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Live or Give In.

Sadhguru has been telling people for a long time to do what you love, that it is vital to life. Others have echoed that in different words, and Abraham Hicks’ entire message is essentially that.

Today I had the sense of that dark destructive force trying to drown me, and I was finally able to pull up by focusing on the fact that I was helping people, so much so that I had yet another referral on my table.

I got a clear picture that having slipped into thoughts of unwanted was literally draining my life force. Focusing on my accomplishment enabled me to draw my lifeforce back. It was the gate to giving myself energy to keep going, then I was able to focus on feeling better and more healing.

I went through a moment of anger over the darkness and how dare it do that, but ultimately that is still giving some of my power away- more letting it be taken from me.

I then thought of several in my life struggling to live. Some of them are going through very difficult challenges and have slipped so far that they are physically incapable of doing things they love. Others are doing their best to keep going.

I had a keen sense that if they have already lost the ability to do things they enjoy and love, then it would be easier on them to just give in and let go. It would starve the darkness of their input.

But those of us that can still participate and do things we love, must step up our game.

We almost have to exhaust ourselves doing all the things we enjoy to get through this time period. We are in the middle of a massive shift and the divine is doing it’s best to ensure those of us that live have something to live for. But we have to be equally invested in that change to make it through.

Doing things you enjoy and love, helps life force flow through your body. That life force will not just keep you living, it will also heal you from everything, given a proper chance. It is literally vital to keep reaching and doing everything that brings you positive feelings. If you don’t reach for better enough, IT will eventually drag you under.

I know that I personally want to live, so my focus is renewed and I will simply refuse to keep doing anything that drags me down. I am determined to heal myself and my family.

As for those that have already passed the point of no return, and you can’t participate and do things anymore, I’m sorry. I know it is scary because I’m fighting myself, my husband is fighting too. But if you know you’ve already lost the battle, then at least be kind enough to yourself to let go completely. It will ease your experience and help God to starve the darkness.

Just let go.

May you know for certain which side of the fence you are on. May you be able to reach for better either way. May you have reasons to live and participate in life and may you find all of them extremely revitalizing. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Give each other credit.

None of us give each other enough credit.

From the office manager of 30 years, to the new chiropractor, and the massage therapist in between.

From the yogi to the cardinal, bishop, rabbi, or lay-priest.

From the owner/president, to the ceo, to the basic laborer.

From the citizens to the politicians or vice versa.

We all have skills, we all have talents, we all have good qualities, there is something special and unique about everyone.

Yet we rarely take the time to acknowledge that special moment that we all mean to someone. Often because we are too busy worrying about ourselves. Sometimes it is jealousy, feeling lack of being on the receiving end. Sometimes it is doubt in ourselves and our own capabilities. Sometimes we feel unworthy ourselves and have trouble knowing how to say or show appreciation. There are many reasons we find ourselves unable, and often they are self induced, and never mean any hurt to anyone around us.

Perception can be everything and nothing, all at once. It can uplift or drag down, all depending on one’s individual view.

But it’s fixable.

First you must convince yourself that you matter and you are special. Get your own spirits up by seeing just your best parts, and then you can see all the things to be grateful for.

Then the ah-ha moment of appreciating another stirs a desire to give back. Just follow through on that moment.


This tangent was brought to you by being the recipient of a gift today. It helped brighten my day and took a smaller stresser off of my rather large pile right now. I am very grateful for the kindness.

It made me think of the many things weighing heavy on my mind, and how just about every decision I have in front of me seems like it will hurt someone, and that is the last thing I want. I like and/or love all of those people, all for different reasons.

I really appreciate that a woman with 30 years experience has taught me enough of her job to trust me in doing it for her.

I really appreciate that I work with an experienced chiropractor, whom does his best to help everyone he knows, even if it means sacrificing his time.

I really appreciate that the younger chiropractor has lots of experience with musculature, and fitness. He has a broader perspective than many specialists do, and genuinely does his best to educate his clients.

I really appreciate that there are two spectacular acupuncturist’s, and one of whom understands a lot of my Energetic concerns, both in relation to my body and my broader awareness.

My clients too, they all are special, all unique. Some of them I can’t fix, some I only buy them temporary relief, but I always honestly give my best, doing my best to help ease their life a bit.

At my other job, I am appreciative that I can still help even with limited hours to give. I appreciate that people genuinely still care about me even though it’s been almost 2 years since I was full time there. There are so many people that impacted me and they all still come to check on me on occasion. I appreciate the learning experience I had there, and human connections I made there. They are all good people. I am grateful that the mentor figure was able to get promoted, she deserved it and worked hard to get there, I’m glad she reached her goal. I’m also glad that my impact helped the company as a whole. It’s hard to admit that some of my less than spectacular moments helped them to avoid bigger problems, but I hope that some of my best moments helped too. I really did try to give my best.

I don’t know what my near future holds, but if I could do it without hurting anyone ever, that would be my choice. I would rather be able to gift them all something special, because they are all special in my heart.


May you know where you are headed and find it peaceful. May you enjoy your time here on this earth and know it mattered to people. May you see and appreciate the best in everyone. May we all let others know they have a special place in this world. May we all find a way to make more peace and feel more love in this world. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

*The picture was taken by my 6 year old, he loves group selfies. This evening I saw he was adapting my qualities to 6 year old boy format, some for the better, some for cringe factor. I want to be a better person myself, to teach my son and daughter to reach for better, no matter what. I want my efforts to matter enough that they understand why it’s important. I want to make improvement a real tangible reachable possibility that brings good things into their lives.

2nd round

A one hour gap led to my 2nd round of exercise for the day. I started early, with 35min of elliptical before work. Now I walk the park near work. Sunshine and 73° a stark contrast to the subzero temps of the week of my birthday, just 2 weeks ago.

This round I’m not listening to music, no I much prefer the sounds of birds chirping and singing. I would sing myself were it not likely to bother others.

I happily wear my scarf as a shawl, just enough coverage to adjust to the light breeze today. I’m so happy to be without a coat.

Today I have been kicking energetic butt.

I do not need a negative skunk of a divine masculine in any form. The divine masculine of this world has not stopped power, greed, or manipulation of the masses. DM has not produced actual healing for many diseases, and especially considering vaccines have not solved many detrimental diseases. Vaccines pretend to help only those never exposed to begin with, and only for certain chosen diseases, but their toxic chemicals do other damage in the process. And toxic chemicals are everywhere anyway, the DM has not stopped corporate greed ruining our food supply with any one of dozens of toxins.

No, I don’t give one shit about the divine masculine in human form or otherwise, because no form it is taking is doing any good for anyone, and there have been no miracles from God in large scale way.

Divine healing looks like miracles. It looks like safe foods and our bodies functioning properly, without more toxic ‘interventions’.

Divine healing is like this sunny day, living life the way it was intended, out in the open with smiles on faces. Divine healing is joy and enjoyment of many activities. Divine healing is businesses functioning and flourishing because they are genuinely helping people (not scaring the shit out of everyone). Divine is goodness in all forms.

This masculine bullshit we have been cowering from is just that- bullshit.

I embrace my feminine, that brings me joy. That has gotten me closer to healing than anyhing that any masculine has said or done. I embrace my inner being because that feels good, that feels like joy.

And my husband, he’s doing the same. I know inside my husband is a healed, radiant, smart, kind being, and I look forward to that showing more again. My husband is intelligent and we both have been doing everything in our power to heal. We both have been putting in more focus and more effort, than anyone wants to acknowledge. The fact that we are doing so much, and still coming up short, is because of all the damage that decades of rampant toxic masculinity enabled.

Toxic masculinity has ruined humanity and left us all zombies. Real zombies are the hordes cowering in fear. Real zombies are the hordes bickering with each other over problems instead of joining forces to find real lasting solutions. Real zombies are all the people giving their power away to greedy corporations because they say this injection will stop the disease. Real zombies are those that vote for the rich guy because he’s not a career politician forgetting he padded his own pockets in the process, but can’t see that the young politicians have people’s genuine concerns at heart because they signed up to try and fix the system.

If you can’t employ your brain to reach for better, see the fallacy of anything, and aim for solutions, then you are already a zombie.


As for me, I’m reaching for better.

I remind myself and my family regularly:

Mind your own self first.

Reach for better and focus on something that feels good.

If you can’t find a solution, then find a way to let go of it so someone else can.

If you’re not living life normally, then you’re not living, and you might as well let go of life itself.

Treat yourself with respect, dignity, and love. If you know that you are doing everything you can correctly, then you have to know that you are doing your best and the rest is up to the actual divine.

Love yourself and give yourself what you need, no matter what that is.


I used my walk and this post to let go of what was bothering me. I used my walk to find appreciation. I am focusing on what I need to feel better. I am honoring my divine self and reaching for better and believing that no matter what, everything is okay.

May you find a way to let go and reach for better. May you see solutions or at least release the need to fight over anything. May you show yourself much needed kindness. May you find things to experience joy and learn to truly live again. May we all see that everything is okay and the divine loves and supports us in all that we aim to do for a greater good. May humanity find peace and living again.

Om Shanti