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I need LIFE.

Social media has been invading my space lately. My close circle of friends and family have been telling of things heard and seen, and blog-o-sphere is passing around “awards” that are really just new renditions of chain-mails which used to pass via Facebook and email. I seem to be being inundated, and on top of all the continued Covid stuff, it leaves me with a much stronger desire for life itself.

You see, these social media games are not life. They are merely feel good tidbits masquerading as social interaction. None of these moments will last and many will be forgotten by next week. They will simply become an old blip in some server that time forgets.

I need things that are more tangible. Memories that are remembered fondly for years to come. I have a whole host of memories already, and I have people I genuinely care about in my here and now, with which to create new memories continuously.

I have a loving husband, whom I told over lunch that I wish to give him an overdue massage tomorrow. I enjoy physical contact and the focus it brings and all too often we allow kids and pets and electronics to be a distraction. So out of love, I requested he make plans to set aside a couple of hours tomorrow for us to have focused time with each other. I will give him a massage just like my clients get every other day of the month. We might take just a little more time for conversation or cuddling- we are spouses after all, but I knew it was time for something very tangible and very focused, and I took the initiative to make a solid plan.

It is not our only attempt, we have date nights frequently. However, date nights involve food and atmosphere and other types of distraction, so I simply wanted a more focused moment for this week.

Those public interactions like date night are still part of my interactive life, and still vital to my experience. They are also fond moments and memory makers. They let me feel connected to this world and like I am a part of it.

It may seem silly, but I’ve actually become fond of people giving me the look that I know is based in judgement. That look that conveys “what is that woman wearing” or “why doesn’t she shave”. Those moments validate my existence in this world, and tell me I am leaving some sort of mark. I have caused a ripple that who knows where it will lead. Sometimes I wonder if I am leaving the positive ripple I hope to, but I know I frequently challenge people’s ideas and paradigms. Even if that is the totality, just the challenge I present, I still feel like it at least helps others examine their own self. Perhaps in that moment I contribute to minds becoming more open, and more possibilities manifesting. I like that feeling.

I also enjoy watching others interact and trying to figure out how people might be connected. Are they co-workers or on a date, are they friends or family? It lets me see that my little life is merely one of very many in this world. A world full of people that God loves and wants the best for. A world full of people sperated by just a few degrees of acquaintances.

But LIFE is soooo much more.

Life is smiles and hugs. Life is seeing your children be born and learning new splendid things. Life is being there for the grumpy old man that has made sure you can’t get him to drop the grumpy and find any shred of happy; and even with him doing his best to drag you down with him. Life is helping your mom when she’d rather hide. Life is helping a friend try to decided if a lump is scary or harmless. Life is getting drunk with a friend because she was dumped and needs a shoulder to cry on. Life is parties and birthdays and anniversaries. Life is shopping and errands and finding fun ways to flow money. Life is going to the zoo and taking walks in parks. Life is watching the birds and smelling the flowers.

Life is everything around us and there are so many good splendid things that if you hide in fear of anything you will miss them all.

That is what I need more than ever. I need the interactions, the dates, the destinations, the real people in front of me for better or worse. I need the birds and the bees and the flowers and trees. I need exercise and sun and rain. I need to breathe fresh air, even at risk of breathing pollen, mold or viruses. I would rather live a good enjoyable life at risk than hide in fear and miss everything. I might die younger from the risks, but will have enjoyed more of my time here on this planet.

There are so many things I wish to do with my life. Even beyond my dreams of building my community and business Atira.

I wish to travel and see more of this world. Talking to my client this morning reminded me of that. He had seen Western United States, and I’ve seen the Eastern half, so we were telling each other of memorable enjoyable things we’d done. It reminded how much of this world I have not seen, but which I very much want to. I can not do that if I’m busy hiding in fear.

I personally do not do well stuck at home looking at the same walls day in and day out. Even when my children were born and my midwife told me I needed to rest and recuperate, my body simply would hit a wall where I needed sun, fresh air and movement. I simply had to go be part of the world even though I was not strong enough to work or do any strenuous activity. I needed to know there was a reason for my existence in the world.

You see if you don’t interact with the world God can not experience the world through your perspective. Even monks in monasteries participate in the world and interact with life, even if it is just a butterfly in a garden or other monks. Trying to hide from the world closes you off, affects your senses and slows the connection to God.

I know for certain that I am not alone in this perspective or paradigm. It may not be completely accurate for everyone, but it is accurate for many. I see it in my residents. Those that have found a way to get out and continue to experience at least part of this world are far less affected than those that have been sequestered in permanent quarantine. Permanently quarantined people are declining at alarming rates, while those that found a way to stay active have mostly managed to maintain their health.

There is a part of our being that needs to go and do, it is part of the human experience of this 3D physical perspective. If you deny that part of the self in a long term or permanent sort of way it literally degrades your physical health because you disconnect from that which you are.

Be in your self and honor every bit of yourself; from food to sunlight to movement to social atmosphere and friends and family. It’s a big puzzle, and sometimes it can be a little overwhelming to try and keep it all together, but if you reach for the fun of it, every moment becomes worth it. Your memories will remind you of all of the good you experienced for doing so, and even the risks become worth it.

May you see all of life as valuable. May you overcome your fears. May you know the risks are worth it. May you know it’s not your time because you have too many things you still wish to do and experience. May you know your days give God much needed input. May you know you are here for a reason and your perspective matters. May you enjoy life mostly. May you know you are loved and supported and that there are many around you whom you wish to interact and make memories with. May you feel your place in this world and enjoy your life mostly.

Siva Hir Su

Common ground.

I’ve been talking about finding common ground more frequently, especially in sessions where clients want to focus on current events. I feel it is vital and necessary for the unity our world needs to expand in positive ways.

I did the images for the friend as a thank you, but in my choice of imagery I was reaching for common ground. I aimed for topics of known common interest. I also aimed for a pick-me-up knowing that everyone needs that sometimes.

The trouble is we all have different needs in the details. What seems like a good idea might not always work for another person. In my specific example, I’m hoping my guess is received well, but it makes me think about my own self too.

Additionally, I’ve had a run of people reading old posts from when Katherine was conceived. It was a rough time, I wasn’t sure I would make it through. I could have used a pick-me-up from a friend. Instead I had only myself to rely on as usual. I went through an angry spell with a fair amount of depression and frustration, but then just decided to work it off. Quite literally I worked 7 days a week during the entire pregnancy, took 5 weeks off and jumped straight back into full time.

It distracted me from problems and helped to ensure that finances wouldn’t be a big problem. Yet, my pick-me-up ended up just being to make myself do mantras, even when I was doubting if they would actually do me any good. Almost 3 years later we are in a much different place, and I know things are gradually improving even more.

However, now I’m in a new set of conundrums and trying to figure out my new pick-me-up. The mantras still help, but there is more to life than mantras and I’m really enjoying the artwork I have been doing. Most of it is for myself to begin with. I think that is a huge factor.

At this point, I have ideas for images to tell the story of my guide, that divine influence that has been in and out of my life since very early childhood. I also have ideas for images that would help with my path to body improvement.

I took this picture yesterday, enjoying wearing an outfit on my day off, which hasn’t been worn since our last camping trip 6 years ago. I was much bigger then, but it’s not often I get to run around in a halter top and sarong.

Anyways, this picture stirred a desire to do digital mock-ups of my desired future self. I think that will help.

But what does that have to do with the original topic?

Just because I think I have found something that will work for me and hope that I guessed at something that might work for a friend, doesn’t mean either would work for others.

People find joy in many different things. Personally I wish more conversations centered around thing we find joy and happiness in.

Have you asked friends, co-workers, acquaintances what they enjoy or like doing? Do we ever take time to savor and share with others those things we like doing? Why isn’t more of our world attempting to find those things out? Why don’t we encourage each other to reach for fun more often? Why don’t we want to know what keeps our fellow humans going?

May you have good conversations finding common ground of joy and enjoyment. May you know what your friends like. May you help others successfully find pick-me-ups. May you know your own paths to buoyancy. May we all find the common ground of finding improvement and reaching for a better life.

Siva Hir Su

Kids, cats and puppy dogs

Katherine decided to turn me into mount mommius tonight. I was tired, ready for bed, and already slouching before she climbed me, and it only brought more slouch. Yet it was too cute to not share my child perching on my shoulder like a baby bird.

It was similar in sensation for me to the other day when she tried to mount me while foam rollering. We realized afterwards she was trying to copy me, pose and all.

Another cute moment was big sister Anya made a dandelion crown for them and we got pictures of both of them enjoying the pretty garnishment.

I’ve even had moments of cuddling (and sleeping) surrounded by littles- human and four legged.

Even Zen has had some good times the last couple of weeks. He has taken to trying to hug me, standing up on his hind legs and wrapping paws around my torso. He isn’t good at balancing though so no one has caught it on camera. In fact the only moment that has been caught on camera is some of his back yard antics with wood pieces. He keeps dragging logs and sticks out of our ‘to be burned’ pile and knawing on them. We think he needs more toys!

Buddy really enjoyed some fresh catnip from the garden.

And Katherine and I took a bit to sit and enjoy some not so dreary weather a couple days ago.

All in all, I’m rather enjoying more and more good moments with my family. There are still tantrums, and bickering and all the nonsense that toddlers get into, but I love my kids and cherish all these good moments. That is what life is worth living for.

On a separate note, I finally got some of my little drawings framed and properly hung in my office. It’s nice to see them more properly displayed.

Finally, I’m really really enjoying the time I have been able to devote to artwork. After my 3 massage sessions today, I was able to sit and do another shirt design and then I spent awhile contemplating adjustments to my own business logo. It is a really good change of pace and the creativity is so good for my heart and soul.

May you have blessed moments of cute and adorable to brighten your days. May you have many good things to look forward to. May you see and feel the love around you. May you have ample outlets for uplifting creativity. May find beauty all around you. Finally, may you enjoy life more than not.

Siva Hir Su