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Acceptance

Apparently
The kindness
Loving support
Of my parents
Ended when I
Turned 18
Move out
Go to college
Pay/go your own
Way, was said.
Rescued me
Only when
Society
Standards
Exceeded my
Pay grades.
Once in
College
Once in
First years
Of adult life.
Marriage scorned
Killed what caring
Still evident.
Mom slowly
Regained
Her loving.
Helping little
On rare occasion.
Only on her terms.
Make it work,
Or get none.
Dad never did.
Christmas gifts
For grandchildren.
Nothing for me
Or my spouse.
Well fuck.
My own parents
Stopped loving me
Because I married
An older black man.
But I was supposed
To grieve mom.
I'm supposed
To miss
Dad.
How?
There
Was none
Nothing
To miss.
I grieved
For a decade
Of marriage in
Terrible times,
Housing bubbles,
Health trouble,
When I needed
Loving and
Support.
God's will
Hurt over &
Over again
And I'm
Done
Being
Hurt by
Hatred
I only
Accept
Better
I only
Accept
Love
For
Me
Us


~Treasa Cailleach

May you know loving never stopped, even if manifestations did. May you know that unconditional love always flows from the divine, and the hardest part is tapping into it when you’ve felt cut off. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

15 of 27: Fireside Play Doh

Snap crackle
Squish squash
Mommy mommy
That you
Smush smash
Globs become
Pretend snowmen
Tiny
Medium sized
Who knew
Snowmen were
Green
Roll pat
Now a family
Of worms
Mommy daddy
Brother
Doh
Can't forget
Big sis too
Brother
Cuddles with mom
Now that
Jumping batteries
Have run low
Crackle pop
Warmth spreads
All around
And deep
Into heart-space
Flame filled
And memories made
Family
Sighs of delight
For a cold
Winter's night
~ Treasa Cailleach

Fall fun.

I’m writing this as I wind down for bedtime. As you can see Zen thinks I should already be asleep and is snuggling hard.

Most of this happened before the crashes of the last few days. These are the fun moments we managed to catch on camera.

About a month ago, I was able to retrieve my piano from my one brother. He had taken care of it for about a decade because I was unable to move it during that time. I finally had a reliable vehicle that it would fit in, so I made a short visit to see mom and him and pick it up. I would have liked to stay longer with both of them, but with Nathan’s dialysis and related, I thought it best to make the trip as quick as possible. Once home I rearranged our living room to accommodate it. This was my children making friends with the new arrangements.

KC Renaissance Fastival, aka Ren Faire, was 3 weeks ago. We had fun but only a few pics were snapped. I do have to admit keeping track of children that like to run and touch things was quite a chore and took some of the fun out of Ren Faire for me, but they still really liked it, especially since they got to bring wooden swords and shields home. There were several shows to watch, poi (fire spinning) is my favorite, but there was raptor displays, juggling, magic tricks, sword fighting, and the traditional jousting. Nathan ran out of steam first and was our guide for when to leave. I of course went dressed in appropriate garb and enjoyed the change of pace. The feat of strength sledge game was also fun. On one of my strikes I almost hit the bell, missing by maybe 6 inches. Considering I picked the hardest one, I think I did awesome.

2 weeks ago we went to KC Fun Farm in Kearney. It has been a favorite of the family since we discovered it shortly after Ian was born. Every year they add more stuff for kids to do and it’s all good wholesome family fun. Think farm meets giant playground. My children made friends with the brand-new giant hill-sized slide. We buried each other in the silo sized corn pit they have every year. Kids rode the trike track, and petted and fed farm animals. We ate fairly healthy Choices with apples, cider, cinnamon glazed nuts and of course some honey sticks, all from the attached farm store. I didn’t use the pumpkin cannons this year, but have in past years, but we did do the hay ride and my kids did the barrel train.

Finally last weekend we went to Riverside where we used to live, and took the haunted path put on by the city employees. It was good fun scaring kids, I was surprised to see that staff were a bit more gentle on my super brave (his words) big boy. They definitely got him good without hitting trauma level (whew). While we were in line for the haunted path, we watched another poi display. This one was Day of the Dead themed, and the one spinner used a fire hoop on her nose. It was pretty awesome under a nearly full moon. The next day we rode the Belton Halloween Train wearing our Scooby-Doo themed costumes. It was good holiday fun that Nathan was able to handle.

Lastly I just wanted to share some of our Halloween decorations for you because I had fun putting them up, slightly last minute, and just before physiological crashes ensued.

May you have good family fun and moments to savor and cherish. May your health never interfere with family time. May you have plenty of good memories and enough stamina to make many more. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Ask ME; what?

What Does ME need?
Nothing
For once I'm certain
There's the usual replenishment
But nothing significant
It's relief
Stirring great gratitude

What does ME want?
Some things
People
Those few I care about,
I want them all.
In different ways,
And for different reasons.

She has a kind husband
Great kids
Wonderful home
She is supportive
Talented and amazing
In her own right
Approaching retirement
She has time freedom I envy
She feels like family already

She has a beautiful wife
Beautiful home
Sweet pets
She never did want kids with 2 legs
4 legged ones filled the role
She is supportive
Talented and amazing
In her own right
Loving and independent
She has flexibility in life I desire
She feels like family already

He has a girlfriend
A huge circle of friends
He has a cool collection
He has freedom and fun to spare
He's independent and jet setting
Talented and amazing
In his own right
He is successful and financially independent
He has all the freedoms to stir jealousy
He feels like family already

They already feel like family
I know I can screw it up
I already did with my biological family
I cherish them because they are them
If I leave everything just as it is
I can just be me
Having the family I dreamt of for decades
I hope they all know I love them
I hope they all know I'm just scared
Of doing something wrong
Of messing up or failing again

It's easier to just BE in each moment
Be me
Hear my inner ME
Respond to each moment as it comes
Play Switzerland with my Self
Cherish each moment
Honor each person as best as I'm able
Do my best to keep up
With life as it comes at me
Some days are easier than others
I respect myself
Even and especially with my limitations
I do my best
Each moment
Each day
One foot in front of the other
One moment followed by another
My path is now
And I love them
All

~ Treasa Cailleach





Blippi should visit Wonderscope

So my kids love Blippi. It’s an online kids show you can find via YouTube or Roku. Blippi regularly goes to kid’s museums, playgrounds and play places to do educational videos.

What amuses me most is that his kids show was a demonstration of his SEO and internet marketing skills. He was intending to just use it as proof of his abilities, but it worked so well that he is now world famous and travels the world making videos and doing educational events for kids. I wouldn’t be the least bit surprised if he earns more income off of the kids stuff than his internet marketing work.

Anyway, we decided to purchase a family membership to a place here in KC called Wonderscope. The unlimited family pass was the cost of 2 individual visits for our family. It was a no-brainer. Now we can go as much as we like, and after today, I’m guessing it will be frequently- especially since it is about 10 minutes from our house.

It was like stepping into one of Blippi’s videos and my kids loved it. They had a great time and 2 hours flew by really fast. I’m still sitting watching them play as I write this, so it may be a long while until we actually head home. I’m glad they like it so much, and I’m really greatful that they have experienced that which Blippi has made exciting and fun.

May you have good wholesome fun with your kids at an affordable cost. May you have more than enough places to enjoy family time. May you see the fun all around you. May you have as much awe and wonder as a kid exploring a place like Wonderscope. May time fly because you are enjoying your days so much. Above all may you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti