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Echo,

Echo, Echo, Echo….


Last night my husband and I took advantage of a digital doctor appointment to get set-up with Medicinal Cannabis Cards. Only a couple of minutes in, the doctor stated “Insurance and Medicine don’t cover tools that heal.” I heard an echo, and Nathan laughed looking directly at me.

She referenced several tools, which I have been attempting in vain to align myself with the resources to accomplish, for myself and my family. She then proceeded to talk about the different elements of medical cannabis and which bodily systems and functions they affected to enable better functionality. She broke down the different CDB’s and terpenes and even the variations of THC and how they affected the body. I was already familiar with some of the data and information, but she gave charts and graphics that really helped narrow down our particular needs and expand our knowledge. I am very appreciative that we will soon be able to access a much more specific array of cannabis tools to help regain health.

Now if I could just get the resources together to do the I-V Oxygenation therapy and even potentially I-V Nutrient therapy for myself and my family. I don’t know how, but I know I need the universe to really cooperate with me.

See 11 years after Nathan’s original diagnosis, and 10 years since our health journey began (& 7 since I got intensely serious), we are still struggling to show success of any kind, and short resources that could potentially make the difference.

We trusted a system that was intended to be a safety net for both the patient and the medical provider. We were told by the hospital, that Nathan was sick enough that we needed to apply for disability to ensure he got care and the hospital got compensated.

We fought and fought. We gave up briefly, then fought some more.

He is finally classified as disabled, but we only got $560.00 in SSI and not a stitch of disability thus far. The lawyer claimed $150 of that and the hospital still wants us to pay them the $110,000.00 we owe them. His student loan is a mountain of paperwork away from being a headache though, not that anyone cares to help with that either. And his recent new diagnosis of Kidney Failure, a different hospital has offered to do standard dialysis, and they are helping him get set-up with medicaid.

He’s gotten more input from the Acupuncturist at the clinic than his team of medical professionals put together.

I have stated the following, many ways, in many posts, but feel the need to reiterate.

I can only speak for the American medical systems, as that is what I have dealt with for a decade.

There is no safety net if you really need it. There are just a lucky few that manage to squeak past all the hurdles and loopholes to actually get what the system promises.

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They want you to stay sick, because if you really can’t pay, eventually the government will one way or another. See that $110,000.00 we owe to KU Med, if we never ever pay, eventually they will completely write it off, and the government will give them concessions on their taxes. They know that. But it will continue to haunt Nathan’s credit report for as many years as they can drag it out. Tell me how that is okay!!!!

Bonus: if you stay sick, they keep making money on treating your symptoms, regardless of how expensive of a process that may be. There is no incentive for them to get you well. Again, how is that okay!!!!

But I am just a disgruntled bitter person wanting my health back from a disease that they could have solved 80 years ago if they had really want to. They don’t want to solve viruses, because they make too damn much money off of them, and doctors toe the line instead of standing up for what is right and healing their patients.

In July of 1946 the World Health Organization or WHO defined health as:

Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.

Tell me how Covid or Epstein-Barr or any other chronic virus, being allowed to run rampant, is creating health for anyone, especially our entire society. Tell me how shutting down society for a year, causing businesses to close, and people to loose homes and jobs, knowing full well that Western Medicine has no real solution for any virus, is enabling our world to find Health.

The WHO had no problem breaking their own goals of promoting health to try and “STOP” a virus, but they also have no problem enabling insurance companies and medical institutions to keep ignoring the real problems and the potential solutions right under their noses. Because the solutions make less money than the symptom treatments.

I am furious right now, and it has been directed at god more than a couple of times the last couple of weeks. This shit should have stopped 40 years ago, but just keeps being perpetuated by old greedy mostly-white bastards, and the rest of the population just lets it keep happening because they refuse to educate themselves and join forces to make it change. There will be no solution to this mess ever if that doesn’t happen. You can’t find a solution if you never try.

If you just wallow in the problem and throw your hands up in the air as “they said it’s all we have” then that is exactly what you will continue to get.

As for Nathan and I, we are doing our best to move towards our own individual solutions as quickly as possible. It does mean I have been extra extra busy and am now writing less. Please keep us in your prayers that we find all the solutions and resources we need.

May you have the solutions you need. May you know exactly what to do. May you see the falacy of things that will not help you. May you find a way to keep progressing towards better. May things generally start to get easier for you. May you know you have your health under control and stabilized as much as humanly possible. May you always have supportive medical staff. AND above all else, may you know that God loves and supports you, even when it seems otherwise.

Om Shanti

Count your blessings.

Nathan was informed today that he needs to begin dialysis to ensure his kidneys are able to keep up with his body and hopefully prolong functionality for many years to come. Doctors made suggestions for options to accommodate being at home, since he has two young children. We have lots of things to figure out over the next few days to couple of weeks. He is technically under the disability umbrella, but we’ve never received the rest of the details on what that means, so he likely has a whole bunch of paperwork before any treatment is carried out.

On one hand this is not the news we would have wanted. On the other hand, they are acting premptively to try and ensure he lives until his children are adults, and possibly even years beyond that. Something I rarely actually see in Western Medicine, most of the experiences that come across my awareness are about making money treating symptoms, not genuinely trying to help or correct problems. Though this is technically just treating a symptom, it’s still in the vein of preventitave measures, so at least that’s something.

I’m also very grateful that I work at a clinic with an acupuncturist. I’m hoping I can make arrangements for regular acupuncture to also help his organ function. We’ll see. I know Acupuncture can do amazing things, but I don’t know how much would be needed for this particular ‘impaired kidney function’ category.

I’m very appreciative he has never been a heavy drinker or drug addict. He has actually be kind to his body compared to many people.

He also expressed appreciation to me for having guided him towards trying to heal his body when heart disease struck. He admitted if it hadn’t been for all of my efforts from the beginning, that he would be worse off now. I expressed appreciation that he joined me in our mutual healing journey.

We have both worked very hard to improve our health over the years, and my only disappointment is that with everything we’ve done we’re still having this moment. I do acknowledge that if we hadn’t been so diligent, it likely would have come many years sooner.

Even though this stirs deep concern in me, there is a ray of hope still, and things could definitely be worse.

I am grateful I am gainfully employed.

I am grateful that he may qualify for care and coverage at low and possibly no cost to me/us.

I am grateful he might be able to receive these treatments at home.

I am grateful we have a safe home for our family regardless.

I am grateful we have made it through this crazy crappy year okay.

I am grateful that we have loving cuddly pets to help ease these moments of concern.

I am grateful we have plenty of healthy food and access to supplements and other tools that help boost general health.

I am grateful we both exercise regularly.

I am grateful we have put so much work into our selves. This is only validation that there is more work that can be done.

I am grateful that this is not a dire situation, in fact the doctor told him that it was caught early enough that there is plenty of time to try multiple treatment options if needed.

I am grateful that I do have some level of support network, it may not be vast nor as strong as I has hoped, but at least there are some people in my life that can help if absolutely needed.

I am grateful that I am capable enough to handle all of the challenges that we have faced as a family. This is just yet another, in a long string, stretching through the last 16 years. I survived all the others, and we will likely survive this one too.

I am grateful that disability did go through, even though it never cleared fully, it will still help navigate this hurdle.

It will be okay.

I am okay.

And moments that call for it can default to “Free and Easy Wanderer” or cannabis products, they will get me through anything that is too much for me in the moment. I am grateful that I have access to those tools to help with my own stability and health, when I fail to control it on my own.

Everything is and will be all right.

May you know that everything is going to be okay. May you know that some people do care and are doing their best to help. May you know that things could always be worse. May you find things to appreciate and find gratitude over. May you know you are okay and that you have all the tools you need. May you find comfort and solace, even if it requires herbal assistance. Above all may you know that God loves and supports you.

Om Shanti

Weightloss Progress

Ok, so I’ve been wanting to share full body images of my progress for a while now. The perk of having a photographer for a husband is that not only has he taken pictures of me on many occasions, he was able to set-up a studio to shoot reproductions of existing images.

So, I can finally share the differences.

I had him reproduce family picture moments, as well as past photo shoots. For this post I am sticking to fully clothed images. He has done nudes of me many times in the past, and we did recreate some of them for this purpose, but I need to make them internet friendly by doing the black boxes across naughty bits. It’ll take time. For this post, using the fully clothed images, I just had to resize to match, and then label- a much quicker process (took me about an hour for all of the images you’ll see here).

I do wish I was further along, but that is probably me being hard on myself again. I do acknowledge that: I have managed this much progress during a time period where I gave birth to two children, and also fought tooth-and-nail against thyroid concerns that had been undiagnosed for 15+ years. I also acknowledge that all of my progress was me and Nathan; no one made me, no one encouraged me, and no one helped me figure out my own personal puzzle. No one else can take the credit, only me, with Nathan’s loving support. So in those regards, I’m a effing super hero. I’ll claim my She-Ra crown everyday that I keep trying.

I hope you find my progress as a helpful encouragement to anyone else attempting to do something similar.

May you have good moments of validation of your own personal progress. May you see your efforts are paying off. May you see things start to get easier. May you know that you are doing your best and that is really what matters. AND ABOVE ALL- may you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti and Many Blessings