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Almost

I aimed to finish my front patio today.

Nathan and I, put the locking-sand down and wet it to lock it. About an hour later I moved pots into place and proceed to begin constructing the rough hewn furniture set. I did not get all of the furniture done before running out of steam at dinner time. I managed to complete the side table and one chair.

Our chainsaws are not intended for lots of large heavy work, so I had to switch back and forth several times, and let them cool to avoid burning my fingers. Actual construction happened inside our garage to help me stay cool after a short break inside with air conditioning.

Considering the tools available to me, and the fact that it was 84°, I think I did an awesome job today. I will finish the other chairs on another day.

Once the entire set is done I will coat them all in a tick layer of something like ‘Thompson’s water seal’. It will protect them for as long as desired.

My watch did not accurately count my steps though. I took it off to avoid ruining it with chainsaw vibrations, like my last watch. So instead, I tucked it in my bra and it counted a bit less than 6000 steps. I’m certain that’s off by at least a couple thousand steps.

Regardless of steps, I was very happy. I kept repeating “I have a front patio now, with furniture and pretty flowers! It’s amazing!” I’m so very appreciative.

Kids also had fun on their slip and slide now that it’s finally nice enough to use it.

Here are the pictures:

Now I soak in an Epsom salt bath to attempt to solve my achy crunchy body, with some much needed rest and rehydration to follow.

May you have good productive days off. May you find things to be joyful about and may your kids have fun in the sun this summer. May you find life good even when doing something that is physically taxing. May you see the wonderful things in your experience. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Functionally ready!

My time for me this evening was finishing my home office as close as I could for functionality.

I’m still missing a small round side table and my hot stone warmer and the massage table bolster. They will be found and added to the room ASAP. I also remembered that I need to find and hang duplicates of my credentials. In the mean time, I can use the bolster from my portable table, and deal without the other 2 items. My office is as ready as need be for now.

Everything thing in this room we either already had, or purchased at thrift very inexpensively. The exception being the small bit of lumber for the desk and the area rug (which was on clearance at IKEA).

I’m so excited. My graphic design computer is in my custom closet built-in desk, which conveniently hides behind a curtain when the room is being used for massage. Regardless of my purpose of using the office I can close the door and have peaceful focus. It makes me soooo happy. I have earned this moment a thousand times over.

Now I can schedule Nathan’s first massage in ages, as well as a couple of trades to get myself caught up and less achy.

Here’s the nearly finished product.

Satisfied… Ahhhhh….

Dora gifs by gfycat.com

Like Dora says, “yea we did it!” And I feel very satisfied now.

Since my last update post a lot has happened.

New Year’s Day was spectacular weather, we spent part of the day outside with the kids and dog. It was great to be outside in just sweatshirts on the first day of the year. I was very grateful for that contrast to last year’s New Year weather. Buddy isn’t allowed to go outside, so he just stood at the door looking longingly outside 😆!

The rest of the day was spent inside watching the Rose Parade on YouTube and munching on a smorgasbord of: black eyed peas and collard greens, raw veggies, hummus, homemade vegan ranch dip, and homemade vegan french onion dip, sweet potato chips and of course some chocolate. I totally over-ate justifying it because all the items were healthy. My stomach reminded me the next day that too much of anything is a bad thing.

Then the 2nd day of January began in chaos.

I needed to go back to work, but was off a bit from my over eating escapade. Anya was off on an extended-family cruise from her mom’s side, so we needed to take littles with us. In the midst of the already extra-work morning routine, Nathan got a phone call that his Uncle had passed. That was upsetting to him because he’d just talked to that uncle on Christmas Day. He needed to call his parents to let them know, so I drove.

Probably because of my state of being, but also the holiday schedule changes, I went to the wrong work location on my first try and ended up at the correct location 5 min late. I gave the appropriate 30 min light swedish massage to the correct person. Just after my resident got up from the massage, he asked me a question. I proceeded to answer him, but noticed his demeanor had changed. He was in what seemed like a mild seizure to me. Being unaware of any history of seizures, I immediately sought staff assistance. By the time an aid responded, less than two minutes later he was not responding. The nurse was called, and by the time they were checking vitals and calling paramedics, he was in full “code”- he had stopped breathing. I helped the nurse and aid lower him from the chair to the floor and CPR was started. Paramedics were there within 5 and took over. I was asked details of what happened and they rushed him to the hospital.

I suspect he had a stroke, and if he survives it will be because of my immediate response and fast coordination with staff. Regardless I won’t know anything for a while. All I could do was proceed with my day, which was now 10 min late. I sent prayers for my resident every time he came to mind, and literally flew through my day staying 10 min late the whole way.

That is until leaving for for my final obligation of the day. Closing appointment for our home. We actually ended up being there 10 minutes early.

I was excited because it had been delayed twice, but also hesitant because it had been delayed twice.

Everything went okay though and we walked out with a key to our new home.

We had a celebratory meal and then stopped at our new home to make sure the key worked and we could get in. Also, to check what needed to happen before moving. It does need cleaned and we always smudge first. Plus I’m insistant that new door knobs and security is addressed before actually moving in. So those are on today’s to do list for Nathan.

I’m so very excited for our new home. It is not a perfect home having been built in the 60’s, but all the things that matter most are in good to excellent condition. I’m looking forward to the changes we talked about before even making an offer, and I’m so glad I’ll be able to make a pretty yard and have a true home office for working with some of my clients. It is definitely a step in the right direction.

I will leave you with a few pictures of the house that were taken before the previous owner fully moved out. For anyone that might have dubious intentions, I’ll point out there is no geo-tagging on these pictures and the house number was taken down when pictures were taken. Also, this lovely home looks like probably 20,000 others within the multiple cities of the KC metro, so you’d have to do quite a bit of advanced intellectual legwork to find it, not impossible but definitely difficult at best.

May you have chaos free days and clients in good health. May you have happy New Year’s and positive results. May you find the home you seek and make it your own. May you have progress and real happy endings. May you be surrounded by helpful and loving people. May you have all the love and support you need.

Siva Hir Su

Ouch!

Watch “Abraham Hicks 💓 Let FUN guide you [NEW]” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/1sYIZMsL01M.

I’m so very guilty of this. Guess I understand at least part of why the last 3 years has gone the way it has. I really need figure out how to stay-permanently- on the positive vortex side.

It’s funny: scaring off people I really like on one hand; & introducing other friends to polyamory & law of attraction on the other hand (I’ve discovered different friends have gravitated to one or the other in the last couple of years, & I was the one that introduced the concepts). I literally told Nathan when he informed me of that: “Why the hell do I keep helping others find things I have yet to fully figure out for myself?!”

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As for me:

I just keep getting better and better at solving a never ending slew of problems. Nursing is slowly resolving: they went ahead and clipped Katherine’s tongue-tie even though the front was mild, with a disclaimer that since it wasn’t bad it might not solve things, & the rear may be more significant, but also more costly to clip. It’s solved maybe 70% of the pain. The other 30% is very, very slowly backing off as my nipples heal. I really wish I could speed that process up more, but I’ve been told its going quickly compared to others with that much damage- probably because all the goop I’m using repeatedly. I’m also in the midst of figuring out adrenal & thyroid balance post birth to put an end to the emotional nose dives and roller coaster ride I’ve been on for the last 3 weeks. Nursing problems or not, I knew the extreme falls were needing an extra look, & my last 2 tweaks seem to have made significant headway.

Now I just need to get into the doc to renew my desicated thyroid prescription.

I do wish though that Dr. Illardi would revisit his Depression Cure book with postpartum needs and situations in mind, that puzzle could use his perspective. I’ve had a heck of a time trying to apply his findings to “eat when they eat, sleep when they sleep” new baby logic, while still attempting to retain the allergy needs dictated by 3rd trimester, trying to stimulate lactation, having difficulty with severe breast pain, and not being able to leave my room half as much as I’d prefer. It’s a puzzle that has already threatened to get the better of me, but as usual I’m fighting with all I’ve got.

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In other news:

The basement is also coming along well. Our “living room”/ multipurpose room is nearly complete, and we’re finally working on unpacking things beyond clothing.

The storage area behind the brown chair will eventually get covered with a curtain. That is once I’m certain the crack in the ceiling no longer leaks when it rains.

My child already made friends with the Lego’s in the new open floor space, but there is still room for 2 pieces of exercise equipment, a large dog kennel (blue sheeted cube) , & stacked tables for organizing short term storage & usables.

The other table currently a mess, is intended for being art space, and most (but not all) of what is on it is art supplies. To that end I fully intend to sort & organize to actually be able to use it for its intended purpose.

Nathan’s goal has been to tackle organizing our portion of kitchen stuff in the garage & to make the garage usable space again. He’s about three quarters of the way through that process, but it looks a ton better and you can actually walk around in the garage now (as opposed to squeezing through & still being afraid of tripping, like it was a couple of weeks ago).

It’s starting to feel like home, and to that end we’re getting closer to having everything moved. Nathan’s down to missed odds and ends, & the large outdoor items. Life is finally starting to seem normal again, and things are beginning to look pretty again. That I have to thank the gods for. I asked Kali almost 3 years ago to help me make things pretty again (when I hit the remodeling-brick-walls with the trailer), and it’s finally beginning to take shape, just not the way I thought it would. SO not the way I envisioned.

Anyway, Hannah is giving the home a glorious garden. She helped me rescue plants I’d started the previous 2 years. & those combined with her plants from before, her amazing touch, a bunch of seeds, and a few new plants, things are looking great.

The view of the Iris’ from our room is wonderful too.

Finally, I’ve made cards for a couple of people that were very generous with me this year, birthday & baby wise. I was going to make a 3rd, but that person is nearly blind, so I’m not sure yet how to honor her generosity. Beyond that, it’s taken me over a month, but I’m almost done with an adult coloring page I’m in love with- an elephant.

I can’t take full credit for the cards, the cats were inspired by a single kitty I saw somewhere, & the cover words were also found. I just put my personal touch on it, crafting it with watercolors on heavy art paper, feeling like that meant more than a store bought card. I hope they feel the same way when they get them.

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So up, and down, and all around.

My husband and Hannah both keep telling me that I’m amazing & should be congratulating myself. I still have difficulty seeing it, knowing the thousands of things I would still like to accomplish. I do have my moments where I’m like “Yeah I’m a bad-ass giving birth and all the challenges and I’m still trucking with a healthy beautiful baby to-boot”. I just wish I could figure out how to maintain those moments consistently without seeming like or sounding like a narcissistic bastard… Yes that is a fear of mine. Yet another challenge. …

My last request for the day: one less challenge to overcome, let something be easy for once. Let a something, for everyone, be easy for once.

*Siva Hir Su.*

1 step closer.

This will be a really short update on construction. Baby is still not here yet, but I’ve had many people note that “baby has dropped”, which is usually an indication the end is nearing.

Our’s & baby’s bedroom before- note unfinished wall far right:

Same space afterwards- multiple views:

My son’s bed & dresser didn’t really fit without feeling crowded, still he’ll be in the other room that was intended as a playroom.

That space “kids room” before:

The “kids room” currently:

Walls have been washed since the pictures, but still need trimmed out to look like our bedroom.

We also have 1 more panel to cut to wrap the furnace, 2 to finish out the tub room, then panneling will be completely finished.

Last night brought plumbing issues that threatened my diligent work, so 5am tears were shed & quick cleanup started. I had to leave for work entrusting that Nathan & Hannah & teens would ensure full & hasty cleanup. I left Nathan with cash originally intended for baby stuff, in case a plumber needed called.

I’m fairly certain my 3 year old son is at fault, probability having flushed something that shouldn’t have, mainly because the problem started out of nowhere. Frustrating me further because my son is so smart that 3 adults and 3 teens can’t keep up with him and his desire to know how everything works. But I suppose his intelligence will someday be less testing and more fruitful.

I’m hoping I get back to everything being solved and cleaned up, sanitized, and fans running to dry everything out quickly. Crossing fingers. If it is, we’ll be able to finish everything vital next week, as 3 panels and a bunch of trim should hang in roughly a day. *sigh* almost there.