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I want to make it alright.

When love breaks the rules

It is still love

It hurts the vessel

Carrying such a heavy weight

Restricted by those that control

Sometimes the best controllers

Can’t prevent the love from

Spilling

Overflowing

Love can not be controlled

Only the vessel will get damaged

By God’s grace the vessel

Might be healed

Love doesn’t know rules

Love doesn’t care about

Age

Gender

Size

Color

Class

Health

Or even

Wealth

Love just is

Perhaps this vessel

Wanting to heal others

Will be truly healed

Perhaps this vessels’

Damage

Might be more of service

In healing society

Either way

Love is still love

This vessel

Will continue to carry

Cracked and spilling

For those that can not

Be un-loved

They can not

Be undone nor forgotten

It does not feel right

But somehow it must

Be alright

It is all this vessel

Really has

The only permanent

In otherwise impermanence

Slowing down.

I fell again yesterday….. Again! …. Right?!

The chiropractor was kind enough to adjust me again today, and provided a reminder I need to slow down and be conscious of caring for myself. I replied “I know, I promised I would slow down, but it’s so hard when I’ve spent so many years trying to do everything.”

It is though, falls are always God’s attempt at slowing me down. Sadly, or is it thankfully, they always work. So tonight I’m nursing angry muscles, partly from the fall and partly from the corrective adjustment. As I lay with a tennis ball wedged against my left psoas muscle, I’m catching up on watching notification videos, and the following was a powerful one.

Watch “Jacob Lee – Oceans (Official Music Video)” on YouTube

I really feel that one. Sometimes I do feel exactly how the singer did, especially in these crazy times where fear over a singular disease has caused all of society to cease real living. But it seems I’m getting better and better at finding my source, my inner always present divine half. The half that never leaves me, but sometimes it’s awfully hard to see or feel.

I went nearly 2 decades fighting off suicidal depression, and in the last five years I’ve found alignment more than not. I still have boughts of severe depression, but they’re shorter and shorter now, knowing all of my triggers and how to fix being in the hole. That information is priceless and I still look forward to the day I find total healing and those days disappear altogether.

I know I’m on the right track, and right now I’m literally throwing every tool I know at finding healing. It’s part of the reason God wants me to slow down, I am doing so much I probably need to give myself a breather and let my system catch up.

It made me a little mad though because I’ve now missed two days of workouts, the fall happening 90 min before my projected workout, and the aftermath making exercise a physical impossibility.

At one time I hated exercise because it was so difficult for me, now I miss it. At one time I hated running because it was so hard, no I look forward to making friends with it knowing it’s starting to help. At one point I hated cilantro, now I love it for it’s detoxifying effects having started the healing in my brain. There are so many things that I have a much much greater appreciation for, all because they help me feel better and they are slowly healing my brain and my body.

I wish that for everyone.

Beyond my gratitude over those solutions, I have immense gratitude for all of the people, current and past, that have helped me find solutions or fix me when my efforts are not enough or applicable (especially the chiropractor today). Those people that rescued me when I needed it most. Many were one time helpers, few have helped me repeatedly, but all were pricelessly valuable.

May you all see your worth. May you love your gifts from God. May you understand your challenges and love the solutions. May you live life to the fullest, and know that food is a tiny fraction of what that means. May you give back to the divine by helping others find the solutions they need. May you show gratitude for the people in your life that help you implement those solutions. May you love exercise and all of the things that enable you to live a greater life. May your greater living not only be more enjoyable, but of greater assistance to the world. May we all work together to create a better world for us all.

Siva Hir Su శివ హిర్ సు

Smells fishy.

Hopefully my last post on Covid19. Please do watch this Minnesota news report, it overlaps with much of what I have tried to convey, but from a senatorial doctor.

Watch “Bombshell by Dr. Scott Jensen on CV” on YouTube


https://youtu.be/bQsuqp0jA30

Additionally, I might add: why has no one significant (government agencies, AMA, etc) discussed how to deal with symptoms properly. Especially since we are now trying to keep Covid19 people out of hospitals. I know that several KC area hospitals have mandated to stay home unless symptoms are severe enough to warrant admittance to the hospital.

Dr. Oz apparently has discovered the medication for RA and Lupus inflammation keeps the virus at bay, as no-one on the medication has been sick enough to even be tested for the virus. So there is likely a correlation between the kind of allergic inflammation of RA and how the disease presents. I know for my own journey, when I have a flare up like that I rely on a dose of every OTC allergy medicine (Zyrtec, Allegra, and Benedryl, even Claratin combined) plus Advil-clear. So would my at home solution/alternative to RA medication also work for this virus? Only a doctor could determine that for sure, but someone has to try it to determine if it does.

Chris Cuomo on CNN discussed how he literally just had to willpower through anything uncomfortable and then he cleared it fine. His description made me think of how computer viruses work. Attack the weak spot and make you want to give up. I couldn’t help but have a Matrix moment, but also find a parallel to how I fix things in massage- bear the pain, work through the difficult, and it gets better.

However, supposedly beyond high fever, the major complication factor is excess mucous causing difficulty breathing. That is the same complication as many flu strains, most pneumonia strains, and asthma. Why is no-one (governing bodies, medical officials) offering the OTC early solutions to prevent and reduce or even potentially avoid the worst symptoms?

As in: we know Tylenol helps with fever, for this virus you may need to take X# milligrams every Y# hours because it is extra severe. Or: we know Mucinex cuts mucous, you may need to take as much as X# pills every Y# hours to handle the severity. Or: we know that Albuterol nebulizers help counteract any causes of difficulty breathing, so instructing people to purchase those supplies for someone at first sign of illness could prevent someone from even needing to seek further treatment (nebulizers and tubing have to be purchased from medical supply sources, but the only prescription needed is for the Albuterol refills themselves), especially since a machine can be shared by multiple people as long as each person uses their own mouthpiece. It’s the main factor as to why I’ve never been concerned about me or my family catching it. I, being an asthmatic, have a nebulizer and several mouthpieces, extra tubing and plenty of the Albuterol refills. Though if my whole family did get sick it would eventually deplete my supplies.

I know that any dosage recommendations would need a disclaimer “for adults only, consult a physician for pediatric situations”, but it would help most Americans that actually get sick. They have done things like that in the past when other diseases or flu strains were extra problematic. Why not now?

It bothers me that they are having doctors label ANY (even remotely possible cases) regardless of proof, as Covid19. That will sorely skew data. I explained to Nathan that there has always been a prioritizing of disease in cause of death, but this is different. Normally, if someone has asthma, and has lived with it for years and suddenly gets pneumonia and dies, the cause of death is labeled as pneumonia, because they had lived with chronic asthma. Simply put, they can’t label one death with multiple causes. So, even if a bout of asthma flare-ups led to the pneumonia, the pneumonia was what actually caused the death and it gets the blame. The way they are handling covid19 is a bit more extreme and causes too many assumptions not requiring positive test results. That gets scary.

Regardless, I’ve known all along that multi-directional fear factor was being utilized. Everyone in power, down to most of our news sources are utilizing your fear to control the masses. If it bleeds it leads. It’s yet another case of “target of opportunity”. They found a way to scare us into our homes and bring most of society to a halt. To what end? What did this round of opportunity allow governments to do? I noticed some financial sector changes and the government cashing in on small businesses by offering crisis loans, even some EPA regulations were eliminated. But those are minor in the grand scheme of things. What was the big thing that was slid right past our noses because of the fear distraction (like the way the Patriot act was passed)? Only time will tell what was done, and I hope that it isn’t worse than the damn disease, or that it can be reversed when we do find out about it.

May you know and understand this situation enough to overcome fears. May you be confident in your ability remain healthy, or regain health if you do get sick. May you trust your connection to the divine and find a way to make the voice of reason be heard. May you know and understand how to manage the symptoms if you do get sick. May you know, understand, and utilize proper sustainable means of sanitization and disease control. May you know that diseases will always exist and the best way to avoid them is to ease into health on a daily basis. May you know and feel that you are loved, supported, and protected by the divine.

Spread the light and love of the divine, foresake fear.

Siva Hir Su

I’ll leave you with images of a small sampling of my education on viruses (being I had 4 biology/science classes [2 collegiate] that also covered it plus a CEU class). Note on page 387 it talks about the wide time frame of when the virus is communicable, it references the peak of transmission usually being day 4, and it is widely known and accepted that sometimes you don’t show symptoms for much of that period. It is not until your body is overwhelmed by the virus that symptoms become severe.