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Rose Unpicked

Rose Unpicked

I don't
Need you
Your
Delusions

Fears
Worries
Tales
Worst told

I've got
Enough
All my own

Lies
Of death
Disease
Dysfunction

Trapped
In Cells
Their own
Making

I
Winner
From
First breath

Deserve
All of
Me

Like
Rose
Unpicked
Untouched

Full of
Life
Beauty
Sweetness

To breathe
To stand
Strong
Tall

Stronger
Than
Any
Know

Inner
Thorns'
Defense

Enough
To know
Enough is
Enough

Disolve
Cells
Walls
Bars

Holding
Deluded
Only
Perpetuates

Released
Freedom
To go
Move on

IT Knows
To leave
Unwanted

My body
Is
My own
Now

Decades of
Lies
Delusions
Die-ease
Unwelcomed

Only light
Only love
Only energy
Only healing
Only myself
For my Self

Flow
Restored
Remembered
Wellness
Of before

I
Deserve
My BEing
My light
ME
Here NOW

I AM
Now HERE



~Treasa Cailleach





May you heal to the source. May you know exactly where the lies stemmed from, and solve every last one of them. May we all see our own inner light for true full healing. May you see that any lie, any negative, from anywhere or anyone, is simply just counterproductive and needing released to focus on your own inner light. May you see that negative has no home for a truly healthy life, and may you see the myriad of ways it tries to sleep in and invade. May you know exactly how to stay your own SELF. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Paradoxical Balance

Ok. I’m playing with concepts to lead myself towards even greater healing. I acknowledged that healing isn’t a thought of concern except when there is something to heal from. One cannot exist without the other. They are one of many yin-yang dualities. All these dualities are simultaneously within us. How does that apply to our now? Can one simply allow the best balance of all of it? Need anything be fought even within our own bodies? What if even the most difficult disease or situation is necessary to push your body or mind into the opposite? Can any of us allow a flip to the best with ease?

Paradoxical Balance

Yin
Yang

Deficiency
Excess

One is
Both

Never
Void
Of
Other

One
Overfull

Other
Becomes

Balance
Process

Spot
Of truth
Complimentary
Omnipresent

Dis-ease
To ease

Damage
Healing

Whole
Pieces

Invaders
Confirm
Inner
Home

Self
The bond

Glue of
Spirit

Parts
Connected

One
Wholesome
Paradoxically
Balanced

In Health

~Treasa Cailleach


May we all find our own paradoxical balance. May we all find our way to ease. May we all see the processes of our divine bodies as miraculous as they are. May we realize that even the negatives enable positives if we allow it for ourselves. May we find ways to flip our view on anything to more helpful and forward moving thoughts and actions. May we release dichotomy for wholeness. Above all may we all know that the divine loves and supports us in all that we do.

Om Shanti

Humanity’s root dis-ease.

Toxic masculine. AKA stress.

Epstein-Barr virus, COVID, and several others, they are “contagious-disease” symptoms of the root cause. Our body let’s the contagion in, when stress let’s defenses down. The how of your stress and the environment you’re aware of, determines the contagion and physical impact that is enabled.

Diabetes, cardiovascular concerns, cirrhosis of the liver, pancreatitis, hashimoto’s or really any thyroiditis, and any one of a couple dozen cancers are the long-term damage symptoms of the same root cause; except they are the direct result of the contagious-diseases that resulted from the root cause.

To solve it you must do your best to work backwards and work up.

Solve the long-term damages by providing your body with every healing element. Allow your body to return to the  parasympathetic nervous system response, and nourish it as fully and optimally as possible to heal damaged areas. Easier said than done.

Solve the contagious diseases that were allowed in. That requires nourishing your immune system fully once all of the damages have been healed, and continuing to stay in parasympathetic functioning for as long as your body needs to eject those viruses and bacteria.

Once you’ve healed all of the symptoms you must figure out how to keep yourself out of toxic masculinity stress, in order to stay that way for life. Again easier said than done.

You may have noticed: (if you are educated on parasympathetic vs sympathetic responses) that eliminating our body’s and brain’s response to stress is the main factor in fixing all of it. Proper optimum nutrition, much more than basic nutrition, is secondary but equally important.

Those two factors alone will heal more than anything else.

If you can accomplish them.

See toxic masculinity, AKA stress, is everywhere you look these days. I could come up with a million examples of I had the time to write. Instead I’m going to give a fairly random sample in much shorter list form. It’s what I have time for.

  • Addiction. To anything. Is stress on the body.
  • Fatigue, because of any reason, is stress on the body and brain.
  • Allergies are a symptom of stress in the immune system.
  • Depression, anxiety, manic moments, are all symptoms of stress in the brain.
  • Muscle cramps are symptoms of stress in the muscles.
  • Arthritis is a symptom of stress in the the joints.
  • Inflammation is the stress response in the body’s tissues.
  • Pain can be a symptom of any of these. It is a signal of stress’ damage.

In our environment stress is just as plentiful. General first, specific second.

  • Politics. Especially one side arguing with another.
  • Censorship. One side wants to silence the other side. Yet if we silence one we have to silence both. Then where do you end up?
  • People ignoring each other, especially if it is because of race, gender, or any belief or view.
  • Religions ignoring people or treating anyone as less than. Anyone treating anyone else, as less than.
  • Inequality.
  • Imbalance.
  • Disrespect.
  • Disdain.
  • Intolerance.
  • Telling anyone they are wrong or inappropriate, especially if physical harm is not involved (the one being told they are inappropriate harmed none).
  • Unsupported.
  • Unloved.
  • Pushing for longer, harder, better, faster, more.
  • Men belch and talk with their mouths full, yet women (ladies) are expected to be proper and do the opposite.  If you don’t like us doing it, then maybe you shouldn’t either. And if you know it’s impossible to be perfect, don’t expect us to be perfect either.
  • Toxic is drinking or drugs for recreation. The assumption that under the influence, enables fun or more enjoyment. Drugs can be medicine when used properly, and alcohol was once the only safe drink, but inundating your system in an effort to produce more enjoyment is rarely effective and frequently damaging.
  • Women are not allowed to be lead clergy in many faiths. Why? Who said we are incapable? Not all women wish to bear children, and if men can escape that responsibility, then we should be able to as well. There is no logical reason to prevent women from being clergy, because any reason given, could be applied to men, except that it would cause them to be defensive and produce reasons why that is wrong. If the reasons are wrong for men, then they are wrong for women too.
  • Power, influence, and global resources, being restricted to mostly older white males. It’s why I have so much respect for Oprah. She managed to become what none other could, and she has dark skin and a vagina. She broke every rule and she’s the only one of both color and female gender. She earned every ounce of what she has, and deserves all of it.
  • Race ever being a factor in anything. There are bad people in every race, and here in America all too often police look the other way when it’s a rich, even middle-class, white kid…..  I’ve met dozens white people that had been druggies since middle school and never got punished, often never even got caught, and by no special circumstances. But every black person I’ve ever met that even smoked weed, has stories of running from cops and being in juvie. It’s a long standing imbalance. If you can look the other way over the white people and let them slide, then you can do the same for the black people or any other race. And if that thought makes you cringe, then all races should be punished equally.
  • Toxic masculinity is letting banks raise rates faster than wages can keep up, it is fighting over shutting society down and not making financial institutions follow suit.
  • It’s employers punishing for illness absences, but not providing tools for genuine health. All while allowing food manufacturers to use ingredients that stress bodies into illness, and ignoring that doctors are not actually educating us towards health.
  • It’s pushing and nagging all of society to buy more constantly, and forcing technology upgrades (5G) when we’ve just been through a pandemic where many people suffered massive financial strain.
  • It fuel at $3+ a gallon now that everyone is having to go back to driving to work. We haven’t even recuperated from the financial strains of COVID and 5G, and fuel makers are manipulating our return to work. Yet there are no incentive programs to buy Tessela cars or make EVs more plentiful.
  • It’s working people too sick and dieing, and God not dropping money from the sky.
  • It’s a society full of stressed sick people, and the less sick having to work, and do their best to support and take care of the more sick.
  • It’s toxic chemicals being used in agriculture under the premise of higher yields, but even when decades of data indicates that failed, we continue to dump toxic chemicals on our foods and poison ourselves and our world for no significant benefit.
  • It’s fracking for natural gas, and causing more diseases from chemicals entering water supplies. Even further causing earthquakes in areas that are fairly far from accepted fault lines (where we would never expect earthquakes in those areas at all).
  • It’s wars against anyone or anything.
  • It is taking playful challenges and athleticism, and making it far too serious, especially at too young of ages.
  • It’s failing to teach balance in an effort for bigger, faster, stronger, longer, and even more failing to properly and fully address any injuries or illness incurred as a result of such.
  • Anytime struggle of any kind, becomes a mental threat, all bets are off and you are already under the influence of toxic masculinity.
  • Anytime damages are incurred, and time or resources for healing are dictated by external influences. If time and resources do not meet the needs of the individual, that is toxic masculinity.

Everywhere you look toxic masculinity has caused stresses, and it is an unstoppable snowball hurtling down the hill at breakneck speeds. No one is going to be able to stop it. God could, but it would take giving those that have suffered the most in a state of unknowing innocence or in futile efforts, everything that they need for full healing, while simultaneously eliminating those that instigated or increased suffering knowingly.

What simply boggles my mind is the faction of 1%ers that are in support of all of it, in a desire to thin the herd. They seem to believe that they are immune and will clear the other side unscathed. Yet there is an underlying (or is it overlying) divinity that supercedes masculine and feminine, and that divinity is charged with restoration of balance at all costs. If the rest of us die because of toxic masculinity, stirred and motivated by that small faction, then the divine will right the balance in whatever way it sees fit, and the 1%ers are not as safe as they believe. They are no more safe than any of the rest of us, they just don’t see their version coming.

May you find a way to restore balance in your life and for anyone that you are directly responsible for. May we all see how to shut out as much of the toxic masculinity as possible. May we all see our path to healing as being illuminated before us. May we all have the resources and time we need just fall from the sky. May healing become easy and may we all have all of the time and resources we need just as easily. May masculinity return to safe and wholesome levels throughout our entire world. May divine feminines find their power and utilize it fully for all that it is capable of. May humanity not just survive, but find a way to restore balance while thriving. May all those in favor of humanities’ demise- find their own, less swift and more painful, but equally surprising demise. May we all be loved and supported and find a way to feel that love and support even when already impacted by the toxicity. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

World

This song resonated for me this evening. Then when I went to find the video to link, watching it has an even more intense message. It fits with things on my mind lately, this man’s world has left much to be desired, and what I see is really far from the fairy tales my heart desires. A woman’s love in a man’s world, not solving a damn thing because man’s world seems loveless.


On an entirely different note (or is it?): A 36 year old, seemingly-healthy-male in my world, admitted he has been diagnosed with high blood pressure.

On one hand, that doesn’t seem like a big deal, there’s far worse things to be diagnosed with. You could totally ignore it for quite some time before it causes greater concerns. Or can you?

The other hand reveals: my husband was told of his mildly high blood pressure and borderline diabetes when he was 40 (4 years older than this other person in my life). Currently: my husband is on dialysis, and has an enlarged heart, but still has blood pressure concerns, and diet controlled diabetes. His hope to live a healthy life, lies in transplants and machines. …. The enlarged heart became an immediate and acute concern 3 months before his 48th birthday (8 years after initial warnings). Kidney failure at 58, after an unknown viral infection.

I feel like it warrants warning, and education, and immediate changes to correct blood pressure, before it’s even a problem. That could buy many more good years for someone so young.

Yet, this same person has made comments about my husband’s lack of response to life’s “wake-up calls”, and comments of assumptions about what Nathan has or hasn’t done over the years. Never actually having prolonged inquisitive conversations with me or him.

Do I make those same assumptions about him? Do I let it pass with an awareness he’s likely to blow-off the high blood pressure just like Nathan did early on, because Nathan’s doctors didn’t educate him on ramifications, choices and options (at least beyond pills)?

Or … Do I take the high road and assume that he’s already doing something about it, that he’s just aware enough to know there are choices and options and he’s working with them to correct the problem?

Or… Do I assume neither and randomly (or even strategically) offer suggestions that might just bounce off of him, knowing that my words frequently, even bounce off of people that actually care what I have to say? A desire to educate and help, does nothing if someone isn’t open to all of your answers. That, I have lots of experience in.

And unfortunately, I have even more experience doing my best to help those whom assume I am no help in the first place. My entire biological family wrote me off, because I was the youngest, and a girl, and chose to work as a massage therapist and artist. You know that must mean I’m an idiot: just a stupid little girl. My brothers were fond of those words when I was little. Though they don’t say them to me as an adult, my brain heard them enough times it echoes the words in the gaps of their speech. They simply don’t even need to say them anymore. I’m well trained. And when so well trained, you manifest what you believe, so no one listens to this stupid little girl, hardly ever.

So really, it’s futility to even try. I’ve manifested a loop that is nearly impossible to break. I know because I now appreciate my own intelligence in a way that no one else does, and have for quite some time. I know I have good, well informed messages, that many ignore and nearly all fail to notice. I’m an insignificant blip on the world map, but one that could help millions, if only I could believe anyone cared that much.

Yet, all of this, and the one concept I’m struck with most is we’re all sick because of toxic masculinity.

Toxic masculinity:

  • Stress induced high blood pressure in your mid 30’s or early 40’s, none of us should have that much stress, that young.
  • Doctors failing to educate patients on preventative measures of all kinds, and moreso failing to educate fully on ramifications of unchecked disease. Failing to educate on anything, even with thier own medical staff, is toxic masculinity because they are short time to do so, under paid, over worked, and equally stressed. They are suffering the affliction(s) they are supposed to be trained to heal.
  • Doctors failing to diagnose underlying root causes or diseases. See I’m aware enough, because of my own journey, that I know EBV causing thyroid damage can manifest in men as cardiovascular concerns. He literally could have the same problem as me, just the male body version. That would be ironic. But the toxic masculinity is evident in that: I wonder if anyone has even checked him for any chronic disease beyond the HBP label, and I highly doubt it. And did they even rule out anything but stress being the cause? Stress is easy to fix if you know for certain that is the only cause- that’s the catch.
  • Women bearing love in an unreceptive world.
  • Women being treated as the music video indicates.
  • Children learning as the music video indicates.
  • Abuse, negative thoughts, mental patterns being brainwashed generation after generation. All symptoms of toxic masculinity.
  • My brothers childhood opinions becoming ingrained so well that they create self-fulfilling prophecies.
  • Assumptions about anything or anyone.

All of those are very good examples of the ruin that toxic masculinity has wreaked upon this world. It’s up to every single one of us to do our level best to heal as much as we are humanly able. No one person can solve it all, but together there might be hope for humanity. And who knows, maybe healing some of that crap will enable a few of the fairly tales to become just believable enough to manifest for some people.

May you heal yourself and in turn help heal the world. May you see that even seemingly benign diagnosis’ can and should be wake up calls. May you be more forgiving of those that missed that memo, or never got the memo to begin with, or had the doctor that missed the memos. May you know that those of us that suffered are here to help others learn how to escape ill fate, but that it requires a desire and openness to learn from survivors. May you know that you are here for a reason and everything in your experience has the potential to make you a better person. May you be patient with yourself and others, and kind when things go wrong. May you see how best to interact with others and provide helpful messages in a way they can be received. May you know you are always doing your best, even when you fail to handle life in a way that fully supports your own living. May you know for certain we are all in this together, we all have battles and struggles to overcome, and each of us is just a unique set doing our best. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Liberating Clearing

I told a client of my current emotional processing of immensely intense stretches releasing deeply held traumas. I said: “It is not for the faint of heart, but that I felt like God was going to smite me if I didn’t do it to the fullest of my ability.”

Between pain, screams of anger at God, intensely deep stretches pushing my own limits, and resulting trauma release responses, especially crying, I feel like I’m making more progress.

My hips are a bit unstable at the moment, and tender doesn’t even begin to describe some of the remnants needing mended. Yet, when I am just sitting I feel more balanced and stable than a week ago.

The process has included many mental image moments that I simply have no idea their true accuracy. The mental images are the closest translation of what my body has been holding.

  • There was an image of a nurse holding me upside down by one ankle (postnatally).
  • There was an image of mom’s belly being so tight from overwork that I was compressed to her spine, in an inability to move fully and properly as a developing baby should.
  • There was a feeling of fear in the midst of a fight, that feeling stirred when an argument hits maximum and you’re afraid of what the other will do.
  • There was a ‘fallen and I can’t get up’ moment where legs felt like they were so tight I simply couldn’t get on my knees and get to standing. (It made me think mom had fallen, but I called her and she’s fine.)
  • There was what I can best call a rebirthing moment. In reality I was born C-section, but I had a fairly clear moment of what it might feel like to be born as my children were, right in the midst of transitioning between hip opening stretches.
  • The neck thing I carry in C1/C2 turned loose as I was working on a spot in my low back. As I was working on releasing the low back L5/SI area, it felt like whiplash had happened at some point. I was wracking my brain for any actual memory of such an event to my lower spine, and all of a sudden clunk in my neck. If the two are truly connected, then the only thing I can place it with is the time I fell on my head off of the end of a slide as a toddler. I’m hoping I released both ends well enough to keep it gone, but have enough experience to know that things are rarely once and done. May I know how to repeat well enough to accomplish full release in as few repeats as possible.
  • There are probably some other moments I’m forgetting, which is likely a good sign.

Anyway, after all of this and more I’m wrapping my brain around elements of pain retention. How our body traps it, not just for us, but for generations. I have been repeating “Heal me and my children as far back as necessary, down to DNA and mitochondria for here, now, through birth and to generations past.”

Then this morning, I was fortunate enough to get a moment of meditation in. I had a strong awareness that I am going to be able to walk away from something soon. In that way that once you really understand something it gets easy. I feel like I’m going to be faced with one of the common topics of my life, for about the last 5 years, and that I’m going to be able to say no easily. The same way that women that have truly worked through abuse can recognize it much faster and refuse it before anything comes of it. It only sort of confused me.

Abraham swears there are no tests and that God isn’t out to get us or punish us. Jesus was fond of similar sentiments.

Yet, there is that momentum thing, when something has been rolling a really long time it takes on a life of it’s own. Some event has to stop that momentum, and sometimes it is simply the measure of knowing ones’ own strength to stop it oneself. Being able to face it one last time and say “nope, not today”, but actually stopping it dead in it’s tracks, not just diverting it. Diversions only slow the momentum, it’ll just keep rolling and eventually cross your path again. No, one must be strong enough to fully and completely stop the ball or assume the impact.

My awareness this morning helps me know that I am strong enough to stop it myself and stay standing. I am not certain which topic it is in regards to, or the details, but I am much more confident in my capabilities to handle whatever it is, and take the higher ground.

May we all have life affirming moments and an awareness of our capabilities. May we all see ourselves as strong enough to stop something with momentum. May we know we are on the right track and heading in the right direction. May we understand our strengths and use those to lift our weaknesses up. May we all process traumas so that we can be more functional, healthy, and help our children heal to stop the parade of generational trauma. Above all, may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti