Tag Archives: feeling

Last /27: Wanted

This was the last post form my other site. Originally written November 6th. I was definitely tapped into the greater feminine collective when I wrote this. The energy is still there, but I myself am in a bit better state of mind than that moment held. The collective of women needs to find their inner support and inner-eff-off to find their healing, especially regardless of the collective stupidity of man and masculine. They are all guilty in some respect, but we are all children of god needing to find our healing, so we have to see our own missteps and mistakes and forgive them of theirs. I am a child of god, I am loved, and I am here to bring healing through my unique gifts. I can not hold myself or anyone else in wrongness and find my healing. Ignorance is not a sin, but hurting (self or others) once you know it is wrong, very much is.

They want
Tablet
TV
Games
Playgrounds
Never ending fun

Or so they
Think

What about
Family
Right in front of
Them

Always doing
SomeThing
Never just
Being
With those
Right
Here

Words
Futile
To teach
What they are
Missing

Behaviors
Slowly begin
Showing
Her desire
To run
Flee from them
Their presence
Too vacant
For one needing
Real
Love

Mom
Merely
Wants
To be
Wanted

She's not
An object
A game
A jungle gym

She's so much
More
Than objects
Games
Money made
Home provided
Or things to do

She's a
Person
Not just any
The one that
Birthed
Them

Yet
She
Doesn't
Matter
To them

Where did she go wrong?

No where

She did
Everything
For them
From conception
To here and now

But she's not
What they want
It's clear

And it's okay
Everything has to be okay
It's where she is
But she doesn't have to
Stay

She doesn't have to
Stay where she
Isn't wanted

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you find your own wholeness and healing. May we all be wanted. May we all have a comfortable place to stay where we are wanted and loved and it is always clearly evident. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

24 of 27: I Let Good In

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

I sang songs
I love and of love
I danced
Jumped and swayed
God was there
It was good
It was fun

I tasted yummy Eats
And even some
Extra yummy treats
Savored fresh fruit
Crunched crisp salad
God's food is good

I thanked
People in my life
I donated
Of myself and my fruits
I let God in

I encouraged others
In as many ways as possible
I hugged and snuggled
Shook hands and rubbed backs
Gave tips and tricks
God guided my
Hands, arms, heart and words
It was all good

I played
Recreation of
Body, mind, and spirit
With kids
Pets and
Creative moments
It was all good
God was there

I planted
Gardens
Flowers and greens
Beauty
For eyes
And bellies
It was goodness
In, out, and all around

I fed the birds
Even the squirrels
Watched them partake
In God's abundance

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

My pen
My brush
My keyboard
My paper
My blogs
My hands
My heart
My mind
My body

They all tasted
The goodness of god
Every ounce of my being
Has felt
God's healing lightness
Frivolity
Joviality
Exubérant
Contentement
In every cell, tissue, and organ

I let good in
So I know
I let God in

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you know that you let good in and that in doing so, you let God in. May you have an abundance of things you enjoy, which allow you to let God into your life in abundance. May you know and feel the goodness permeate your being. May the goodness remain as long as humanity possible, even when distracted from it.

Om Shanti

22 of 27: Smell

He smells
So good
Like musky forests
On sunny days

Cologne on
Fresh skin
Delightful to
Olfactory nerves

Too close for comfort
Senses blurr
Cheeks flush
Loins afire
Distraction is
Quite the understatement

Desire to touch
'Tis forbidden
Lumps in throats
Hard to clear

Better to hide
Nay run in fear
It's only desired
Because it's forbidden
Least they say

It's not forbidden
By my paradigm
Only by theirs
Only by ones' choice
Leveled on me

Yet maybe there's an
Alternate
He's not the only one
Alive, attractive, or
Smelling so damn good.

I'm ready for my
Alternatives
I'm ready to explore
Other options

I'm ready for
Surprise and delights
Especially to
My olfactory nerves

~ Treasa Cailleach

16 of 27: IF “i Love Myself”

Watch “IF by Rudyard Kipling (A Life Changing Poem)” on YouTube

"i Love Myself"

Like vines cling to a tree
i hold to my own Self
Like birds take flight
My love soars
Sunshine, warmth streaming
Fills my mind with soothing feeling
An artists pen to paper
A snowflake's perfected uniqueness
i am created
No other is just as i am
i am my best me, when I am present
My creator; My Self
A feeling undescribable
Every cell shivers in excitement
Deep knowing
Inside me, I am good
I am God
Feeling which heals MY self
When i meet I
All truly is well
My love for MY Self
is inside myself
Two parts of one whole
One moment in time
Perfectly imperfect
Ever changing
Aiming for more
Love
For myself
Of My Self
~ Treasa Cailleach

Love your inner being, your divinity, and every IF of Kipling’s poem is possible. You’re your own observer, and God force can create miracles if you allow it to move through you from a feeling place, as much as humanly possible.

May you find that feeling place in this new year and every day of your life.

Om Shanti

10 of 27: Go Be With God

I hadn’t intended to write just poetry on here. More just do something different than before. Change things up, and try to be authentic without using every detail of my life. Somehow it seems my default choice for that goal has been poetry and I never even considered myself a poet.

Today I am doing my best to let go of an energy that is running amuck in my life. My last poem spoke to it. I have some psychic abilities, but it seems to me that I’m not good at interpretation of the things I get. So, I know how the energy feels, and at times it has felt good and helpful, but the same source often carries heavy negativity and chaos. At this point the negatives far outweigh the positives I have gleaned from it, and I simply wish for it to leave me alone. The problem is that some of the people in my life are either connected to it or highly influenced by it, and thus I have seen manifestations of it, both good and bad, through people I know and/or love.

Anyways, in a strong desire to disconnect from it and walk away, I am reaching for God.

That’s where it gets tricky, because this wavelength I’m talking about, blends quite significantly with the feeling of the divine, especially when the former is feeling good. I only want the good, that’s what brings better manifestations. So I only want the divine.

At this point my struggles have weighed heavy enough in my life that I also have a strong desire to give up fully and completely. But there is a part of me, very tiny, that says what if that means I die.

So I sit in acknowledgement that I could indeed die. Giving up completely could mean that I cease to exist in human form on 3D planet earth. I’m not sure that would be a bad thing. I know my husband and kids would miss me, but they would eventually move on with their own lives. But if I continue to cling to the what is because it might cause discomfort for them or I might miss out on things, then I could be holding myself apart from that already. I might be causing missing out and discomfort because I am afraid of that.

So I am doing my best to really examine what truly letting go means. If I really really let go of all of the what ifs, all of the scary tidbits, all of the might be doom, then what? I could die, but what else could happen?

It’s a hypothetical question for myself. I’m doing my best to look for the best answers and skip the worst.

May you see your best answers to letting go. May you see that you don’t have to be in control. May you see that giving into God fully and completely can do wonderous things in your life. May you know you are loved and supported by the divine. May you find a way to release the negatives completely.

Om Shanti