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Get R Done

My time not doing paid work this week has included free work at home. I only had a few hours of down time with my kiddos this week, but it was needed.

The bit of downtime I enjoyed with them, we carved pumpkins for Halloween. In doing that I discovered that our dog really likes pumpkin as a treat.

The rest of my activities were of the home improvement sort.

I peeled wallpaper from a wall where it had been painted over by previous owners. However, it had then turned loose loose due to minor water damage at some point – also under previous ownership. I had noticed the loose seam when we moved in, and my kids didn’t leave it alone as requested. Since they started the peeling, it was time to finish it. We peeled, and sanded, and spackled and sanded again before applying the primer.

I replaced a bad ceiling-fan light pull-chain.

I replaced a broken closet light fixture with a new LED light and installed a pull-chain on the new fixture.

I replaced two faulty breakers. That was interesting, because we discovered the second one as we were trying to get the first replacement to set right.

We also finally fixed the window that my son had broken. Replacement never managed to fit the budget, so we did-it-yourself pane repair. Nathan did most of the dirty work for that one, and I just did the final glass cut and helped with the silicone seal on the edges.

Nathan will have to help the kids to finish painting their room now that the wall is fixed and prepped. I’m sure that will take several days.

I also have a broken door that I didn’t get to, and I have yet to finish trimming out the teenagers room from our attempts at finishing the previous owners remodel.

It’s getting there.

I told Nathan I would much prefer having enough income to be able to pay others to do these things, and still eat and get to do things occasionally. Alas, I haven’t cleared enough of the negative beliefs from my upbringing to allow for that yet it seems. If I had I’d already be able to.

May you have enough income to do everything you need and most things you want to. May you have a sense of accomplishment. May you see that you have good skills. May you know how to fit everything into the time you have available. May you still get to have time with your children.

Siva Hir Su

We are okay.


Co-operative components
Assembling
Courage and inspiration
Voiced
Calm knowing turns
To decisive action

Thoughts
Feelings
Sensations
Pleasure
Intoxication
Sans fluids

Dreams and desires
May be futility
But heart's
Desires
Grow heedlessly

Warmth
Buzzes
Tingles
Of delight
Expansion

Leapless leaps
Hugs with no arms
Kisses without lips
Touches without hands
Embraced by thin air

All are
Symptoms
Of sense beyond
Present
Old news

All are
Knowing
Of a
Perfect world
Far beyond
This

Current
Reality
A false pretense
Of past
Manifested
Emotions

Old news
Is no news
Imagine
A Wonka dream
Worlds' paradise

Even if
Dreams stay
Floating clouds
Tis better
To have felt

Hearts
Desire
To feel love
To feel
Ecstasy

Sometimes
Only God Can
Provide
Heart's strongest
Desire
And it's okay that way.

~Treasa Cailleach

Fairly straightforward, but stems from reconnecting with my vortex today. I was able to pull up and focus strongly on my vortex by using the phrase “in a perfect world _______”. It was a beautiful day with sun shining, monarch butterflies flying, hawks screeching, and good conversation with clients at the clinic and residents in independent living. Today was a good day and I look forward to many more like it. I felt a couple of my others in a much better way today and enjoyed it much more, but regardless I found me, myself and I, and observed myself in this beautiful world.

A lunch break walk around the pond by the 2nd job was wonderful and relaxing. The smell of smoke from distant forest fires temporarily caused mild distress and I reminded myself that the fires often lead to new growth. I reminded myself that sometimes the old must die to make room for the new, and if man hadn’t started them God would have used lightening to do so, just like my virus laden cells needing to die to generate much needed healing. I also reminded myself that I love the smell of fire when it’s a small controlled one in my yard or fireplace, destructive forces are not always the chaos that they seem and can be very beneficial to that which they touch.

God is ultimately the one that controlls that process the most, and faith is all that is needed to survive as God intends, as some us survive by allowing our physical self to die. For me it seems only part of me needs to die, and I trust that God will help me navigate the effects of that process in the gentlest most functional way. I will do my best to stay focused on the relaxed, feeling good, enjoyable parts of my experience, and know that it is all okay regardless.

I am where I am and it’s the first step of the journey to where I would like to be.

May you know it’s all okay. May you trust God’s process and guidance. May you feel mostly good and be able to focus on the good in your experience. May you enjoy life mostly. May you see your way through challenges and see the solutions you seek. May you know you are healing and headed for better days. May you know that God loves and supports you.

Siva Hir Su

Functionally ready!

My time for me this evening was finishing my home office as close as I could for functionality.

I’m still missing a small round side table and my hot stone warmer and the massage table bolster. They will be found and added to the room ASAP. I also remembered that I need to find and hang duplicates of my credentials. In the mean time, I can use the bolster from my portable table, and deal without the other 2 items. My office is as ready as need be for now.

Everything thing in this room we either already had, or purchased at thrift very inexpensively. The exception being the small bit of lumber for the desk and the area rug (which was on clearance at IKEA).

I’m so excited. My graphic design computer is in my custom closet built-in desk, which conveniently hides behind a curtain when the room is being used for massage. Regardless of my purpose of using the office I can close the door and have peaceful focus. It makes me soooo happy. I have earned this moment a thousand times over.

Now I can schedule Nathan’s first massage in ages, as well as a couple of trades to get myself caught up and less achy.

Here’s the nearly finished product.