Tag Archives: collective healing

Understanding

How can any
Man give
Love to
Another Human
Especially
Woman

How can
They know
Love
When their
Fathers
Did not

How can
Any man
Show respect
Give love
Cherish
Honor

When their
Fathers
Didn't
Couldn't
Would not
Too...?

When their
Mothers
Failed
To set
Straight
Educate

Generation
After another
Generation
Repeating
Repeatedly
Wrongness

Watching
Men
Disrespect
Mistreat
Lie to
Women

Watching
Women
Take
Abuses
Multiplied
Silently grieving

Vicious
Cycles of
Illbegotten
Dominance
Ruining
Wasting

Destroying
Trust
Faith
Caring
All Divine
Gifts Ignored

Boys
Learning
To molest
Mistreat, rape
By father's
Actions

Girls
Learning
Futility
Before words
Giving in
Instead of

Standing
Ground
Standing
For inner
Divinity
Strength

This goddess
Standing
Strong
Tall
An Amazon
Warrioress

Will
Turn
Tables
Wear the
Other shoe
And set right

One goal
Figure out
How to do it
Without violence
Without becoming
Just like them


~Treasa Cailleach

May you know you can right wrongs by stopping the momentum of wrongs repeated. Even Mack Truck sized wrongs may flatten us, but our will can still stop them in the process. May we never be flattened and still change wrongs to rights, break shackles for freedom, level dominance with equality. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

See, Feel bigger

The problem
Is really like
3 Blind men
Describing
An elephant
Impossible to
Solve because
All feel it's
Too Immense
And none
See the
Entirety

None will
If separation
Continues
That is
Dis-ease
Of wholeness
Dis-ease of
Mind, Body
And Spirit
Everything
Succumbing
To invasive
Darkness
Without
Light of
Wholeness

Masculine
Feminine
Healthy
Balance
Cooperate
For desired
Peacefulness

Medicine
Science
Church
State
All
Helping
One another
Cooperating
Together

All
Knowing
Each sees
Only one
Part

Without
The other
It is too
Unsolvably
Immense
And none
Are divine
On their
Own

For now
I heal
My Self
My own
Divinity
Working
For me
In me

Knowing
I may
Loose
Because
Doctors
Aren't
Even
Trying
Can't
Accept
Psychic
Energetics
Awareness
Unseen
Unprovable
Only relying
On machines
Or pills

This
Manly
Lady
Desires
Peace
In Life

Yet masculine
Not helping
Matters
Made
Worse
Burdening
Too greatly
Unnecessary
Weights
Mental
Physical
Stressing
Threatening
To crumble

Feminine
Basking
Laying
Doing
Nothing
Isn't
Winning
Either

My ease
My healing
Connected
To divinity
Self In motion
Actions of
Knowing
I don't
Have
To Do
Anything
For anyone
Else anyway
It's all
For
Me

~Treasa Cailleach

May you see your biggest picture in it’s wholeness and have a sense that it is solveable with more wholeness. May you know how parts fit together and work seamlessly for positive impacts. May we all understand that regardless of rightness or wrongness we’re all in this together and maybe one person’s wrong makes another’s make a little more sense. May we all see the rightness in everything and how it blends into the most manageable biggest picture. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Humanity’s root dis-ease.

Toxic masculine. AKA stress.

Epstein-Barr virus, COVID, and several others, they are “contagious-disease” symptoms of the root cause. Our body let’s the contagion in, when stress let’s defenses down. The how of your stress and the environment you’re aware of, determines the contagion and physical impact that is enabled.

Diabetes, cardiovascular concerns, cirrhosis of the liver, pancreatitis, hashimoto’s or really any thyroiditis, and any one of a couple dozen cancers are the long-term damage symptoms of the same root cause; except they are the direct result of the contagious-diseases that resulted from the root cause.

To solve it you must do your best to work backwards and work up.

Solve the long-term damages by providing your body with every healing element. Allow your body to return to the  parasympathetic nervous system response, and nourish it as fully and optimally as possible to heal damaged areas. Easier said than done.

Solve the contagious diseases that were allowed in. That requires nourishing your immune system fully once all of the damages have been healed, and continuing to stay in parasympathetic functioning for as long as your body needs to eject those viruses and bacteria.

Once you’ve healed all of the symptoms you must figure out how to keep yourself out of toxic masculinity stress, in order to stay that way for life. Again easier said than done.

You may have noticed: (if you are educated on parasympathetic vs sympathetic responses) that eliminating our body’s and brain’s response to stress is the main factor in fixing all of it. Proper optimum nutrition, much more than basic nutrition, is secondary but equally important.

Those two factors alone will heal more than anything else.

If you can accomplish them.

See toxic masculinity, AKA stress, is everywhere you look these days. I could come up with a million examples of I had the time to write. Instead I’m going to give a fairly random sample in much shorter list form. It’s what I have time for.

  • Addiction. To anything. Is stress on the body.
  • Fatigue, because of any reason, is stress on the body and brain.
  • Allergies are a symptom of stress in the immune system.
  • Depression, anxiety, manic moments, are all symptoms of stress in the brain.
  • Muscle cramps are symptoms of stress in the muscles.
  • Arthritis is a symptom of stress in the the joints.
  • Inflammation is the stress response in the body’s tissues.
  • Pain can be a symptom of any of these. It is a signal of stress’ damage.

In our environment stress is just as plentiful. General first, specific second.

  • Politics. Especially one side arguing with another.
  • Censorship. One side wants to silence the other side. Yet if we silence one we have to silence both. Then where do you end up?
  • People ignoring each other, especially if it is because of race, gender, or any belief or view.
  • Religions ignoring people or treating anyone as less than. Anyone treating anyone else, as less than.
  • Inequality.
  • Imbalance.
  • Disrespect.
  • Disdain.
  • Intolerance.
  • Telling anyone they are wrong or inappropriate, especially if physical harm is not involved (the one being told they are inappropriate harmed none).
  • Unsupported.
  • Unloved.
  • Pushing for longer, harder, better, faster, more.
  • Men belch and talk with their mouths full, yet women (ladies) are expected to be proper and do the opposite.  If you don’t like us doing it, then maybe you shouldn’t either. And if you know it’s impossible to be perfect, don’t expect us to be perfect either.
  • Toxic is drinking or drugs for recreation. The assumption that under the influence, enables fun or more enjoyment. Drugs can be medicine when used properly, and alcohol was once the only safe drink, but inundating your system in an effort to produce more enjoyment is rarely effective and frequently damaging.
  • Women are not allowed to be lead clergy in many faiths. Why? Who said we are incapable? Not all women wish to bear children, and if men can escape that responsibility, then we should be able to as well. There is no logical reason to prevent women from being clergy, because any reason given, could be applied to men, except that it would cause them to be defensive and produce reasons why that is wrong. If the reasons are wrong for men, then they are wrong for women too.
  • Power, influence, and global resources, being restricted to mostly older white males. It’s why I have so much respect for Oprah. She managed to become what none other could, and she has dark skin and a vagina. She broke every rule and she’s the only one of both color and female gender. She earned every ounce of what she has, and deserves all of it.
  • Race ever being a factor in anything. There are bad people in every race, and here in America all too often police look the other way when it’s a rich, even middle-class, white kid…..  I’ve met dozens white people that had been druggies since middle school and never got punished, often never even got caught, and by no special circumstances. But every black person I’ve ever met that even smoked weed, has stories of running from cops and being in juvie. It’s a long standing imbalance. If you can look the other way over the white people and let them slide, then you can do the same for the black people or any other race. And if that thought makes you cringe, then all races should be punished equally.
  • Toxic masculinity is letting banks raise rates faster than wages can keep up, it is fighting over shutting society down and not making financial institutions follow suit.
  • It’s employers punishing for illness absences, but not providing tools for genuine health. All while allowing food manufacturers to use ingredients that stress bodies into illness, and ignoring that doctors are not actually educating us towards health.
  • It’s pushing and nagging all of society to buy more constantly, and forcing technology upgrades (5G) when we’ve just been through a pandemic where many people suffered massive financial strain.
  • It fuel at $3+ a gallon now that everyone is having to go back to driving to work. We haven’t even recuperated from the financial strains of COVID and 5G, and fuel makers are manipulating our return to work. Yet there are no incentive programs to buy Tessela cars or make EVs more plentiful.
  • It’s working people too sick and dieing, and God not dropping money from the sky.
  • It’s a society full of stressed sick people, and the less sick having to work, and do their best to support and take care of the more sick.
  • It’s toxic chemicals being used in agriculture under the premise of higher yields, but even when decades of data indicates that failed, we continue to dump toxic chemicals on our foods and poison ourselves and our world for no significant benefit.
  • It’s fracking for natural gas, and causing more diseases from chemicals entering water supplies. Even further causing earthquakes in areas that are fairly far from accepted fault lines (where we would never expect earthquakes in those areas at all).
  • It’s wars against anyone or anything.
  • It is taking playful challenges and athleticism, and making it far too serious, especially at too young of ages.
  • It’s failing to teach balance in an effort for bigger, faster, stronger, longer, and even more failing to properly and fully address any injuries or illness incurred as a result of such.
  • Anytime struggle of any kind, becomes a mental threat, all bets are off and you are already under the influence of toxic masculinity.
  • Anytime damages are incurred, and time or resources for healing are dictated by external influences. If time and resources do not meet the needs of the individual, that is toxic masculinity.

Everywhere you look toxic masculinity has caused stresses, and it is an unstoppable snowball hurtling down the hill at breakneck speeds. No one is going to be able to stop it. God could, but it would take giving those that have suffered the most in a state of unknowing innocence or in futile efforts, everything that they need for full healing, while simultaneously eliminating those that instigated or increased suffering knowingly.

What simply boggles my mind is the faction of 1%ers that are in support of all of it, in a desire to thin the herd. They seem to believe that they are immune and will clear the other side unscathed. Yet there is an underlying (or is it overlying) divinity that supercedes masculine and feminine, and that divinity is charged with restoration of balance at all costs. If the rest of us die because of toxic masculinity, stirred and motivated by that small faction, then the divine will right the balance in whatever way it sees fit, and the 1%ers are not as safe as they believe. They are no more safe than any of the rest of us, they just don’t see their version coming.

May you find a way to restore balance in your life and for anyone that you are directly responsible for. May we all see how to shut out as much of the toxic masculinity as possible. May we all see our path to healing as being illuminated before us. May we all have the resources and time we need just fall from the sky. May healing become easy and may we all have all of the time and resources we need just as easily. May masculinity return to safe and wholesome levels throughout our entire world. May divine feminines find their power and utilize it fully for all that it is capable of. May humanity not just survive, but find a way to restore balance while thriving. May all those in favor of humanities’ demise- find their own, less swift and more painful, but equally surprising demise. May we all be loved and supported and find a way to feel that love and support even when already impacted by the toxicity. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Rawr

After my last post I was feeling really good.

Two hours later I was feeling strange. Having odd moments I couldn’t explain, and Nathan and my kids were too. He texted me asking if I was okay, something he does frequently when he feels like something is up. I replied that I felt strange and like something was happening. He replied that it was affecting the whole family and caused him anxiety and Ian a bit of a freak-out melt-down. A sense of our environment having odd shifty sensations was the key overlapping experience, like you were looking at something and it moved for just a second.

It didn’t subside, and that night I texted other staff I was thinking about not working the next day because the weird stuff was taxing me energetically.

That evening I had an episode of full body tremors/shivers with mid-back pain. I only slightly felt cold and no temperature registered on my digital thermometer, with my highest reading being 97.8°. I immediately thought of when Nathan’s kidney stuff was at it’s worst and freaked out screaming at thin air. I was livid that I’ve been doing everything right, and in that moment felt like I was dieing. I screamed myself hoarse.

Multiple text conversations later, I did decide to not work, and they said Nathan and I should get acupuncture and chiropractic. The acupuncturist had had similar oddities that day, but her list was shorter. They did ask me to find a COVID test one way or another.

An hour an half of scouring the intent I claimed the last test at a CVS, 20 miles from home. It was an end of the day time slot on Friday, so clinic treatments happened first. Nathan ended up having low blood pressure drops and passed out 3 times. I still felt strange. The acupuncture helped a lot, and chiropractic helped me move better, solving the residual mid-back pain.

We went home to wait for my test, and I was literally on the fence about working today (Sat). I only had the odd moments and sore throat from screaming, and Saturdays are 3 hours and done. I said I’d work it, before leaving to complete the test.

The test was a rapid response nose swab. It came back an hour later as positive. I texted everyone results and assumed time off work. At that point even my throat and voice were feeling better. I was miffed, but honored testing to take time off.

Now it’s the end of Saturday. My throat actually came back with a vengeance about 11am, and I’ve spent most of the day without a voice. My body temperature has actually been running near hypothermia at 94.4-96.4°, so I took an extra dose of thyroid meds and told Nathan I need calories I can swallow. Otherwise I feel no worse than any other head cold I’ve ever had.

I’m still angry because I have been doing everything right, and I actually feel worse 24 hours post test than pre-test.

I also went through a moment of angry at the teen. She has no symptoms and wanted to hide. I was told that I made a mistake in assuming it was because she thought it would spare her. Yet, after I pointed out that she’d already been exposed for probably several days, she begrudgingly came out of hiding to help with her siblings. I pointed out that she might already be immune, which would confirm my prior sentiments that we’ve already had COVID before. Regardless, whether she eventually shows symptoms or not, she was not going to spare exposure by hiding now, it was already too late for that. That is how viral infections work, they spread before you even know you have it, and by the time the weird symptoms set in, it was in full swing and she was definitely exposed then. It’s one of the most annoying elements of the last two years, and why 4 of 5 of us were impacted at the exact same time.

What I can’t figure out is how the acupuncturist had weird things happen at the same time. My family has been nowhere as a whole family in ages, and definitely not in conjunction with the acupuncturist. So there should have been at least a little bit of staggering of arrival of symptoms, weird or otherwise. Yet we were all impacted around 11am to noon on Thursday. That is just odd.

Anyway, Nathan got tested through his dialysis clinic, but results for him will take 3 days. We are charged with searching for a test for the teen. She has been instructed not to work until she can produce a negative result test. It’s a tall order to even find a test right now, and if she’s asymptomatic carrier, then she might have to test several times over to be able to return to work.

I just think it’s all a bunch of hogwash when the system doesn’t care about long-term effects, long-term damages, the possibility of chronic infections, or the fact that their precious failed to do anything. After my positive, Nathan read a Facebook post from a friend, whom has been as fully vaccinated as is possible with her last booster being less than a month ago and she’s sick with COVID too.

I’ll reiterate. Put up or shut up.

If the system isn’t really going to produce anything to truly fix this, then stop making everyone jump through rediculous hoops over and over, again and again. Definitely stop scaring everyone constantly because that’s not helping matters at all.

We don’t do any of this for the flu or any one of a number of other diseases that medicine failed to permanently solve (several of which they don’t even educate their own staff properly on). So why this one?

I’m not stupid. I’m not going back to work until I am 100%. I don’t with anything I catch. But just like the flu, by the time I was certain it was illness, it was too late, I’d already exposed people, masked and all. I’m not dumb, a paper mask may help but does not eliminate risk of transmission. I likely exposed at least a dozen clients, the entire staff, and a few people in stores before I showed a single odd moment. It is what it is.

And the higher and deeper this piles, the more I simply know it’s going to take a long term toll. I do believe in the divine, and whether this was man-made or not, the divine sure as hell isn’t stopping it. So I have to believe it is serving a purpose that God supports.

May you know you are here for a reason. May you understand that some things are not solveable, and your role and responsibility is to do the best you are able with the hand you are dealt. May you find the discomfort of illness tolerable, and find your way to full recovery and restored balance. May you heal yourself and your world one step at a time. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Continuation

I was in the middle of meditation when my inner self said I needed to share the words I’m using, and the experience of thier effects for me.

So here goes my best meditative post for the day.

I am here.
I am a miracle.
I am a miracle for having made it through this far.
I am a miracle because of my body and my brain, and their awe inspiring ability to heal.
I am a healer just by virtue of being alive.

I feel the light that those statements bring to my awareness, as a warm tingly sensation spreading through my body and brain. Then the light starts to produce pressure in certain areas. Those are the edges of where the flow is blocked, just like how a trigger point resists my touch.

Repeat. I am here.
I am a miracle.
My body is a miracle.
My brain is a miracle.
I am alive because of the miracle healing mechanisms in my body.
I made it through everything just by being me and choosing to live.

The pressure grows to be more noticeable. I give it the attention it needs just as I would a trigger point. Acknowledge it is there. Something caused it to be hurt and the hurt got stuck in a way that is cutting off the love, the flow of life in your body.

I am sorry that those things happened, and I'm sorry that they never healed. I deserved better than that, and I am the one that failed to give myself what was needed to heal at the time. I am sorry.

I love you (pressure/pain space). I love myself enough to fix it now. I have given myself all of the tools my body needs to mend, I made sure of it by taking my vitamins and a few very supportive herbs. I made sure of it, because I know that my brain is struggling because it needs something. So regardless of what IT says I'm going to do my best to provide. I am a miracle goddess worthy and deserving of love. Real love.

Discomfort grows, but in smaller areas.

The pressure, the discomfort, is where the light is moving into the damaged spaces. It is uncomfortable because it forces flow to return, it forces life to live again. The damage was never mended, and the only way to bring in healing is to open the wound. God's light is gentler than surgery, but still uncomfortable.

Opening a wound is always going to be painful. But once open the light, the flow, can return.

The relief begins.

The flow brings what was needed all along.

It becomes a gentle loving embrace.
The sense of support we all need.
Those parts of me, they just didn't know they needed it, or even what it was.

The pressure feels less but stays.
Now it is the pressure of being supported in loving light.
Now it is the pressure of nutrients and hydration flowing in.
It is a good pressure, it is a helpful pressure.
It is the feeling of God being let into spaces that have not felt the light and love for decades.
This discomfort, this definitely feels good. Like the hurts-good of my fix-it massages.
It makes sure that everything gets what it needs.
It is omnipresent, all the damaged spaces receiving simultaneously, my only ability to discern is where I focus my attention.
I count 11 in my brain, head, and neck.
I count 23 in the rest of my body.
And I'm writing from this mindful space so I may have missed some.
All of them found with the same level of light and love flowing much needed supportive pressure.

Pause.
Feel.
Just sitting with the sensations.
Let the mind relax, and check in on spots in a rotation you don't have to think too much about.
Just know the light and love is working, and the level of damage is what determines how long it might take.
Do this as long as possible, every day.
If you have to stop because of life, just know you have to revisit until complete. With my years of practice, I'm able to do this as long as no one is talking directly to me, it has been a huge help.

You know it is complete when the pressure releases and you genuinely feel better in that spot. It feels good again. It feels easy again. It feels normal again.

If you get distracted, repeat.
I am here.
I am a miracle.
My body is a miracle.
My brain is a miracle.
I made it through all of that and I'm still alive.
I deserve the miracle that is ME.
I deserve all that is wonderful and good.
I deserve to have myself and all that means.
I deserve all the love and light needed to heal fully and completely.

Sit and relax and repeat any of this as much as needed. Do what your body asks of you. If you need to pee, go pee. If you need a drink, drink something, preferably pure water. If your body wants to change position do it to the fullest of your ability. Just keep breathing through all of it and stay focused on the message here.

May you find the healing you seek. May the flow do exactly what you hope for. May we all find the release of healing and find our whole inner self. May we all feel just fine again. May you feel good and know the light of life is flowing in all of you. Above all, may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

As above so below. An it harm none, do what ye will. So mote it be.

May God’s will be complete, on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Bhumi mangalam,
Udaka mangalam,
Agni mangalam,
Vayu mangalam,
Gagana mangalam,
Surya mangalam,
Chandra mangalam,
Jagata Mangalam,
Jeeva mangalam,
Deva mangala,
Mano mangalam,
Aatma mangalam,
Sarva mangalam
Om Shanti
(Translation: May there be tranquility on earth, in water, in fire, in the wind, in the sky, on the sun, on the moon, on our planet, in all living beings, in the body, in the mind, and in the spirit. May that tranquility be everywhere and in everyone. Aum peace)

Om Shanti