Tag Archives: energetic connections

18 of 27: Why Not?

"Why me?"
She asked
An empy room
Bare walls
Candle light flickering
TV gone to static blue

"why not?"
Came the reply
No voice to hear
But heard
It's best description

No face to see
No one to touch
But somehow
Someone was felt

It makes sense
Yet it doesn't
It is understood
Yet not completely

A message
A mission
A role to play
"How do I want to play it?"
She thought

I suppose
It's my choice
To make the best
Or wallow
In the worst

I choose
To make the best
Be the victor
Own my strength
Be a force
Of my own
For better
In my world

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you find your inner knowing. May you be confident in who you are. May you rise above any and all challenges. May God speak to you and reassure you when you need it. May you feel your best self always and reach for the best as much as possible.

Om Shanti

10 of 27: Go Be With God

I hadn’t intended to write just poetry on here. More just do something different than before. Change things up, and try to be authentic without using every detail of my life. Somehow it seems my default choice for that goal has been poetry and I never even considered myself a poet.

Today I am doing my best to let go of an energy that is running amuck in my life. My last poem spoke to it. I have some psychic abilities, but it seems to me that I’m not good at interpretation of the things I get. So, I know how the energy feels, and at times it has felt good and helpful, but the same source often carries heavy negativity and chaos. At this point the negatives far outweigh the positives I have gleaned from it, and I simply wish for it to leave me alone. The problem is that some of the people in my life are either connected to it or highly influenced by it, and thus I have seen manifestations of it, both good and bad, through people I know and/or love.

Anyways, in a strong desire to disconnect from it and walk away, I am reaching for God.

That’s where it gets tricky, because this wavelength I’m talking about, blends quite significantly with the feeling of the divine, especially when the former is feeling good. I only want the good, that’s what brings better manifestations. So I only want the divine.

At this point my struggles have weighed heavy enough in my life that I also have a strong desire to give up fully and completely. But there is a part of me, very tiny, that says what if that means I die.

So I sit in acknowledgement that I could indeed die. Giving up completely could mean that I cease to exist in human form on 3D planet earth. I’m not sure that would be a bad thing. I know my husband and kids would miss me, but they would eventually move on with their own lives. But if I continue to cling to the what is because it might cause discomfort for them or I might miss out on things, then I could be holding myself apart from that already. I might be causing missing out and discomfort because I am afraid of that.

So I am doing my best to really examine what truly letting go means. If I really really let go of all of the what ifs, all of the scary tidbits, all of the might be doom, then what? I could die, but what else could happen?

It’s a hypothetical question for myself. I’m doing my best to look for the best answers and skip the worst.

May you see your best answers to letting go. May you see that you don’t have to be in control. May you see that giving into God fully and completely can do wonderous things in your life. May you know you are loved and supported by the divine. May you find a way to release the negatives completely.

Om Shanti

7 of 27: Intangible

(side note I just noticed: this was written 12/7/2020 … it’s the 7th post of the series….hmmm)

Feelings
Burning inside
Radiating outwards
Can't shut them
Out
Or OFF
Known and unknown
Half-truths
Love
Somehow the bonder
Like super-glue
God's grace
Guide through
Darkest forest
On
Dark night
Soul
Seemingly lost
Somehow
Invisible thread
Leads the way
Paths unknown
Faith worn thin
Grasping for
Unknown tangibles
The way through
The clearing unseen
There must
Be a way
Patience and Trust
Wait
God's Angels
Watch
Keeping safe
Until
Steps
Become clear
Path to freedom
A small step
A giant leap
Away
~Treasa Cailleach

Goddess Has Spoken

"Ours is already broken"
She said
Stern voice
Full of disappointment
Disgrace

The masculine
Has no right
To any
Connection
Control
Influence
Or impact
On Feminine

Goddess divine
Has spoken
Women's sovereignty
Wholeness
Protected
From you

Your abuse
Your anger
Your hatred
Your negativity
Your toxicity
Is being removed
Being healed

She has revoked
Your connection
The seal is
Already broken

Just let go
Just give up

You didn't fix it
On even the
Millionth chance

Yours is
No longer
Yours

Refusal to learn,
Grow, change,
Become a better person
Has sealed your
Fate
Accept your choices
Consequences will
Fall
Regardless of
Your acceptance

Divine feminine
Knows
We deserved better
All along
We always have been
The Treasure
You mistreated

We know we deserve
To walk away

Now it's time

Our seal is
Ours
To control
To give to those
Whom understand
To reclaim from those
Who don't

You have
No right
To interfere
Anymore

Goddess grace
Uplifts
Protects
Nourishes
Heals
Body, mind
And spirit
Eternal

Women suffered
Toxic wrath
Two thousand years
Too long

Ours is ours
Alone
We are free
The seal is
Broken

Be gone and
Good riddance
To toxic masculine

The goddess divine
Has spoken

~ Treasa Cailleach

Recent energetic events have made clear to me that a certain masculine is needing a good old fashioned banishing. Maybe even an exorcism. My husband was helpful in receiving a message that made clear ‘the how’ of it all. Let’s just say elders helped keep the toxic entanglement going well beyond all normal levels and beyond my usual daily skills. So, that is my goal for this evening, after a day full of learning home dialysis. I will bring an end to this madness with help from the archangels and the goddess, and a little extra powerful magic. I deserve better now. Be gone and good riddance. May the force be with me.

May you know your divinity and make good decisions because of it. May you find healthy balanced relationships in your life. May you execute any means necessary to ensure your own healthy sovereignty. May you know that you are protected and that God and Goddess support you in all that you do. May you be certain of your strength and capabilities. May you know your Energetics are completely under your own control no matter what. Happy May 4th, and may the force be with you always, and may you conquer your own personal Darth Vader.

Om Shanti

Evaluating Health

So I’m in the midst of a ride that is being documented by doctors in one way, and being ignored by those doctors in another.

The ride looks like: Mostly I feel good and look better than I ever have. Occasionally I have a really shitty day that takes everything I’ve got to just get through, and a few days of in-between just-mediocre mixed in. The doctors acknowledge that my blood-work looks great except for sugar levels and thyroid function, and that pesky EBV infection they can’t solve (really choose not to, because I don’t have thousands to drop on an uncovered potential solution that many of them don’t seem to even know about).

Up until 3 months ago the those were mostly in check, and then I ran out of resources and thyroid meds. My thyroid took a nose dive and now that I’m aiming for being back on track, I just can’t seem to get everything to balance again. I still look great and most days feel a ton better than my history.

I am doing my level best and the accupincturist took a look at what I’m doing and suggested a few edits. It’s a “try it and see what happens” game that I am really used to, even though it still frustrates the daylights out of me.

What gets ignored by everyone, except my husband and the accupincturist, is the energetic level that I constantly deal with. I’m Sensitive enough that sometimes I genuinely wonder if those shitty days of derailment are other people. Yesterday was one such day because of particular “symptoms” I was experiencing. I generally felt emotionally drained, exhausted, and like I was dieing. I kept experiencing the thought that I was dieing and it was okay, that even death was perfectly fine. If it weren’t for 8 doses of free and easy wanderer, I would have been on the floor in a fetal position and unable to work.

Here’s the deal. I know my father is working on making his way out of this life. For him death is probably the easiest way to solve his woes. For me that is not the case. Though death is always okay from the other side’s perspective, I’m not really ready. It’s not my time to go yet. I only get confused because of those few symptoms that shouldn’t be. I’m doing everything right.

The kicker is the same disease (EBV) that caused my hiccups with thyroid and blood sugars, is likely what caused those same problems in my mom, dad and brother. We literally have followed the same trajectory of disease, but I and my brother 30 years younger than parents. All starting somewhere between 1988-1992. I am the only one to put serious effort into trying to heal it, and so on the outside I look drastically different. Even as far as labs and meds go, I’m still doing 10 times better than the other 3 are.

But this last round really has me scratching my head. I’m doing everything perfect and my body is finally beginning to look great. I am physically more capable than any of those 3 family members, even on a bad day. So, is it possible that those remaining symptoms I am having a hell of a time killing, are because I am tapped into their energetics? That is a possibility for me that western medicine won’t even acknowledge as a possibility.

As I write this sentence, I am 1.64 miles into my treadmill workout. I know that my father is sitting in Arizona, probably asleep. So, why do I keep yawning, when I’ve done 3 hours of massage and had my big cup of green tea. It’s obvious that my body isn’t tired, and if I can treadmill and type at the same time, my brain isn’t either. Yet those yawns come like a reflex.

It leaves me saying “I’m not my father, I’m not my family, I’m better than this stupidity.” It also makes me want to eliminate every shred of their genetics from my body. It makes me want to kill whatever is inside of me that keeps perpetuating their diseases.

And from my experience, the best way to accomplish that is to focus on the opposite. So now I define what the opposite is.

Health is:

  • Feeling good all the time.
  • No feeling great mostly.
  • Able to exist without any aids (herbal or prescription).
  • Able to kick butt on exercise and carry out everyday tasks with ease.
  • Having a body at a healthy weight without an excess or physical activity. (Like if I do 5 hours of massage, I shouldn’t also have to do another hour of exercise like I do now.)
  • Being able to eat relatively normally. For my body and metabolism to be normal, I should be able to consume a 1,000 calorie diet without allergies or excessive exercise. I’d be happy to follow the diet I was on for my first pregnancy, and I’d have significantly more leaway with that many calories, compared to my now.
  • Inflammation, what inflammation? That is a stress response in the body. Normal activity levels and normal work loads shouldn’t cause any inflammation.
  • An immune system that knocks any virus or bacteria down, and leaves my own cells alone.
  • Supplements should only be nutrition, I don’t need the giant puzzle of “this is good for that”, and so on. Again, few to no aids for healthy existence.
  • There are some foods that are generally bad for the entire populous regardless as to whether medicine acknowledges that. So, outside of those foods, and the few that have plagued my family for generations, I should be able to eat anything. Again, that 1st pregnancy diet would be wonderful.
  • Going from my current to healthy includes organ function resuming full normal capacity. It doesn’t matter thyroid, pancreas, liver, etc. They should all function at full normal capacity as evaluated by any blood-work or testing.
  • The things that are already documented as good to great should remain or even improve slightly.

Now, of course is the heavy lifting metaphorically. I must meditate on the feeling place of this, repeatedly. That is how one goes from point A to point B in the focused thought path. The hardest part is consistency and really feeling the difference mentally. I have done so much, that I know I can do this. Of course it would be significantly easier if I quit picking up on my father’s junk too. Energetic disconnect, please.

May you have a knowing of your genuine health. May you see your progress. May you know you can win. May you have confidence in your thought-creation abilities. May you know you are on the right track, even when others or symptoms might seem otherwise. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do especially when you face challenges.

Om Shanti