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Holiday Hootenanny

I may have a really messed up sense of enjoyment these days.

I spent my holiday finishing a project started last fall- the front patio. After pulling the few plants that managed to make it through the summer of 2020, we managed to not get back to it.

*Can’t figure out why (dripping in sarcasm)*

Anyway, I decided this final day of my 12 days off should be invested in finishing that, it was my last chance to get caught up for who knows how long. It could be a month or a year, so I took advantage of my chance.

My holiday celebration began at about 10:00am with a trip to my favorite hardware store: Menards. First trip was 16 bags of sand to level the area in question. After quickly dispersing the sand, I returned for second load: 83 pavers.

I ran home and with Nathan’s help quickly placed the pavers. He hoisted pavers until he over exerted reaching to try and pull 2 at once, he said it tugged too much at the lower incision. Then he became my photographer.

I needed just a few bricks or cobble stones to fill gaps too small for the 1 ft square pavers. So I returned to Menards one last time for those.

I have a bag of locking sand mix, but being that it was raining lightly all day, I couldn’t put that down yet. So, it’s essentially one easy step from being done.

I’m very happy. After moving pots closer to where their final spots will be (they’ll be on the charcoal pavers after being locked down). I then placed the boyscout plants we ordered 2 months ago, they came in 3 weeks ago, but I’m just getting to plant them now. The result is the final view pictures below, after the gaggle of progress shots (plus there’s a couple cute moments with kids from after hammock time at the end of the day).

I was super happy! I told Nathan I was really happy because I finally had a decent house, and now it has both a pretty front patio and a wonderfully comfortable back porch with all the fun stuff and practical gardens.

We’re going to put up a singular pole to remount our white led string for front patio mood lighting, it’ll be like a canopy of twinkle lights over the front patio.

Then when I get done dissecting the tree we’ll have a patio set with lots of character to go on the patio. I decided between our neighborhood having occasional theft concerns, and also because of needing to use up the tree, that a rough hewn set was the perfect idea. A few chainsaw cuts from the large end of the tree and a bunch of assembly is all that is needed. I’m kinda excited to do that project. It may be slated for next Sunday, weather permitting, we’ll see.

Anyway, I really was happy with my results and I have enjoyed the inspiration it stirred as well. It even kept my mind of of other concerns all day, in fact right up until I wrote this sentence I had completely put everything out of my mind. That is immensely comforting. It is relief through hard but creative labor.

Now as I write this post dinner is being made, and I’ve already had an hour out in the hammock. So, I layed a new patio in roughly 7 hours, mostly by my own hands and driving. That’s spectacular considering I’m not a professional and have no specialty equipment. I really appreciate that Nathan helped as much as he could and I look forward to days where he’s more back to his normal self. That will be a good day for certain.

This was a good day.

May you have good days full of inspiration, accomplishments, and loving support. May you have your health always and find that you easily push worries from your mind. May your productive moments also bring you great joy and satisfaction. May you find that you can relax knowing it all, is a symptom of improvement. May you know that the divine and your higher-self loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Behind= Reason to Live

So, I’m pretty much behind on everything I had set for goals. But it gives me a reason to keep living and keep trying. I’m squeezing this post in on my celery break, I won’t bother calling it lunch. So, I won’t elaborate as much as I’d like to, but still wanted to take a moment to share.

I pissed my liver off with food allergies, I think I mentioned the hives last week. It was originally triggered by a chicken breast and a bit of Halloween candy prolonged it. Well last night I over compensated with supplements and woke with a mighty tight neck this morning. I had Nathan do some quick energy work and drank some water. Then once I got to work I pummeled myself with my TheraCane. I’m mostly normal again, and my body is feeling a lot better in general.


Nathan and I managed to finish the repairs and upgrades to the littles’ room finally. It looks much better and having all the toys in one spot and being well organized for little bodies to reach has been a blessing the last couple of days. Their room also feels much brighter and more enjoyable. Nathan may not be a master painter, but he did a good job painting the walls, and even let all the kids help with that process. I did the shelves, hung the TV, fixed furniture, put in the two new tables, and did the ceiling fan repair. It was a good team effort.

Ian and Katherine quite enjoyed the reintroduction to their new play space.


I wanted to share a bit about my little Ian. He is such a sweet boy, and very sensitive like me. In time that will be a blessing, but right now it can definitely be challenging as he works through his own strong emotions and tries to figure out the ones that aren’t his. It causes a fair number of meltdowns still, but he’s slowly improving. Lately, I’ve had to watch his foods as much as mine, I still don’t want to restrict him or tell him completely “NO” , but I’ve noticed that his antenna goes haywire like mine when he’s deviated too far off course. It’s a work in progress.

The upside is that he has taken a liking to “Avatar the Last Airbender”, and is working on learning the moves from the show.

It was my IN moment.

I explained to him that it’s based in reality and that is what me and Daddy do when we’re doing energy work. I explained to him that of the elements, I have mastered fire and water the best and gave him a demonstration of what that looks and feels like. I told him that the most important part of the elements is focusing on the qualities of that element. He immediately tried to duplicate the feeling. The best part was that he was successful. I told him it was weak, but I could feel it and he just needed to keep practicing.

So this morning with my neck lockup, he helped with some water element. It was super sweet and I almost started crying. I thanked him and hugged him tight. I love my son.


Finally, one of my clients is a psychology type therapist. She explained to me her category once, but I’d have trouble being accurate. Anyway, she’s grandfathered in with a master’s degree and thus can’t accept most insurances, which means she’s costly cash pay. She’s also full and not accepting new clients. That’s where I come in. She essentially tips me in Tips.

Every time I get stuck, she offers me tools and resources to help me keep going. Free of charge, only the cost of conversing while she’s on my table.

Lately she had given me the following resources and I’m finding them so helpful that I wanted to share.

Apparently my father caused me to delevope a protector part at a very early age. It looks and acts just like him, and I’m having a hell of a time eradicating it, so she’s helped give me some tips for that process. I’ve been doing the meditations and I can tell it’s helping, I’m just not clear of the other side yet. I look forward to the day that part is helpfully joined my whole and the doubts, fears, self-degredation, and anger diassapate. I’m slowly inching my way there.


May you find the upside of your behind-ness. May you have quality moments with your family. May you know you are making progress. May you enjoy your life more than not. May you have the help you need, when you need it. May helpful resources make their way into your experience easily. May you have plenty of reasons to keep living and reaching for better.

Om Shanti