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Multifidus 2

More tangents of my world, support and aligned functionality.

First, I’m utterly grateful to have been able to help my friend with a systemic MRSA infection. Her last update explained it would be quite a while until she could function normally again, having affected her ability to stand, walk or use her dominant arm, and included a plea for help. I was able to obtain a wheelchair for her for $60 and dropped it off at the hospital between my clinic and retirement community shifts. She now has both a walker and a wheelchair, but she is going to need financial support. As I mentioned a couple of posts ago, she’s in for 6 weeks hospital stay, with rehab afterwards. She was evicted from her apartment due to a combination of Covid closures affecting her income and then being hospitalized on top of it. Friends packed her belongings and stored them, took her pet to care for it, and we’re all pooling resources to the best of our ability, but if you can help it is very much welcomed. Please see the screenshot below for more info.

As for me, I have had an interesting week. Post strep throat I have not been eating during the day at all. Not out of avoidance, simply because I don’t feel the need to. I have a strong sense that like Covid helped the Earth find some healing by keeping us home, my body is finding additional healing by eliminating the desire to eat and thus keeping my digestive tract mostly clear for now. Today it has amplified to a wonderfully intense level. I feel spectacular and my body is really high energy, almost like having one cup of coffee too many, but as I said I’ve not had anything. I’ve literally only had water, a breakfast shake and my supplements today. I feel great and I simply know that I have everything I need in my body already, so much so that it is almost a mantra for me today. I find that I’m am experiencing immense gratitude for feeling a strong sense of healing and well being. I am feeling stronger and healthier everyday, and I had one of my license plate messages that I read as validation of my wellness…W3L UET.

Speaking of my ET, I had one of my dream visits early this morning. It was wonderful and may definitely have contributed to my high energy today. It was a very loving passionate dream, and I am glad that I am having those again. It renews my hope for my future poly family. I love being loved on and those dreams leave me feeling warm and fuzzy for hours. There is also a fair amount of excitement that is left behind in its wake.

I am also feeling appreciation for my self in terms of knowledge and experience. What was triggered by the PA and picked at by a couple of other interactions, leaves me wishing to write a PSA. Here’s the deal, just because you paid for a college degree that left you with a PhD in a specific area of study does not mean you are smarter than others. I have a Bachelor’s degree, plus a year of massage education. If it had been one topic at one school I would be holding a Master’s degree. Beyond that I have hands on experience in both: 2 years in graphic design and 12 years as a massage therapist, 8 of which were self-employed contracting work. I have experience in my own business and others. Beyond that I have been schooled in the hard-knocks of life. I understand diabetes, heart disease, and thyroid function, and pregnancy through levels of direct experience and conversing with multiple medical professionals, some of which are/were definitely more open than others. I have both book knowledge and real life practical application knowledge in multiple areas and multiple sub-topics. I find it quite insulting when someone with “more important letters” behind their name acts like I’m some dummy that doesn’t know what I’m talking about. If I have experience on something I give it, if not I am open to respectful input and do consider others as my equal. But because of such experience I can also tell when someone is doing their best to take the easy way out or avoid dealing with me, and that is simply not acceptable to me, not should it be for anyone. We all need to acknowledge that we all are human beings with a wide array of knowledge and experience and respect each other’s input and do our level best to contribute to each other’s lives in positive ways, whatever that translates into at the moment of interaction. If we did that, the world would be a better place and fewer and fewer of us would be finding frustration in seeking solutions.

I also have taken all of these moments and used them as fodder for focused meditation. My Atira, my vortex, it is becoming clearer and clearer. I can see where my sloppy focus previously allowed for misaligned moments and the failures in my manifestations. At one point I was thinking about my 3 people in my permanent energetic-heart-circle awareness, and slipped into old negative thoughts about them. This time though I caught myself nearly immediately. I literally thought ‘wait a minute, those don’t feel good, that means they aren’t right’. That simple acknowledgement was enough to flip to the opposite thoughts that do feel good. I did a happy dance just for catching myself and a second happy dance for finding what does feel good. I look forward to much better manifestations as a result.

I then applied that moment of positive momentum to the rest of my topics, and that might be why I feel so darn good today. Between giving my digestion a break, acknowledgement of myself and my skills/knowledge- that we’re all equals, and positive thoughts and massive realignment all put together just feels like an amazing combination. I feel “right as rain” and have a strong knowing at the moment that there is no spoon. My only falter is that my spoon takes longer to bend, but that’s an okay thing.

May you feel your way to better days. May you honor other’s skills and knowledge knowing that you also have applicable skills and knowledge. May you find many things to feel grateful for and appreciate. May you see there is no spoon and that shifts in awareness and healing will manifest your desires quick enough. May you be health and have all of the help and resources that you need. May you have moments of appreciation that you are able to help others because you can and you want to. May you have excitingly pleasant dreams and be healthy in mind body and spirit. May you know you are having breakthroughs that will lead to wonderful changes in your physical awareness. May everything be “right as rain” and may you know God loves and supports you.

Siva Hir Su

“The Power of Paradigms” on YouTube

I wanted to share this video because it speaks to many of the elements I am working on and towards. She uses different verbage, but it overlaps with much of Abraham Hicks and other’s messages. Have an open mind and see/understand the broader meaning.

Like all of life’s journey, on many subjects my paradigm still needs much shifting for me to feel better and more in alignment with my higher vibrational self. Having my dad around has made that massively evident. However, this video helped me to see the moments and paradigms that I have made huge progress in. We are all layers upon layers. Honor your progress and acknowledge where you still need work to align with higher frequencies. We will all get there eventually, one way or another. One belief, one layer, one paradigm at a time, or death will take care of all of it all at once. I personally aim for the former, knowing the latter may come whether I want it or not.

May you see your pardigms for what they are. May you find neutrality as often as possible. May you gradually shift to higher frequencies and find joy in the process. May you feel your way to your own personal higher frequencies and thus feel really really good. May you know that God loves and supports you regardless.

Siva Hir Su

  • I get to choose.
  • I choose compassion, love and joy.
  • I choose to feel good.
  • I choose those things in alignment with my inner knowing.
  • I know good things are coming.
  • I know my vibration, my alignment, and thus my life are improving.
  • I look forward to seeing the results of my higher vibrational alignment and the healing process.
  • I wish that for everyone.

Siva Hir Su

My brain hurts, but problem solved AGAIN!

Dad did not get released to me today. I had to have follow up appointments scheduled before they would release him. So I spent all day today figuring that out.

A dozen phone calls and a fax later with much stress, I figured out the solution. He now has a new doctor booked near my home, and all that is left is to transfer records after he is discharged.

I’ll now be picking him up Sunday and staying to Monday to help him resolve things at his old home arrangement. Then back to my house with him and a bunch of his stuff for an extended visit while we arrange for his proper move.

I was originally going to rent a nice new vehicle to make this happen. However, it hit me that we were definitely going to need 2 vehicles so that he can make appointments if I am working. I decided it was foolhardy to rent short term and turn around and attempt to solve the long term issue. So, I decided to just leap head first into a purchase.

We picked one of the Toyota dealers near us hoping for a Toyota Sienna. We got a very nice young man- Deshawn, that explained the logistics of leasing vs buying, and asked us how much we had available as far as down payment and monthly. He listened to our needs on the vehicle itself. He walked us through the logistics of our original hopes and explained he couldn’t get close to what we needed new, lease or purchase. He gave us several options in SUV’s and a minivan. Based on the prices, we thought the minivan was the best option and went to look.

When he took us to the car it was the exact same vehicle we had rented for the vacation last year, not by vin number, but by make, model, year, and color. I said thank you to God. This was the result:

It had low mileage and almost 2 hours later I walked out with another $300 monthly payment plus the increase in our insurance costs, because the sticker price is not the final cost unless you can pay the full amount in cash. It’ll be manageable, and solves a significant concern I’ve had for almost 2 years before the dad hiccup.

So now I have an almost new vehicle at used prices. The first since about 2003 for me.

I am very grateful and appreciative that solutions were found easily today, and especially that I have fixed things enough to be able to do what I did. It is very relieving to walk in stressed but hopeful, and walk out with a gently used, nearly new vehicle in great condition and having had no difficulty accomplishing the task.

I thank God for the help with this and see the guidance that led to this moment.

May you have relieving solutions to all your problems. May you see God’s guidance and assistance. May you know everything is going to be all right. May you know your place within all of it. May you know you are loved and supported by the Divine.

Siva Hir Su