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Everyone’s concerns matter.

So I had a topic come up through Nathan and that is the purpose of this post. However, really quick I first wanted to share a couple small happy dance moments of the last couple days. 1) I took my much needed Epsom salt soak and my tummy now falls completely below water level. It’s a sign I’m finally slimming down even though the scale barely shows anything. 2) I had a massive energetic barrage between my father and clients that threatened to drag me down. I not only was able to clear with Nathan’s help, but then I found my way to climbing the emotional scale and I even had some very intense in-the-vortex honoring-myself moments. The two put together have left me feeling very good today. I hope everyone has those breakthrough moments.

On to the intended topic…

Nathan brought to my attention a Facebook post from a friend. She is essentially upset over anyone that isn’t worried about all the disappearing children and human trafficking. She went OFF over anti-maskers, black lives matter protests, and pretty much any other moment of news that wasn’t her topic. It made me think, and I’m not sure she would like my response, so I decided to write it here.

First, yes children are going missing, and in much larger numbers than previously. Some theorize that it is a nasty conspiracy to depopulate the earth or to hand over humans to aliens. Some simply believe it is because of racism and refugee populations. Some believe it is our government or the 1%’ers trying to experiment on people without getting caught. The biggest problem here is that 1) large quantities of kids have vanished without a trace, and 2) a few kids have escaped from warehouse sized facilities full of kids, and the children are not being handled like border crossing facilities. The escapee descriptions and locations are what have told us that.

It is a problem, and one that many are not aware of. However, that is no reason to get mad at everyone else in your experience.

Getting mad at others over your concern not being dealt with is only contributing to the divisive fighting that is holding the world back. Especially when considering that many people don’t know this information about kids because it is being ignored (some say covered up) by the media. Covid has taken center stage and BLM is a close second.

So, first one should acknowledge that your concerns may not have even crossed another person’s awareness. Secondly, one should note that there are many concerns affecting humanity at this time. Thirdly, one should acknowledge that bringing people together on the same page is the only way to create lasting helpful solution oriented change. Fourthly, one needs to acknowledge it is difficult at best to solve multiple problems large scale at one time. Fifthly, one needs to be aware that we will never truly solve all of the problems: that would cause the universe to cease energetically, but also it is impossible because for every rule, law, or solution to be implemented there will inevitably be someone (or several) that find a way around and continue the problem in new ways. Sixthly, if you only focus on things to be upset over and problems, then you will continue to get things to be upset over. For humanity to solve problems, we must all focus on solutions that have already manifested.

So my response would have been calm the fuck down and figure out a way to orient to solutions as a whole. Covid and black lives matter have been concerns for a while now, and for good reasons. The missing kids are important and need to be returned to their parents, but we are up against a huge battle already before introducing this additional concern. The only way to solve any of these problems is to come together as a whole-humanity and work together towards solutions. We have not been able to do that on anything for a very long time and it is the reason everything keeps dragging on so horribly.

Here’s the deal, the world is full of bad shit including disease, and modern media has selectively shown you the worst of the worst to trigger fear and aggression among people. It is a vicious cycle many people keep buying into.

If you want to choose pandemic, the media shows you Covid and scares the shit out of you, but you’re a 100 times more likely to die of heart disease or cancer than covid. That’s a pandemic that is really scary, especially since both are usually linked more to diet and lifestyle/life-choices than genes.

If you want to choose racism, the media will give you everything related to black lives matter (which they do matter), but largely ignores the continued improper treatment of Mexicans at border control stations, and completely ignores the plight of the Hondurans and other south American refugees. Also, here in the great USA we completely ignore racial or religious problems across the globe (Jews/Hindus vs Islams, Indians vs Pakistanis, etc.) We also still feel the need to discriminate against Chinese and Japanese, especially since Covid gives us a reason to hate China.

If you do indeed choose missing kids as your concern, the media will give you the latest youth to be murdered or show you flyers for Amber alerts, and you’ll always get texts on any local Amber alerts. But, to find out about the hoards of Missing kids you have to go looking for it.

There are many problems we as humanity face: global warming, barrier reef dieing, species reaching extinction, air pollution, corporate greed, manipulation of politicians, lack of access to healthcare, lack of access to education in many parts of the world, lack of access to clean water. There are many more I could list.

To solve any of them, we need to come together and focus. One problem at a time to create change and hopefully find lasting solutions. It is the only way anything will really be solved. Here’s the kicker, if we really did do that in a focused way as a whole mass, solutions would come so quickly that we could solve a large list in no time, even one topic at a time. But the coming together in a very focused way is our biggest hurdle.

Beyond that we really simply must reach for better. If humanity continues fighting with each other and only seeing the negatives, then that will be what we continue to get- negatives and fighting. We will never solve every problem for all time. So, we need to learn to just acknowledge the problems and honor differences with each other, and then reach for the times where even people with differences came together and created positive change. The movements that were led by Martin Luther King, and Ghandi are two such great examples. Those are times in history when people came together in very focused ways and created wonderful miraculous change for the better. We need more of those moments, and reaching for them and focusing on how change was created will help enable more of that.

We must find a way to do this for ourselves and our humanity. It is the only way to keep progressing and shift consciousness in big positive ways. Next time you get upset over something, please remember my observations. Then ask yourself: can you help bring awareness to the problem and help humanity focus on solutions for it or anything else?

May we all find a way to focus on solutions. May we all find a way to accept each other’s differences and focus on common goals. May we all reach for better: days, thoughts, solutions, vibrational alignment, and overall experience. May we all see God’s guidance. May we all reach for solutions to the many significant problems we face as humanity. May we all learn to love and accept each other knowing there will always be negatives, but most of humanity wants the better. May we all see the common ground of desiring safety, security, love, family, community, support, and access to health, education, and clean water. May you see that God really wants us all to live better lives and have many things to look forward to. May you see God wants us all to live happy lives doing what we love and know we are safe. May you understand that God never splits humanity, we are all one people and God loves all of us regardless of race, religion, gender, sexuality, or country of origin.

Siva Hir Su

A birth through seaweed.

Not literal.

I was asking God how to solve the slowness of my desire to birth a new me. I acknowledged everything I have done and asked if a miracle was possible. I heard a yes. I simply asked how and listened for my response. This is what God’s answer was for me.

The birth:

I am coming up on 9 months since I re-cleaned up my act and went strict. 9 months since I upped my anty and added things I previously hadn’t utilized. I’m ready for a birth. A birth of a new healed and thin me.

Like birth, this experience apparently needs to be uncomfortable for me for a short period. The kind of uncomfortable that makes you really, really appreciate the end results. The kind of uncomfortable that walks right up to worst case scenario without actually taking you there. The kind of uncomfortable that shows you what you can handle without actually breaking you.

I was reminded that humans don’t actually have to eat every day. I was reminded of Ghandi’s  21 day fast, and that he began it much thinner than I currently am. I was reminded of Siddhartha’s journey into asceticism. I was reminded of biblical fasts: forced- both by captures or environmental causes, and chosen- through devoutness. God pointed out that though it is uncomfortable to our experience of life, it is possible and does force our body to release anything that is not vital to our existence, including all of the hidden pieces trapped within (toxins in cells, and the energetic junk trapped in muscles and fat cells- bad muscle memories). The longer the fast the more is released. Once satisfaction is reached, someone in my position can simply choose to resume eating as normal, knowing the goal has been met and healing is complete.

The seaweed:

God reminded me of the story from the Bible where Israelites escape the pharaoh’s army in the Book of Exodus to survive on Mana/God’s bread rained from heaven. This Mana is described in multiple places in the Bible and many people and scientists have speculated on it’s actual substance from moss to spirulina to a variety of seaweeds.

God then reminded me of the Tibetan monk that is claimed to have lived for 300 years on a moss found in his cave, and he had so much Chi/Qi (energy) that he was able to leave his handprint on the cave walls.

Then I saw my seaweed in my mind. I have already acknowledged that when I eat seaweed I feel satisfied and have plenty of energy. I was told my seaweed is the monks moss, it is the Mana of God for me.

The answer:

I have already done juice fasts several times in the past, one running almost 2 months. I am no stranger to fasting. They don’t kill me, and this is just a new variation inspired by God as my answer to birthing a new me more quickly. I am up for trying it. It is time for the baby of myself to be born. I am ready.

I fully understand that this is not a requirement. I do not have to fast. I do not have to be uncomfortable. However, my desire for a new me is so strong that waiting for months and months and months causes very resistant thought. I am ready to leap the momentum hurdle and make the final sprint to the finish line. I am actually okay with the thought of this fast. I does feel less resistant than waiting longer and longer. I am okay discovering my limits. I am okay learning how much I can handle. I am ready to let God heal me and teach my body how to live fully. I am ready for this birth to be in this way. Seaweed will help me birth a new me and that is okay.

I am ready to be ready to be ready. -Abraham Hicks

May you be ready to be ready. May you have your inspired answers. May you know God is trying to help you. May you birth the healing you have been fostering. May you clear momentum hurdles easily. May you have success in all your endeavors. May you have plenty of energy and feel great in your body. May you feel God’s love and guidance. May you know you are safe regardless of what you choose. May you always find the least resistant answer and thought.

Siva Hir Su

Astounding Relief

The short and long of it.

First the short…

Last night I got into a proverbial knock down, drag out argument with my father. I yelled A LOT. My dad yelled some but would not budge, apologize, or relinquish that his beliefs were hurtful. He barely acknowledged things I expected more from him on, especially when I told him of the molestation as a child.

Apparently God wanted this moment to happen. It was triggered while my inhibitions were laxed and I responded with all of my being. In the midst of all of it I kept feeling guidance on what to say and how to point things out. Towards the end of it, before I gave up and went to bed I heard God loud and clear. “That is why he is dieig, he refuses to budge and refuses to reach for better.” I had just responded to dad’s “I can’t change who I am”, with an emphatic “you are making that choice”. Then after God’s input I told him what God said and went to bed.

The argument covered all of his hurtful behaviors and actions. He justified it all with those are just things we disagree on. Everything from his racist behavior, to Trump support, to gender and sexual descrimination. At one point I spoke of his desire to keep women from having abortions. I pointed out that if I had been only a few years older when I was molested it could have produced a child. I pointed out Katherine’s conception when things were so bad and I had no solutions. I said if you want to revoke the right to abortion, then how on Earth do you solve those problems. He had no answer and didn’t care to find one, only make an excuse for his steadfastness.

Once I gave up and went to bed, Nathan took over trying to reason with him, the unreasonable. I sat and listened to a message notification that fit precisely and was God congratulating me. Then I meditated to my liquid mind Pandora station.

I thanked God so much and explained I loved God and I could now clearly differentiate God from my father or anyone for that matter. I saw God’s hand in bringing Nathan into my life to make up for all which lacked with my father. It was a strongly intense conversation with God, ending with a knowing that my father will not fully understand until he has his croaking experience, but that once on the other side he will get it all and be a better Father than he ever was alive. I also had a much stronger knowing of ME.

The long of it.

I now see every last thing that my father taught and continues to demonstrate. I saw every last hurtful thing he ingrained in me and could see God’s version. It was so freeing and healing for me. My body lit up with God’s light and I felt the healing in every part of me that needed it.

  • God does not put guns in people’s hands for protection or food, people put guns in each other’s hands for killing, based on war/control and fear.
  • We don’t have to shoot animals to eat. God provides fruits and vegetables and fish that can be caught or gathered by hand or with simple tools.
  • God does not molest or rape, men do. And when man takes advantage of woman, God is okay with whatever the woman needs to heal, no matter what, whether it means abortion or yelling at a dieing father. A woman taking her power back is okay with the divine.
  • God does not hurt people, people hurt people.
  • God does not discriminate for any reason, people do.
  • God loves women for their beauty, for their strength, for their compassion for humanity.
  • God wanted me to find my knowing and fully heal and it felt really good. I feel 20 pounds lighter of anger, frustration, and feelings of rejection.
  • My father demonstrated repeatedly for my entire life that women are objects to look at, scrutinize, use as sexual objects or toys, and own. Women are beautiful creatures that bring us all into the world, without them a man could not exist. We deserve every ounce of honor, respect, recognition, and understanding. Women deserve to be heard and be treated equally. Women are free to choose. Women are deserving of the easy path, and of all the love and more. Women deserve full healing, and if that means the old dies then that is okay.
  • My father always demonstrated that I could never do things right, I was not beautiful, my choices were always wrong, and he was the only one that could make correct decisions, I must listen to the man. I took my power back. I am perfect just the way I am. I am smart, I am capable, I can make good decisions for me and my loving family, and I deserve to be honored and respected. Men can and will listen to women for a change, or the human race will quickly dwindle.
  • My father has demonstrated racism through my entire life. From Confederate flags, to calling black people niggers, to threatening to shoot a black man at a gas station over loud music, to refusing to acknowledge Nathan as a loving partner. He refuses to see how that is a hurtful choice and is okay making excuses for his behaviors. Last night after presenting Nathan to my father in a blunt matter-of-fact way about all of his good qualities my dad refuses to acknowledge, I said “Nathan is the kind loving man that I needed as a child and you failed to be”. God knows I needed Nathan. God loves and accepts Nathan. God supports me having Nathan and will never send me someone that can’t see that. I know that after my father croaks he will see God’s perspective.
  • God provides us a middle path. There is never this or that, there is never only two ways to do something. There is always infinite possibility, and only human choice of perspective limits possibilities. We need to allow ourselves as a race to allow for more possibilities. Our country has more than two parties to choose from, and there is still even a possibility that Bernie could still be elected and win. God can help fix all of the division if we all agree to allow him. Hold with your heart what you want to happen in our world and God will align everything. If your heart can’t hold it then it isn’t reaching for better, it’s just trying to not get worse. As a nation and world we deserve better.
  • God wants us to know without a doubt that we have choices and infinite possibilities.
  • God wants us to know we are loved and we all deserve the easy path.
  • God wants us to know we have rights and those rights must be honored and respected for all.
  • Yelling has it’s place and can lead to healing as long as one moves on once release is gained.
  • Clinging to old beliefs prevents us from living full healthy lives.
  • If beliefs are hurtful to others then God and your higher self want you to reach for better and if you refuse it will cause the end of your life.
  • I have changed, I yelled and screamed and made points, but never lost my connection to God. I was reaching for better. I was trying to get my father to understand, but more I was taking my power back and proving to myself that his hurtful beliefs were not mine and not God’s. I was honoring myself and my husband in the strongest most vocal way possible, and God loved me for it.
  • I allowed myself real healing and could feel God’s touch in my body.
  • I respect people, even my father to a degree, but more I respect myself.
  • I love my father- dysfunction and all, but more I love myself.
  • I let it all out and let myself move on, and God let me know it is okay.
  • My heart is more open than it has been in decades and I am so very grateful for it and God’s grace.
  • I know I am deserving of love, and especially someone that accepts Nathan as part of my life.
  • I am deserving of being heard and understood.
  • The whole world is deserving of equality and the old dieing and taking their damage with them. It is time for a great healing purge worldwide.
  • Every person alive needs to make a habit of asking themselves: “How does God see this, and does that mean I need to change and reach for better?”
  • Love is more important than anything else in this world, and sometimes that means putting that which is right and putting yourself first at all costs.

May you find your path to intense healing moments a bit easier than I did. May you know and hear God guiding you. May you know God supports your growth and reaching for better regardless of what that looks like. May you know you are loved, heard, understood, and supported in multiplicity. May you clear rough patches knowing God guided you through them. May you know your better choices are okay, and if you don’t like the results you can try again. May you know you are perfectly imperfect in God’s eyes. May you feel God’s love always.

Siva Hir Su