Tag Archives: let go

Save yourself.

"Save yourself"

I felt it
I know
Eyes
Tell all

Darkness
Draining
Life's
Batteries

What's
Been done
Can't be
Undone

Illness
In Mind
And body
Consuming

Drowning?
I'll not
Lend
My hand

My saving
Is for
Myself
My choice

Might
Try
Saving
Yourself

Start by
Releasing
Letting go
Moving on

Vader's
Clutch
Bound &
Determined

Death
For all
Unable to
Break free

Cords
Energetic
Become
Nooses

Inescapable
Leaded
Boots
Of fate

It's
Your choice
To break free
Or not

Can you
Feel it
I've been
Waiting

It's
My life
I'll save
Oh Lord

~Treasa Cailleach



May you know for certain your life is your own, and none other than the divine, can take it from you. May you know the true source of all your strife and find ways to eliminate the true source and bring healing for yourself and those you love. May you know the darkness will fall giving way to brightest dawn. May you know that light will overcome one way or another. May we all have enlightened peaceful and joyful lives. May you know you are not alone. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Confounding

They never
Honored or
Respected her
While living
The father
Made certain

She was never
Rewarded or
Given awards
Or medals
Any such
Accolades

The only
Gold
Bestowed
Bands of vows
& Chains of
Implied
Meaning

Valued
Far less
Than than
Heartache
Incurred
Decades
Over

So why
Now
Why in
Death is
There a
Need
To honor
Respect
With
Displays
And show

She
Never
Wanted
Any of it
Always
Simply
Fighting
For freedom
Which now
Finally
She has

Ultimate
Freedoms of
All freedom
Release
From
Bonds
Banded
Chained
Symbols of
Necessity
Incurred
With
Vows

Her life
Brought
More
Required
Much more
Than she
Bargained
And now
She is
Finally free
Of all of it

Instead
Of honoring
Her service
When honor
No longer
Matters
Hasn't
For
Decades

Instead
Of respecting
Her sacrifices
When sacrifice
Is no more

Why isn't
Her
Memorial
A celebration
Of her victory
Her biggest
Success
Having
Gained
Her ultimate
Freedom

She would
Have wanted
A drunken
Soirée
With ashes
Dumped under
A great tree
Or in a big pond
Or in the ocean

Either way
I know
She is
Still here
In my mind
In my heart
My experience
And I've
No need
For me

Being there
Watching
Listening
Feeling
Everything
Unsaid
Covered
By words
Said

I've learned
I deserve
Better
Than
That

~Treasa Cailleach

Not going anywhere.

Summer's
Oasis
Almost
Complete
Seeded pots
Sprouting
Torches
Lights
Lit
Comfy
Hammocks
Awaiting
Beauty
Given
For
Self
Allowing
Recuperation
Restoration
Easing my
Mind &
Body
Fires
Lit
Calm
Returns
Created
By self
For self
Tended &
Cared for
Selfishly
Hummingbirds'
Decanters
Needing
Frequent
Filling
Plants
Watering
My oasis
Is mine &
Intentions
Reminded
This is
Exactly
What I
Need
Solving
Internal
Turmoil
Calming
Stresses
Relaxing
Allowing
Returning
Flowing
Summer
Time
Sadness
Resolves
Contentment
Reached
Within
Memorials
Found in
Memories
Without
Scattered
Ashes
Pomp or
Circumstance
Here is
Exactly
Where
I need
To BE


~Treasa Cailleach



May you know exactly what you need to do. May you know when to walk away. May you know how to let go. May you let it all just be and find yourself. May your memories be greater than anything anyone else could provide. May you know the only thing you can control is your self and your own needs. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Pictures are of my freshly sprouting container garden and my oasis of bird feeders and fire. The dark nightime perspective, complete with moon shining through tree branches, and Progressive LGBTQ flag. It is my space this evening, and I’ve decided it will be my space every chance possible this summer. I have earned it, I created it. I deserve to enjoy it.

Inspired Funny

There is a common trigger point that became funny for me today.

It’s right behind the ball of the foot in the muscular portion of the arch. In Chinese medicine it’s very near Kidney 1, although a bit more proximal (towards the center of the body). In the image above is just about where her thumb knuckles contact her feet.

Trigger points are usually referenced by the muscle they most consume, though some muscles have more than one possible location so then you start using directional labels to distinguish which one. Trigger points often consume more than one layer of muscle tissue, so that’s why I define it as most consumed.

Anyway, the funny part.

The muscle for this particular trigger point is Adductor Hallucis.

I was thinking about how that particular one is active on my right, but not left foot. Then I was thinking about the myriad of reasons it becomes painful: dehydration, low kidney function, toxin buildup in the feet, poor circulation, even just as simple as ‘my feet are hellaciously painful after all that walking/working’. Yet Kidney 1 is our most major grounding point of the body, it is where Hallelujah meets Momma Gaea.

Then I had this funny thought of the people that decided to name muscles. My thought was in the ‘so stupid simple’ mindset:

Sam: alright that brings us to the feet. Let’s start with this big one at the bottom. What should we call that.

Jo: Gee, I don’t know, it seems to connect with everything all the way to the top of the head, so that seems pretty godly to me. But then damn, after a long hard day it sucks as much as anything ever. I want to curse God and the devil both…. I know… Hallucis. … We’ll call it Hallucis. … Where Hallelujah meets Lucifer, it just is.

[This joke doesn’t work as well in the Pagan perspective… Hallelujah meets Pelé, Hades, or Hephaestus… Nope definitely not working there.]

That’s it. That’s where my mind finds funny sometimes. I hope it was funny to you too!

May we all find some humor in this day. May we all feel a bit better in any way that works for you. May we all continue to reach for better always. May we work our way towards better alignment in all ways. Above all, may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Letters.

This morning, as I was getting ready for work, I heard another message. “Write goodbye letters”.

I figured it was intended for those about to leave my world for the afterlife. So then my question was who’s the 3rd, it could be one of a couple people, and none of the options seem good to me. They aren’t people that have lived long happy lives and are ready to go, like my parents claim.

So then my mental response was “I guess I’ll just write to everyone, just in case”, and for anyone I’m fairly certain is staying in this world, I’ll just thank them for everything I can think of.

At this point in the day I’ve accomplished one and I’m about to sit down and work on the rest. I’m betting there will be tears shed.

Additionally, I just finished utilizing the broken furniture from my children’s destructive stress, to burn and release the old, to allow for new to come in. I symbolically added an object that has been on my alter since a little over a year ago, to symbolize a particular element needing let go of. I also added two statues that symbolize the same element in my life. After I finish my letters to family (et all), I’m going to make photocopies of them, to burn for myself in our fireplace. It will help release those elements as well.

It is perfectly fitting of a new moon on the new year. Release the old to be able to welcome the new, in the dark of momma Gaea’s withdrawn lunar phase. The nights of the lunar phase where momma hides the reflection of the masculine sun. There is nothing quite like the symbolism, the momentum, and energy of this moment. It is very soothing and very cleansing.

I look forward to finding out what my new year brings now that I am able to release so much.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. May peace be with us always. Om Shanti.

The fireplace burn goal is for sometime tonight or tomorrow, while we’re still in the new moon phase. The letters will be mailed to the intended recipient as soon as they are complete, so everyone will receive them within a few days.

My other message was too sit back, relax, and wait patiently. Time will tell what the messages and actions of this week meant for me and those I was told to write to: cards, emails, letters and all.

May you trust and know that everything is going to be okay. May you know that you are free to be yourself and all that means. May you know your messages are exactly what was needed and requested by your recipients. May you know every word can carry deeper meanings that you may never know the fullness of. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti