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Marketing Hate

My conclusion today is that there is nothing I can do to help those that fell for the marketing. The news outlets (those 6 big companies of the world) have not just created fear of a disease, they have made lots of money off of the marketing of hate.

If we were talking about any other subject, a person’s perseverance and accomplishment would be rewarded with accolades and congratulations. Yet today we stand with a society so divided in politics and everything that can even remotely be related, that it even affects our mental processing of disease. Because of that, most are punishing those that have suceeded in health, instead of congratulating them.

It wasn’t good enough to get everyone scared out of their minds over yet another disease to afflict humanity. We had to take things one step further and create an environment of hate over it. It makes me sad.

The acupuncturist was kind enough to let me try an alternate disposable, we’ll soon see if I react to it or not (the last disposable caused hives in a few hours).

I now wear masks more often, not out of fear of diease nor out of any sense of duty. No merely because those that fell for the fear and hate marketing want to make sure you know it. I am more concerned about fear haters trying to ruin businesses than any other aspect of this disease.

I’m not so petrified that I cower in a corner. I continue doing my best to bring the light and quietly wear my mask and send prayers that people come to their senses.

This country I live in, prepared for the bubonic plague in the most haphazard and careless way, yet we got a new version of the flu. What’s most rediculous is that the bubonic plague still exists and occasionally rears its ugly head, yet we never react to it in this way.

We will never solve disease as long as we have hate, fear, anger, frustration, or any one other the many other negative emotions and beliefs that cause dis-ease. Being that those emotions are inevitable in the human emotional cycle, and many of the beliefs seem to be nearly as inevitable, it would likely be impossible to eliminate disease. All of humanity would have to learn to be Jesus or Buddha or Quan Yin. We would all have to find our wholly ascended states to eliminate disease. That is highly unlikely.

Yet there are so many that fell for the marketing of this disease, that they have likely caused a collective attraction point for another more severe disease. I sincerely hope that those of us doing our best to bring the light have tipped the scales away from that.

Regardless, I know that I have been on a continual path of improving my health, and will continue as such. I am certain that I am healing my body of chronic mild internal diseases, and in turn making it even easier for me to overcome acute external diseases like the flu and covid. I am starting to see the signs myself and it makes me feel even better.

I have worked hard at improving and maintaining my health, and I simply can’t let those living in fear and hate bring my confidence down. I have worked so long and hard to see my results and I deserve every moment of sensing accomplishment.

So, I quietly know that I am doing well enough to not worry. I gently state through masked face that I’m not concerned about getting sick when someone says something about their mask and whether they should do this or that. I educate when someone is open to it, and have a good laugh when someone is in my ‘boat’ of knowing floating down our enjoyable stream.

I wish I could soothe fears and educate the misguided, but realize that it is not my place. I can not fix that which is too far outside of my vibration and caused by entities out of my control. I can merely do my best to relax them physically and hope that they find a moment of peace that might help their broader vibration rise a bit. Perhaps in turn that will be enough that they sense how misguided they are.

For now, I am grateful that I am overcoming limitations learned from my parents in early childhood. I am grateful I am really allowing healing for myself. I am grateful that my body is beginning to show the healing. I am grateful that I made it though everyone else’s crazy relatively unscathed. I am so very grateful that I understand dis-ease and disease on multiple levels and have the ability to avert both easily. I am ever so grateful for my connection to my higher self and God-force that keeps everything going and aiming for better and better vibrations and alignment.

May you know your ability to find health and healing. May you feel good in your accomplishments of it. May you be confident in your knowing. May you find peace and let your light shine to help balance humanity towards health and ease. May you sense your connection in the most helpful ways. May you see your ability to help others relax and find ease. May you know you are protected by the Divine. “May the force be with you.” May you know you are supported and loved. May you love yourself.

Siva Hir Su

Nutrition happiness and back pain

So, this is going to be a double post day. I had two distinct topics I’ve wanted to write on for a couple of days now, but not had the time to do so. This morning I have off since it’s a holiday weekend, but I do work this afternoon at the fill in job. I’m going to attempt to get both posts done before needing to be at work.

This topic: Health journey

My morning has started with editing a pending shirt design, and then spending almost 30 min inverted.

Beyond the amusement factor, especially once cats tried to sit in my lap, I was trying to solve my back pain.

It has returned, but to a lesser degree. It had gone away, and I thought it was safe to resume working out. I did a mild run/walk only 35min, my minimum I aim for to trigger the anti-inflammatory chemistry in my body and brain. Then knowing I’ve had muscle spasms and back pain went to do yoga to stretch my hip flexors. I was doing good, and felt like things were releasing. I went to roll to my side to sit up and it spasmed again. Ouch.

I tried rolling the other direction and nothing. Okay.

Somewhere the imbalance of muscle tightness is causing muscles to spasm in a very particular way. I still feel like psoas and/or iliacus is to blame, but it’s manifesting in a less usual pattern. My obliques on the left are super tender and serratus posterior inferior has a trigger point flared in response to the primary concern. It’s just a huge mess.

After my yoga last night I foam rolled, but that only gets the superficial and 2nd layers of muscle. Then I had Nathan work on me to start chipping at the deeper layers of muscle. It helped but didn’t solve the problem.

So this morning I inverted to stretch the deepest layers.

That was more beneficial. I still have yet to release a band of muscle that I can feel, but can’t access by myself and I’m having difficulty explaining to my husband how to get to it without agony.

I’ve done it hundreds of times for others, and know the particular angle and way to apply pressure to reduce pain levels, and know it’s possible. Yet when you’re the subject and the teacher at the same time, it’s crazy.

It’s something like this: deep breath, gesture to approximate area, as he jabs I start telling him up/down/left/right/closer to the spine/etc in between gasps for air because of intense pain. I have no idea what angle his hands are at or what his posture is, or how to tell him to adjust what he is doing for it to hurt less. I’m just having to grin and bear it.

It’s been consistent enough I even considered it being kidney related. Yet if I had a kidney infection or stone it would be worse pain that would be consistent regardless of position or movement. This definitely is affected by movement and sometimes is barely noticable.

So I’m doing a salt bath and will have Nathan take another stab (pun intended) before I head into work. Hopefully my teacher half will do better so my subject half feels better. I’m also working with those Louise Hay affirmations for back pain.

Nutrition improvement.

In the other news I’ve been doing really well nutritionally. No chocolate, no grains, and extremely minimal legumes (black beans twice), even my nut/seed intake is way less and no walnuts or almonds.

Pretty much every day looks like this:

That’s 4 to 5 snack meals, depending on whether I split the veggies/peanut-butter into two. The salad dressing is homemade and has been covering about 8 of these little salads. I’ll put recipes at the end.

I still have breakfast shake and a 2nd shake later around lunch time (minimal protein and mostly green powder in coconut milk). Then dinner varies, but is all veggies like this:

So calories are as minimal as is safe. I’m not quite to the 300 calorie guy I saw interviewed in highschool, but my activity level is much higher than his was.

What is different is all the supplements that ensure adequate nutrition and boost the processes I need healing in.

  • RX Armour Dessicated Thyroid- low dose 1/day, first thing on empty stomach
  • 2 OTC allergy meds- 1x/day
  • Really good probiotic (refrigerated), 2/day
  • 3 ways to get magnesium, 8-10 pills distributed through my day
  • Bromelain and Enzyme complex for digestive support and to kill unwanted ickies- 1x/day first thing AM
  • Turmeric for anti-inflammatory, 2 pills 4x’s/day
  • Estrogen and Progesterone OTC partly for Thyroid function and partly for known hormone imbalances 1 dose/day
  • Vitex, helps balance hormones, 3/day
  • Saw Palmetto (4 doses/day) and Hyaluronic Acid (1 dose/day) to help repair my skin as I lose weight
  • Iron- I’m a woman and it helps thyroid function 1/day
  • Good quality prenatal- it’s the best ‘covers all the bases’ vitamin I have access to 1 dose= 1 pill 3x/day
  • Calcium: half tab, I only take it 2-3 times a week to aid magnesium absorption, otherwise I get too many leg cramps
  • Evening Primrose oil good source of GLA and helps hormone balance
  • Maca helps balance everything and give energy boost, 3/day
  • Omega-3 Fish Oil, aids brain, anti-inflammatory, 4/day
  • Chlorella, chellator for detox, 6 at dinner with some source cilantro
  • Vitamin C, helps immune system and absorb iron, 1/day with the iron
  • Cinnamon, Bitter Mellon, Vanadium, Gymnemea Sylvestre, Nopal Cactus, Berberine, ALA- all help with glucose management and can help heal pancreatic damage, 1 to 4 doses/day depending¬† my needs except Vanadium- only ever take that 1/day
  • Finally, Keto BHB, mineral salts shown to help shed fat. I started it when everything else was very slow to show improvement, I’ve only taken it for 5 days, so we’ll see. 3 at bedtime.

So essentially, what I’m not spending on food has gone to supplements. Most of them I’ve known for a long time and I’ve essentially added back everything I did while pregnant. Pricy, but worth the results. The only one I’m unsure of is the new BHB, hopefully it stands up to is reputation and becomes worth it.

My goal is to heal my body and eventually not need any of this except the super healthy food.

So for those dressing recipes:

Blueberry vinegrette:

  • Half pint blueberries
  • Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
  • Water (~4oz)
  • Stevia to tase (1 to 2 servings)
  • Blend with immersion blender and bottle it

Honey Mustard:

  • Tsp mustard powder
  • Tbsp or 2 vegan soy free mayo
  • Tbsp honey
  • Tsp Apple Cider vinegar
  • Salt pinch
  • Stevia (sometimes need to add when I get carried away with the mustard powder)
  • Water (~3 oz)

Dairy free Coconut Cream Ranch is another I use, but I make it following a recipe already found online. I also use a clean poppy seed dressing that’s available in grocery stores here in KC. Plus there are several green goddess type clean dressings to be found that are AIP friendly.

May you enjoy your multiple salads. May you accept eat to live over live to eat. May your health improve. May you heal your body. May you figure out solutions for your pains. May you feel good mostly. May you feel better in every way. May you know you are supported. May you have exactly what you need.

Siva Hir Su

Detoxing in gratitude

So for two days I have spent all of my mental energy focusing on healing. I have expressed gratitude for healing in all the ways I possibly could.

It was partly in an effort to overcome repercussions of having fallen, partly to encourage thyroid nodules healing (and all autoimmune problems really), and mostly because I do honor and respect the human body’s God given ability to heal. I am truly grateful that God gave us the mechanisms to heal everything imaginable. I am hopeful that I am allowing those mechanisms to do their job and heal my body from damage done over years of ignorance.

Today, I find my body has been uncomfortably purging. In hindsight Nathan said I am releasing, and reminded me that it is a good thing.

The practical side is I cried a lot, and had to ask for assistance from both the acupuncturist and chiropractor today.

I worked through moderate pain, because knowing how much damage my body already has I’m doing my best to avoid any further damage that might be caused by pain relievers. So I was literally muscling through pain. Then during my last massage the waterworks opened up.

Both my second and third clients had telltale signs of traumas. I found myself contemplating my life and how my woes are no where near what some people have faced. The one client had scars on her back that looked like either having been whipped or sliced at some point years prior. She bore two tattoos. On one wrist “love yourself first” in Arabic on the other “She is Art” in English. After she translated the Arabic I told her that was beautiful. Then I thought to myself, those of us that need the reminder on our skin have the deepest wounds. I was grateful for her reminders in my day. I needed those words as much as she did.

Regardless, I think my tears were either triggered by client stuff, or my own energetics finally hitting boiling point. Either way, I had a really hard time concealing my state and was grateful I had already had the 3rd person turn face down. I managed to clear the session quietly and gathered myself long enough to change out for receiving acupuncture.

I am so grateful I work with skilled and caring people. The acupuncturist knew I had already had a wave of emotional upheaval and gave me much needed support. She then worked her magic and made almost all of the pain disappear. Unfortunately, as the pain was releasing, so did a lot more emotional junk. I sobbed quietly as the needles did their work.

Afterwards I received another chiropractic treatment, and again found myself in tears. I tried to hide the tears not wanting to have to explain the how and why of them. They were less about the pain since it had backed off, and more the release with extreme gratitude for the assistance I was given. I have been in similar situations in the past that I just had to suffer through because of lack of finances or access and this time I have two wonderful people that helped me reach for a quicker recovery. Not only that, but they both took time and care to try and make sure we weren’t missing anything. They caught things I missed on my own. My gratitude is immense.

I was sent home with instructions for an adjustment to my self-care, which enabled me to watch a documentary on Netflix. My choice was “HEAL”.

I am familiar with nearly all of the interviewees in that documentary, and as I watched I found myself crying yet again. I was not learning anything new! So, how is it that I find myself stuck in bed with all these emotions spilling out of my eyes and mouth again? I found myself sobbing to Nathan about how I have already done all of the things that I knew and have access to. I meditate, yes some days I fail on time management for that, but more often than not I manage it. I have cleared so many things, and worked on forgiveness, and then on days like today it seems like I never did. Even the molestation came back up today, and that was one I was certain I had healed my perspective on. My head began to hurt and felt like a bowling ball.

Then one moment in the documentary seemed to make some sense of it all. There was a lady battling skin stuff, worse than my thyroid/immune version. She went for sound healing, the kind with focused measured wave patterns. The practitioner (I know of him well from my training) mentioned that her pattern was indicative of chronic severe stress because the proper frequency only calmed the stress response briefly and failed to get her into parasympathetic response needed for healing. He was able to modulate to achieve the desired results. Then they explained that people in that chronic severe stress response benefit greatly from meditation, but clarified that it takes more diligent/frequent practice.

It seems that is my need. I have definitely had the chronic severe stress, for let’s says somewhere in the range of 10-14 years. So my current meditation practice is falling short of the sympathetic response soothing that I need. That is a manageable solution I can work on.

For now my healing is headed in the right direction, and I will get better and better. I can do this. I am finally getting to a place where I know when I need to ask for help, yet I do still feel guilty about doing so. I am afraid that I will ask too much and burn bridges, so I hope God will help me be mindful of that. I also hope that those that are helping me, really understand how truly grateful I am for their help. It is priceless to me, and if I had all the riches I would shower them with it.

So my gratitude:

  • I am grateful for God’s healing.
  • I am grateful for those people in my life that help me to find my alignment with healing when I need it the most.
  • I am so very grateful for the specific treatments I have had the last week, they have kept me functional and helped aim me toward feeling better even with a full schedule.
  • I am grateful for new awareness and puzzle pieces beginning to make sense and stick together.
  • I am thankful that my body has the ability to heal everything.
  • I am thankful I caught the thyroid nodules before they were a big problem.
  • I am thankful that I am aware of options other than what western medicine calls a solution.
  • I am thankful that I have resources available to me that I didn’t have available before.
  • I am grateful that I understand the complexities of a true healing journey.
  • I am grateful that I know my emotional purging, headache, and other symptoms, are evidence of detoxing on multiple levels.
  • I am thankful that God is helping me find solutions.
  • I am very grateful for the chiropractor and his adjustments, the acupuncturist and her needles, and the office manager shifting my sheets in the laundry when she doesn’t have to.
  • Thank you God for this healing.
  • Thank you for healing my thyroid, my pancreas, my liver, my kidneys, my adrenal glands, and especially thank you for healing my immune system.
  • Thank you for showing me that I need more meditation than the average person right now.
  • Thank you for the understanding that the chronic severe stress is what is slowing me down and how to fix the response to it.
  • Thank you for giving me so many of the necessary tools to do so.
  • Thank you for all your guidance.
  • Thank you for everyone that is praying for me.
  • Thank you for all the healing and assistance.
  • Thank you for letting me know it is okay too slow down.
  • Thank you for reminding me it is okay to ask for help.
  • Thank you for helping me to process emotions and past events so that they dissapate and quit causing disease.
  • Thank you for helping me truly heal, mind, body, heart and soul.
  • Thank you for reminding me of my strength.
  • Thank you for showing me I’m closer to healing than I thought.
  • Thank you for showing me all the things I’m doing right.

I do still welcome prayers, I have another 7 weeks until the doctor even wants to consider another sonogram, and I’m aiming for shrinking and possibly eliminating nodules by then.

May we all find the healing we seek. May we see how to slow down and de-stress. May we allow ourselves the resources to heal fully. May we fully release fear and anger so that healing efforts are effective. May we really understand gratitude and how special life on this planet is. May we know and appreciate our individual uniqueness and gifts. May we allow ourselves full alignment with a truly healthy body. May you love yourself first and know you are a work of art.

Siva Hir Su