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Everyone finally cares.

I have been focusing very intently to pull up lately, and have had to resort to various herbal aids. So this will be the first of several posts that were inspired in that process. This was the result of the lower vibrations, feeling some futility and anger. Subsequently as my vibration climbed I thought of other topics to write about. I started each topic as the thought occurred, so I’ll get them done and up as quickly as I’m able to.

My thyroid is bouncing all over despite taking my Armour doses. My blood sugars are uncontrollable and inflammation is rampant, despite doing all the things that used to work. I have been doing EVERYTHING right, and I’m taking all of my supplements plus several new ones, especially for the sugar battle. I’m still strictly AIP, and mostly seaweed and celery, I’ve even managed to cut back on frequency of lapses/oopses. I’ve had a super-humanly-clean 6 months. Additionally, I don’t feel very stressed, so it all points to my body’s still, or again, trying to fight something, or several somethings, off.

I suspect it’s a combination of that chronic Epstein-Barr-Virus battle (undiagnosed for 20+ years) and Covid. I’m not active Covid, but ever since catching mystery virus (testing wasn’t available here when I was told I had an unknown virus), I’ve had more trouble in general this past 12 months.

It doesn’t help that my awareness includes Covid living casualties.

One of my clients is what is being deemed a Long-Hauler, being he tests negative but still has multiple symptoms that are nagging him almost two months later. Some of his symptoms overlap with my thyroid woes and the extra anomalies I have faced this year. I also have an acquaintance/friend that has reported similar long-term problems from her known Covid case.

Beyond that my whole family is struggling long-term with spaciness, sluggishness, and brain fog. My son who faired the worst with mystery virus infection, has now begun having more significant lapses. Essentially, he has been having functional blackouts. One almost caused him harm. He was caught by Nathan entering our neighbors backyard in socked feet with their dogs barking at him. He didn’t realize where he was or how he had gotten there. It’s very disheartening and concerning.

Chronic viral infections wasn’t a concern on anyone’s radar until Covid, and I still have no idea why.

Even for AIDS and Hep B we have expensive cocktails to manage symptoms and reduce viral load, but no true fix. And I’ve been saying the entire Covid journey, that it boggled my mind how people were so upset about a new disease when we’ve done nothing for existing viral diseases. I’ve said the entire time that vaccines only pretend to protect people from some diseases. Between vaccine fails of a wide variety, and the fact that a vaccine is impossible to produce until much after a disease has already begun to spread, they simply don’t truly protect us. Also, there are numerous diseases that vaccines have never been created for, Epstein-Barr being just one, and bonus we now know it is very hazardous long-term for many.

I am beginning to think that Covid is the new Epstein-Barr. I shudder to think how many people will endure long-term woes for years before true solutions are developed, especially since western medicine is still full of greedy bastards enjoying making money off of our fears and symptoms. As long as the system allows them to make so much money off of treating symptoms alone, they will have no incentive to create real lasting solutions.

When we can solve computer viruses better than human viruses, there’s a major problem. See the incentive there was we had begun to rely on our computers for everything, and if they had gone down we’d all have been screwed. Even computer manufacturers relied on their own devices, and would have been mamed if solutions for electronic viruses had not been developed.

Yet, after approximately 100 years of study on biological viri, we still have no real true permanent solution for human viruses, which means there is no incentive for pharma to solve it.

Perhaps if Covid is really behaving like Epstein-Barr, then maybe everyone will begin to understand that it is imperative to find a kill switch for viral infections. I would have thought AIDS and Hep B would have done that, but apparently not enough people caught those diseases.

Or maybe it’s not the quantity of people, but who. Maybe it needs to become an issue for all of the elite, all of the CEOs and upper management of pharma. Maybe then we’ll actually see change and real solutions.

We need real treatment(s) to help find actual health and kill chronic disease. It’s not a new problem, but perhaps enough people, or the right people, will finally get it and work towards finding the real solutions.

Finally, I want to add my two cents on progress vs failure. Western medicine will finally produce more true healing options for all diseases, or it will fail. People have begun to distrust doctors to do their jobs, clinics to help when they don’t feel right/well, and pharma to make anything that actually works permanently. Western medicine knows they’re loosing too many. People no longer trust them to do what’s right. The masses have begun to notice the greed machine pasting temporary bandages on symptoms, knowing the bandage will only last so long before it will need replaced by the next best option.

People now know their options are limited. I myself have come to the point that if all I’m doing is managing symptoms, what does it matter if it’s herbs or prescription drugs. Either way it’s not going to fix anything and I might as well give in completely, at least that way I can enjoy what life I do have. The manage symptoms game is not only futile, requiring constant adjustments, it’s ultimately it’s a shit ton of work to get nowhere and thus pointless.

Anyway, if there are any other long term major failures, then Western Medicine will have lost trust with too many people. People will simply start walking away from the expensive useless symptom management game. Allopathic medicine is balancing on a ledge that could easily lead to systemic bankruptcy. The only way for the system to be salvaged is for the parts to work as a whole and actually produce long-term solutions beyond symptom management. But that’s just my observation.


For now I choose to focus on the positives. I focus on the fact that my physical size is smaller. My skin is shrinking, so even though it still sags from weight loss, it’s no where near as floppy as when I initially lost weight. I no longer have allergy bumps in odd places. I no longer have the red ruddy cheeks I grew up with. My muscles are stronger than ever, and in many ways my visible appearance is improving significantly. I still have beautiful soft hair, and my thyroid is managed well enough that I’m no longer loosing my hair. I can handle full time massage therapy work with a manageable amount of discomfort. In general I usually feel better than in my past. I’m able to workout most days and that helps me feel even better. In fact, I’ve exercised all but 6 of the last 30 days. I am doing EVERYTHING right, and that has to count for something, so I’ll ignore what’s not in alignment yet, with the assumption that it’ll get there eventually, one way or another.

May you have better luck and more trust in Western Medicine than I do. May you find, and be able to afford, options that can solve your problems for real. May you have reachable, life affirming, choices within reach. May you know you are healthy in every way possible. May you know you have many days left to live and have all the reasons to keep living. May you know that your love and magic can conquer all. May you know that more than anything, God loves and supports you in all that you do, and regardless of your ability to get your body in full vibrational alignment.

Om Shanti

Slowing down.

I fell again yesterday….. Again! …. Right?!

The chiropractor was kind enough to adjust me again today, and provided a reminder I need to slow down and be conscious of caring for myself. I replied “I know, I promised I would slow down, but it’s so hard when I’ve spent so many years trying to do everything.”

It is though, falls are always God’s attempt at slowing me down. Sadly, or is it thankfully, they always work. So tonight I’m nursing angry muscles, partly from the fall and partly from the corrective adjustment. As I lay with a tennis ball wedged against my left psoas muscle, I’m catching up on watching notification videos, and the following was a powerful one.

Watch “Jacob Lee – Oceans (Official Music Video)” on YouTube

I really feel that one. Sometimes I do feel exactly how the singer did, especially in these crazy times where fear over a singular disease has caused all of society to cease real living. But it seems I’m getting better and better at finding my source, my inner always present divine half. The half that never leaves me, but sometimes it’s awfully hard to see or feel.

I went nearly 2 decades fighting off suicidal depression, and in the last five years I’ve found alignment more than not. I still have boughts of severe depression, but they’re shorter and shorter now, knowing all of my triggers and how to fix being in the hole. That information is priceless and I still look forward to the day I find total healing and those days disappear altogether.

I know I’m on the right track, and right now I’m literally throwing every tool I know at finding healing. It’s part of the reason God wants me to slow down, I am doing so much I probably need to give myself a breather and let my system catch up.

It made me a little mad though because I’ve now missed two days of workouts, the fall happening 90 min before my projected workout, and the aftermath making exercise a physical impossibility.

At one time I hated exercise because it was so difficult for me, now I miss it. At one time I hated running because it was so hard, no I look forward to making friends with it knowing it’s starting to help. At one point I hated cilantro, now I love it for it’s detoxifying effects having started the healing in my brain. There are so many things that I have a much much greater appreciation for, all because they help me feel better and they are slowly healing my brain and my body.

I wish that for everyone.

Beyond my gratitude over those solutions, I have immense gratitude for all of the people, current and past, that have helped me find solutions or fix me when my efforts are not enough or applicable (especially the chiropractor today). Those people that rescued me when I needed it most. Many were one time helpers, few have helped me repeatedly, but all were pricelessly valuable.

May you all see your worth. May you love your gifts from God. May you understand your challenges and love the solutions. May you live life to the fullest, and know that food is a tiny fraction of what that means. May you give back to the divine by helping others find the solutions they need. May you show gratitude for the people in your life that help you implement those solutions. May you love exercise and all of the things that enable you to live a greater life. May your greater living not only be more enjoyable, but of greater assistance to the world. May we all work together to create a better world for us all.

Siva Hir Su శివ హిర్ సు

Smells fishy.

Hopefully my last post on Covid19. Please do watch this Minnesota news report, it overlaps with much of what I have tried to convey, but from a senatorial doctor.

Watch “Bombshell by Dr. Scott Jensen on CV” on YouTube


https://youtu.be/bQsuqp0jA30

Additionally, I might add: why has no one significant (government agencies, AMA, etc) discussed how to deal with symptoms properly. Especially since we are now trying to keep Covid19 people out of hospitals. I know that several KC area hospitals have mandated to stay home unless symptoms are severe enough to warrant admittance to the hospital.

Dr. Oz apparently has discovered the medication for RA and Lupus inflammation keeps the virus at bay, as no-one on the medication has been sick enough to even be tested for the virus. So there is likely a correlation between the kind of allergic inflammation of RA and how the disease presents. I know for my own journey, when I have a flare up like that I rely on a dose of every OTC allergy medicine (Zyrtec, Allegra, and Benedryl, even Claratin combined) plus Advil-clear. So would my at home solution/alternative to RA medication also work for this virus? Only a doctor could determine that for sure, but someone has to try it to determine if it does.

Chris Cuomo on CNN discussed how he literally just had to willpower through anything uncomfortable and then he cleared it fine. His description made me think of how computer viruses work. Attack the weak spot and make you want to give up. I couldn’t help but have a Matrix moment, but also find a parallel to how I fix things in massage- bear the pain, work through the difficult, and it gets better.

However, supposedly beyond high fever, the major complication factor is excess mucous causing difficulty breathing. That is the same complication as many flu strains, most pneumonia strains, and asthma. Why is no-one (governing bodies, medical officials) offering the OTC early solutions to prevent and reduce or even potentially avoid the worst symptoms?

As in: we know Tylenol helps with fever, for this virus you may need to take X# milligrams every Y# hours because it is extra severe. Or: we know Mucinex cuts mucous, you may need to take as much as X# pills every Y# hours to handle the severity. Or: we know that Albuterol nebulizers help counteract any causes of difficulty breathing, so instructing people to purchase those supplies for someone at first sign of illness could prevent someone from even needing to seek further treatment (nebulizers and tubing have to be purchased from medical supply sources, but the only prescription needed is for the Albuterol refills themselves), especially since a machine can be shared by multiple people as long as each person uses their own mouthpiece. It’s the main factor as to why I’ve never been concerned about me or my family catching it. I, being an asthmatic, have a nebulizer and several mouthpieces, extra tubing and plenty of the Albuterol refills. Though if my whole family did get sick it would eventually deplete my supplies.

I know that any dosage recommendations would need a disclaimer “for adults only, consult a physician for pediatric situations”, but it would help most Americans that actually get sick. They have done things like that in the past when other diseases or flu strains were extra problematic. Why not now?

It bothers me that they are having doctors label ANY (even remotely possible cases) regardless of proof, as Covid19. That will sorely skew data. I explained to Nathan that there has always been a prioritizing of disease in cause of death, but this is different. Normally, if someone has asthma, and has lived with it for years and suddenly gets pneumonia and dies, the cause of death is labeled as pneumonia, because they had lived with chronic asthma. Simply put, they can’t label one death with multiple causes. So, even if a bout of asthma flare-ups led to the pneumonia, the pneumonia was what actually caused the death and it gets the blame. The way they are handling covid19 is a bit more extreme and causes too many assumptions not requiring positive test results. That gets scary.

Regardless, I’ve known all along that multi-directional fear factor was being utilized. Everyone in power, down to most of our news sources are utilizing your fear to control the masses. If it bleeds it leads. It’s yet another case of “target of opportunity”. They found a way to scare us into our homes and bring most of society to a halt. To what end? What did this round of opportunity allow governments to do? I noticed some financial sector changes and the government cashing in on small businesses by offering crisis loans, even some EPA regulations were eliminated. But those are minor in the grand scheme of things. What was the big thing that was slid right past our noses because of the fear distraction (like the way the Patriot act was passed)? Only time will tell what was done, and I hope that it isn’t worse than the damn disease, or that it can be reversed when we do find out about it.

May you know and understand this situation enough to overcome fears. May you be confident in your ability remain healthy, or regain health if you do get sick. May you trust your connection to the divine and find a way to make the voice of reason be heard. May you know and understand how to manage the symptoms if you do get sick. May you know, understand, and utilize proper sustainable means of sanitization and disease control. May you know that diseases will always exist and the best way to avoid them is to ease into health on a daily basis. May you know and feel that you are loved, supported, and protected by the divine.

Spread the light and love of the divine, foresake fear.

Siva Hir Su

I’ll leave you with images of a small sampling of my education on viruses (being I had 4 biology/science classes [2 collegiate] that also covered it plus a CEU class). Note on page 387 it talks about the wide time frame of when the virus is communicable, it references the peak of transmission usually being day 4, and it is widely known and accepted that sometimes you don’t show symptoms for much of that period. It is not until your body is overwhelmed by the virus that symptoms become severe.