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Reaching for me again.

It’s been a challenge to stay focused on my inner light lately. I have support from those around me, but especially from the acupuncturist. I’m also relying heavily on music, solfeggio frequencies, and mantras. They help, but it’s a continuous process.

I also feel like I’m having to relearn alignment with body changes.

I’m fasting more than ever due to external influences, it seems like the only times I feel really good are when I have not taken anything extra into my body. It’s like food is one thing too much and the toxic levels get too high. The acupuncturist has helped with inflammation and mood imbalances in these shifting times.

And I have made friends with yoga so much that, I’m now striking poses while working on people to attempt to right my pelvic imbalances. I am struggling to correct pelvic tilt and spread now that my hips and tummy are not as heavy. My happy medium, perfect alignment, seems to be fleeting moments when concentration lands specifically on righting my hips. And that is nothing to mention the number of audible joint adjustments that I’m able to hear just from shifting my pelvic region or legs. Unstable is a good descriptor.

Meanwhile, my thoughts center mostly on kicking out that which isn’t mine, be it energetic or actual toxins in my bloodstream. I feel like I have an overabundance of toxins of both kinds lately and I just need them out.  So I focus on toxins being eliminated from my body, my kidneys and liver working well, and energy that isn’t mine being grounded and shielded, at least until relief is felt.

When I am in a more relieved state I do my best to keep it that way by focusing on what is me.

I am a beautiful, human woman. I am strong and intelligent. I like music and laying in the sunshine. I like……. I love everyone around me, always, but even when they don’t return it. I love my pets and my family. I love ….. I appreciate my home and my less stress work. I’m grateful that mostly we have enough. I am thankful for making it through rough times. …..

You get the idea.

My thoughts are more and more on one of these two veins, and less and less on anything else.

Yesterday, I had a moment where one of my power-drains became evident. Someone I am connected to was focusing on the wrongness in the fact that there is only one option, and it’s being forced upon people even though it isn’t doing what was promised anyways. The gist is why don’t people see that the limited being forced, is the problem, and that there could potentially be many solutions if that was allowed, and I don’t disagree. Beyond the fact that it seems very questionable in a “it puts the lotion on it’s skin if it wants to live” sort of way; I personally believe there should be multiple options in this mess and that we all should have the right to choose. Even with one option we still should have the right to choose. That is basic human rights and our freedom, which has been promised to us here in America for 200 years.

However, in the moment of my experience yesterday, it was clear that because my love was being given to that person, and they were in turn focusing on the negative, it was creating a massive drain on my energy and it felt so intense in the moment I thought it would cause me to die if I don’t find a solution. I literally got cold and started shivering from the experienced energy drain, and I was sitting outside in my hammock in near 80° weather. It was very intense and somewhat scary.

As I was verbalizing my thoughts to get them to stick better energetically and hopefully override the experience, my son explained he knew how I felt. He has apparently been having very similar moments and feeling the same things. He told me that he had tried saying some of the same phrases but that they don’t stick well for him. I told him I’m having the same trouble but we have to keep practicing and trying new phrases to find out what works well enough.

I must figure this out quickly to protect my children.

Unfortunately, I know that western medicine is too busy trying to protect their failure to actually focus on producing real solutions. Bonus, no doctor I’ve ever been to, has helped, and that was before energetics and Covid threatened my life. It just doesn’t really leave me any hope that they will help now. I’ve been to the doctor more the last 2 years than the previous 2 decades, yet nothing has improved by their efforts or measures. It’s just not worth my time anymore, and if I’m going to die because of Covid aftermath, I’d rather not waste my time and energy on the medical system anymore. A singular-sighted system, with a fallible injection, trying to serve diverse masses based on mostly-white-male-averages and with absolutely no backup plan, all while dealing with a new disease mutating at an exponential rate (no other disease known to man has done that BTW), is not worth investing anything into.

So, off food, a fraction of my supplements are making it into me these days, doing my level best to keep up with the Energetics, reaching for solutions for me and my children, and maintaining my focus as best as possible to find as much alignment as possible. That’s the short of it.

May you have easy transitions in this time of global change. May you find that all changes in your life and in your body are managed easily. May you see love and support all around you. May you know that you’ll get through this and eventually clear they other side okay. May you know that change is inevitable and sometimes it’s grander than others. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Heal first.

I’m a slow writer because of dyslexia and I only have 30min to convey what I need to say. I apologize for any typos in advance.

Om Mani Padme Hum … The jewel in the lotus. Your heart sparkles with the jewel of healing. Love yourself for surviving it all. Love yourself for knowing you did wrong and wanting to make it right. Love yourself for doing your best even when traumatized and fighting disease. Love yourself because you matter to god. Love yourself because that is the way to heal everything, inside and out, top to bottom, and all around. You are special and even when you’ve done something horrible there is always a way to heal and make amends. That is our purpose here to make amends for worngs from as many places as possible, even and especially when it is our own misdeeds. Make it right and love yourself even more for doing so.

Heal the world.

Heal our bodies.

Those that survived deserve healing.

Everyone alive deserves healing in whatever that means.

Heal my mystery person. I know they didn’t mean to hurt me, and I know the darkness they carry isn’t theirs. They didn’t deserve it to begin with. They deserve to heal.

Heal my brother, I love him. Our childhood was rough and I wouldn’t have made it through without him. I know we have both hurt each other many times over the years and I hope he forgives me because I know I forgive him. He was traumatized more than I, and he managed to survive and have a family. He deserves healing as much as anyone.

Heal my husband. I love him too. He is my light and my love and has always been there for me when I needed loving support. He deserves to be fully healed.

Heal my mom and dad in whatever way that means. They did their best and I forgave them years ago. I love them. They deserve healing.

Heal the system to actually help people the ways that matter. We need answers and fixes for disease damage. We need treatments that first do no harm, and the system needs to put those treatments first and cover them as much as any treatment. There should also be balance and equality in what is offered and covered, if Viagra can be covered for men than abdominal reconstruction should always be covered for women.

We are alive and breathing in this moment. This is our chance to try again. If we all work together and focus on what is needed then we will overcome.

I have had a week of low backs and hips, everyone that has been on my table has struggled with it in some fashion. Feeling safe and secure and like we can move forward is at the heart of that problem. Heal everyone so that they know it is safe to move on in Whatever that means for them. Heal them so that they know they are supported and secure in themselves.

Heal every ion, every atom, every molecule, every cell and organ of every living being in this world. Anything that isn’t truly alive can be transformed into something helpful. Nothing is created or destroyed, but all can be transformed into their best selves and heal.

I call all the archangels, I call of Christ, I call on Shiva, all the divine beings and great masters from all time. Hear my prayers, hear all of our prayers. We deserve healing and we deserve help and now is the time to do so. We are reaching for you help, let it be so.

May we all know that we are loved and supported by the divine. May we all survive this shift. May we all heal and live better lives. May we all know we are loved and forgiven. May we all see the light and allow for miracles in everything.

Om Shanti

Peace to all in the universe.

My Sea

The shift is real whether you believe it or not.

I know that current events are a symptom of it. I’m just saying that if 2 aren’t working enough to have to resort to our best manual measures again, then why pressure for a third. Third time’s a charm doesn’t work in chemistry, it either works or it doesn’t. Repeating the same thing will not produce different results. That is the definition of insanity.

For me personally, today the shift felt real. My experience of it is tactile and perceptual.

The darkness did it’s best to drag me under, and all my 6 senses were overwhelmed. The Energetics triggered several trigger points to lock up on me. I had a long day, but it was far from being my most difficult. The Energetics started amidst my second session, and the trigger points were noticably severe by my third appointment. It triggered an emotional breakdown where I quietly cried the rest of my workday, doing my best to hide my tears behind my mask. I resorted to all the tools, including asking my twitchy weak husband to help at bedtime.

Ultimately, my biggest relief was creating my own tiny Sea of Gallalee in my tub using 4 pounds of Epsom salts. I proceeded to treat myself to an extended soak with jets running and completely submerged myself several times in cleansing self-baptism.

I have written about the many benefits of Epsom salt baths before, but the one thing I haven’t expounded upon is the ability to energetically cleanse the body and soul. Salt is the best purifier on the planet in that respect, and my salt bath this evening was wonderfully beneficial. I can feel the negatives being sucked out of me with the built up toxins, and I exited feeling a thousand pounds lighter and the bonus was that I was much less sore than before. I firmly believe that there must be some remnants of sea life genetics left in me from millennia past, simply because I benefit from nearly every way humans can consume or partake in the benefits of the sea. Iodine, seaweed, seafoods, and especially salts.

Anyway, the darkness was thick, causing hideous lies to traverse my brain, and my Epsom soak/baptism banished it enough to call in Great Spirit to begin flowing healing again.

So, I will leave you with a prayer likely older than Christ (even though I did ask his help on this evening too). It is from this great land I walk daily. It is a Lakota prayer to the Great Spirit, and it doesn’t matter if I listen, sing, say, or read it, it definitely opens me up to the goodness of the divine and enables healing energy to flow. I do not know the full translation, but the energy is what matters anyways, and the audio is my favorite rendition I’ve found of it.

Wakan tanka, hunkaschila
Wohitika oyate
Nagi tanka, tunkasila
Akicita, oyate
Wiyan wakan, hanhepi-wi
Nakacijin, oyate
Heyyy, ayy, hee, ooh!

Wakan tanka, hunkaschila
Wohitika, oyate
Niyaha, le mita cola
Kiksuyapi, oyate
Wicoti, mitawa wichasha
Wakan mitakuye, oyasin
Oyate!
He, ayy, hee, ooh!

The following is my prayer that I repeated whilst soaking in salts.

Great spirit is healing the darkness.
Great spirit is healing me.
Great spirit is healing all of us.
Darkness has no right here.
I'm sorry I accidentally invited it in, please forgive me, thank you great spirit I love you.
I'm healing, I flow healing to all those around me.
I'm healing inside and out, top to bottom, every cell, every organ, every tissue, every nerve, every molecule, every atom.
Great spirit is flowing healing everywhere it is needed and for everyone that is open to receiving it.
Healing is love, I am loved, I am a beautiful person deserving of better than this, better than the darkness.
My world and my experience are healing too.
I am loved and supported in all that I do.
Great spirit is healing me and everything that is part of me and my experience.

May you know that you are loved and supported. May you know that you have access to healing. May you know the tools necessary to overcome the darkness and aide our world during these times. May you fare well in this shift we are experiencing. Above all may you know that you are loved and supported in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Goddess Has Spoken

"Ours is already broken"
She said
Stern voice
Full of disappointment
Disgrace

The masculine
Has no right
To any
Connection
Control
Influence
Or impact
On Feminine

Goddess divine
Has spoken
Women's sovereignty
Wholeness
Protected
From you

Your abuse
Your anger
Your hatred
Your negativity
Your toxicity
Is being removed
Being healed

She has revoked
Your connection
The seal is
Already broken

Just let go
Just give up

You didn't fix it
On even the
Millionth chance

Yours is
No longer
Yours

Refusal to learn,
Grow, change,
Become a better person
Has sealed your
Fate
Accept your choices
Consequences will
Fall
Regardless of
Your acceptance

Divine feminine
Knows
We deserved better
All along
We always have been
The Treasure
You mistreated

We know we deserve
To walk away

Now it's time

Our seal is
Ours
To control
To give to those
Whom understand
To reclaim from those
Who don't

You have
No right
To interfere
Anymore

Goddess grace
Uplifts
Protects
Nourishes
Heals
Body, mind
And spirit
Eternal

Women suffered
Toxic wrath
Two thousand years
Too long

Ours is ours
Alone
We are free
The seal is
Broken

Be gone and
Good riddance
To toxic masculine

The goddess divine
Has spoken

~ Treasa Cailleach

Recent energetic events have made clear to me that a certain masculine is needing a good old fashioned banishing. Maybe even an exorcism. My husband was helpful in receiving a message that made clear ‘the how’ of it all. Let’s just say elders helped keep the toxic entanglement going well beyond all normal levels and beyond my usual daily skills. So, that is my goal for this evening, after a day full of learning home dialysis. I will bring an end to this madness with help from the archangels and the goddess, and a little extra powerful magic. I deserve better now. Be gone and good riddance. May the force be with me.

May you know your divinity and make good decisions because of it. May you find healthy balanced relationships in your life. May you execute any means necessary to ensure your own healthy sovereignty. May you know that you are protected and that God and Goddess support you in all that you do. May you be certain of your strength and capabilities. May you know your Energetics are completely under your own control no matter what. Happy May 4th, and may the force be with you always, and may you conquer your own personal Darth Vader.

Om Shanti

Evaluating Health

So I’m in the midst of a ride that is being documented by doctors in one way, and being ignored by those doctors in another.

The ride looks like: Mostly I feel good and look better than I ever have. Occasionally I have a really shitty day that takes everything I’ve got to just get through, and a few days of in-between just-mediocre mixed in. The doctors acknowledge that my blood-work looks great except for sugar levels and thyroid function, and that pesky EBV infection they can’t solve (really choose not to, because I don’t have thousands to drop on an uncovered potential solution that many of them don’t seem to even know about).

Up until 3 months ago the those were mostly in check, and then I ran out of resources and thyroid meds. My thyroid took a nose dive and now that I’m aiming for being back on track, I just can’t seem to get everything to balance again. I still look great and most days feel a ton better than my history.

I am doing my level best and the accupincturist took a look at what I’m doing and suggested a few edits. It’s a “try it and see what happens” game that I am really used to, even though it still frustrates the daylights out of me.

What gets ignored by everyone, except my husband and the accupincturist, is the energetic level that I constantly deal with. I’m Sensitive enough that sometimes I genuinely wonder if those shitty days of derailment are other people. Yesterday was one such day because of particular “symptoms” I was experiencing. I generally felt emotionally drained, exhausted, and like I was dieing. I kept experiencing the thought that I was dieing and it was okay, that even death was perfectly fine. If it weren’t for 8 doses of free and easy wanderer, I would have been on the floor in a fetal position and unable to work.

Here’s the deal. I know my father is working on making his way out of this life. For him death is probably the easiest way to solve his woes. For me that is not the case. Though death is always okay from the other side’s perspective, I’m not really ready. It’s not my time to go yet. I only get confused because of those few symptoms that shouldn’t be. I’m doing everything right.

The kicker is the same disease (EBV) that caused my hiccups with thyroid and blood sugars, is likely what caused those same problems in my mom, dad and brother. We literally have followed the same trajectory of disease, but I and my brother 30 years younger than parents. All starting somewhere between 1988-1992. I am the only one to put serious effort into trying to heal it, and so on the outside I look drastically different. Even as far as labs and meds go, I’m still doing 10 times better than the other 3 are.

But this last round really has me scratching my head. I’m doing everything perfect and my body is finally beginning to look great. I am physically more capable than any of those 3 family members, even on a bad day. So, is it possible that those remaining symptoms I am having a hell of a time killing, are because I am tapped into their energetics? That is a possibility for me that western medicine won’t even acknowledge as a possibility.

As I write this sentence, I am 1.64 miles into my treadmill workout. I know that my father is sitting in Arizona, probably asleep. So, why do I keep yawning, when I’ve done 3 hours of massage and had my big cup of green tea. It’s obvious that my body isn’t tired, and if I can treadmill and type at the same time, my brain isn’t either. Yet those yawns come like a reflex.

It leaves me saying “I’m not my father, I’m not my family, I’m better than this stupidity.” It also makes me want to eliminate every shred of their genetics from my body. It makes me want to kill whatever is inside of me that keeps perpetuating their diseases.

And from my experience, the best way to accomplish that is to focus on the opposite. So now I define what the opposite is.

Health is:

  • Feeling good all the time.
  • No feeling great mostly.
  • Able to exist without any aids (herbal or prescription).
  • Able to kick butt on exercise and carry out everyday tasks with ease.
  • Having a body at a healthy weight without an excess or physical activity. (Like if I do 5 hours of massage, I shouldn’t also have to do another hour of exercise like I do now.)
  • Being able to eat relatively normally. For my body and metabolism to be normal, I should be able to consume a 1,000 calorie diet without allergies or excessive exercise. I’d be happy to follow the diet I was on for my first pregnancy, and I’d have significantly more leaway with that many calories, compared to my now.
  • Inflammation, what inflammation? That is a stress response in the body. Normal activity levels and normal work loads shouldn’t cause any inflammation.
  • An immune system that knocks any virus or bacteria down, and leaves my own cells alone.
  • Supplements should only be nutrition, I don’t need the giant puzzle of “this is good for that”, and so on. Again, few to no aids for healthy existence.
  • There are some foods that are generally bad for the entire populous regardless as to whether medicine acknowledges that. So, outside of those foods, and the few that have plagued my family for generations, I should be able to eat anything. Again, that 1st pregnancy diet would be wonderful.
  • Going from my current to healthy includes organ function resuming full normal capacity. It doesn’t matter thyroid, pancreas, liver, etc. They should all function at full normal capacity as evaluated by any blood-work or testing.
  • The things that are already documented as good to great should remain or even improve slightly.

Now, of course is the heavy lifting metaphorically. I must meditate on the feeling place of this, repeatedly. That is how one goes from point A to point B in the focused thought path. The hardest part is consistency and really feeling the difference mentally. I have done so much, that I know I can do this. Of course it would be significantly easier if I quit picking up on my father’s junk too. Energetic disconnect, please.

May you have a knowing of your genuine health. May you see your progress. May you know you can win. May you have confidence in your thought-creation abilities. May you know you are on the right track, even when others or symptoms might seem otherwise. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do especially when you face challenges.

Om Shanti