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Cloud surfing.

I have been feeling the need for some positive focus in a major way. In lieu of my grand dreams of Atira Community, I’d take some more practical Tessering. So I’m going to focus on the paradigm I’d like to be in right now, and aim at it based on my current reality. Essentially, I’m going to focus on what my ideal next step would be. As in from right where I sit right now: what is the best improvement in all areas that is reachable?

My ideal health situation would be: My own personal health, and that of my family, finds balance and is more easily maintainable. The tools to accomplish that would be easily afforded and/or covered by insurance, and would be toxin-free and side-effect-free. I could do the IV nutrient treatments in an affordable or covered way. I could heal organs for myself and my family. We could eat normal foods in normal quantities again. We would all be healthy weight, strong, flexible, and have healthy nutrient levels in our bodies. All of our bodily systems would function easily and seamlessly to provide a sense of overall consistent health. My family would make friends with focusing on meditation and yoga to help maintain their balance. They would find other enjoyable ways to help maintain that balance as well. We would all feel good consistently.

My ideal financial situation would be: The income I have been able to produce consistently these last few years, would come with fewer hours and still be minimal stress levels to help maintain health. A wonderful bonus would be if the wages increased a bit, and was still fewer hours and minimal stress. That would be wonderful because it would help to pay things off sooner, and I might be able to save time for tree sculptures and other activities I’ve been unable to accomplish. It would also help me to provide things that the teen has requested (car insurance for her to drive). It would be an increase of enjoyment along side financial relief and less hands on work. That would be amazing.

My ideal home would be: Enough time to keep regular chores caught up and finish projects started. I still have trim to finish installing in Anya’s room, and the drywall patch needs sanded and re-painted, I’d love to finish those things. There are still a few little silly things that have just never made the priority cut, like one door needs the kick plate installed. A wonderful bonus would be having enough income and/or time to tackle the big projects that have been indefinitely postponed: exterior paint job and addressing window replacements. Our home is beautiful and I love the idea of making it even better, by addressing the few not ideal items. I look forward to being able to do that easily and in a way that fits with schedule needs. It would also enable more contemplation and possibly even action towards things that have been considered to make our yard and kitchen beautiful as well. That would be most excellent. I look forward to moments like that.

My ideal community would be: Open, fully functional, healthy, lighter, and at peace. People would be secure in their beingness and open to others doing the same, regardless of how that manifests. We would all be free to choose and we would all reach for better. People would begin to walk away from arguments on differences, and embrace each other based on common ground. People would reach for things that feel good and look for ways to appreciate each other regardless of uniqueness. There would be even more beautiful plants and trees, and caring for the environment would be evident everywhere I go. Recycling would become even easier to accomplish, and everyone would make efforts to maintain cleanliness in our community and in our world. We would embrace the changing weather patterns and work together to adjust to the changes. We would all work together to find compromises and solutions to all of our challenges in every arena. Bipartisan would become a collective of positive forward motions and change for the better. Acknowledgment of failures would be propulsion towards a collective reaching for alternative solutions. We would all work together for the betterment of mankind and the world. We would all aim for balance with nature and help improve the world in every way for lasting progress, and hopefully increase humanity’s chance of survival for many generations to come (only in balance will humans continue to flourish). Institutions would recognize when they are failing the collective and adjust their actions and motivations to meet the needs of the collective. Governments would do likewise. Both institutions and governments would serve us best by acknowledging that though no action will be perfect for everyone, there are actions that would be a better solution for most, and those would be the actions that bring everyone together again. Institutions and governments would also acknowledge that because no one decision is perfect for everyone, they would enable choice in participation, we would be allowed to maintain our freedoms and our human rights. They would acknowledge that they are charged with making decisions for the majority and finding ways to enable those decisions for all whom wish to participate, but that human freedom is pertinent regardless. (Example: Education is supported and structured, but any one family can choose public vs private vs homeschool at their own judgement and risk.) That concept is embraced and applied in all areas of life. Institutions would embrace the energetic world knowing that more and more people are aware and open to it, and medicine would be served to learn more about it and find ways to help people with it.

My world would change slowly enough to enable most people to keep up and survive, to heal enough to lead healthy lives. Only those that are unable to keep up would perish, and that could easily be a slim margin with more available options.

These ramblings are my broad view of things on my mind and where I wish to see them head. Hopefully you see the overarching theme and how it applies to your experience.

May we all get through these changing times in one piece. May we all have the healing we seek. May you see that you are doing your level best to provide yourself with everything you need. May you give yourself the best possible options you can. May you find forgiveness for yourself when you are unable to give yourself the best available. May you love and respect yourself and everyone around you. May you see the light that our world needs and find every way possible to bring it into your days. May we all work together for better and brighter days. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Sounds fun.

Beating the drum of what sounds fun. Working on trying to find me.

Dancing sounds fun, not jumping around in a bar, no, actual dancing. I’ve done the bar thing, I’ve never actually gone dancing. Dancing sounds fun, real dancing sounds like love. I don’t even know where to go dancing here in Kansas City.

My hammock is a sort of fun. It’s comforting and relaxing. I spent time there today, right up until my skin started to feel scorched.

Swimming is fun, I’d love to have a real pool at ready access. As it is, I swim as much as I can, based on finding time to accommodate going somewhere else to do so.

Hiking is fun, it has been a long time since I’ve been hiking, but I really like it. The kind of hiking where you need good shoes or boots and the trails take you places you’ve never seen. We did that  in little spurts when we went to Maine/Acadia with my one brother, I relish my pictures from that trip. Before that, the last trip for hiking was about 14 years ago with 12 Indian-American IT professionals, that was a trip full of great fun, where I got to see Mount Rushmore for the first time. Before that, I was a kid, and we did a decent amount of that when I was a kid.

Playing with clay is fun. It’s really messy because, well it’s clay. I’m also not very skilled at ceramics, so that makes it extra messy, but it’s still fun, and I’ve not had opportunity since college.

Making costumes is fun, I should clarify- when you’re only making your own. Once you have a whole family to make them for it becomes daunting, especially because no one can agree and settle on one choice with enough time to actually accomplish them. I haven’t even tried this year because previous years burnt me out and recipients weren’t happy with them when I did finish them.

Laying on a sunny beach is fun, but riding in a boat is even more fun. I’ve been on boats about a dozen times in my life. There was family day for a Coast Guard visit- full Cutter experience, 2 big sail-boat rides, going into the submarine at Navy Pier, visiting the boat in Boston harbor twice (kid + 2019), and I can remember 3 pontoon rental/rides (one of which was gifted by a good friend)…. There’s been 4 canoe trips with school & girl-scouts, and a couple paddle boat rides at Gaea. I could definitely use more boating in my life.

I like spelunking too. Mammoth caves were way cool, but even the tiny Maquoketa Caves in Iowa were fun too. I like the slimy interesting shapes and squeezing through a little gap into a big cavern.

Horse rides are awesome, I love horses. Again I only have a small handful of those experiences. The trip to Mount Rushmore was one. There was once with girl-scouts. There was a family vacation in highschool. And there have been 4 horse and buggy rides with Nathan (and family).

Camping is great fun, and I’m even taking about tent camping. See my family growing up wanted the camper and the amenities, but everything was always stressful, set-up, tear-down, and trying to fit 4 or 5 large people in a tiny space. Lots of yelling and cursing and people wandering off to find their space. As an adult I made friends with tents via Nathan and Gaea, and though set-up was still a little stressful, it was always much shorter and there was way less stress in the experience, an hour of decompression was all that was ever needed to find peace and contentment. But we haven’t been camping at Gaea since before Anya’s mom died and Ian was born (same summer).

I love sitting around a fire, but add drummers and Meade and it’s even better.

Festivals of any kind are usually fun, but I especially love festivals where some rules are left behind (Gaea, RenFaire or similar).

I love live music of any kind. I’ve seen James Galway, Paul McCartney with the U of I marching band, orchestral performances, quartets, quintets, piano recitals, heavy metal, Hypnogaja, America, Kansas, Dropkick Murphys, Kongos, and several other popular bands in large outdoor settings like City festivals, plus who knows how many cover bands. I like all music, and especially live.

I like playgrounds that are shady, it was fun when I was a kid and it still is when I go with my kids. There’s nothing like butt burn from a slide with no shade, yuck! But I’ll slide all day long if it’s shady.

Halloween was great fun up until a year or two ago. Last year Covid killed it, and the year before cranky kids did. But I really really love all things Halloween.

I like gardens, big small, Arboretums, all sizes. Flowers are beautiful, and going to big gardens I usually associate with vacations, in fact I haven’t even been able to see all the ones here in KC. It’s my thing, but my husband and kids don’t like them.

I miss Ren Faire. Here in KC pre-covid it was amazing. We could spend a whole day there and not see everything. And the biggest challenge was only spending what was planned! I always wanted to buy everything.

May you have good things to focus on and which help you find your inner voice. May you find ways to do those things you love that stays kind to your budget. May you know those around you support you in finding fun. May you feel like you have plenty of rest even when maximizing fun time. May you enjoy life mostly.

Om Shanti

Picking myself up.

Quite frankly yesterday and part of this week in general has sucked. I need to refocus on myself, because obviously I lost that in the mess of the week of my experience. However, that being said I had a good running streak prior to this week where I had maintained my buoyancy for quite a while prior, August 5th/6th being my last negative slump. That’s doing pretty damn good if you ask me.

So to refocus:

I’m healing myself, and helping my husband find/meet his needs, while I work full time helping others find their own alignment and healing.

I am supporting myself, while I support 3 kids, and my husband on dialysis, and my clients with all their various needs.

I am flowing money abundantly enough to keep bills paid and occasionally treat my family to something fun.

I am working and learning and growing, all at the same time.

I take care of myself enough to keep doing all of it, even in the face of adversity. I take the time I need for rest and recuperation and even occasional fun.

I am managing stress enough to keep my health and wits about me most of the time.

I am mostly kind and caring to those around me and loose my temper less and less often, and even when I do (like last night) it’s now just harsh words. I am controlling myself better and better.

I am doing all the things that I need to do to become the best me, it’s a process and I am being kind and forgiving of myself in my lapses. My humanity is not something to frown upon.

There’s more, but I need to get the teen to her friends in Parkville for Parkville Days to make up for last night.

May you find a good refocus moment and find ample ways to pick yourself back up. May you have generally good days mostly. May you easily control yourself when the negatives take over your experience. May you find your way back to your source frequently. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti