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Brain Relations

Anecdotal. Based on 1st and 2nd hand accounts in my experience. Take it with a grain of salt.

I’ve already talked about the cvid attacking whatever weak spot someone had. I’ve also already discussed my theory that it sped up manifestation of vibrational patterns.

An example of both; I’ll use Nathan, even though he’ll hate it (sorry honey). He has a pattern of “trying to” learned in youth, and hard to break (same as my patterns). Louise Hay stated in her book that the energy of trying can be a cause of kidney problems and she listed affirmations to solve it- when she wrote the book in the 80’s. The energetics of trying, eventually leads to kidney disease and Louise noted it decades ago, and figured out how to heal it. Nathan caught cvid and between the energetics he carried and meds he took, kidneys was his weakness. It was the first and most drastic hit of his cvid experience. What would have taken an entire lifetime to readily show dis-ease before, was shortened into less than a year.

I’ve seen the pattern repeatedly in everyone I come in contact with, and in their particular variation. But there’s more.

I’ve now had a couple clients mention “Covid Brain” as now being a noticed thing, awareness of it, but no full diagnosis or treatment. I suggested, at first mention, that it’s because doctors are happy to supply antidepressants, but if cvid actually caused damage to the brain it’s not going to be solved by prozac.

But it got me to thinking, especially with my battle and how it manifests. What if it is even more than that.

Because of cvid, I am now an open conduit to others energies, and have picked up on all my ailing relatives, pretty much every client leaves an energetic trail in my body, and even coworkers are impacting my awareness in big ways. I hold none of them responsible, it is just one way cvid affected me, and something I am actively managing. At the same time, I have a hell of a time kicking out negative thoughts. I’ve mentioned all this before. It has made my daily routine cumbersome in an attempt to keep myself up and afloat. I’ve also mentioned before that one of the ways I solve it, is to kick it out as if it was a person in me. Statements like “you are not me and I deserve better”. For the ailments, statements like “this nausea isn’t mine, get the eff out”. It has worked, so I keep doing it. It’s even worked on a bit of toe fungus that suddenly appeared about a month ago. I had a moment where I simply knew it wasn’t mine, and went with it. I mentally and verbally rejected it and now it’s cleared up on its own.

Then there’s this awareness that people are not-so-gradually losing their minds and behaving in atrocious ways, in public, online, everywhere. There are no filters anymore, and people are not-so-gradually getting more and more ludicrous and rediculous.

It has made me think. My brain does that; I respond by analyzing everything from every angle, especially when attempting to produce solutions.

The human brain is the closest thing to a computer that we have outside of electronics. I am not in IT, but have had more than one device killed by electronic viruses. I was in highschool when the Trojan was deleveloped and was crashing computers left and right. I understand the basics of how most computer viruses work.

And I see a parallel.

Computer viruses attack the weakest point and utilize the system to replicate to their own advantage, disabling the system to do anything else. They use whatever available to encourage not just the process, but replication to other devices.

I’m beginning to think that cvid has done just that, but with the human brain and body.

It infiltrated via whatever was our weak point. Nathan was kidneys; for me was thyroid, immune, and brain function itself.

Then once in, it started churning out negative thoughts to encourage other weaknesses to become noticable. I’m beginning to wonder if Nathan’s kidneys took a minor hit (why it took them so long to diagnose), and then the negative thought loop of the virus caused the ship to sink so to speak, and caused the sudden need for dialysis.

It would also explain, how even though I know I have worked my ass off to fix my health, I’m suddenly susceptible to other’s symptoms and had toenail fungus out of nowhere.

If your brain has really been hijacked and you don’t even know, then how can anything be healed. See the problem is many of our thoughts are nonverbal in nature and many of them control organ and body function.

You don’t think “kidneys please clean out my blood today and remove all the toxins”. Your brain just tells them to do so, and a particular chemical storm enables the process.

Now imagine instead, that the entire process is being controlled by a virus that intends to hoard everything it desires (toxins and nutrients alike), starve your body &/or organs of what is needed, and keep you alive just long enough to spread the virus further.

So now your kidneys are told go into standby function, and you don’t even know it, you weren’t aware anything changed, and it isn’t something you can see the results of immediately.

What then? How you do make a virus controlling your body in a negative manner, stop?

Do everything possible in opposition.

It’s been my plan all along and it is working. People have watched me and noticed my bad days in a variety of ways. They have seen the chaos and worried about me. They have noticed lots of things and not understood what I was attempting to convey. But I’m winning. I’m a winner, and always have been. I’m kicking this one in the ass, it’s just really slow going.

How?

By doing all the things that have always worked for me, regardless of what my brain tries to tell me, or how I feel at the moment.

I kick out every negative thought that I do notice. I take every opportunity to note and abolish anything that I know for certain isn’t mine. I tell my body things about how amazing it is and how it works so splendidly in certain ways (you may have noticed some of this in my poetry of late). I acknowledge that I am practicing all the good healthy habits as much as anyone in my shoes could. I am doing everything right, and I am certain of it because of my years of experience and previous history. I simply know that I am doing an amazing job kicking an insidious beast of a chronic infection in the ass. I label that beast with many different labels based on the context and factors involved, but in every situation I am acknowledging “this thing is toxic, it is lieing to me/my body, get it out, I deserve better”.

Simple and complex simultaneously.

I’ve even talked with Nathan about this quite a bit. He has been reading “Becoming Supernatural” by Dr. Joe Dispensa. It was recommended by one of my clients on a parallel journey, and it had helped her with some action steps, so he has been putting it to action in meditating on growing a new kidney. But I have encouraged him further. I suggested: What if the kidney failure was virus lies? Take self talk into the realm of opposition. AKA: My kidneys were lied to, they work just fine, and all the elements and descriptors that you do know to be true. Fill in the gaps where medicine can’t. I told him to tell himself he is healing and that his kidneys are improving and what that would look like. We discussed the visible signs to watch for, assuming it will work, including bringing up the memory of being over-dialized.

I told him to treat his brain like a computer fighting a virus. Quarantine every noticable instance. Delete contaminated files, and/or restore to prior version. Overwrite thought patterns that allow the virus to flourish.

There is no human antivirus (stupid vaccine did nothing truly helpful). So, we have to individually create our own mental antivirus software, we have to catch every bit of it ourselves. We have to eliminate every instance ourselves and create better every moment. We have to make it obvious to the virus that it isn’t welcome in our brain or body, and do everything it would rather we not do. Make it want to leave.

If you have to take up writing poetry to help yourself focus on that. Then do it. Make art with that goal. Take supplements that help even if your brain contrives nausea. Exercise even when your brain tries to convince you that you’re too tired. Stretch to fix stiffness. Salt baths to help stiff, sore, or bogged down with other’s energies. Eat stupid healthy, even if your brain tries to convince you otherwise. Eliminate stress every way possible. Turn your back on arguments or negatives you can’t control.

Anything and everything needed to nix negatives and replace with positives.

Like NIKE- Just do it.

And don’t expect a miracle… Hope for it if you want, pray for it too, but more just allow yourself the time and space to enable your body to do what it was designed to do. And it does take time.

We were first round- January 2020, and positive Omicron January 2022, with maybe 2 rounds during Delta timeframe (unconfirmed despite avid testing). I’ve watched clients, friends, family, all deal with the aftermath, some in denial but still very obviously in the midst of it. I’ve wrangled my own long-haulers, while navigating for my immediate family, because they all really on me. I’m still not 100% clear, but I’m far enough that I can see the trajectory enough to believe I’m over the hump. Regardless, I can tell by the way I feel and results I’m getting that I’m on the right track. I will win this, and my writing this post is in hope that it will help others. After this post I’ll likely go back to mostly poems.

FYI. One last note. I’m a bit stunned how much of what Abraham Hicks has been teaching for the prior 15 years applies directly to this sentiment. I’m really just rewording their message, but with emphasis on how it applies to fixing the damage and resetting your body to original standards. It’s almost like they knew this was inbound and we needed the mechanics I just described, to fix it. I know I have it down well enough to maintain stasis. Now I just need to move into solid improvement enough to be visible to others.

May you see the process and how to clear the hump. May you clear all the negatives and heal fully. May you understand the fullness of things in your experience and how they might help yourself and others around you. May you know that you can win against this or anything else. May you see the miracle of your body and know anything that isn’t yours doesn’t belong. May you have a clear and relatively easy path to the solution. May you know you can do it. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Last /27: Wanted

This was the last post form my other site. Originally written November 6th. I was definitely tapped into the greater feminine collective when I wrote this. The energy is still there, but I myself am in a bit better state of mind than that moment held. The collective of women needs to find their inner support and inner-eff-off to find their healing, especially regardless of the collective stupidity of man and masculine. They are all guilty in some respect, but we are all children of god needing to find our healing, so we have to see our own missteps and mistakes and forgive them of theirs. I am a child of god, I am loved, and I am here to bring healing through my unique gifts. I can not hold myself or anyone else in wrongness and find my healing. Ignorance is not a sin, but hurting (self or others) once you know it is wrong, very much is.

They want
Tablet
TV
Games
Playgrounds
Never ending fun

Or so they
Think

What about
Family
Right in front of
Them

Always doing
SomeThing
Never just
Being
With those
Right
Here

Words
Futile
To teach
What they are
Missing

Behaviors
Slowly begin
Showing
Her desire
To run
Flee from them
Their presence
Too vacant
For one needing
Real
Love

Mom
Merely
Wants
To be
Wanted

She's not
An object
A game
A jungle gym

She's so much
More
Than objects
Games
Money made
Home provided
Or things to do

She's a
Person
Not just any
The one that
Birthed
Them

Yet
She
Doesn't
Matter
To them

Where did she go wrong?

No where

She did
Everything
For them
From conception
To here and now

But she's not
What they want
It's clear

And it's okay
Everything has to be okay
It's where she is
But she doesn't have to
Stay

She doesn't have to
Stay where she
Isn't wanted

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you find your own wholeness and healing. May we all be wanted. May we all have a comfortable place to stay where we are wanted and loved and it is always clearly evident. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

26 of 27: Drifting

Sitting
Drifting
On an ocean
Of thought

Flowers
Are better
Fuzzy cat
Purrs
Soothing relief
To strained

Muscles
Neurons
Systems
Burdened
Beyond normal

Limits
Hard to handle
Time spread
Too thin

Taxing
Energy
Invisible internal
Batteries
Lose power
Fatigue sets in

Mental ocean's
Waves
Crash on empty
Thought
Shores

Empty space
Quietly
Soothing
Frayed
Nerves

Invisible
Sunshine
Warms muscles
From within

This mind
Finds vacation
Inside
Whenever
Wherever
Possible

IT simply
Must
BE
Because
Route
To distant
Beaches
Is not
Yet
Possible

Drifting
In the
Mind
Must
Suffice
For now

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you have a vacation when it is needed. May you find ways to honor your own needs no matter what life brings you. May you care for yourself enough to keep going in life. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

24 of 27: I Let Good In

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

I sang songs
I love and of love
I danced
Jumped and swayed
God was there
It was good
It was fun

I tasted yummy Eats
And even some
Extra yummy treats
Savored fresh fruit
Crunched crisp salad
God's food is good

I thanked
People in my life
I donated
Of myself and my fruits
I let God in

I encouraged others
In as many ways as possible
I hugged and snuggled
Shook hands and rubbed backs
Gave tips and tricks
God guided my
Hands, arms, heart and words
It was all good

I played
Recreation of
Body, mind, and spirit
With kids
Pets and
Creative moments
It was all good
God was there

I planted
Gardens
Flowers and greens
Beauty
For eyes
And bellies
It was goodness
In, out, and all around

I fed the birds
Even the squirrels
Watched them partake
In God's abundance

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

My pen
My brush
My keyboard
My paper
My blogs
My hands
My heart
My mind
My body

They all tasted
The goodness of god
Every ounce of my being
Has felt
God's healing lightness
Frivolity
Joviality
Exubérant
Contentement
In every cell, tissue, and organ

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you know that you let good in and that in doing so, you let God in. May you have an abundance of things you enjoy, which allow you to let God into your life in abundance. May you know and feel the goodness permeate your being. May the goodness remain as long as humanity possible, even when distracted from it.

Om Shanti

18 of 27: Why Not?

"Why me?"
She asked
An empy room
Bare walls
Candle light flickering
TV gone to static blue

"why not?"
Came the reply
No voice to hear
But heard
It's best description

No face to see
No one to touch
But somehow
Someone was felt

It makes sense
Yet it doesn't
It is understood
Yet not completely

A message
A mission
A role to play
"How do I want to play it?"
She thought

I suppose
It's my choice
To make the best
Or wallow
In the worst

I choose
To make the best
Be the victor
Own my strength
Be a force
Of my own
For better
In my world

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you find your inner knowing. May you be confident in who you are. May you rise above any and all challenges. May God speak to you and reassure you when you need it. May you feel your best self always and reach for the best as much as possible.

Om Shanti