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My experience of Allopathic America

I’m writing today to discuss my current situation and treatment goal, but also to expound on how Allopathic medicine is now a money maker and no longer concerned with general health, well-being or full healing. I of course am only speaking to my experience and knowledge which lies in the Great US of A.

So if you’ve been a regular reader you know the basics. If not the more brief synopsis is:

I’ve lived with undiagnosed thyroid concerns since I was 12 years old, the lonely unknown battle took it’s toll with severe suicidal depression (medications did not solve) and uncontrollable weight. Then, I met a lady on a train when I was 29 that cued me onto iodine and thyroid supplements. Because it was helping her and we had similar histories, I tried it, and lost 45 pounds in a month and then found myself pregnant. When I was 31 I gave birth to my son and my thyroid crashed hard, enough I almost killed myself and I was forced to seek help. Then began my journey dealing with doctors and trying to get accurate dosing and helpful medication to begin with. It forced me to begin learning about thyroid disease, medications and lab testing. I have since battled with doctors to keep my thyroid managed well and have utilized the Auto-immune Paleo diet, iodine supplementation, and seaweed to accomplish most of the relief I have gleaned, I intentionally work very hard to keep my need for medication low. I exercise regularly, can lift quite a bit of weight and am healthy by all measurable standards except body weight. Yet I knew something still wasn’t right when in January I could feel my thyroid irritating my voicebox. After an ultrasound finding multiple nodules on my thyroid, I spoke with one of my clients that has had a similar journey. She filled me in on a treatment she had done to eliminate a virus that had been hiding in her body slowly damaging her thyroid and other organs. It completely healed not just the virus, but the damage to her organs too. It was expensive so I put it in the back of my mind and said eventually I will get there.

However, God seems to think I need to act sooner. Fast forward to 2 weeks ago.

I got what I thought was strep throat, and not my first round of it. What I was dealing with looked and acted like it. The doctor begrudgingly did a swab that came back negative, but since I had already started the antibiotics and Prednisone she ordered I finish the doses out. Right as the strep throat symptoms were ending I got a nasty rash on my upper thigh. It at first looked like standard hives, so I was perplexed thinking I reacted to the antibiotics and Prednisone when I never had before. Then larger blisters appeared in the center of the rash and they hurt like crazy. I couldn’t figure it out at first and the doctor had pissed me off so bad with how she handled the strep swab that I knew I didn’t want to deal with her again. I prayed on it and did some meditations and otherwise kept moving and functioning, but was careful to be mindful of mask wearing in case the perceived strep was something else entirely.

Two days into the rash I remembered the conversation with my client about the virus and the treatment that was done to solve it, and the memory just nagged and nagged at my brain. I looked up the virus she had talked about, it was the Epstein-Barr Virus (see here for wikipedia info). Interestingly, that virus can mimic strep throat and occasionally does cause a nasty rash. I had never had the rash before but have had strep several times where it didn’t come back as positive on strep tests. I decided to skip the doctor and test the theory myself. First I did the acute mononucleosis test for $69, that in theory would catch an active EBV infection. It came back negative, which apparently 25% of tests can be false negative because of how the test looks for the virus. So I decided to do the more thorough Chronic EBV test. $169 later I was holding test results that showed really high values for only one of four of the antibody markers. The other 3 were in negative range. But the one antibody was so ridiculously high that the test results came with a disclaimer that it was significant of a recent infection. So I had my smoking gun. I was in fact dealing with an EBV infection, and one that was good at hiding in my body and not triggering all of the antibodies.

Like my client had told me, EBV can hide in the body for years and does a whole host of damage to various organs, the thyroid just being one. It can also damage both the pancreas and liver, which are the other organs I have noticable difficulty with, manifesting in my food sensitivities and glucose control. If left unchecked EBV can also lead to multiple cancers and lukemias.

So now I finally had an ‘Ah Ha’ moment. I finally knew the cause of my 25 year journey of ill health despite having been to many doctors in 4 states during that time period. I have in my hands, proof of the virus being in my body in a chronic way. It is most likely the cause to all my concerns, and if I can clear my system long enough I can enable my organs to heal and health to return.

Enter the treatment my client did.

She went to a functional medicine doctor that discovered her Chronic EBV infection and he did a treatment called IV Oxygenation Therapy. The doc costs an initial consult of $600 plus $100 per month subscription fee which covers up to two office visits. The IV treatment is $2000.00, and if I haven’t already done all the labwork he needs then there may be other additional costs. Insurance, if you have it, would only cover labwork, I don’t anyway and I am always cash pay. So I need essentially $3000.00 to attempt to kill the virus and damaged tissues and instigate full healing. However, the process is hard on the system, so my client had explained she was down for 5 or 6 days afterwards because of the cellular die-off and detoxing, so I will also have to account for missing a week of work as well.

Beyond my frustrations over cost and managing to actually implement something with the potential to end my battle for health, I am super frustrated at the awareness I now have of our medical system.

Essentially, a dozen+ doctors in multiple offices in four different states and 10 different cities over 25 years, and none of them even came remotely close to really truly accurately diagnosing the problem. Every last one of them either gave up easily (as with the “low side of normal” tests from childhood) or decided to treat the one symptom of low thyroid function.

If I had not taken the time to educate myself on the problem I was faced with and kept digging knowing that something was still wrong, then I could have spent 30 to 40 years taking thyroid meds to end up with cancer and potentially die from it.

Western medicine as it currently stands in America is concerned with two things. 1) A minimum of treatment to ensure you stay alive, not well, just alive. 2) Making money indefinitely via treatment of symptoms only, rare cases like certain cancers they will treat with the premise of eradicating the disease, but still favor expensive treatment over cheaper more effective options.

You may wish to disagree with me on either, but evidence is piling up to support both.

I have written on several occasions in regards to how elder care and instutionalized medicine are more concerned with keeping an elderly person alive than actually providing the ability to live life. It is how we end up with people bed bound or wheelchair bound for years at the end of their life. Unable to do many tasks, but still alive and suffering. I have directly worked with dozens of such people where my massages are intended to help prevent skin tears, bed sores, and maybe just maybe provide a little relief from discomfort of being frozen in place.

But yet, it’s more than that. Part two listed above is very evident for me. Not one doctor ever said, your thyroid is struggling, there’s potential we could solve that and get you back to normal. No, in Western Medicine normal is live on this drug until you die. If that drug quits working we’ll double the dose or switch to another. Never is it, try to heal you and get you back to normal.

Even with cancer, the goal is cut and chemo and radiation. We now have several options that have better potential at lower costs, liquid Vitamin C at massive doses can kill cancer, turmeric extract has also been shown to have similar results, and beyond that we now have Car-T. But Car-T is too effective, even though it is still expensive, it only takes one full round of treatment and 99% of cancer can be completely healed. It simply cuts their profit margin by too much.

Any treatment that offers the potential for full healing is either sidelined by the AMA and CDC or is outright attacked by both. The more clinical and lab tested something is, the less they are able to attack it, but if it cuts profits then it will never be fully supported.

So, if you as a reader, want a real solution to whatever health problem you are facing, then you have to do the following:

  • Take charge of the problem, learn everything you can on the subject and follow the rabbit hole as far as it will lead you. Even then you might need to dig a little further.
  • Learn to read the labs of anything that needs tested. It’s not hard and the information is readily available if you know the trusted resources to seek out. If you get fuzzy on interpretation there are usually forums where people discuss their lab results.
  • The hardest part- Find a doctor that: 1- isn’t threatened by your intelligence and concern for your own health, and 2- might have alternate solutions or is at least willing to try something you propose. You may have to seek alternatives to your standard MD.
  • Finally, listen to your intuition. God wants you to heal and will give you the breadcrumbs to follow, but you have to trust that process. If something feels wrong it is, if something feels missed it is, if something feels right it is, if something nags at you- look into it, it probably means something important. Trust and God will guide you to a real solution.

As for me, I finally have a plan for a potentially final but expensive step. My biggest hurdle is money and I’ve overcome that one many times. I know I can do it again. I will do my best to allow and know that timing is everything. God will enable me to fix this for once and for all, and I will have avoided the worst case scenario for this disease.

As for you: may you have the solutions you seek. May you always have the proper resources when you need them. May you find helpful doctors that listen and do their best to meet your needs and find real solutions for your problems. May you trust God and be able to follow the breadcrumbs. May you see the solution you seek. May you understand that you are loved and supported. May you have the support you need from those around you. May you feel the love and support when it is needed most. May you know God wants you to be well. May you find the joyous healthy life you desire.

Siva Hir Su

Keeping my word.

Years ago, before my online romance SJ, I promised God that if he helped me pull up I would do my best to do good for God.

Now it seems that my long lost SJ helped me pull up enough that I have regained my balance in this world. I have gotten to a place where I can help others to some degree.

First was my desire to help Chairty Water. I originally started with the tiniest monthly contribution, and now I am able to match what I spend on our TV entertainment each month. It’s a step in the right direction.

Second was my dad. He is now with my sister and the few remaining pieces are slowly resolving. Beyond the healing that enabled for me, I’m glad that he has gotten what he wanted.

Now I have two new situations I am doing my best to help with.

The friend I wrote of with MRSA. Nathan paid a visit to her in the hospital and took flowers. It was simply an acknowledgement that 10 years ago when he was in a similar situation, I- as his wife, was his only visitor. So, he didn’t want her to feel the same way. While there he discovered that her wife had left her and was living with someone else, and her mother and father are AWOL because they are battling their addictions and mental diseases and unable to even be civil human beings. She has no one significant in her life. She has friends only, some of which have already helped and some of which are willing to do more as able. She has two weeks left of her 6 week hospital stay, and then she has no solid plan. The infection was mostly surgically removed, except for a small spot in the left ventricle of her heart, but she now has a massive incision in her groin needing dressing changes. It’s eerily similar to Nathan’s original surgery and predicament.

Anyway after my workday was over Nathan filled me in on his visit and everything they spoke about. I reached out to her and offered our home in the same way I did for my father. I also offered to help her with PT and getting to and from post hospital appointments. I even suggested that I might be able to connect her with a job when she is able to return to work.

It felt really good to be able to do that. It’s really not much; in the grand scheme of things, the changes to our utilities and grocery bills are small enough to not even hesitate. I knew that her need for a space to be able to heal and regain her strength was far more important to God, so I know it will work out. I wish more people were able to do that for fellow human beings. We all need each other sometimes.

The other situation I’m doing my best to help with is the friend and co-worker that had the lump in her breast that I had initially checked to try and help guide her decisions. I had really hoped it was nothing and my gut reaction was off, but it has been diagnosed as cancer. Full ramifications are not known yet, but I know that she is super stressed and worried. I’ve been saying prayers and offering everything that comes to mind. My latest offer is to learn her job at the clinic, off the clock, so that I might be able to help fill in or help train a replacement if needed. I will do whatever is needed because she is a kind human being that needs the support right now. I have been racking my brain reaching for more that I might be able to offer, but she has many friends and family, so I think I have offered what is possible for now. Prayers are always welcome.

Sometimes God really does want us to reach for good for ourselves so that we can help others in the long term. I have learned that lesson in a very palpable way today. Simply because of depression riddled pleas 6 years ago, I have managed to slowly climb myself out of the hole and into being able to help others. There is still a long ways that I can go yet, but I’m extremely grateful that I have made it this far. I am so grateful that I am able to take steps to keep my word with God. I promised I would help him if he helped me, and that is what I am doing. Everyday I help people through my jobs, and now I can even help outside of my jobs.

I really do have my baby Atira. My home is not the big complex dome community of my dreams, but all of the things are present, and especially the charitable works. That was always the most important part anyway.

Beyond that God is healing me. Slowly but surely I know my body is healing and very soon I will have healed every bit of my previous concerns. I can feel and see the difference. I am ever so grateful for that too because I know it is giving me massive amounts of energy to do all of the things I am doing. My body healing is a direct correlation to being able to help others even more. I am so very grateful for all of God’s grace in my life. I hope I can properly honor all the good that has flowed through me.

May you see your place in the world. May you honor the good that has manifested in your life. May you understand how God helped you. May you see that there are people who care and want to help you when you need it most. May you find the ways to return the favors. May you find a way to flow good to others on behalf of God. May you see and understand that God loves and supports you, and wants the best for you, all you need to do is let God in. May you know you are loved.

Siva Hir Su

*The picture is my original. Monarch butterfly on orange zinnia flower. Taken at Kauffman Gardens, Kansas City, Missouri.

Everyone’s concerns matter.

So I had a topic come up through Nathan and that is the purpose of this post. However, really quick I first wanted to share a couple small happy dance moments of the last couple days. 1) I took my much needed Epsom salt soak and my tummy now falls completely below water level. It’s a sign I’m finally slimming down even though the scale barely shows anything. 2) I had a massive energetic barrage between my father and clients that threatened to drag me down. I not only was able to clear with Nathan’s help, but then I found my way to climbing the emotional scale and I even had some very intense in-the-vortex honoring-myself moments. The two put together have left me feeling very good today. I hope everyone has those breakthrough moments.

On to the intended topic…

Nathan brought to my attention a Facebook post from a friend. She is essentially upset over anyone that isn’t worried about all the disappearing children and human trafficking. She went OFF over anti-maskers, black lives matter protests, and pretty much any other moment of news that wasn’t her topic. It made me think, and I’m not sure she would like my response, so I decided to write it here.

First, yes children are going missing, and in much larger numbers than previously. Some theorize that it is a nasty conspiracy to depopulate the earth or to hand over humans to aliens. Some simply believe it is because of racism and refugee populations. Some believe it is our government or the 1%’ers trying to experiment on people without getting caught. The biggest problem here is that 1) large quantities of kids have vanished without a trace, and 2) a few kids have escaped from warehouse sized facilities full of kids, and the children are not being handled like border crossing facilities. The escapee descriptions and locations are what have told us that.

It is a problem, and one that many are not aware of. However, that is no reason to get mad at everyone else in your experience.

Getting mad at others over your concern not being dealt with is only contributing to the divisive fighting that is holding the world back. Especially when considering that many people don’t know this information about kids because it is being ignored (some say covered up) by the media. Covid has taken center stage and BLM is a close second.

So, first one should acknowledge that your concerns may not have even crossed another person’s awareness. Secondly, one should note that there are many concerns affecting humanity at this time. Thirdly, one should acknowledge that bringing people together on the same page is the only way to create lasting helpful solution oriented change. Fourthly, one needs to acknowledge it is difficult at best to solve multiple problems large scale at one time. Fifthly, one needs to be aware that we will never truly solve all of the problems: that would cause the universe to cease energetically, but also it is impossible because for every rule, law, or solution to be implemented there will inevitably be someone (or several) that find a way around and continue the problem in new ways. Sixthly, if you only focus on things to be upset over and problems, then you will continue to get things to be upset over. For humanity to solve problems, we must all focus on solutions that have already manifested.

So my response would have been calm the fuck down and figure out a way to orient to solutions as a whole. Covid and black lives matter have been concerns for a while now, and for good reasons. The missing kids are important and need to be returned to their parents, but we are up against a huge battle already before introducing this additional concern. The only way to solve any of these problems is to come together as a whole-humanity and work together towards solutions. We have not been able to do that on anything for a very long time and it is the reason everything keeps dragging on so horribly.

Here’s the deal, the world is full of bad shit including disease, and modern media has selectively shown you the worst of the worst to trigger fear and aggression among people. It is a vicious cycle many people keep buying into.

If you want to choose pandemic, the media shows you Covid and scares the shit out of you, but you’re a 100 times more likely to die of heart disease or cancer than covid. That’s a pandemic that is really scary, especially since both are usually linked more to diet and lifestyle/life-choices than genes.

If you want to choose racism, the media will give you everything related to black lives matter (which they do matter), but largely ignores the continued improper treatment of Mexicans at border control stations, and completely ignores the plight of the Hondurans and other south American refugees. Also, here in the great USA we completely ignore racial or religious problems across the globe (Jews/Hindus vs Islams, Indians vs Pakistanis, etc.) We also still feel the need to discriminate against Chinese and Japanese, especially since Covid gives us a reason to hate China.

If you do indeed choose missing kids as your concern, the media will give you the latest youth to be murdered or show you flyers for Amber alerts, and you’ll always get texts on any local Amber alerts. But, to find out about the hoards of Missing kids you have to go looking for it.

There are many problems we as humanity face: global warming, barrier reef dieing, species reaching extinction, air pollution, corporate greed, manipulation of politicians, lack of access to healthcare, lack of access to education in many parts of the world, lack of access to clean water. There are many more I could list.

To solve any of them, we need to come together and focus. One problem at a time to create change and hopefully find lasting solutions. It is the only way anything will really be solved. Here’s the kicker, if we really did do that in a focused way as a whole mass, solutions would come so quickly that we could solve a large list in no time, even one topic at a time. But the coming together in a very focused way is our biggest hurdle.

Beyond that we really simply must reach for better. If humanity continues fighting with each other and only seeing the negatives, then that will be what we continue to get- negatives and fighting. We will never solve every problem for all time. So, we need to learn to just acknowledge the problems and honor differences with each other, and then reach for the times where even people with differences came together and created positive change. The movements that were led by Martin Luther King, and Ghandi are two such great examples. Those are times in history when people came together in very focused ways and created wonderful miraculous change for the better. We need more of those moments, and reaching for them and focusing on how change was created will help enable more of that.

We must find a way to do this for ourselves and our humanity. It is the only way to keep progressing and shift consciousness in big positive ways. Next time you get upset over something, please remember my observations. Then ask yourself: can you help bring awareness to the problem and help humanity focus on solutions for it or anything else?

May we all find a way to focus on solutions. May we all find a way to accept each other’s differences and focus on common goals. May we all reach for better: days, thoughts, solutions, vibrational alignment, and overall experience. May we all see God’s guidance. May we all reach for solutions to the many significant problems we face as humanity. May we all learn to love and accept each other knowing there will always be negatives, but most of humanity wants the better. May we all see the common ground of desiring safety, security, love, family, community, support, and access to health, education, and clean water. May you see that God really wants us all to live better lives and have many things to look forward to. May you see God wants us all to live happy lives doing what we love and know we are safe. May you understand that God never splits humanity, we are all one people and God loves all of us regardless of race, religion, gender, sexuality, or country of origin.

Siva Hir Su