I started it on a break at work, and finished it at home. It helped me to feel relief.
The relief stemmed from the feeling response of knowing that I am not alone in attempting to reach for, and educate others to reach for, making this shit we are stuck in just a little bit better. I do not hold hope for any sweeping changes in my lifetime, as in many respects I have watched the consumer economic models exaggerate decay, destruction, disease and discord which was started in my parents generation, if not slightly before. The negatives have been fought and countered with many positives, but have not been undone, and we have approximately a century of history and non-progressive “progress” destroying our humanity.
Yet this documentary brings the ray of hope that others see the challenges and see the elements of positive change. Everytime I watch something like this it helps me feel better about my role and my work in this world, which too often I would like to leave. I will keep doing my best and maybe humanity will surprise me before I die. Perhaps, since I already practice as many of these concepts as I’m able, it might one day pay off and help me and my family.
Atira was supposed to have a farming co-op like the Hawaiian farmer in this documentary has accomplished. Maybe one day. I can hope.
May you find your own personal health. May you see your own place in the interconnectedness of our universe. May you understand the roles we all have, and how we affect one another. May you see your route to healing and know for certain that your are getting there. May you have evidence of positive changes inside and outside of your singularity in the matrix. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.
So, this is going to be a double post day. I had two distinct topics I’ve wanted to write on for a couple of days now, but not had the time to do so. This morning I have off since it’s a holiday weekend, but I do work this afternoon at the fill in job. I’m going to attempt to get both posts done before needing to be at work.
This topic: Health journey
My morning has started with editing a pending shirt design, and then spending almost 30 min inverted.
Beyond the amusement factor, especially once cats tried to sit in my lap, I was trying to solve my back pain.
It has returned, but to a lesser degree. It had gone away, and I thought it was safe to resume working out. I did a mild run/walk only 35min, my minimum I aim for to trigger the anti-inflammatory chemistry in my body and brain. Then knowing I’ve had muscle spasms and back pain went to do yoga to stretch my hip flexors. I was doing good, and felt like things were releasing. I went to roll to my side to sit up and it spasmed again. Ouch.
I tried rolling the other direction and nothing. Okay.
Somewhere the imbalance of muscle tightness is causing muscles to spasm in a very particular way. I still feel like psoas and/or iliacus is to blame, but it’s manifesting in a less usual pattern. My obliques on the left are super tender and serratus posterior inferior has a trigger point flared in response to the primary concern. It’s just a huge mess.
After my yoga last night I foam rolled, but that only gets the superficial and 2nd layers of muscle. Then I had Nathan work on me to start chipping at the deeper layers of muscle. It helped but didn’t solve the problem.
So this morning I inverted to stretch the deepest layers.
That was more beneficial. I still have yet to release a band of muscle that I can feel, but can’t access by myself and I’m having difficulty explaining to my husband how to get to it without agony.
I’ve done it hundreds of times for others, and know the particular angle and way to apply pressure to reduce pain levels, and know it’s possible. Yet when you’re the subject and the teacher at the same time, it’s crazy.
It’s something like this: deep breath, gesture to approximate area, as he jabs I start telling him up/down/left/right/closer to the spine/etc in between gasps for air because of intense pain. I have no idea what angle his hands are at or what his posture is, or how to tell him to adjust what he is doing for it to hurt less. I’m just having to grin and bear it.
It’s been consistent enough I even considered it being kidney related. Yet if I had a kidney infection or stone it would be worse pain that would be consistent regardless of position or movement. This definitely is affected by movement and sometimes is barely noticable.
So I’m doing a salt bath and will have Nathan take another stab (pun intended) before I head into work. Hopefully my teacher half will do better so my subject half feels better. I’m also working with those Louise Hay affirmations for back pain.
In the other news I’ve been doing really well nutritionally. No chocolate, no grains, and extremely minimal legumes (black beans twice), even my nut/seed intake is way less and no walnuts or almonds.
Pretty much every day looks like this:
I still have breakfast shake and a 2nd shake later around lunch time (minimal protein and mostly green powder in coconut milk). Then dinner varies, but is all veggies like this:
So calories are as minimal as is safe. I’m not quite to the 300 calorie guy I saw interviewed in highschool, but my activity level is much higher than his was.
What is different is all the supplements that ensure adequate nutrition and boost the processes I need healing in.
RX Armour Dessicated Thyroid- low dose 1/day, first thing on empty stomach
2 OTC allergy meds- 1x/day
Really good probiotic (refrigerated), 2/day
3 ways to get magnesium, 8-10 pills distributed through my day
Bromelain and Enzyme complex for digestive support and to kill unwanted ickies- 1x/day first thing AM
Turmeric for anti-inflammatory, 2 pills 4x’s/day
Estrogen and Progesterone OTC partly for Thyroid function and partly for known hormone imbalances 1 dose/day
Vitex, helps balance hormones, 3/day
Saw Palmetto (4 doses/day) and Hyaluronic Acid (1 dose/day) to help repair my skin as I lose weight
Iron- I’m a woman and it helps thyroid function 1/day
Good quality prenatal- it’s the best ‘covers all the bases’ vitamin I have access to 1 dose= 1 pill 3x/day
Calcium: half tab, I only take it 2-3 times a week to aid magnesium absorption, otherwise I get too many leg cramps
Evening Primrose oil good source of GLA and helps hormone balance
Maca helps balance everything and give energy boost, 3/day
Omega-3 Fish Oil, aids brain, anti-inflammatory, 4/day
Chlorella, chellator for detox, 6 at dinner with some source cilantro
Vitamin C, helps immune system and absorb iron, 1/day with the iron
Cinnamon, Bitter Mellon, Vanadium, Gymnemea Sylvestre, Nopal Cactus, Berberine, ALA- all help with glucose management and can help heal pancreatic damage, 1 to 4 doses/day depending my needs except Vanadium- only ever take that 1/day
Finally, Keto BHB, mineral salts shown to help shed fat. I started it when everything else was very slow to show improvement, I’ve only taken it for 5 days, so we’ll see. 3 at bedtime.
So essentially, what I’m not spending on food has gone to supplements. Most of them I’ve known for a long time and I’ve essentially added back everything I did while pregnant. Pricy, but worth the results. The only one I’m unsure of is the new BHB, hopefully it stands up to is reputation and becomes worth it.
My goal is to heal my body and eventually not need any of this except the super healthy food.
So for those dressing recipes:
Half pint blueberries
Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
Stevia to tase (1 to 2 servings)
Blend with immersion blender and bottle it
Tsp mustard powder
Tbsp or 2 vegan soy free mayo
Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
Stevia (sometimes need to add when I get carried away with the mustard powder)
Water (~3 oz)
Dairy free Coconut Cream Ranch is another I use, but I make it following a recipe already found online. I also use a clean poppy seed dressing that’s available in grocery stores here in KC. Plus there are several green goddess type clean dressings to be found that are AIP friendly.
May you enjoy your multiple salads. May you accept eat to live over live to eat. May your health improve. May you heal your body. May you figure out solutions for your pains. May you feel good mostly. May you feel better in every way. May you know you are supported. May you have exactly what you need.
That’s a mannerism of Abraham Hicks that seems to fit today.
The other side seems to have quite the sense of humor, especially with me.
After following a ProCircuit Inc truck for what seemed like forever, messages started flowing again. I had to exclaim into thin air “Haha Ohm equals Om” after finally remembering the Greek letter omega on the Pro Circuit truck is used in electronics as a symbol for ohms. Their logo also includes a depiction of a wave, & I took that in combination with the other messages to validate I’d tripped into the higher vibration Abraham always talks about. I had found the right wavelength so to speak.
The interesting part is that it was accidental on this day, but Abraham stresses meditation is the key to finding it on purpose…. That’s the reason the ohm symbol was important. I have again slacked on my meditation practice.
Thanks baby, I love you, but I do need my time.
It also made me confess that I’m great at focusing when I am at least partly in control of my environment, but suck at it when there’s chaos beyond my control.
Yet, I do love the feeling I get when I’m in the zone. Warm and fuzzy all over, a-buzz with good feelings. Abraham stresses too that acknowledgement of that helps bring more if it, but it’s still a conscious decision to practice focusing on it. I need to work on that focus part, especially since I lose the feeling so easily at times.
Regardless, the messages were a little bit clearer after that moment. Seeing 9-until and exclaiming “Until what?” to then see D-wil and L-Luckly. I know something good is inbound, and yet again I’m excited without knowing exactly what for. It’s a good thing.
For now I cross my fingers that the birth is paid for by an entity other than me. Especially since I spent so much figuring out thyroid stuff. Labs confirmed I have a decent dosage on my desiccated thyroid medicine figured out. Could be a smidgen better, but it’ll do for now. What was of most concern is that labs also confirmed suspicions about my allergies and thyroid connection. I technically fall into Hashimotos with such high levels of antibodies, but have never been labeled as such by a doctor. Mainly because I figured out everything on my own and this is the first time labs even checked antibody levels.
What bothers me most is that even with 3rd trimester adjustments and being 98% faithful to that diet since birth, my antibody levels are still scary high. So, I’m realizing I need to be even more strict to get my body to stop attacking itself. That is vital to everything else in my body functioning properly.
So one more puzzle to figure out. This time I feel like the divine is guiding me to the answer, & I’m the one going kicking & screaming because I’ll have to say goodbye to my last few food pleasures.
I was already familiar with the Autoimmune Paleao diet, having tried it once before. Yet, it seems I’m going to have to try again. Here’s a chart found at this site that shows what the diet avoids:
Classically, some of those foods have been OK for me. Nuts, seeds, eggs, and some beans have usually been fine and not given me any symptoms. At least any physical symptoms that I could notice. Yet with my antibodies so high I’m obviously still reacting to things.
So perhaps it’s time to get ultra serious and really stick to AIP. I foresee having juices and pea-protein shakes (even though peas are AIP discouraged it’ll be the safest option for me & my history) to try & keep calories up to accommodate breastfeeding. It’s also a really good thing that avocado is okay, because I forsee it being my only real access to fats beyond meat. I’m so sick of being such an excessive meat eater right now that avocado sounds wonderful. How many ways can you eat avocados? Not sure right now, but I know I’ll find out. Perhaps I should just get several plants, because I’ll otherwise spend a small fortune buying them in fresh produce. Hmm. The possibilities.
I suppose for having gotten “bad lab results” I’m in a decent mood. That’s a good thing. It’ll help when I get around to figuring out what the hell I can eat. & on that note, I wish for all of you readers to enjoy what you eat and still have optimum health.