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Catching up with myself.

I am stopped at a park on the way home, just for a quiet place to sit for a few moments. I need to catch up with me.

I have managed to fit in a workout every day for almost a week and a half. Some at home doing yoga or climbing up and down our basement stairs. Most at the gym by work.

I have been pushing myself extra hard, and the only thing I can attribute it to is my inspiration of She-Ra and the discovery of my inner programming because of that show. I want to see if I can do it, if I can look like her. That is, after years and years of subconsciously trying to be like her to some degree or another.

Anyway, my post work workout today on the treadmill was uncomfortable. My legs are cranky and I couldn’t go as fast as usual.

That’s after a salt bath last night and about 4 hours of either working on my muscles myself or having Nathan help me.

I feel like my muscles are starved for something…. I’m breathing fine, so I doubt it is oxygenation. I’m taking all of my supplements, so I also doubt that it is nutrition. I’m staying hydrated as well as ever, so I might be a little short on fluids, but not excessively.

So, I think they just want the energy to heal damage from working them so extensively. I’m taking my thyroid meds, but I had backed off on seaweed to try not to swing high. I will try some extra seaweed when I get home.

Instead, for the moment I am putting thought energy towards healing while I sleep, specifically mending muscles, shrinking skin, and burning the fat that I am still carrying. I have been focusing on those processes since my legs started complaining on the treadmill.

I’m also going to stretch really well when I get home. I have been doing yoga every few days, but my legs definitely need more stretching than they have received. I want my body to have what it needs in every respect, and I’m still doing my best to accommodate everything.

That’s why I stopped. I just needed a moment of chill and regrouping before landing at home with kids excited to see mommy.

I need my brain to catch up with my day and my week so that I’m not overwhelmed with the logistics of getting home and still needing to take care of me some. It’s a tricky balancing act to give my kids the attention they desire and still fit in doing the activities I need for myself.

Not impossible, just tricky. Sometimes I manage just fine, sometimes not.

This afternoon I feel like if my brain doesn’t catch up, then I could potentially have issues with the rest. Just trying to head that off at the pass. Of course a dose of herbs straight in the door would probably help too, fortunately we keep the “Free and Easy Wanderer” on the shelf by our dining table which is 10 steps inside the garage door. It’s like this moment has happened before🤪!

That’s because it has.

Anyway, a few moments alone and then I make my attempt at being mommy.

May you have good workouts. May you feel great always. May your muscles always have what they need. May you have moments of escape when you need them. May your brain always cooperate with you. May you body heal when you sleep, and above all may you know that God loves and supports you in every way.

Om Shanti

A moment.

Sometimes it is hard to see the forrest for the trees.

Google decided to show me a selfie from 7 years ago today. I could see the difference, so I took a quick current selfie. I appreciate that I am slimmer, and do want to post a full body version of this moment. I’m still not to where my goal was set, but I am closer than I was. Thank you google, and thank you Nathan for doing your best to support this journey.

May you have validating moments of appreciation. May you honor your journey even if it is taking longer than desired.

Om Shanti

Post portal tools.

So it occurred to me after my post yesterday that it was 11-11-2020. Supposedly another of those big energy portal days. It could have played into things for me for sure.

I’ve also been toying (again) with the idea of Tessering from “A Wrinkle in Time”. I’ve written before about how that book had such a huge impact on my childhood and affected my psyche in ways I recently (last couple of years) have begun to notice and unravel. Well, beyond feeling like I’m battling the IT in our current ‘reality’, I have tried my hand at Tessering to parallel timelines with better outcomes. There are several big internet people that talk about the concept from varying vocabulary standpoints, but the idea is the same. Shift yourself to a better place one concept at a time. I feel like I have accomplished it a couple of times in small ways, so I am hoping that I can keep that love going.

So my tool today to attempt that, has been a repeating inner dialogue during my client appointments, which looks like this:

  • Where’s my inner me.
  • Where’s the me that is loose, flexible, and aligned.
  • Where’s the relaxed and centered me.
  • Where is me that knows everything is okay.
  • Where is the me that is calm and centered.
  • Where is the me that has joined my parts to a cohesive healed fully functional whole.
  • Where is the me that has healed fully and completely.
  • Where is the me that no longer reacts to food.
  • Where is the me where inflammation has dispersed.
  • Where is the me that is comfortable.
  • Where is the me that is strong and relaxed.
  • Where is me that is self assured.
  • Where is the me that is prosperous and prepared.
  • Where is the me that is able to handle this and more.
  • Where is the me that is strong enough.
  • Where is the me that is grounded and centered.
  • Where is the me that is fully healthy and feels good.
  • Where is the me that has good propper posture always, even while working.
  • Where is the me with balanced body, muscles and functions.
  • Where’s the me with solid core strength.
  • Where is my relaxed self.
  • Where is the inner knowing.
  • Where is my clarity.
  • Where is the me that knows I don’t need something or someone, but maybe still wants them.
  • Where is my knowing that I have everything I need inside of myself.
  • Where is my self that feels good.
  • Where is the me that is energized and excited.
  • Where is the me that is strong enough but can melt muscles just by touch.
  • Where is the me that finds enjoyment in helping others (and occasionally in inflicting good pain).
  • Where is the me that is confident.
  • Where is the me that is stable and secure.
  • Where is the me that is so healthy my energy flows smoothly and freely, inside and out.
  • Where is the me that feels ease and feels good.
  • Where is the me that has full flexible range of motion.
  • Where is me that knows I have support.
  • Where is the me that sees the love I give myself and that I’m given by others.
  • Where’s the me that remembers the care I have taken for myself, that retains the self care and massages.
  • Where’s me that is relaxed and let go of stress or worries.
  • Where’s my knowing.
  • Where’s my love.
  • Where is my inner me.
  • Cells see my inner me.
  • Cells feel my inner me.
  • Connecting with my inner me heals everything fully and completely.
  • Where is my ‘able to eat anything and stay healthy and slim’ self.
  • Where is my perfectly balanced metabolism.
  • Where is my healed thyroid.
  • Where is my healthy pancreas.
  • Where is my fully healed flowing liver.
  • Where is my healed digestive system.
  • Where is my feeling good.
  • Where is my safe, grounded sense of being alright.
  • Where is ME.

After 3 sessions with my inner dialogue on a free flowing repeat, I can already tell the difference. I am beginning to feel much better. My shoulders are beginning to relax. My neck is beginning to relax. I’m generally feeling more energized and centered. It feels good to feel better, and I really really appreciate my ability to reach for that with tools like this.

May you have helpful inner dialogue. May you feel better. May you see your improvement. May you find a way to join your parts together and heal your self. May you feel the love and know that God supports you. May you Tesser to your best self and your best life.

Om Shanti