Tag Archives: honor yourself

Confounding

They never
Honored or
Respected her
While living
The father
Made certain

She was never
Rewarded or
Given awards
Or medals
Any such
Accolades

The only
Gold
Bestowed
Bands of vows
& Chains of
Implied
Meaning

Valued
Far less
Than than
Heartache
Incurred
Decades
Over

So why
Now
Why in
Death is
There a
Need
To honor
Respect
With
Displays
And show

She
Never
Wanted
Any of it
Always
Simply
Fighting
For freedom
Which now
Finally
She has

Ultimate
Freedoms of
All freedom
Release
From
Bonds
Banded
Chained
Symbols of
Necessity
Incurred
With
Vows

Her life
Brought
More
Required
Much more
Than she
Bargained
And now
She is
Finally free
Of all of it

Instead
Of honoring
Her service
When honor
No longer
Matters
Hasn't
For
Decades

Instead
Of respecting
Her sacrifices
When sacrifice
Is no more

Why isn't
Her
Memorial
A celebration
Of her victory
Her biggest
Success
Having
Gained
Her ultimate
Freedom

She would
Have wanted
A drunken
Soirée
With ashes
Dumped under
A great tree
Or in a big pond
Or in the ocean

Either way
I know
She is
Still here
In my mind
In my heart
My experience
And I've
No need
For me

Being there
Watching
Listening
Feeling
Everything
Unsaid
Covered
By words
Said

I've learned
I deserve
Better
Than
That

~Treasa Cailleach

Fascinating

Amazing

Multiple people
Think
Every word
I write
Is intended
As theirs

Profound

Multiple people
Assume
My references
Or rants
About God
Are because
Of or
Reference
Them

Fascinating

God chose
A small
Handful
Of people
To teach
Me lessons

Yet never
Told them
Their role
Always
Picking ones
That thought
They knew
What was
Best
For me

In the end

I still
Feel
The same

I still
Know
My value

I still
Care
For myself

I still
Wish
Them well

I still
Pray
They all
Get their
Desires

I still
Value
My skills

I still
Own
My mistakes

I still
Recognize
My accomplishments

I still
Honor
Myself
And accept
Their role

I still
Know
I am
Deserving

A human
Miracle
Winning
Against all odds
Even God's
Hurdles
He calls
Lessons

I know
They are a
Waste
Of time
Energy
Making
A mute
Point
That he
Is in control
Still an
Asshole

So what

I've still
Proven
My worth
My fortitude
My value
My strength
My intelligence

Even soldiers
Returning home
Crippled
From man's
Wars
Are rewarded
For jobs
Well done

This soldier
Fought wars
Plurality
As a
Singularity
And came out
Better for it

This soldier
Still standing
Still breathing
Still moving
Still works
Still strives
Still aims
For better

My wins
Merely
Pointing me
Towards
Greater
Possibility

My loses
Proving
There is
Always
Room to grow
Here
Now

Now
I am
Here

What now

Where is this
Soldiers'
Reward
Change of pace
Easier days

It is
Possible
I know
I am
Enough

I love
Myself
Even if
God Won't

I care for
Myself
Even if
God doesn't

I respect
Myself
Even if
God can't

I honor
Myself
Even if
God won't

I cherish
Myself
Even if
God doesn't

I reward
Myself
Even if
God can't

I am
Enough
Unique
As any
Snowflake

Enough
Is
Enough

Now
I
Am
Here

Now what

~Treasa Cailleach

May you know your value. May you understand roles better and better. May you see how your experience fits together. May you understand how things flow and work. May you believe in yourself unconditionally. May you know you have always done your best and that you are divinely unique and special. May you know that the masculine is slowly beginning to find proper balance, and that feminine is honored as it was always intended. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Winning look

Salt bath
Sooths

Cleansing
Invisible
Impacts
Of existence

Realizing
I'm a winner
No matter what

Set-up
For
Failure
From birth

Born into
Layers
Upon
Layers
Of disease
And dis-ease

Yet
I've made it
To 39

I won
Against
Gestational diabetes
C-section
Jaundice result

I won
Against
Low thyroid
Metabolic function

I won
Against the resulting
Morbid obesity
And morbid dances
Of suicidal depression

I won
Against
Epstein-Barr
AKA mono
Caught in early childhood

I won
Against
COVID-19
Twice
Likely more

I won
Against
Allergies
Based on all above
Affecting
Everything

I won
Against
Damaged
Intestines
Leaky gut

I won
Against
Too much
Unhelpful
Not enough
Helpful
Time and time
Again

I won
Against
Sensitivity
Medicine
Ignores

I won
Against
All odds
I'm 39
Still breathing

I won
Against
All odds
And I'll
Do it again

I am
Walking
Miracle
I am
Life's
Will
In action
I am
My
SELF

~Treasa Cailleach

May you see your accomplishments. May you find the good in the rough road of your journey. May your life journey find easier routs with more than plenty of rewards. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Cycles

Seems I’m in another cycle of self-healing. Anger transformed to focused intent.

After my last post I felt the need to focus on my self going back as far as I could find the feeling place of my divine inner being. I was aimed at triggering my earliest memory of me, before sickness, before traumas, before stress and disease. My purest me.

I reached for and found the feeling place of having just been born and exploring the range of what my body could handle. That feeling of being new to the world and finally able to stretch out and move my body around, exploring my experience. I actually had a moment of quiet where my legs wanted to kick the blanket off, but I was not covered by any blanket.

That stirred two thoughts that I repeated for the rest of the day.

I’m a miracle for having made it through everything before. My body and brain are a miracle for their amazing ability to heal (and their interconnected complex functions of life).

I am a born healer just by being alive. That which I am, is a miracle that has helped me survive so many things, and will do so again with a little slow quiet.

At one point I found myself saying: all I need to do is just be me, I’m a healer and healing myself by just being me.

Hours of repetition later, I am feeling better emotionally, and much more aware of my ability to slow down. Now I just need to allow that to flow to my family and world so that much needed support manifests to keep the ‘miracle healing of self’ vibe going. My body needs the space and resources to heal. When I was a baby simple hydration would have been sufficient for quite some time. As an adult I wouldn’t say I need much of anything else internally, but the process now includes an entire family.

My body is a miracle. My brain is a miracle. My life is healing. My world is healing.

One step at a time.

May you transform your anger to healing. May you find your miracle moment of your inner self and milk it for all that it is worth. May you know your path and find a way to stay to connected as well as possible. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

26 of 27: Drifting

Sitting
Drifting
On an ocean
Of thought

Flowers
Are better
Fuzzy cat
Purrs
Soothing relief
To strained

Muscles
Neurons
Systems
Burdened
Beyond normal

Limits
Hard to handle
Time spread
Too thin

Taxing
Energy
Invisible internal
Batteries
Lose power
Fatigue sets in

Mental ocean's
Waves
Crash on empty
Thought
Shores

Empty space
Quietly
Soothing
Frayed
Nerves

Invisible
Sunshine
Warms muscles
From within

This mind
Finds vacation
Inside
Whenever
Wherever
Possible

IT simply
Must
BE
Because
Route
To distant
Beaches
Is not
Yet
Possible

Drifting
In the
Mind
Must
Suffice
For now

~ Treasa Cailleach

May you have a vacation when it is needed. May you find ways to honor your own needs no matter what life brings you. May you care for yourself enough to keep going in life. May you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti