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Commissioned start.

One of my massage clients has commissioned two art pieces from me. It was much needed significant financial support, and the resulting projects will help with my mental state to some degree as well. I am very appreciative and grateful to be getting paid for my fine art for the first time in my life, and paid well at that.

She has only supplied one of the original photographs so far, so that is the one I have started with.

It is a buffalo for her friend as a gift. The friend had taken the photograph during a close-up encounter on vacation. She requested my rendition of the animal.

I asked if there was any preferences and all she stipulated was size, much smaller than the check she supplied, so I chose a slightly larger paper. I decided to work in color favoring artist colored pencils with plans to add oil pastel for overlay portions.

This is the original and my work so far, only having about 3 hours in at this point. It is helping me to pull up emotionally, but I have more massage clients to get to today. More will have to wait for another day.

May you have good creative moments and much needed mental relief. May you have ample time for self-care. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Blippi should visit Wonderscope

So my kids love Blippi. It’s an online kids show you can find via YouTube or Roku. Blippi regularly goes to kid’s museums, playgrounds and play places to do educational videos.

What amuses me most is that his kids show was a demonstration of his SEO and internet marketing skills. He was intending to just use it as proof of his abilities, but it worked so well that he is now world famous and travels the world making videos and doing educational events for kids. I wouldn’t be the least bit surprised if he earns more income off of the kids stuff than his internet marketing work.

Anyway, we decided to purchase a family membership to a place here in KC called Wonderscope. The unlimited family pass was the cost of 2 individual visits for our family. It was a no-brainer. Now we can go as much as we like, and after today, I’m guessing it will be frequently- especially since it is about 10 minutes from our house.

It was like stepping into one of Blippi’s videos and my kids loved it. They had a great time and 2 hours flew by really fast. I’m still sitting watching them play as I write this, so it may be a long while until we actually head home. I’m glad they like it so much, and I’m really greatful that they have experienced that which Blippi has made exciting and fun.

May you have good wholesome fun with your kids at an affordable cost. May you have more than enough places to enjoy family time. May you see the fun all around you. May you have as much awe and wonder as a kid exploring a place like Wonderscope. May time fly because you are enjoying your days so much. Above all may you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Celebrate Successes

This afternoon after work the office manager invited people to celebrate her success of clearing radiation treatments.

It was a good poolside party to celebrate her win.

I was/am very happy for her. Her treatments are not complete in that she has oral chemo next, but she has definitely cleared the worst part of cancer treatment and we are all super happy for her. I am glad that she had such a wonderful group of people to support her.

I am honored to have been included in the group.

Sometimes I feel like I should do better, or I’m no-one special, or that I am the socially awkward person that no one really wants there. The sore thumb that stands out in a room. In those moments I segregated myself to not impose too much. I have this secret bashful side that sometimes hides cleverly behind my confident side.

There are moments where my opioniated self argues “I have nothing to worry about just be who I am, the world needs to be more accepting”, but the bashful side says “I’m just so different that I make others uncomfortable and that makes me uncomfortable”. I often feel like I can feel the energy of judgement even when people don’t say anything, and it definitely makes me uncomfortable, I will often migrate away from people only realizing later what happened.

Occasionally, I have an awareness that, even though I am comfortable with my self because of my major improvements, others live in a different paradigm and have no clue about my path and progress. Those people might say or do something embarrassing and cause a scene, and it is not my intent to cause any scene anywhere, so bashful wins again, and I fold myself up to be less obtrusive.

I caught myself doing that a few times during the gathering. Fortunately, the successful-celebrant’s sister, or my co-workers, seemed to notice and help draw me back out into participation. I appreciated that, and I’m so glad that my uniqueness was tolerated for such a wonderful celebration. It was a concern for me going into the celebration, but I had done my best to ignore my fear, and I’m glad I wasn’t the cause of any disturbances for her big win.

It was a quiet, pleasant, and mostly comfortable gathering to honor and respect a much deserving person. I enjoyed a bit of slightly cool pool, good food, and even a drink to celebrate with her. I’m glad I was there and I’m more glad she had a good afternoon, she deserves it.

It also helped me to see that I have the family I’ve dreamed of. They aren’t polyamorous partners of my ideal dream, but they are family just the same. I can share my fears, my hopes, my dreams, my desires and everything. They put up with my loudness at times and respect me completely. They have helped Nathan so much it makes me cry, and when I expressed major concerns over recent things, I felt like I was really heard and that they genuinely care. The hugs I have received from them are priceless and help more than I have words for. I really appreciate my work family.

I had some of that with the one person I worked with at the job I found myself having to step away from, but at the clinic I feel that way with everyone. They all care about me and I care about them. Genuinely and completely. I am so utterly grateful. It is a wonderful feeling to have people around me that truly care.

May you enjoy celebrations of succuss with everyone you love and care about. May you see your family around you, even if they are not biological or in a marriage-like commitment. May you know those you care about also care about you. May you enjoy life mostly and see your dreams begin to manifest. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti