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My experience of Allopathic America

I’m writing today to discuss my current situation and treatment goal, but also to expound on how Allopathic medicine is now a money maker and no longer concerned with general health, well-being or full healing. I of course am only speaking to my experience and knowledge which lies in the Great US of A.

So if you’ve been a regular reader you know the basics. If not the more brief synopsis is:

I’ve lived with undiagnosed thyroid concerns since I was 12 years old, the lonely unknown battle took it’s toll with severe suicidal depression (medications did not solve) and uncontrollable weight. Then, I met a lady on a train when I was 29 that cued me onto iodine and thyroid supplements. Because it was helping her and we had similar histories, I tried it, and lost 45 pounds in a month and then found myself pregnant. When I was 31 I gave birth to my son and my thyroid crashed hard, enough I almost killed myself and I was forced to seek help. Then began my journey dealing with doctors and trying to get accurate dosing and helpful medication to begin with. It forced me to begin learning about thyroid disease, medications and lab testing. I have since battled with doctors to keep my thyroid managed well and have utilized the Auto-immune Paleo diet, iodine supplementation, and seaweed to accomplish most of the relief I have gleaned, I intentionally work very hard to keep my need for medication low. I exercise regularly, can lift quite a bit of weight and am healthy by all measurable standards except body weight. Yet I knew something still wasn’t right when in January I could feel my thyroid irritating my voicebox. After an ultrasound finding multiple nodules on my thyroid, I spoke with one of my clients that has had a similar journey. She filled me in on a treatment she had done to eliminate a virus that had been hiding in her body slowly damaging her thyroid and other organs. It completely healed not just the virus, but the damage to her organs too. It was expensive so I put it in the back of my mind and said eventually I will get there.

However, God seems to think I need to act sooner. Fast forward to 2 weeks ago.

I got what I thought was strep throat, and not my first round of it. What I was dealing with looked and acted like it. The doctor begrudgingly did a swab that came back negative, but since I had already started the antibiotics and Prednisone she ordered I finish the doses out. Right as the strep throat symptoms were ending I got a nasty rash on my upper thigh. It at first looked like standard hives, so I was perplexed thinking I reacted to the antibiotics and Prednisone when I never had before. Then larger blisters appeared in the center of the rash and they hurt like crazy. I couldn’t figure it out at first and the doctor had pissed me off so bad with how she handled the strep swab that I knew I didn’t want to deal with her again. I prayed on it and did some meditations and otherwise kept moving and functioning, but was careful to be mindful of mask wearing in case the perceived strep was something else entirely.

Two days into the rash I remembered the conversation with my client about the virus and the treatment that was done to solve it, and the memory just nagged and nagged at my brain. I looked up the virus she had talked about, it was the Epstein-Barr Virus (see here for wikipedia info). Interestingly, that virus can mimic strep throat and occasionally does cause a nasty rash. I had never had the rash before but have had strep several times where it didn’t come back as positive on strep tests. I decided to skip the doctor and test the theory myself. First I did the acute mononucleosis test for $69, that in theory would catch an active EBV infection. It came back negative, which apparently 25% of tests can be false negative because of how the test looks for the virus. So I decided to do the more thorough Chronic EBV test. $169 later I was holding test results that showed really high values for only one of four of the antibody markers. The other 3 were in negative range. But the one antibody was so ridiculously high that the test results came with a disclaimer that it was significant of a recent infection. So I had my smoking gun. I was in fact dealing with an EBV infection, and one that was good at hiding in my body and not triggering all of the antibodies.

Like my client had told me, EBV can hide in the body for years and does a whole host of damage to various organs, the thyroid just being one. It can also damage both the pancreas and liver, which are the other organs I have noticable difficulty with, manifesting in my food sensitivities and glucose control. If left unchecked EBV can also lead to multiple cancers and lukemias.

So now I finally had an ‘Ah Ha’ moment. I finally knew the cause of my 25 year journey of ill health despite having been to many doctors in 4 states during that time period. I have in my hands, proof of the virus being in my body in a chronic way. It is most likely the cause to all my concerns, and if I can clear my system long enough I can enable my organs to heal and health to return.

Enter the treatment my client did.

She went to a functional medicine doctor that discovered her Chronic EBV infection and he did a treatment called IV Oxygenation Therapy. The doc costs an initial consult of $600 plus $100 per month subscription fee which covers up to two office visits. The IV treatment is $2000.00, and if I haven’t already done all the labwork he needs then there may be other additional costs. Insurance, if you have it, would only cover labwork, I don’t anyway and I am always cash pay. So I need essentially $3000.00 to attempt to kill the virus and damaged tissues and instigate full healing. However, the process is hard on the system, so my client had explained she was down for 5 or 6 days afterwards because of the cellular die-off and detoxing, so I will also have to account for missing a week of work as well.

Beyond my frustrations over cost and managing to actually implement something with the potential to end my battle for health, I am super frustrated at the awareness I now have of our medical system.

Essentially, a dozen+ doctors in multiple offices in four different states and 10 different cities over 25 years, and none of them even came remotely close to really truly accurately diagnosing the problem. Every last one of them either gave up easily (as with the “low side of normal” tests from childhood) or decided to treat the one symptom of low thyroid function.

If I had not taken the time to educate myself on the problem I was faced with and kept digging knowing that something was still wrong, then I could have spent 30 to 40 years taking thyroid meds to end up with cancer and potentially die from it.

Western medicine as it currently stands in America is concerned with two things. 1) A minimum of treatment to ensure you stay alive, not well, just alive. 2) Making money indefinitely via treatment of symptoms only, rare cases like certain cancers they will treat with the premise of eradicating the disease, but still favor expensive treatment over cheaper more effective options.

You may wish to disagree with me on either, but evidence is piling up to support both.

I have written on several occasions in regards to how elder care and instutionalized medicine are more concerned with keeping an elderly person alive than actually providing the ability to live life. It is how we end up with people bed bound or wheelchair bound for years at the end of their life. Unable to do many tasks, but still alive and suffering. I have directly worked with dozens of such people where my massages are intended to help prevent skin tears, bed sores, and maybe just maybe provide a little relief from discomfort of being frozen in place.

But yet, it’s more than that. Part two listed above is very evident for me. Not one doctor ever said, your thyroid is struggling, there’s potential we could solve that and get you back to normal. No, in Western Medicine normal is live on this drug until you die. If that drug quits working we’ll double the dose or switch to another. Never is it, try to heal you and get you back to normal.

Even with cancer, the goal is cut and chemo and radiation. We now have several options that have better potential at lower costs, liquid Vitamin C at massive doses can kill cancer, turmeric extract has also been shown to have similar results, and beyond that we now have Car-T. But Car-T is too effective, even though it is still expensive, it only takes one full round of treatment and 99% of cancer can be completely healed. It simply cuts their profit margin by too much.

Any treatment that offers the potential for full healing is either sidelined by the AMA and CDC or is outright attacked by both. The more clinical and lab tested something is, the less they are able to attack it, but if it cuts profits then it will never be fully supported.

So, if you as a reader, want a real solution to whatever health problem you are facing, then you have to do the following:

  • Take charge of the problem, learn everything you can on the subject and follow the rabbit hole as far as it will lead you. Even then you might need to dig a little further.
  • Learn to read the labs of anything that needs tested. It’s not hard and the information is readily available if you know the trusted resources to seek out. If you get fuzzy on interpretation there are usually forums where people discuss their lab results.
  • The hardest part- Find a doctor that: 1- isn’t threatened by your intelligence and concern for your own health, and 2- might have alternate solutions or is at least willing to try something you propose. You may have to seek alternatives to your standard MD.
  • Finally, listen to your intuition. God wants you to heal and will give you the breadcrumbs to follow, but you have to trust that process. If something feels wrong it is, if something feels missed it is, if something feels right it is, if something nags at you- look into it, it probably means something important. Trust and God will guide you to a real solution.

As for me, I finally have a plan for a potentially final but expensive step. My biggest hurdle is money and I’ve overcome that one many times. I know I can do it again. I will do my best to allow and know that timing is everything. God will enable me to fix this for once and for all, and I will have avoided the worst case scenario for this disease.

As for you: may you have the solutions you seek. May you always have the proper resources when you need them. May you find helpful doctors that listen and do their best to meet your needs and find real solutions for your problems. May you trust God and be able to follow the breadcrumbs. May you see the solution you seek. May you understand that you are loved and supported. May you have the support you need from those around you. May you feel the love and support when it is needed most. May you know God wants you to be well. May you find the joyous healthy life you desire.

Siva Hir Su

Nutrition happiness and back pain

So, this is going to be a double post day. I had two distinct topics I’ve wanted to write on for a couple of days now, but not had the time to do so. This morning I have off since it’s a holiday weekend, but I do work this afternoon at the fill in job. I’m going to attempt to get both posts done before needing to be at work.

This topic: Health journey

My morning has started with editing a pending shirt design, and then spending almost 30 min inverted.

Beyond the amusement factor, especially once cats tried to sit in my lap, I was trying to solve my back pain.

It has returned, but to a lesser degree. It had gone away, and I thought it was safe to resume working out. I did a mild run/walk only 35min, my minimum I aim for to trigger the anti-inflammatory chemistry in my body and brain. Then knowing I’ve had muscle spasms and back pain went to do yoga to stretch my hip flexors. I was doing good, and felt like things were releasing. I went to roll to my side to sit up and it spasmed again. Ouch.

I tried rolling the other direction and nothing. Okay.

Somewhere the imbalance of muscle tightness is causing muscles to spasm in a very particular way. I still feel like psoas and/or iliacus is to blame, but it’s manifesting in a less usual pattern. My obliques on the left are super tender and serratus posterior inferior has a trigger point flared in response to the primary concern. It’s just a huge mess.

After my yoga last night I foam rolled, but that only gets the superficial and 2nd layers of muscle. Then I had Nathan work on me to start chipping at the deeper layers of muscle. It helped but didn’t solve the problem.

So this morning I inverted to stretch the deepest layers.

That was more beneficial. I still have yet to release a band of muscle that I can feel, but can’t access by myself and I’m having difficulty explaining to my husband how to get to it without agony.

I’ve done it hundreds of times for others, and know the particular angle and way to apply pressure to reduce pain levels, and know it’s possible. Yet when you’re the subject and the teacher at the same time, it’s crazy.

It’s something like this: deep breath, gesture to approximate area, as he jabs I start telling him up/down/left/right/closer to the spine/etc in between gasps for air because of intense pain. I have no idea what angle his hands are at or what his posture is, or how to tell him to adjust what he is doing for it to hurt less. I’m just having to grin and bear it.

It’s been consistent enough I even considered it being kidney related. Yet if I had a kidney infection or stone it would be worse pain that would be consistent regardless of position or movement. This definitely is affected by movement and sometimes is barely noticable.

So I’m doing a salt bath and will have Nathan take another stab (pun intended) before I head into work. Hopefully my teacher half will do better so my subject half feels better. I’m also working with those Louise Hay affirmations for back pain.

Nutrition improvement.

In the other news I’ve been doing really well nutritionally. No chocolate, no grains, and extremely minimal legumes (black beans twice), even my nut/seed intake is way less and no walnuts or almonds.

Pretty much every day looks like this:

That’s 4 to 5 snack meals, depending on whether I split the veggies/peanut-butter into two. The salad dressing is homemade and has been covering about 8 of these little salads. I’ll put recipes at the end.

I still have breakfast shake and a 2nd shake later around lunch time (minimal protein and mostly green powder in coconut milk). Then dinner varies, but is all veggies like this:

So calories are as minimal as is safe. I’m not quite to the 300 calorie guy I saw interviewed in highschool, but my activity level is much higher than his was.

What is different is all the supplements that ensure adequate nutrition and boost the processes I need healing in.

  • RX Armour Dessicated Thyroid- low dose 1/day, first thing on empty stomach
  • 2 OTC allergy meds- 1x/day
  • Really good probiotic (refrigerated), 2/day
  • 3 ways to get magnesium, 8-10 pills distributed through my day
  • Bromelain and Enzyme complex for digestive support and to kill unwanted ickies- 1x/day first thing AM
  • Turmeric for anti-inflammatory, 2 pills 4x’s/day
  • Estrogen and Progesterone OTC partly for Thyroid function and partly for known hormone imbalances 1 dose/day
  • Vitex, helps balance hormones, 3/day
  • Saw Palmetto (4 doses/day) and Hyaluronic Acid (1 dose/day) to help repair my skin as I lose weight
  • Iron- I’m a woman and it helps thyroid function 1/day
  • Good quality prenatal- it’s the best ‘covers all the bases’ vitamin I have access to 1 dose= 1 pill 3x/day
  • Calcium: half tab, I only take it 2-3 times a week to aid magnesium absorption, otherwise I get too many leg cramps
  • Evening Primrose oil good source of GLA and helps hormone balance
  • Maca helps balance everything and give energy boost, 3/day
  • Omega-3 Fish Oil, aids brain, anti-inflammatory, 4/day
  • Chlorella, chellator for detox, 6 at dinner with some source cilantro
  • Vitamin C, helps immune system and absorb iron, 1/day with the iron
  • Cinnamon, Bitter Mellon, Vanadium, Gymnemea Sylvestre, Nopal Cactus, Berberine, ALA- all help with glucose management and can help heal pancreatic damage, 1 to 4 doses/day depending¬† my needs except Vanadium- only ever take that 1/day
  • Finally, Keto BHB, mineral salts shown to help shed fat. I started it when everything else was very slow to show improvement, I’ve only taken it for 5 days, so we’ll see. 3 at bedtime.

So essentially, what I’m not spending on food has gone to supplements. Most of them I’ve known for a long time and I’ve essentially added back everything I did while pregnant. Pricy, but worth the results. The only one I’m unsure of is the new BHB, hopefully it stands up to is reputation and becomes worth it.

My goal is to heal my body and eventually not need any of this except the super healthy food.

So for those dressing recipes:

Blueberry vinegrette:

  • Half pint blueberries
  • Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
  • Water (~4oz)
  • Stevia to tase (1 to 2 servings)
  • Blend with immersion blender and bottle it

Honey Mustard:

  • Tsp mustard powder
  • Tbsp or 2 vegan soy free mayo
  • Tbsp honey
  • Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
  • Salt pinch
  • Stevia (sometimes need to add when I get carried away with the mustard powder)
  • Water (~3 oz)

Dairy free Coconut Cream Ranch is another I use, but I make it following a recipe already found online. I also use a clean poppy seed dressing that’s available in grocery stores here in KC. Plus there are several green goddess type clean dressings to be found that are AIP friendly.

May you enjoy your multiple salads. May you accept eat to live over live to eat. May your health improve. May you heal your body. May you figure out solutions for your pains. May you feel good mostly. May you feel better in every way. May you know you are supported. May you have exactly what you need.

Siva Hir Su

Detoxing in gratitude

So for two days I have spent all of my mental energy focusing on healing. I have expressed gratitude for healing in all the ways I possibly could.

It was partly in an effort to overcome repercussions of having fallen, partly to encourage thyroid nodules healing (and all autoimmune problems really), and mostly because I do honor and respect the human body’s God given ability to heal. I am truly grateful that God gave us the mechanisms to heal everything imaginable. I am hopeful that I am allowing those mechanisms to do their job and heal my body from damage done over years of ignorance.

Today, I find my body has been uncomfortably purging. In hindsight Nathan said I am releasing, and reminded me that it is a good thing.

The practical side is I cried a lot, and had to ask for assistance from both the acupuncturist and chiropractor today.

I worked through moderate pain, because knowing how much damage my body already has I’m doing my best to avoid any further damage that might be caused by pain relievers. So I was literally muscling through pain. Then during my last massage the waterworks opened up.

Both my second and third clients had telltale signs of traumas. I found myself contemplating my life and how my woes are no where near what some people have faced. The one client had scars on her back that looked like either having been whipped or sliced at some point years prior. She bore two tattoos. On one wrist “love yourself first” in Arabic on the other “She is Art” in English. After she translated the Arabic I told her that was beautiful. Then I thought to myself, those of us that need the reminder on our skin have the deepest wounds. I was grateful for her reminders in my day. I needed those words as much as she did.

Regardless, I think my tears were either triggered by client stuff, or my own energetics finally hitting boiling point. Either way, I had a really hard time concealing my state and was grateful I had already had the 3rd person turn face down. I managed to clear the session quietly and gathered myself long enough to change out for receiving acupuncture.

I am so grateful I work with skilled and caring people. The acupuncturist knew I had already had a wave of emotional upheaval and gave me much needed support. She then worked her magic and made almost all of the pain disappear. Unfortunately, as the pain was releasing, so did a lot more emotional junk. I sobbed quietly as the needles did their work.

Afterwards I received another chiropractic treatment, and again found myself in tears. I tried to hide the tears not wanting to have to explain the how and why of them. They were less about the pain since it had backed off, and more the release with extreme gratitude for the assistance I was given. I have been in similar situations in the past that I just had to suffer through because of lack of finances or access and this time I have two wonderful people that helped me reach for a quicker recovery. Not only that, but they both took time and care to try and make sure we weren’t missing anything. They caught things I missed on my own. My gratitude is immense.

I was sent home with instructions for an adjustment to my self-care, which enabled me to watch a documentary on Netflix. My choice was “HEAL”.

I am familiar with nearly all of the interviewees in that documentary, and as I watched I found myself crying yet again. I was not learning anything new! So, how is it that I find myself stuck in bed with all these emotions spilling out of my eyes and mouth again? I found myself sobbing to Nathan about how I have already done all of the things that I knew and have access to. I meditate, yes some days I fail on time management for that, but more often than not I manage it. I have cleared so many things, and worked on forgiveness, and then on days like today it seems like I never did. Even the molestation came back up today, and that was one I was certain I had healed my perspective on. My head began to hurt and felt like a bowling ball.

Then one moment in the documentary seemed to make some sense of it all. There was a lady battling skin stuff, worse than my thyroid/immune version. She went for sound healing, the kind with focused measured wave patterns. The practitioner (I know of him well from my training) mentioned that her pattern was indicative of chronic severe stress because the proper frequency only calmed the stress response briefly and failed to get her into parasympathetic response needed for healing. He was able to modulate to achieve the desired results. Then they explained that people in that chronic severe stress response benefit greatly from meditation, but clarified that it takes more diligent/frequent practice.

It seems that is my need. I have definitely had the chronic severe stress, for let’s says somewhere in the range of 10-14 years. So my current meditation practice is falling short of the sympathetic response soothing that I need. That is a manageable solution I can work on.

For now my healing is headed in the right direction, and I will get better and better. I can do this. I am finally getting to a place where I know when I need to ask for help, yet I do still feel guilty about doing so. I am afraid that I will ask too much and burn bridges, so I hope God will help me be mindful of that. I also hope that those that are helping me, really understand how truly grateful I am for their help. It is priceless to me, and if I had all the riches I would shower them with it.

So my gratitude:

  • I am grateful for God’s healing.
  • I am grateful for those people in my life that help me to find my alignment with healing when I need it the most.
  • I am so very grateful for the specific treatments I have had the last week, they have kept me functional and helped aim me toward feeling better even with a full schedule.
  • I am grateful for new awareness and puzzle pieces beginning to make sense and stick together.
  • I am thankful that my body has the ability to heal everything.
  • I am thankful I caught the thyroid nodules before they were a big problem.
  • I am thankful that I am aware of options other than what western medicine calls a solution.
  • I am thankful that I have resources available to me that I didn’t have available before.
  • I am grateful that I understand the complexities of a true healing journey.
  • I am grateful that I know my emotional purging, headache, and other symptoms, are evidence of detoxing on multiple levels.
  • I am thankful that God is helping me find solutions.
  • I am very grateful for the chiropractor and his adjustments, the acupuncturist and her needles, and the office manager shifting my sheets in the laundry when she doesn’t have to.
  • Thank you God for this healing.
  • Thank you for healing my thyroid, my pancreas, my liver, my kidneys, my adrenal glands, and especially thank you for healing my immune system.
  • Thank you for showing me that I need more meditation than the average person right now.
  • Thank you for the understanding that the chronic severe stress is what is slowing me down and how to fix the response to it.
  • Thank you for giving me so many of the necessary tools to do so.
  • Thank you for all your guidance.
  • Thank you for everyone that is praying for me.
  • Thank you for all the healing and assistance.
  • Thank you for letting me know it is okay too slow down.
  • Thank you for reminding me it is okay to ask for help.
  • Thank you for helping me to process emotions and past events so that they dissapate and quit causing disease.
  • Thank you for helping me truly heal, mind, body, heart and soul.
  • Thank you for reminding me of my strength.
  • Thank you for showing me I’m closer to healing than I thought.
  • Thank you for showing me all the things I’m doing right.

I do still welcome prayers, I have another 7 weeks until the doctor even wants to consider another sonogram, and I’m aiming for shrinking and possibly eliminating nodules by then.

May we all find the healing we seek. May we see how to slow down and de-stress. May we allow ourselves the resources to heal fully. May we fully release fear and anger so that healing efforts are effective. May we really understand gratitude and how special life on this planet is. May we know and appreciate our individual uniqueness and gifts. May we allow ourselves full alignment with a truly healthy body. May you love yourself first and know you are a work of art.

Siva Hir Su