipped the scales away from that.

Regardless, I know that I have been on a continual path of improving my health, and will continue as such. I am certain that I am healing my body of chronic mild internal diseases, and in turn making it even easier for me to overcome acute external diseases like the flu and covid. I am starting to see the signs myself and it makes me feel even better.

I have worked hard at improving and maintaining my health, and I simply can’t let those living in fear and hate bring my confidence down. I have worked so long and hard to see my results and I deserve every moment of sensing accomplishment.

So, I quietly know that I am doing well enough to not worry. I gently state through masked face that I’m not concerned about getting sick when someone says something about their mask and whether they should do this or that. I educate when someone is open to it, and have a good laugh when someone is in my ‘boat’ of knowing floating down our enjoyable stream.

I wish I could soothe fears and educate the misguided, but realize that it is not my place. I can not fix that which is too far outside of my vibration and caused by entities out of my control. I can merely do my best to relax them physically and hope that they find a moment of peace that might help their broader vibration rise a bit. Perhaps in turn that will be enough that they sense how misguided they are.

For now, I am grateful that I am overcoming limitations learned from my parents in early childhood. I am grateful I am really allowing healing for myself. I am grateful that my body is beginning to show the healing. I am grateful that I made it though everyone else’s crazy relatively unscathed. I am so very grateful that I understand dis-ease and disease on multiple levels and have the ability to avert both easily. I am ever so grateful for my connection to my higher self and God-force that keeps everything going and aiming for better and better vibrations and alignment.

May you know your ability to find health and healing. May you feel good in your accomplishments of it. May you be confident in your knowing. May you find peace and let your light shine to help balance humanity towards health and ease. May you sense your connection in the most helpful ways. May you see your ability to help others relax and find ease. May you know you are protected by the Divine. “May the force be with you.” May you know you are supported and loved. May you love yourself.

Siva Hir Su

8,745; 20,928; 17,416

That’s the number of steps I’ve incurred over the last 3 days. Almost all of them accomplished while also doing heavy lifting. … That’s 47,089 steps in 3 days along with hours and hours of hoisting belongings for our entire family.

We’re moving into our new home. Nathan and I doing it all alone as usual. Our Facebook friends were no help, no surprise there (have I mentioned there’s a reason I don’t do social media). The handful I direct texted or talked to in person were all predisposed. (Just once I’d love for one of the people we’ve helped to return the favor, and there’s quite a few of those.)

I could have hired movers, but that would have eaten money I could put towards finishing Anya’s bedroom, as that’s the room that was started in the previous owners’ house remodel, but not finished.

We all make choices, some are totally worth it, but still painful to get through. This would be one.

I love my family enough to ensure my dollars go toward more long-term oriented goals in making my choices. I’ll suffer the move to make sure my daughter’s bedroom is beautiful, and to her desiring, in the near future. It’ll also ensure windows get replaced sooner than later (as discussed before the offer was made). It also ensured I was able to get area rugs and a few pieces of furniture replaced that sorely needed it ages ago.

I am appreciating that I have the ability to even make these choices. I’m also appreciating that I find myself less worried about the dollars I’m spending. There is a knowing I’m making the best choices for my goals, and I have the finances to accommodate, even if it gets slightly tight at certain points in my monthly and yearly cycles. I’m still no millionaire, a long ways from that in fact, but I’m super appreciative that I’m no longer a few hours of work from food stamps. I’m ever so grateful that I’m much less worried about making my bills each month, and haven’t had to seek financial assistance from charities in several years. There could be more in my experience, but my gratitude for God’s help is immense because I have experienced far less for more years than I care to count.

Last night a church group was going door to door, passing pamphlets and preaching on repentance. She asked me if I was having fun moving and I just said no.

As she left I muttered to God that she has no idea how many years of penance I’ve experienced and if she really cared for others in her neighborhood she’d offer to help instead of preaching when I’m working my ass off. On their second pass through she had the kids that were with her help us for a few minutes. I thanked her and then proceeded to thank God with every box I lifted. I knew he had heard my grumbles, and that’s what matters.

I know that I’m part of the reason that others never return the favor, but I’m just not certain how. I know I’ve come to expect it, as this situation has been a repeat experience, so law of attraction is probably as major factor. However, I’m not certain that’s the only reason. I wonder if I am just not warm or friendly enough, or if my long hours of work that has been so beneficial to unburying financially, caused others to give up on me. I just don’t know for sure why, even though I’ve done heavy lifting for others, I never see reciprocation. It just is what it is.

The one friend that I know, who has already done wonderful things for me -my massage therapist of 7 years- lives over an hour away now. So, I didn’t have the heart to beg her for help knowing she’d have to drive so far to be of assistance. One day I’ll have more valuable friends that reciprocate my actions.

Probably long before that day, I’ll have a beautifully landscaped yard, Anya’s room will be finished, windows will be replaced, and we’ll have painted our home in beautiful bright hues of the whole rainbow. I even want to do at least one mural, though I’m not sure where yet.

For now my focus continues to be work and home. Things I already have, which I’m very appreciative of and grateful for, that can be improved upon. Once we are fully moved and settled, I’ll refocus on those things I started a while ago, books I’m reading, CEU instructor certification, artwork, etc. There is plenty for me to do to fill a whole lifetime, and perhaps at some point in all that God will surprise and delight me further.

May you all be satisfied with your choices, even when the consequences are less than desired. May you see and acknowledge your improvement. May you see God’s guidance and support in your life. May you have an endless list of things to be grateful for and appreciative of. May you see plenty to focus on in the here and now. May you have things that you can improve upon without too much difficultly or resource consumption. May you know that God is listening and offering replies. May you know you are loved and supported.

Siva Hir Su

My Polyamory

I have intentionally not written much on this topic because about a year ago I went and posted a bunch of links and good info from other sites. There are so many aspects to look at and perspectives to consider that it is all just too much for me to even attempt.

However, Nathan suggested that I write at least once on my experiences and opinions on the matter. So, I’m taking his advice.

First and foremost Polyamory is many loves, a plural relationship based in a foundation of love.

From the view of a successful balanced poly family, I’ve not had much luck, at least in maintaining such a plural commitment. However, I have had lots of fine tuning and reevaluating, which Abraham says is always a good thing. I’m going to agree.

Nathan and I used to be, what gets labeled “Unicorn Hunters” by more forceful poly opinions. We were ‘significant-others’ seeking a single bisexual female to balance my bisexuality. After several failed attempts to find our good fit, we relaxed into accepting that our perfect woman might come attached to another person. It might also happen that we find several people to meet both mine and Nathan’s needs and desires.

Our hesitation with accepting the concept of multiples, initially was brought on mainly by fearful thoughts of: how do you get multiple adults on the same page and keep them in agreement and in cooperation. Especially regarding children in the family, rules of behavior, setting expectations, and even logistics of cleaning and cooking. However, at this point in our marriage we have come to the conclusion that those are challenges any relationship faces regardless if there are 2 or 12 people. We also now have lots of experience dealing with each other and multiple attempts at significant-other additions. We’ve also come to conclusions that some things are easier if approached like companies handle staffing: creating schedules and assignments of tasks, which can always be adjusted and changed as needed.

So at this point we’re much more open to alternate options and arrangements for our family structure, and have a better grasp of the interpersonal needs that entails. Our main goal now is that a variety of needs and desires are met, and that all adults act like adults and remain considerate of the family as a whole when making significant decisions. If those decisions are likely to impact the family in a huge way (move, replace belongings, or decisions regarding educational or medical concerns) then the family should be consulted with a proposal before final decisions are made.

Informed consent is a mainstay of poly whether it’s in regards to sex, reproduction, or any familial life event. Furthermore, informed consent requires a certain level of communication skills. You may have a great idea, but if you can’t make your case well to those involved it’s likely to fall flat.

So those elements have become our biggest priorities.

Beyond that, previous relationships ended due to factors involving but not limited to: personality clashes, instability due to processing previous traumas, and a lack of commitment by one or multiple parties. So we have simplified our request to the Divine that: future partners have their own stuff figured out at least well enough to cause only more minor bumps, previous severe traumas have been healed likewise, and that all parties be willing to commit enough to work through remaining glitches. All relationships have bumps, bruises, and fights, but it’s the severity and willingness to work through them that enable the relationship to last. Everyone coming together to learn and grow and heal, leads to happy long lasting family.

Acceptance of our humanness, and unconditional love allows for infinite growth. To me that means that I might get mad or frustrated with someone, but as long as I can refocus and remember we’re all human and that I do love them, then I can work through the upset to find a solution. That is the place of understanding that I aim for everyone in my family to hold.

There are also factors like honesty, openness, truthfulness, cooperative attitudes, and open mindedness which would be very important.

Finally, I wish to add compromise. A mainstay of finding solutions is learning how to compromise. There is almost always an answer that everyone can live with. It may not be perfect in everyone’s opinion, but gets the job done. Finding those compromises is paramount to maintaining family cohesion, and adults wishing to be in my family need to demonstrate an ability to compromise.

In conclusion, my ideal of Polyamory has evolved over the last 15 years to be less about the fine details and more about overarching qualities that I wish for people to exhibit.

Not to be too cliche, but can’t we all just get along, and all you need is love, would be the more concise mentality.

May you all find your family based in love and acceptance, but which committedly works through compromise to ensure everyone just gets along.

With love, be well. Siva Hir Su.