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It’s a just a virus.

So, it’s just a virus, in fact being compared to the flu quite frequently. Respiratory complications the worst symptom. We have the flu circulate every year. We have tools to treat all the symptoms even/especially respiratory symptoms. We know how to sanitize and reduce transmission rate without shutting society down. Good hygiene with oneself and environment goes miles. Self-policing coughs and other manifestations of symptoms (throw tissues away and empty your own trash, etc.) also goes miles.

It was suggested this is a ploy to shut elections down, and I sincerely hope that’s not the case. I also sincerely hope people come to their senses before homes start foreclosing left and right. I think people will when they realize if they don’t work they can’t pay bills. I hope companies will when they realize their equivalent: if work doesn’t get done then companies have to close.

Here is the deal:

  • I am grateful to be alive.
  • Repeat that.
  • I have lost far more people to cancer in my social circles than any other cause of death.
  • Pneumonia and car accidents tie for a close second, mainly because I work with old people that succumb to any kind of pneumonia easily, and car accidents affect all people of every age.
  • My husband has a heart condition. He literally could die of a heart attack or stroke any day.
  • I could die of any of them, especially cancer (see my post from last night), not to mention complications from any female reproductive concerns ranging from endometriosis to birth problems.
  • I am grateful to be alive.
  • I simply can’t spend all day everyday in fear of something only slightly worse than the flu which circulates every year.
  • I can’t afford to spend all day everyday in fear of anything.
  • I am grateful to be alive.
  • The fear itself is worse than any disease or possible cause of death (of which there are many). Fear literally eats your body from the inside out. The chemistry involved in long-term fear, anger, or any stress causes far more diseases than any virus. That chemistry has already been proven to lead to several types of cancer and other degenerative diseases and weakens your immune system. It’s probably a major factor in my own thyroid struggles.
  • I have to focus on being grateful to be alive.
  • I have to acknowledge all of the many experiences I have lived through that others died from, especially all the years I did get the flu, but also times like when I was almost smashed to smitherines by a semi truck.

We live in a global society. Learn good hygiene. Learn to help keep every environment clean. Learn to appreciate all of the many things that could have killed you and didn’t. Learn to reduce transmission without becoming anti-social. Learn to acknowledge that touching each other, especially hugs and handshakes, is worth the risk of possibly catching something. Learn that even in a hug or handshake, you can still do things to avoid catching an illness (wash hands, don’t touch your own eyes, etc.). Learn that life will be miserable for everyone if we continue to ostricize each other out of fear of the what if.

What if this really is a ploy to shut elections down, do you want our government(s) to do that? What if this is a ploy to create so much fear we all end up with illnesses far worse, do you want to fall for it? You have to police yourself and know it’s going to be alright. Acknowledge you could die of thousands of causes but that your body is resilient and you do many many things to help prevent that.

We are safer than they want us to believe. God needs us to know it.

May you be healthy and social. May you rise above fear. May you ease your system with gratitude. May you find the positive answers you seek. May you find the healing you seek. May you feel loved and supported. May you have the work you desire and adequate compensation to feel abundant. May you have less stress and more love for a healthy body inside and out. May your knowing be more like that of God’s, and help you feel safe and secure.

Siva Hir Su

Giving Thanks.

First: I wanted to update everyone. I finally went ahead and registered my domain as myhandsaregod.net  The original format with “.wordpress.com” does redirect you to my new domain, but just in case you have any troubles in the future I wanted to reference the information directly.

Beyond that I wanted to write a post of thanks. Giving thanks is not just for the winter holiday season and is a good thing to practice regularly. I am far better than I used to be, but often find that I still have lapses in gratitude. Today’s instance though, started as a mental giving thanks for the vacation that I so much enjoyed, while my body was engaged in my returning to work. It felt so good to acknowledge for myself that I wanted to share my thoughts.

Thank you God: the divine, the universe, Shiva, etc., and my greater spirit self.

  • Thank you for helping to guide me into the journey of saving and planning for such a big and wonderful vacation.
  • Thank you for putting people and situations and resources in my path to help accomplish that.
  • Thank you for helping me to find and keep my alignment as often as possible to continue to make positive changes in my life.
  • Thank you for helping me to do my job well and to save the resources I earned.
  • Thank you for helping others to find and maintain their alignment as well.
  • Thank you for enabling me to do healing work and to flow energy where people need it most.
  • Thank you for continually sending me ample work, which ensures I always have enough.
  • Thank you for all your blessings and assistance in my life, may I be able to remain in alignment as much as possible to do good things on your behalf.

Thank you to my family (including mom, brother, sister-in-law, niece and nephew).

  • Thank you for helping to create the wonderful vacation I was able to experience.
  • Thank you for being in alignment and seeing my need for that rest.
  • Thank you for helping with the resources and planning of the trip.
  • Thank you for being there with me to experience the beauty and fun and relaxation.
  • Thank you for just being in my life and being caring family.
  • Thank you for being you.

Thanks to my human self.

  • Thank you for hanging in all the times that things got rough.
  • Thank you for doing your best to keep yourself healthy.
  • Thank you for working so hard to bring 2 beautiful children into this world.
  • Thank you for teaching yourself how to change your brain.
  • Thank you for healing yourself.
  • Thank you for learning and practicing how to relax.
  • Thank you for finding and staying in alignment as much as possible.
  • Thank you for focusing so well that the resources were saved and the trip was accomplished.
  • Thank you for allowing yourself to rest and relax.
  • Thank you for finding the beauty and enjoyment.
  • Thank you for what you do for others, and for helping others to relax and release pain.
  • Thank you for just being you and all that you are and do.

 

There’s more but I forgot the words and I need to do 2 more massages today, starting in 20 min…. To keep moving…

May you all find your moments to give thanks and find gratitude, and may you all have wonderful beautiful journeys that include enough rest and relaxation.

New day, new week.

“Everything’s gonna be all right.” -Bob Marley

Yesterday, I did some art, spent time with my family, and had a fairly relaxing good day, mostly at home. It was nice.

The art was nothing spectacular, just a little coloring to make friends with my new space. But I do have an idea for a charcoal drawing I may start working on.

The time with family was mostly ok to good, but Ian is still struggling with misbehaving. We discovered that he poked holes in the head of our djembe drum that Nathan was gifted over a decade ago. After ordering a new head and refreshing my memory of how to re-head the drum, I had a discussion with Ian.

He told me that a certain someone we used to live with was in his head telling him to keep causing trouble. I explained that that particular person was very manipulative and found satisfaction in causing chaos in other people’s lives, and that was why I chose to disconnect and move on from them. I told him he had to make that choice on his own, but that consequences would increase for him if he chose to keep listening to that person. I explained that just because he could hear them, didn’t mean he had to do anything that they said. That they choose to use their abilities for negative reasons, but that he could learn to use his for good. I also stressed that I would think he would choose to do the things that we request, especially since we genuinely love him and have his best interests at heart.

It was at that point that I understood why I kept being told that Archangel Michael was around me. I sent several prayers throughout all of yesterday requesting that the Angels protect all of us, and help my children remove energetic connections to those people. I also sent prayers that they help me forget that person and enable me to forgive the damage done so that my cords would permanently dissolve.

My decision on that person is: I don’t believe they have it in them to heal, I know they are so addicted to several things, including the drama of creating chaos, that they don’t even see their own patterns. We all have things like that, but this is just an extreme case. Regardless, even if they did try to change I don’t think it would stick and thus I don’t foresee ever being able to spend any significant time around them again. So, I do wish and pray for compete disconnection for myself and my family, I do want that to become a series of unfortunate events that I ultimately learn to forgive myself for enabling, and them for continuing to create.

Regardless, I went on to tell Ian that I love him, and that Nathan and I are doing our best to give him tools to control his thoughts and behaviors to improve things for himself. We want him to do well and he just needs to practice the things we’ve been teaching him. I compared it to his writing practice and explained the more he does the meditations and other tricks we’ve given him, the more they will work and things will get easier and easier for him. I gave him 2 days to work on resetting and focusing on practicing those tools. Essentially 2 days free pass, as long as Nathan and I see him putting effort into doing better. I pray that those 2 days, and the near future afterward, the Angels will protect him from intrusive thoughts and mirror anything like that back to the sender. My child needs that fresh start.

Nathan rounded out the day taking Ian to a huge new playground on my way to work. He had a blast discovering the new fun things to be had.

I give thanks that Archangel Michael is protecting me and my family and thanks that each new day brings greater clarity and resources to improve our lives.

May our improvements keep compounding for exponential growth.

Bonus our family vacation is approaching quickly. My mom has agreed to go with us, so there will be a slight detour to Iowa to pick her up and drop her off, but then we’ll have 7 solid days in Great Pond Maine and Acadia National Park the last part of July and first couple days of August. As the time draws nearer I’m finding myself increasingly more excited. I am so looking forward to the distance, fun, exploration, R&R, and possibilities of the trip. I give thanks for everything that has aligned to enable this experience, including house and pet sitters, and finances. Thank you God.

Tapped Out…

Today was an emotional roller coaster filled with tears and laughs. If it hadn’t been for the pastor and a couple of my co-workers cracking jokes, it would have all been tears.

At the end of the day they threw me a going away party where all the staff working at that point, and about 50 or more of the residents came to wish me farewell. 2 of my co-workers made me stiff drinks for the party and I was utterly grateful, but I was definitely inebriated by the end of the day and very glad I wasn’t driving home.

There was a giant sheet cake and I received a bouquet of tulips, a Charlie Brown book, and a few other gift cards as well, highly unexpected. The only part I knew about was the cake and that everyone would be welcome to come say goodbyes. What they didn’t mention is that the pub was being decorated for me and that people were literally saying words for me in front of everyone. I was so very touched, and barely kept it together breaking into tears several times.

This has definitely been the hardest goodbye from a position that I have ever had, by a landslide. On that note, I’ll leave you with a progression of pictures of the gifts and cards that I received so you can read their words for yourself. I think I’m fresh out of more words than this at the moment. May you all feel as conflictedly blessed as I do at this moment.

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling confident.

“The monsters in my head are scared of love”

– Diplo; ‘Revolution’

Today was a very interesting day full of twists and turns both in real time logistics and metaphorically speaking. My lunch being a quick haircut at the closest great Great Clips.

I went in already being in a really good mood from things at work yesterday. Essentially having a greater understanding of the respect I’ve earned at work, as well as intense gratitude for the progress I’ve made over the last few years in my personal life. I’d come to a realization that things I’d asked for help from Nathan and the Divine had come to pass solidly, and now it’s my job to uphold my end of the bargain. That was a real confidence booster.

I was slightly concerned that I might not have time to fit a haircut into my short gap, but was able to slide right in.

I sat down to discover that I had gotten the new girl and she kept saying are you sure you want to go that short. I had to explain several times over I was no stranger to short hair having clipped it for the same reason after Ian’s birth. I said a quick mental request that she find her alignment to give me a decent haircut to accomplish the goal of making my new growth less noticeable.

She buzzed and clipped and snipped and then had her superior check her work. When all was said and done I walked out with what I’d set out to get- a decent haircut to make new growth blend in better.

Returning to work I got lots of compliments right away.

More feeling good.

After showing Nathan, he agreed it looked great, but kept saying it’s so short. I reminded him of after Ian and went to pull up an old picture to compare and found myself having a moment.

2 months shy of 4 years later, having been to 2 different salons on opposite sides of the metro. I had a nearly identical haircut.

After Ian when my hair started to return. February 1st, 2015:

Today:

Cue twilight zone theme song.

I’m definitely feeling more confident, and very good about myself in general, but I’m also seeing that my higher self is pulling strings for me when I let it. For that I’m eternally grateful. I’m very aware of my connection these days, and loving every moment of it.

May you all find your feel good synchronicities that let you know the Divine is on your side.

Om namah Shivaya… Siva hir su.