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C’est tout

This weekend brought a little more fall festivities and finishing some projects started way too long ago.

First for fun on Saturday after work, we went to Merriam Halloween Fest (very small and good for less crowds). It allowed us to debut our family costume including Zen turned Scooby. Then later in the evening, we explored Deanna Rose Children’s Farm “Night of the Living Dead-Farm”. It was super busy and though more Halloween themed than KC Fun Farm, it was essentially a smaller version of the same. The haunted hayride was kitchy and fun, though I couldn’t aim the camera well enough to catch all of us in one shot.

On Sunday, I repotted as much of the garden as I could bring in. The rest of the garden will get covered on cold nights to buy another week or two before harvesting. Afterwards my treat was a trip to IKEA with Nathan, our goal was to replace things Ian had destroyed as preparation for our family Yule celebration. We’ve warned him we will not be getting him presents, only a new dresser, but if he’s extra good for the rest of the year maybe Santa and the elves will swap his coal for a toy. We will play Santa, but he’s definitely been on the naughty list, so he has earned his consequences of much, much less fun stuff this year.

After the fun, I spent all of Monday making good on promises to finish Anya’s bedroom suite. I replaced her window from the 60’s glass slats to a modern casement window, bedroom compliant, though it’s definitely a tight squeeze with the smaller size (knock on wood: she never has to test that escape route). I added an 8″ windowsill so she can have a few small plants, and replaced the well cover with a clear one to allow as much light as possible to fill her room. Then I finished the latch and trim on her bedroom door and started the bathroom door trimming process. Finally the laundry room door had never been finished either so I added the door framing that holds the kick plate. I will have to finish trimming out doors another day, but her room is completely done now and all the doors close and latch. I feel accomplished…. *Almost two years after moving in!* **Geesh**

Now I’m taking a salt bath, and when Nathan returns we’ll have dinner and carve pumpkins. I’m very grateful this weekend went mostly smoothly. I’ll post pics I have so far, and add the pumpkin carving and whatever is missing from Nathan’s photos, as an update later.

2 short clips of Deanna Rose happenings

May you have good holiday fun any time of year. May you enjoy time with your family and still find ways to be productive in every way. May you have enough time to complete projects and even more time for fun and enjoyment. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Update with the rest of the pictures: window install, plants with grow lights, living room decorated, and pumpkin carving (Anya took a few others during pumpkin carving, which when I get them I might add as well.)

Lunchtime walk

Fall pretties. A walk outside may not be considered fun, but is still very enjoyable. My favorite was finding the oak leaf with the heart shape in it.

May you enjoy some time outdoors this fall. May you find beauty around you. May you have ample exercise in pleasing environments. May you enjoy your days mostly.

Siva Hir Su

Slowing down.

I fell again yesterday….. Again! …. Right?!

The chiropractor was kind enough to adjust me again today, and provided a reminder I need to slow down and be conscious of caring for myself. I replied “I know, I promised I would slow down, but it’s so hard when I’ve spent so many years trying to do everything.”

It is though, falls are always God’s attempt at slowing me down. Sadly, or is it thankfully, they always work. So tonight I’m nursing angry muscles, partly from the fall and partly from the corrective adjustment. As I lay with a tennis ball wedged against my left psoas muscle, I’m catching up on watching notification videos, and the following was a powerful one.

Watch “Jacob Lee – Oceans (Official Music Video)” on YouTube

I really feel that one. Sometimes I do feel exactly how the singer did, especially in these crazy times where fear over a singular disease has caused all of society to cease real living. But it seems I’m getting better and better at finding my source, my inner always present divine half. The half that never leaves me, but sometimes it’s awfully hard to see or feel.

I went nearly 2 decades fighting off suicidal depression, and in the last five years I’ve found alignment more than not. I still have boughts of severe depression, but they’re shorter and shorter now, knowing all of my triggers and how to fix being in the hole. That information is priceless and I still look forward to the day I find total healing and those days disappear altogether.

I know I’m on the right track, and right now I’m literally throwing every tool I know at finding healing. It’s part of the reason God wants me to slow down, I am doing so much I probably need to give myself a breather and let my system catch up.

It made me a little mad though because I’ve now missed two days of workouts, the fall happening 90 min before my projected workout, and the aftermath making exercise a physical impossibility.

At one time I hated exercise because it was so difficult for me, now I miss it. At one time I hated running because it was so hard, no I look forward to making friends with it knowing it’s starting to help. At one point I hated cilantro, now I love it for it’s detoxifying effects having started the healing in my brain. There are so many things that I have a much much greater appreciation for, all because they help me feel better and they are slowly healing my brain and my body.

I wish that for everyone.

Beyond my gratitude over those solutions, I have immense gratitude for all of the people, current and past, that have helped me find solutions or fix me when my efforts are not enough or applicable (especially the chiropractor today). Those people that rescued me when I needed it most. Many were one time helpers, few have helped me repeatedly, but all were pricelessly valuable.

May you all see your worth. May you love your gifts from God. May you understand your challenges and love the solutions. May you live life to the fullest, and know that food is a tiny fraction of what that means. May you give back to the divine by helping others find the solutions they need. May you show gratitude for the people in your life that help you implement those solutions. May you love exercise and all of the things that enable you to live a greater life. May your greater living not only be more enjoyable, but of greater assistance to the world. May we all work together to create a better world for us all.

Siva Hir Su శివ హిర్ సు