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Patio Bliss

I just spent the last minutes of my evening under a canopy of twinkle lights. We put them up over the front patio today. It took $26 for the pole and eyebolts at the top, 30 min to set the pole, and about an hour climbing up an down the ladder. It is blissful. Nathan just went in to start his dialysis treatment and I’m going to do my meditation before going in.

May you have peaceful and blissful experiences in/at your home. May you love your days mostly. May you have excellent meditation moments. May you find things to appreciate easily.

Om Shanti

Almost

I aimed to finish my front patio today.

Nathan and I, put the locking-sand down and wet it to lock it. About an hour later I moved pots into place and proceed to begin constructing the rough hewn furniture set. I did not get all of the furniture done before running out of steam at dinner time. I managed to complete the side table and one chair.

Our chainsaws are not intended for lots of large heavy work, so I had to switch back and forth several times, and let them cool to avoid burning my fingers. Actual construction happened inside our garage to help me stay cool after a short break inside with air conditioning.

Considering the tools available to me, and the fact that it was 84°, I think I did an awesome job today. I will finish the other chairs on another day.

Once the entire set is done I will coat them all in a tick layer of something like ‘Thompson’s water seal’. It will protect them for as long as desired.

My watch did not accurately count my steps though. I took it off to avoid ruining it with chainsaw vibrations, like my last watch. So instead, I tucked it in my bra and it counted a bit less than 6000 steps. I’m certain that’s off by at least a couple thousand steps.

Regardless of steps, I was very happy. I kept repeating “I have a front patio now, with furniture and pretty flowers! It’s amazing!” I’m so very appreciative.

Kids also had fun on their slip and slide now that it’s finally nice enough to use it.

Here are the pictures:

Now I soak in an Epsom salt bath to attempt to solve my achy crunchy body, with some much needed rest and rehydration to follow.

May you have good productive days off. May you find things to be joyful about and may your kids have fun in the sun this summer. May you find life good even when doing something that is physically taxing. May you see the wonderful things in your experience. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

I Survived the Thickness

The thick, the sick, the chemicals, and everything else laid to waste. This “mad world” has not taken me under yet, and if I have my say it won’t claim anyone else either.

I have survived chemicals in my drinks: flouride, chlorine, and other trace chemicals in my water, and sodas with sugar, acid and artificial sweeteners. I have survived chemicals in my foods: preservatives, pesticides, and others.

I survived it all.

I have survived Epstein-Barr for probably 27 years or more. I survived the damage it did to my thyroid and my emotions. The damage it caused to my pancreas, and allergies inflicted.

I survived the resulting ripple it caused for pregnancy and birth. I not only survived, I have taken care of myself and found some healing, even if it was slow.

Then I survived Covid and it’s havoc on my body taking everything negative and bringing it directly to my immediate awareness. It flared everything Epstein-Barr started, and took it a step further, driving me nearly insane. It damaged my son’s brain and my husband’s kidneys, but we’re all still alive.

Regardless of western medicines’ lack of ability to solve any of it, I will find a way. See I’m a thriver at heart.

If nastiness like that only takes me down, I survive, and I eventually overcome. Then, once I fully overcome all of it, I will thrive in a massive way. I look forward to that time.

For now I’m giving myself credit.

I deserve the beautiful body to match my beautiful insides, and to do that I have to stay focused on my love for myself.

I found reverse osmosis water and organic produce. I found auto-immune Paleo and Raw diets to enable healing. I found numerous supplements to manage symptoms and enable healing. I found my way out of darkness because of Dr Illardi’s ” Depression Cure”. I revived my love of the sun and found ways to love physical activity. I make an effort to connect with nature, mother Earth, and humanity.

I have taken care of my entire family since July of 2010. I have kept us alive and housed, and clothed and fed.

I helped my father and an acquaintance in the midst of their hard times.

I have donated time, items, and money to charities and individuals.

I help people on my table to feel better and find their own healing every day.

And through all of it I have even found a way to take care of myself. I have given myself space for healing to the best of my ability. I have done everything I could to feel better, as often as I was able.

I am strong and capable. I know how to persevere.

I am smart, nay very intelligent and I choose to use my gifts for good. I do my best to educate everyone I come in contact with.

I may never reach the same enlightened master level such as the likes of AdiYogi Shiva, Buddha, or Jésus, but I did mine while caring for others daily. I did mine while birthing and raising children. I did mine while fighting diseases in my own body and caring for a husband with even more complex health concerns. AND I did mine when Western Medicine was bent on doing only the lazy, simplest, send you on your way options.

So, if you ask me, my battles have been more challenging and the fact I’ve made it this far is majorly commendable.

So yes, I am focusing on my victories and accomplishments. I am loving myself so my inner beauty can be seen by everyone. I love me and I deserve the best for myself. I deserve recognition. I deserve to be acknowledged for my healing journey, everything I have gone through and survived, to reach for thriving.

I love me and I hope you love yourself too.

May you see your accomplishments. May you acknowledge your own gifts. May you love yourself and honor others for their tough journies too. Above all may you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti