Tag Archives: divine love

Seems like wobble.

Great mother is done
She's wobbling too much
Any more and she'll fall
Imbalance too great
Humans: the cause
Too many
Tugging in
All directions
No rest for
The weary

Every couple thousand years
Great messengers are sent
Time is granted
If too many fail
A great calamity
Wraps everything up quickly

I'm loosing
Despite
Best efforts
All things done
As correctly
As possible

My wobble
Our collective
Wobble
Too much stress
With Fun and
Peace
Deficiencies

Inability
To control
Uncontrollable
Some things
Never intended
To be controlled
In the first place

Instructions
Conditioning
Of responsibility
May have been
Inaccurate
Or misunderstood
Relearning
Too costly when
Time is against
My
Our
Side

My preference
To sit quietly
And wait
Feeling the ground

In winter
Everything
Seems dead
Seems barren
Seems bleak

Under the soil
Seeds sleep
Insects burrow
Rabbits tunnel
Bears hibernate
Even fungi
Thrive
All just
Go Deeper

All waiting for
The great thaw
The signal
It's okay
The time to
Reemerge
Anew

Our lives
If meant to be
Will be
If meant to diverge
Will

I simply must
Trust
And wait
Quietly
In stillness
In meditation
In prayer

My Prayer:
That
Thaw
Brings
A new me
A better me
A miracle me
Or simply
A divine me

My focus:
Those seeds
Dormant
Frozen
Yet somehow
Alive
What seeds
Have I planted?
Did I tend them
Well enough?
Did divine really
Fix my mistakes?
Did divine love
Spare my failures?

May the divine
Forgive all
Our lapses
And help us
Restore
Replenish
And renew
Failures in
Perception and
Responsibility
Misplaced

~ Treasa Cailleach

I have sincerely felt like I was dieing the last couple of weeks. I’m angry at God and saddened. If it is me, I’ve done everything I possibly could. If it is my wonderful mom, and I’m just feeling it, then I simply know we both deserve better and she deserves relief. When I’m not screaming at God in anger, I’m spending all of my moments stretching and aligning and breathing. Reaching for peace as much as possible.

May all of our prayers be heard and relief granted in whatever way restores balance to the Great Mother; the most relief for the most of all that is. May we see that all is not lost, and life lies in wait, hibernating for better. May we see how we have done our best, and how it might help restore balance. Above all may we know that we are loved and supported in all that we do.

Om Shanti

Lab rats

Let's face it
Humans
Are a giant
Experiment
Labs rats for
Science and
Medicine
And who knows
What or who else

We are studied
Educated Guesses Tried
What works
Is repeated
Even when
Factors
Variables change
Causing
Failure
Of prior sucesses

Always a reaction
Based in reason
And legthy study
Regardless of
Damages incurred
Merely side effects
Of improper
Inaccurate
Or too slow
Response

Afraid of
Intuitive
More accurate
Faster for
Individual
But reason isn't
Applicable
Understanding fully
Impossible
Measurements
Unreliable
Due to
Individual
Nature
Unable to
Eliminate
Variables
When tested

So all are
Subjected
Forced
To comply
With something
That may
Or may not
Be successful
With any one
Individual

Hazardous
When the 'solution'
Fails
By all
Documentable
Evidence
It's obvious
To even uneducated
Our solution
Failed
Yet we proceed
To force
To manipulate
For what?
To what end?

Is pride
Is ego
So fragile
To risk
The world
To protect
What no longer
Does it's job
What is
Old solution
In
New circumstances

We may all
Die
Before
The lab
Notices
The imbalance
And makes
New educated
Guesses
To solve
New variables

Slow Reason
Forcing
Old habbits
Will be
Death for
All

I now
Understand
Why momma
Has had
Enough

A little
Heart
Intuition
And kindness
Could rebalance
And lead
To new solutions

Yet masculine
Ego
Pride
Insists
They are
Right
Even when
Data
Says
Otherwise

Male
Ignorance
Dominance
Makes us
Comply
Because
He thinks
It's better
For us

The resistance
Is a symptom
Of
Knowing
It's not
Working

We don't
Need
To resist
If
Masculine
Saw
Knew
Force
Is an
Indicator
Of already
Being wrong

I
Pray
Momma
Spares
Protects
Or helps me
Out
Before
Masculine
Gets
Any
Worse

I see
Her
Love
Kindness
And
Warnings
I do
My best
To help her
May it be
Returned

~Treasa Cailleach

May we understand the fullness of these times and our place as rats in the lab of the world. Regardless of whom thinks they are in control, Great Mother will prevail, her life is our life, her body is our home. Balance will be restored one way or another May you contribute to that restoration and survive and thrive. Above all, may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Momma is thirsty.

It has been told
Many religions say
There was a great flood
Nearly all life was lost

Momma was hungry
Momma was thirsty
The flood waters
Quenched
The dead
Nourished

Everything small
Feeds
The larger
We are food
To that which
Is larger

When balance is
Lost
Balance
Will be restored

It just is

We did contribute
To imbalance
Now
We must contribute
To balance

All of us will
In some way

Living is determined
On efforts made
To restore
Balance

I'm doing
My best
It's my part
And I know
My momma
Knows

Are you?

~ Treasa Cailleach

“A Tale Dark and Grimm.”

A Netflix original, animated series. I’m watching it with my kids, while doing my best to pull out of my nosedive. It has many good learning lessons in it and just like other shows I’ve watched with my kids lately, it stirred contemplation. I felt like it was making some sense of senseless, for me right now. So, I’m working on it.

  • I want to be me and be safe and be happy.
  • I want to find healing and peace.
  • I want to feel again, especially love, and balance my thoughts with my feelings.
  • I want to enjoy the fun of life and still be safe and happy.
  • I want all my divine masculines/feminines to be healed and safe and happy.
  • I want my divine masculines/feminines¬† to know they were sold by the establishment, in their unique views, to the devil/darkness, and it’s not their fault. We were all duped one way or another.
  • I want my divine masculines/feminines to understand the addiction of the hunt, and find their balance with nature.
  • I want my divine masculines/feminines to balance their feelings with thought and vice versa.
  • I want us all to feel loved and know that the feeling of goodness is the answer.
  • I want my divine masculines/feminines to find their successes.
  • I want my divine masculines and feminines to be healed and more balanced in all ways.
  • I want us all to feel good.
  • I want us all to feel peace and comfortable.
  • More berries, and veggies, but a good mix of all of it. Too much of anything can make you crazy.
  • Even fish is okay in moderation.
  • Too much meat and/or sugar can make you crazy faster, and possibly lead to doom, because it causes imbalance both inside and out.
  • Adventure is only fun when you don’t balme yourself for things going wrong.
  • Find your courage and release your guilt.
  • You have to heal your own broken heart, no one can fit it for you.
  • Filling the void with food, or anyone or anything else, is certain doom.
  • Acknowledge that self has made it through a lot and none of it was intended, but beating the self up for it will only bring more pain.
  • Sometimes sacrifice is necessary to do something genuinely good, but never assume that you have the right reason for something having happened, and again be kind to one’s self for having made the sacrifice.
  • Listening to your heart and instincts may seem weird, but is a really good thing, when intellect- knowing the source- is the moderator to keep your self safe.
  • See the failings of others as reminders to stay focused on your self, know how to avoid the doom they bring.
  • Forgive yourself and others for everything, especially kin and parents.
  • See how those that hurt you were duped or disconnected in some way, their inner self would never have let the hurt happen.
  • See the warning signs, stay connected to the earth, the tree of life, and hear what the rain tells you. The guidance is everywhere if you allow yourself to see, hear and feel it.
  • The charming pirate may stir good feelings, but is more likely to cause disaster than actually fix what has to be healed from within. That is also true of the others with good intentions, but whom carry a slice of their own crazy needing healed.
  • The journey is helpful in finding all the elements of healing that your self needs.
  • In the end, all will be okay.

May¬† you see the helpful information in your experience. May you understand why everything is in your experience. May you figure everything out as quickly as possible to save yourself grief and/or guilt, and be kind to yourself when you don’t. May you know everything and everyone can be healed. May we all feel safe, loved and find our successes. May we all be peaceful and comfortable. May we all have easier days and more things to be grateful for, and find the forgiveness for ourself and others. May life get easier and easier for everyone. May we navigate away from demons and darkness, towards the light and joy life was intended to be. May we all be happily content and having the funest journey of all time. We are all free to choose, and may we all choose the best over the worst. Above all, may we know the divine loves and supports us in all that we do.

Om Shanti

Sense-ative!

Today we took the kids back to Wonderscope. They really do enjoy going there, even masked.

We aimed to just let them play themselves out, and had no set time limit. It was very crowded compared to our initial visit. It seems even though Delta is spreading like wildfire regardless of vaccination or not, people are just over being cooped up. Life is beginning to look normal again, very slowly. Us risky humans, we can only take so much restriction and then all bets are off. It’s a good thing Covid wasn’t worse, because we definitely hit a limit where we’re either at least attempting to enjoy life or we might as well be dead, and once we finally know that we take our chances.

However for me, I’m not sure it’s a good thing. At least just yet.

At about 2 hours in, I began to feel off, and like I was fighting fatigue intensely. I couldn’t explain it because I’d fasted on Thursday all day, and felt pretty darn good before showing up. Plus, I hadn’t had anything that would set off an allergic reaction, as far as I was aware. I was simply perplexed as to why I was suddenly so tired. Yet, it was enough that after contemplation and acknowledging it might not be me, I popped an extra dose of thyroid meds, carefully poking it into my masked mouth.

About 20 minutes later I began feeling nauseous and my head began throbbing. Something definitely felt awry and I was wracking my brain as to what could have possibly triggered this moment. I let my husband know that I wasn’t feeling great, but couldn’t figure out why. He said he was also starting to get tired and we agreed to work on getting children to wrap up. Katherine was showing some intense fatigue as well.

Nathan went to convince her to stop playing and walked up to her right as she smacked another child. The fatigue had won and she let frustration get the best of her. As parents we immediately pulled her aside and scolded her for smacking the child. I knew though that it wasn’t just frustrated acting out. I could see the pattern I experienced starting to show on my family. We quickly gathered everyone and left for the day.

Nathan needed to stop at the hardware store next door before we went home, so the rest of us piled into the van and got settled for the ride home. I simply told Katherine to just be her and relax. I repeated “Just be Katherine, just be you.” a couple of times. Then I started repeating it for myself, “just be me”. I left one foot hanging out of the van to ground anything that wasn’t mine and even said silently to myself “eliminate anything that isn’t me, push everything else out”. I repated those phrases until Nathan came out of the hardware store.

By the time he was settled I was feeling much better. I told him the nausea had backed off to a slight heavy feeling in my abdomen, and the headache was barely noticable.

At that point I was understanding what was happening and explained to him.

I spend all week working one on one, occasionally standing in a group of 8 or less for conversation. The rare occasion I go to a store, it is usually not as busy as Wonderscope was, but even when it is I’m only in the store for a short time. This was the first time I was around that many people for that length of time. I also explained that kids are there having fun, but it is loud and boisterous. Plus, there were nearly as many parents as children, and human parents are usually the ones with the most energetic baggage- the parents are the ones constantly finding things to complain about. Kids are oblivious to a point, but eventually fatigue or energetic impact begins to wear them down too, and they will fall prey to the same patterns but in kids’ form.

I simply had not shielded well enough, and I was like those kids, where the energetic impact wore me down until my body began manifesting it’s pattern equivalent.

Fortunately, I have definitely gotten better at clearing it out, because 10 minutes outside and away from the crowds was all I needed. By the time we arrived back home I had almost completely cleared the energetic clutter of others.

I know as a kid I couldn’t stand to be in large crowds, the mall during Christmas season was most dreaded. It seems I’m almost caught up with young child me. Except now as an adult I understand better what is happening and how to manage the effects. Now if I can either catch it earlier/faster or somehow shield better to avoid it all together, that would be amazing.

Plus there’s: how I could teach this to my kids quicker? They don’t need 30 years of it before they master it on their own. If I can speed that up to 1 or 2 years, that would serve them immensely well and benefit them greatly.

We’ve watched She-Ra, part of Masters of the Universe, all of Troll Hunters, and 3Below. Those shows all explore the unseen world from different perspectives and vocabulary. They have all been helpful to me in fine tuning my tools and vocabulary for how I experience and interact with my world. I’m hoping I can convey to my kids what I see, feel, and understand, and how those things help.

For instance this week I played with visualizing myself differently. I pretended to be like Aaja from 3Below, I saw myself with an extra pair of arms and when I was doing muscle manipulations with my tangible hands, I was doing Reiki and energetic work with my non-tangible visualized hands. I felt like it helped my sessions get just a bit more efficient. For the first ever utilization of such an energetic tool, I felt it was definitely worth doing more of it.

But my 3 year old doesn’t know what all that means. She could benefit from the visualization too, but she needs a 3 year old understanding of it, how to use it and why it would help. I need to put it in play terms and give her ways she could use it interacting with family. If I can figure out how to get Katherine to understand, I know Ian will too, but potentially Ian might get it first. Either way, which ever one gets it first I know they will help the other learn it too.

There’s a dozen more moments like that from the shows that I am still exploring myself and have yet to attempt to help children do so.

These are definitely interesting times, and the shift is getting more and more noticeable for me. I’m beginning to see evidence of it everywhere.

My body is shrinking and healing and it gets stronger, cleaner, healthier and clearer every day. My third eye seems to be nearly fully woke, with fewer and fewer power downs- usually precipitated by general fatigue.

I am working on controlling the energy in useful and positive ways, aiming it at healing myself, followed by all those around me, my community, my country, and my world. I am doing my level best to really be a vortex of ‘Om Shanti’. Most days I am successful all day long, and begin to loose around 5 or 6 pm. I think dinner just doesn’t come fast enough to help counter the full days of work. Energy out must be balanced by energy in. I probably need to start consuming a buffer snack late in the afternoon, because my lunch veggie snack of months just doesn’t make it far enough now. That or more consistently actually take that second smaller dose of thyroid medicine. I need to look at the last round of labs they just drew before I decide that one, if it was still off a bit then that’s the solution for sure. Course it would be better if my thyroid finished healing and I didn’t need either dose anymore.

Balance and patience. In time all will be well.

For now, I’m grateful that I am feeling better and better. I’m grateful that I am healing and I am shrinking. I’m grateful that I have a beautiful family. I’m grateful that I am both intelligent and aware enough, to understand all of this and how to apply it to my life. I am grateful that I’m intelligent enough to hold what still can’t be fully documented by human tools, as worthy of exploration and understanding. I’m grateful that I’m aware of where science has begun to document some of the unseen world, and I look forward to more understanding being gleaned. I’m grateful that I am able to sense my divine half enough to know for certain that there is an unseen magical world. I look forward to being able to control my divine energy, as well as She-Ra was able, when she defeated The Horde. I love feeling good and knowing I’m more aware than ever. I love being able to focus my awareness. I love knowing that I’m healing myself in ways medicine has yet to even discuss because the topic is still considered to far-fetched. I love knowing my efforts are concerted enough to potentially rewrite my DNA, turning off junk DNA for accepting better options. I love the feeling of healing. I love the vibrance of the energy of healing. I love knowing that when what I feel spills forth, it helps everyone around me, and that because it’s like a cup overflowing, there’s only ever flow outward when my cup is full and the flow continues. I love having my cup continually full and still allowing the flow to continue, that is a true healer. The best feeling ever: my divine self- words give pale comparisons, knowing that alone is priceless and sacred.

May you know what you feel, and may it always be exactly as your inner being is. May you have all the tools you need to navigate this world. May you understand all of the ways to experience the world and all of the tools needed to explore it safely. May you know how to adjust and correct when others impact you. May you know exactly where you went wrong and how to fix everything. May you see your inner light burn brightly for all to see as long as you shall choose. May your heart be full of healing love always. Above all may you know the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti