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Given clarity

When I first started using ‘Siva Hir Su’ as a ‘blessing’ and for Reiki, it was given to me by my ‘ET’ as something that would help. It was during the time that I was on-again off-again with my online love-interest chat-relationship.

It felt like relief, it felt helpful. I used it on myself, and it helped. I used it on my clients and they would feel lighter and leave more relaxed.

Having only ‘heard’ it mentally, I looked up the translation, which was difficult. I suspect it’s sanskrit and resources for translating sanskrit are not easy to use. I ended up piecing together the meaning by comparing sources of translations of both sanskrit and Hindi versions of the words.

I literally had to go word by word, and even then it was difficult because Su has multiple meanings depending on placement and conjugations.

Originally I settled with what fit and flowed best energetically.

Siva is a derivation of Shiva, but specifically in reference to the omnipresent quality, the energy of everything, all that is.

Hir and Su were harder for me.

Hir I eventually found was “quintessence” in Hindi. My most difficult experience for that word was finding a site that I could put what I thought it sounded like and get all the close spellings. It took several tries and I eventually got the aforementioned definition linked to both my spelling and the spelling ‘Heer’.

And su literally seemed to have hundreds of meanings depending on location in the sentence, conjugations, and even gender. But when I was looking at definition of the other two words, the one that seemed to fit best was “good”.

So when I assembled all of the definitions it seemed to mean “the quintessence of all that is, is good”. I thought, that’s interesting, it’s similar to “the light of god is here” which is a common christian prayer and used in Healing Touch treatments.

Regardless, every time I used it, it seemed to help a lot, and clients always walked away feeling better and noticing the difference, especially in the feel of the session.

Recently, however, spirit clarified for me.

I was reminded of Shiva’s destructive side. I was mentally shown stories of the god archetype, and reminded of how many things my father had destroyed (some before there was the ability to enjoy whatever it was, and others before there was ability to create a new better version). Essentially, I understood that ‘Siva Hir Su’ was flowing that portion of God that destroyed the old or negative. It’s not a bad thing, but like guns should be used much more descriminantly than I was when I received it originally.

It’s highest use is when there is an awareness of a negative (worry, fear, anger, blockage, tightness, tension, problem) that removal of said negative would allow for natural God force healing to correct and fill/heal the void.

So, unlike my father, I now have the sense to not destroy something that is too much for healing energy to correct quickly.

For instance, I won’t point it at my husband’s bad heart because he needs to live for his small children and the slower path to healing is better for his situation.

However, with my dad (whom has already decided that “his way or the highway” has failed and has no desire to change himself, so why not throw in the towel), it would be ideal because it would start breaking down those faulty aspects, and if he did die, it doesn’t seem like he would care with as little effort as he has put to staying alive.

So for now, I am trying to navigate the choices to aim it at it’s highest use and purpose. I still use it on clients, but specify for it to destroy the tension and whatever stress is behind it. Also, I have curbed using it on my blog for now because I realized I was putting it at the end after the blessing. I don’t want to destroy the blessing, only the negatives that I am venting about to release. So until I wrap my brain around segmenting each post so that it can just follow the negatives, I’m just avoiding it for now. Eventually, I’ll figure out my new format to reintroduce this helpful tool.

On a side note, today’s struggles from my previous post have stirred an urge to shut off my blog or start a new one. I’m also working through that and doing my best not to act for now. The air is thick and I know it is impacting me, so I’m doing my best to just pull up and do nothing else for now.

May you have gifts of healing and change given to you by God. May you understand fully how to use them properly. May they benefit you as much as anyone you use them on. May you find all the healing you seek. May you have good health and positive vibes in your life. Live long and prosper.

Om Shanti

Who are the real ones?

I received the following video notifications, the latest of several similar. I know they belong to people that I am connected to because I have been feeling them. I know their energetic place in my body/heart. I had kicked them out for a while due to confusion and lack of progress. Yet, they’re all back, probably because of lions gate. I’m still confused, but I most definitely still care.

I reached out to two of them that have been silent for quite some time now, and gave a sincere thank you to a third, hoping I have figured things out.

Yet responses were not as hoped. One didn’t respond at all, another gave the opposite of suspected, and the 3rd gave a helpful response- just not the one I was hoping for.

My intuition still tells me they will all come around and I just need more patience.

At the end of the day I just long for an apology and simple truths from each of the 3. What are they feeling, what are the true identities of the 2, who are they as people beyond what I know through intuition. I want to get to know them, that might help with understanding.

God wants me to feel them, so they must be significant. I would love to learn more about them as humans and find out why. God loves them and if God wants me to feel them, then they are significant for me. I welcome whatever that means, knowing that it will ultimately help me one way or another. It will help me grow and become a stronger better person, and if love is shared in the process you can’t get any better.

I always appreciate when my heart gives love, I am just finding the point where I deserve to receive some of the love I freely give so regularly.

I’m ready to be ready to start receiving results of my efforts in general. I have put an awful lot of work into me, and I am worthy of seeing results begin to manifest. I know I have further to go, but with any journey some things need to show up in gradual bits. It’s time to start seeing bits.

And to anyone struggling, someone else always cares, but you have to reach a little to see it. You must reach for better, or you will never see it. I care or I wouldn’t have taken the time to add this bit of advice that I know deep in my being from having practiced it. I too was in the deep depths of despair and almost lost my life to IT many times. I have practiced enough that I only slip there occasionally now. You can do it, reach and find the closest person that does care. There are more, but you can find at least one if you try.

I love you, and want for you to see good in the world and yourself. I have a whole post planned on why some things feel so bad, so maybe that will help you too.

May you understand your messages and your connections. May you know what God is doing for you. May you understand where you are in your journey and have patience to see things through. May you know you are loved and have people to give love to whom are willing to accept it and return it.

Siva Hir Su

Heart Fire

One day I will learn the meaning of the fire in my heart. Today has been a good day.

I have made many thought progress steps. I know I could not have done anything to change my father’s actions when I was a child. I was there to love him and the rest of my family. The negative moments were not mine to alter or change, merely observe and do my best to do better. I have a tiny inkling that I know how God feels when we have big failures. God loves us and wants us to do better but can not help if we don’t allow it. We have to allow the help to come.

So now I sit with a strong fire in my heart. Somewhere mixed between anxiety, relief, love and burning desire. I know I feel the two halves at the same time again, like so many times from years past.

This time, I sit just feeling. Minuets to go before my next client. I trust that God knows and it is all okay. I will eventually understand. I know I am loved, and this too is a gift. I would not feel it if it wasn’t important somehow. There are far worse feelings, and in the mix is definitely love. That I cherish. It feels like a big hug from afar, but laced with a little unknown.

Unknowns never last, eventually everything in awareness becomes known. I look forward to that day.

May you feel others in your heart and know it is very okay, more a blessing. May you find an easy path to knowing. May you know God supports you. May you accept the journey and enjoy the ride. May you know you are safe. May you find forgiveness for the things you can not change, but rather would not have experienced. May you find a way to help your world be a better place. May you feel the love always.

Siva Hir Su