My soul sings Sweet Beautiful Confusingly Crazy Too leading edge To be believed
My soul sings Any way Alone Outside An Unaccepted Strangeness
Messages Intended to Redirect Find hope Where hopeless Find light Where dark
A guide through Deepest Despair It has Never failed Only and always Supported Except where Others' Opinions Wreak havoc
Validation Illusive Fears prevent Honest Acceptance Or recognition
My soul sings My own song At all costs Even loneliness Or sadness
Better to bear all For the truth Is always out there And love Always wins Eventually
The horsemen Riding May bring doom Or freedom Depending on Ones' perspective
Yet there is Always A chance They are just Riding A timeless Journey To make Sense Of Senseless
My soul sings A tune They hear But none see Vibration for Soul's Ears and Heart Bringing only Light for Eyes to see
My soul sings Do you hear Do you believe Do you understand The song is Mine But really God's
And I May be Out of Tune Off key But the Message is Still there
~ Treasa Cailleach
May your message always be understood and accepted. May you be the best messenger you can be. May you know that you are always loved and accepted for who you are and the songs you sing. May you find your way through this chaotic crazy time and clear the other side stronger for being yourself. May you know you are on the right track regardless of validation or recognition. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.
My conclusion today is that there is nothing I can do to help those that fell for the marketing. The news outlets (those 6 big companies of the world) have not just created fear of a disease, they have made lots of money off of the marketing of hate.
If we were talking about any other subject, a person’s perseverance and accomplishment would be rewarded with accolades and congratulations. Yet today we stand with a society so divided in politics and everything that can even remotely be related, that it even affects our mental processing of disease. Because of that, most are punishing those that have suceeded in health, instead of congratulating them.
It wasn’t good enough to get everyone scared out of their minds over yet another disease to afflict humanity. We had to take things one step further and create an environment of hate over it. It makes me sad.
The acupuncturist was kind enough to let me try an alternate disposable, we’ll soon see if I react to it or not (the last disposable caused hives in a few hours).
I now wear masks more often, not out of fear of diease nor out of any sense of duty. No merely because those that fell for the fear and hate marketing want to make sure you know it. I am more concerned about fear haters trying to ruin businesses than any other aspect of this disease.
I’m not so petrified that I cower in a corner. I continue doing my best to bring the light and quietly wear my mask and send prayers that people come to their senses.
This country I live in, prepared for the bubonic plague in the most haphazard and careless way, yet we got a new version of the flu. What’s most rediculous is that the bubonic plague still exists and occasionally rears its ugly head, yet we never react to it in this way.
We will never solve disease as long as we have hate, fear, anger, frustration, or any one other the many other negative emotions and beliefs that cause dis-ease. Being that those emotions are inevitable in the human emotional cycle, and many of the beliefs seem to be nearly as inevitable, it would likely be impossible to eliminate disease. All of humanity would have to learn to be Jesus or Buddha or Quan Yin. We would all have to find our wholly ascended states to eliminate disease. That is highly unlikely.
Yet there are so many that fell for the marketing of this disease, that they have likely caused a collective attraction point for another more severe disease. I sincerely hope that those of us doing our best to bring the light have tipped the scales away from that.
Regardless, I know that I have been on a continual path of improving my health, and will continue as such. I am certain that I am healing my body of chronic mild internal diseases, and in turn making it even easier for me to overcome acute external diseases like the flu and covid. I am starting to see the signs myself and it makes me feel even better.
I have worked hard at improving and maintaining my health, and I simply can’t let those living in fear and hate bring my confidence down. I have worked so long and hard to see my results and I deserve every moment of sensing accomplishment.
So, I quietly know that I am doing well enough to not worry. I gently state through masked face that I’m not concerned about getting sick when someone says something about their mask and whether they should do this or that. I educate when someone is open to it, and have a good laugh when someone is in my ‘boat’ of knowing floating down our enjoyable stream.
I wish I could soothe fears and educate the misguided, but realize that it is not my place. I can not fix that which is too far outside of my vibration and caused by entities out of my control. I can merely do my best to relax them physically and hope that they find a moment of peace that might help their broader vibration rise a bit. Perhaps in turn that will be enough that they sense how misguided they are.
For now, I am grateful that I am overcoming limitations learned from my parents in early childhood. I am grateful I am really allowing healing for myself. I am grateful that my body is beginning to show the healing. I am grateful that I made it though everyone else’s crazy relatively unscathed. I am so very grateful that I understand dis-ease and disease on multiple levels and have the ability to avert both easily. I am ever so grateful for my connection to my higher self and God-force that keeps everything going and aiming for better and better vibrations and alignment.
May you know your ability to find health and healing. May you feel good in your accomplishments of it. May you be confident in your knowing. May you find peace and let your light shine to help balance humanity towards health and ease. May you sense your connection in the most helpful ways. May you see your ability to help others relax and find ease. May you know you are protected by the Divine. “May the force be with you.” May you know you are supported and loved. May you love yourself.
Side note: The hip/low back is not solved yet. Still in progress, but better. I will revisit it after my short shift this afternoon. For now I sit on ice.
The second topic for today is a mistake, which wasn’t a complete mistake.
On the surface I scared an older clinic client on accident. She came in nervous about the virus, and hesitant because she didn’t know me and usually saw one of the other therapists. I tried to soothe her nerves and it backfired. She got more agitated and decided to not do the massage.
So my mistake was in words intended to soothe but which failed to do so. But it caused the clinic to loose a paid appointment and the chiropractor to have an uncomfortable phone call the following day. For that I’m truly sorry, and have apologized profusely for it. I own it completely and would have done the call if it hadn’t been for the caller’s specific request.
Where it is not so much a mistake and important for me to acknowledge, is that I got what I wanted. I law of attractioned myself some fine tuning.
I realized later that all of my clients that I really enjoy working with are nearly the opposite. They are mostly healthy and always aiming for improvement, and none of them are afraid of much, let alone viral news. They are all confident in their being a part of a functioning society and life in general. I really appreciate that immensely.
Because I am so appreciative of those clients, I have attracted fewer and fewer of the opposite like the one I scared. I currently don’t have any of my nursing homes, my house calls are down to 3, and one of them spaced way further out than normal. And clinic clients that are scared generally aren’t scheduling with me to begin with, and really never did at all.
Yet at the same time I have had a gaggle of new clients that have all become regulars or at least repeat clients. A couple have admitted financial limitations, but promised they will reschedule as they are able.
So I had an uncomfortable moment with a perceived loss that ultimately helped me to acknowledge that I have stayed busy enough without any scardy cats scheduling. That feels good and like relief.
Please don’t get me wrong. I don’t hate anyone that has bought into the fear. In fact I feel rather sorry for them and wish I could help. But this failed appointment also reminded me that sometimes you can’t fix something for someone else even if you want to. We were so far apart in vibrational alignment that she simply could not hear me and find ease. She could not reach for a soothing place. Additionally, it would have taken me down and been very difficult on me to drop to her level. That is something I am beginning to see simply isn’t worth it. I like improvement enough that I would rather keep reaching for better, than drag myself down trying to help others find their version of better.
Lately, I even dislike conversations where people want me to commiserate with them. I find I either end up going silent, doing the “uh hmm’s”, or politely arguing with them. The latter being my least preferred response because I don’t benefit from upset clients. Sometimes though I know something so strongly to my core that I simply can’t tolerate someone trying to convince me otherwise, on the table or not. I just try to stay polite and keep it short and move on to other topics.
So all in all, my fine tuning means:
I’d prefer scared people to just not schedule with me at all. Same goes for people that want to commiserate or argue.
If they must schedule with me, then keeping their fears or arguments to themselves is important.
I’m perfectly okay with quiet and/or silent sessions.
I much prefer confident healthy people on my table.
I enjoy friendly people that have good conversations (I’ve had several lately over fitness, meditation, nutrition, and alternative healing choices, I like that a lot.)
I enjoy finding common ground with those on my table.
I like the relief of knowing I can help someone because we’re closer in vibrational alignment.
I like repeat clients a lot.
I like having a full schedule.
I really like people with stable enough finances that they tip well, and I repeat my many thank you’s for those I’ve already received.
I enjoy a good challenge in my work, just not so much of a challenge that it depletes me for other sessions.
I enjoy knowing that I am able to solve many muscular based concerns and that I know when clients need to seek additional help. I am also very grateful I have qualified chiropractors & acupuncturists to refer to in office, and other types of providers outside of the office. That is especially helpful when my skills are not enough to solve client concerns.
I am grateful that I have a steady flow of clients and income.
I am grateful for the relief I have felt this last year and look forward to more of that.
I am glad that I keep getting stronger and healthier to keep doing the work that I enjoy.
I also enjoy having the graphic design work on the side to help have more income without exhausting myself.
I have immensely enjoyed having time with my kids and husband and pets, and time in my garden is good too.
I am grateful for the knowing that I am mostly in the flow of that which is wanted and that the universe is supporting me.
I look forward to even more improvement.
May you all have your fine tuning moments of acknowledgement. May you see where you goofed and know how to attract corrections. May you appreciate your world and your place in it. May you continue to help move society forward. May you feel mostly good and have just the right clients continue to flow into your experience. May you have the help you need and the things you seek. May you have more fun in the process. May your skills be evident and acknowledged by others. May you feel loved and appreciated.
Siva Hir Su
Photo is not me, obviously if you’re a regular reader, but it was the closest stock image to a real massage. I dislike the images where clients are not on the table right, or it’s obviously a posed scene, it perpetuates rediculous sterotypes and misconceptions. Just FYI.
So today was about celebrating little Ian’s 3rd birthday, all-be-it a bit late. I worked this week, so today was my 1st day off after his birthday.
It’s been weird, hot cranky tired has somehow made us all a bit off, and tried to sap the fun, but I think Ian has made the best of it anyway. That’s him & Anya on a bounce house slide at a place called fun run, really a giant indoor playground.
I went to find drinks, & when I pulled out change from a previous purchase I noticed this:
Normally I’d be like “oh cute, someone wrote their name on their money”. It does happen very, very occasionally.
However, this time it’s the name that got me. I’d already been seeing hundreds of references to Kate or Katie including K8’s & KT’s.
Somehow it’s like someone (or God?) really, really wants me to see that name.
So, why? Who’s Kate or Katie? Why is it important for me? What place does this name have in my experience? Is it reference to a thing instead maybe, like how cars and boats get named after people?
I’ve tried to wrack my brain trying to come up with someone I might have worked with, a deceased resident perhaps, but the only Katie resident I can think of is still alive as far as I’m aware. I’m drawing a blank on anyone with that name that might be deceased, and the only living Katies I can think of are not very close to me, mere acquaintances.
So, I’m stuck. Maybe some clarity will come eventually, or maybe it’s a new person to expect to meet. I’m not sure, but for now I just keep saying “thank you, but I still don’t understand”. Now to decide whether I hold onto this bill as validation material, or go ahead & spend it since I took a picture!
& Just because I’ve been letting my brain have so much fun, I thought you’d like this… it’s a building down the street from fun run…. & my 13-year-old self thinks it’s hilarious! Hahahahaha!
I am where I am and it’s alright, it has to be because it’s all I’ve got.
(- Abraham Hicks)
Just breathe.
It’ll all be ok.
Abraham says: go with the flow and it’ll be over soon. That’s good. That’s relief.
Sigh.
Quiet, still. Just be.
Be me. Be with source.
Be calm. Patience is easier when I’m just being with my inner me.
Just breathe.
Feel the difference. That’s what matters: the feeling in my body.
Relax.
I like relaxed. It feels good. Warm, fuzzy, light, airy.
Soothing, yet strangely energizing.
I don’t have to solve anything right now. There is plenty of time for that. Besides, I couldn’t solve anything right now anyway. This moment isn’t for that. This moment is for me.
This moment for me is about feeling better, feeling good in fact. I like that. So I Will… be, just be.
My Hands Are God 